I was 2nd year. My life was great. I had friends, parents, i was working at a cafe...

It was raining on Monday evening, I was in the cafe as usual and suddenly my phone started buzzing. My dad was calling me. he never called me this late before. I had a strange feeling. I picked up a phone and i knew something bad happened when I heard some unknown womans’ voice. She told me that I had lost my parents.

I started laughing but the laughter suddenly turned into tears, I didn’t know what was i doing, I left the cafe and went to the place where the woman told me to go, I left the cafe open, although there was one frequent client and friend of the owner, he helped me ....

It was raining all the time before my parents' funeral and on the day of the funeral a bright sun came out, but I couldn’t stop there, something was killing me from inside, my heart was so sore I was taken to the hospital.

The doctor said that I was so weak from nervousness that I could’t return to normal. I couldn’t get tired anymore so I only worked 2 hours a day and because I studied well at university everything was free including learning.

Almost a year had passed since the death of my parents. slowly everything was falling back into place, but deep inside my heart, I was always missing something, I felt an emptiness, but who would have thought that this emptiness would be filled soon ...

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I went to the lecture after my shift as always. i felt something special was going to happen and it even happened...

a new student ...

however, my expectations were changed by his personality, he was an overly cold and rude alpha. Just because he was an Alpha, he was watching all omegas from above, including me. his attitude turned me against him, but we had to see each other every day because the lecturer chose four person including us to do the project together.

Slowly my heart started pounding involuntarily at the sight of him, I blamed all this on my weakness and thought I was tired. My pride was so great, I didn’t admit that I fell in love with him.

Yet how could a weak omegas’ heart endure so much?

One day I gathered all my strength, kicked my pride back and I told him everything, l told him about the way the sight of him was making my heart pound like crazy, the way he made me feel and how in love i was with him, I told him everything... and i regretted it... He listened to me until the end and at the end he laughed at me and said, "Are you kidding me? Do you think a feeble omega like you will ever catch my eye? From now on, act as if you don’t know me"

I could feel his gaze on me filled with a disgust, I couldn’t dare to raise my head, but at the end I gathered my strength and looked at him with a smile, I was fighting the urge to cry, suddenly i saw the way his gaze changed and when he looked at me, he looked heartbroken, as if he realized he did something terrible and he was regretting it.

I told him that I did not expect anything else from him and left with a smile, he stayed there again with such a look. I went home crying and i didn’t go to lectures for a week. Friends told me that he was always looking for me and was constantly asking about me. When I regained my strength and came back to the lectures, I acted exactly as he told me as if I didn’t know him. He tried to talk to me every time he saw me, but I was avoiding him because i didn't wanted to get more heartbroken.

Two weeks passed and the situation was still the same as before, I didn’t want to talk to him, but after the lectures someone grabbed my hand tightly and angrily took me away. It was him. He stopped near a wall, "I'm sorry", he was holding my hand so tightly that I couldn’t go. He apologized but I didn’t say anything, he kneel down and started crying, he told me that he loved me and begged me to forgive him for everything he has said.

“Forgive you?" Why should I forgive you when I no longer have feelings for you?” I told him and left, he didn’t move, I stood behind the building and watched him, an hour passed but he didn’t move, not even once. Of course I forgave him deep inside my heart and I loved him so much that it was hard to pretend that i no longer had feelings for him...

I finally went home, but I couldn’t stop thinking about his words. It started raining after several hours, I felt he would be still standing there and I ran out with an umbrella, I saw him on his knees, he was in a same position as I left him. I couldn’t hold back, I went and hugged him and told him I forgave him and that I still loved him. He looked at me, smiled and collapsed. It was as if he was saving the last minutes of his life to hear those words, of course he was still alive, he just had a high fever. I took him to the hospital and then at my house after a few procedures. I sat on the bed in front of him, i was looking at him, and i fell asleep without realizing it.

I woke up in the bed the next morning but he wasn’t there, I suddenly thought he left me and got scared, I got up and saw him in the kitchen, I ran happily and hugged him he looked at me surprised and hugged me back, then he asked me if we already were together I blushed and I didn’t knew how to respond... He smiled again and kissed me, "We’re together" he said and hugged me tighter.

One year has passed since we were together (we even moved into one house together) and we also graduated from university. My body was so weak that I never had a heat before, the doctor told us that I could have it soon and 2 months later i had it for the first time ever...

My weak body had a hard time coping with everything and I had to go to the hospital. After I got discharged and went to the home I suddenly wanted to eat my favorite food. He went into the kitchen and started cooking it, the smell of the food made me feel nauseous and i went to the bathroom, I thought it was due to fatigue but I couldn’t get out of bed and eat a food.

He was very concerned so he took me to the hospital again. I blamed my weak body that’s always causing me problems, however the doctor said I was already 2 weeks pregnant. I was so happy and I looked at him, he was also happy but there was fear in his eyes, he knew that it would be difficult for my body to give a birth to the baby, the doctor told us exact same thing, but I refused to abort the baby so I ran out of the room, and hid behind a wall...

He approached me in a few minutes, hugged me from behind and said, "If something happens to you, how am i supposed to continue living without you by my side?" I realized that he was very scared to lose me, but how could I kill our little baby, so I promised that both I and the baby would be fine...

Again due to my weak body I had to spend the whole pregnancy lying down in a bad, he even took a break from his company to take a care of me. Nine months passed very slowly, it felt as if it was never going to end...

One day my stomach suddenly started hurting and we both knew it was the time. Somehow at that moment my weakness disappeared somewhere and a little beautiful boy was born, I even heard his crying and I held him in my arms for the first second, he couldn’t be happier as soon as he saw the baby, I laughed and I was very happy, I felt how the emptiness caused by my parents loss fully got filled and I was happy again .

We named our little baby boy ,,Wuwu”. I wanted to call him such a lovely name as he was himself. Blue eyed boy... Everyone was surprised that he had blue eyes but I was happy because I thought he looked like my parents.

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- You haven’t mentioned his name in this whole story, but you told us your kids’ name. Why is that so?

-why? The reason is that he is mine and mine alone...

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We celebrated our little boy's first birthday together, we thought we were the happiest family...

Time passed, Wuwu was growing up and we were still such a happy family.

One day Wuwu's stomach started aching, we called the doctor, and she told us to buy medications. He told me he would go alone. It was raining outside like that day... the day i lost my parents... Two hours passed and he didn’t come back, I was nervous, I was calling him and he didn’t answer me. A few hours passed and I was worried sick, the phone rang, I was happy cuz I thought it was him, but it turned out to be an unknown number.

I answered the phone and an unknown man told me that I lost my other half, the person who made my life worth living, the person who made me fall in love with life again... (I don’t know the person who called me that night I’ve never seen his face but I still hate him with my whole heart.) I heard what happened and i was filled with a thousand different emotions I felt everything at once. It felt like my whole world fell apart and I ran when I got far away from home I realized I had left Wuwu home alone but I wasn’t going to go back, I called the babysitter and told her to come, I kept running I didn’t knew where was i going I run where the road took me. I run until i had no more strength left.

I stopped at the bridge and thought maybe I should’ve just joined him i was about to jump off the bridge and suddenly I heard a voice from behind ,,and you’re going to leave Wuwu just like that?" I looked back and there was no one, but i knew for sure that i heard his voice. How could I mistaken his voice for someone else’s after all. Suddenly I remembered my little Wuwu with dark blue eyes and little soft hands. I realized that I was only thinking about myself and I was acting selfishly because a minute ago i was about to end it all and leave my baby boy behind.

I went home running and saw a crying Wuwu on the floor, as soon as he saw me he walked towards me, the babysitter came as soon as I picked up Wuwu. I left him with a babysitter and went where he was waiting for me.

I entered the building and saw how he was lying. His faded face was covered with blood. I approached him and grabbed his cold hand and I remembered everything, all the memories with him flew back to me how those hands were petting my head, how those hands were hugging me the way those hands fed me and took care of me. His lifeless eyes were looking at me. The eyes those once looked at me as if i was the whole world to them were looking at me again but this time, they were just empty eyes without any emotions in them... When he died a part of me died as well. It hurted a lot. it was a different kind of pain. A raw itchy pain, that seeps deep into my soul, the one that leaves me hollowed inside. Now i go to sleep every night to silence my pain, yet he’s there too, holding me in my dreams. I still hear his voice sometimes or feeling his presence multiple times a day. It’s like as if his ghost is here, not leaving my side and waiting for me to join him.

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- 10 years have passed since that day. all these years and I am still not able to go near the area he died. My legs still trembles as I go near that road. I am very sure I won't be able to ever go back. and I still can’t understand why he left me so careless, he promised that he would grow old with me, we were talking about the future and it’s finally here but he’s not... perhaps it’s the greatest grief, after all, to be left on earth when other half of you is gone...

- You loved him that much?

- Are you surprised because I tell this story with a smile?

-no, it’s just that...

- There is no need to lie, I’ll answer you <33 I will see him soon and I will scold him for leaving me alone like that :))

-what do you mean?

-it’s just that I don’t have much time left...