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^^^May include inappropriate scenes and strong language^^^

Chapter One

ESCAPE

Dark. It's so dark. When was the last time I saw the sun? Hungry, so hungry, and thirsty to, but I feel sick. I'm cold, why is it so cold. "Please, I'm cold, I'm sorry" it's dark but, I see the smile. I will never forget that smile, even if I wanted to, which I so desperately want to. "cold hun, I can't have you getting sick baby" his scratchy voice creeps over my skin like insect nawing me alive. "I'll have you nice and warm" he inches close enough I could feel his breath on the back of my neck. his clothes smell ooze boozes and cigarette smoke. I wanted to be as far away as possible, but he only came closer and closer. "I'm w-warm now" I manage to stutter the words "aw baby, I can warm your insides to" his hand inched down my side, and up my skirt. My body trembling, with fear of what was about to happen... again. I knew I couldn't stop it, but I don't want to just let it happen. Like every time before, I plucked the courage out of me "n-no. please" I mutter "I'm wa-warm enough" I attempt to push away "you bitch" he slaps me across the face, pinning my arms above my head. "you never accept me" forcing my legs apart, he unzips his pants. "pl-please don't" my eyes well up "please I- I don- don't wa- ahhhh~" he thrusts, and pins me harder. "no~ don't" what little strength I had left, leaves me powerless "stop~" "see you did want me, just as much as I want you" he forces a lusting kiss, but as much as I wanted to break free, I had no strength, no power to stop him from taking what he wanted.

When I woke up, he was gone. "I passed out again" I mumble glancing at a little spark. "what?" the lock wasn't latched right. inching closer to the fenced cage gate, I barely picked my body up. Pushing the door open, I took to my blistered feet, like a cheetah after it's prey. I ran. and kept running. Not looking back, even as I heard the shout "get back here" as his scratchy voice faded, one last thing I heard from him "remember me baby" a phrase he would repeat constantly throughout the nights and periodically through the days. a phrase he tempted to drill in my thoughts, and as much as I don't want to admit it, I'll remember it. for the rest of my life.

through the trees I brushed against, scraps, scratches, cuts, and stabs, I'll push through, over rocks and sticks, through trees and ash, against this wilderness or against a beast, I'll choose wilderness any day. days were long, nights even longer. I avoided sleep, afraid it was all a dream, and I'll wake once more in that cage, like all the times before. But, my body was against me as the fourth day past by, my consciousness slipped out of my grasp, as my vision blurred and blackened, the last thing I heard was a thud.

Chapter Two

Hospital

My eyes open to see a man standing over me. "NO, IM SORRY" I shout blocking my face with my arms in an X shape "I- I won't run, I'm sorry" the tears I thought had all dried up wouldn't stop pouring out. to think, I would be brought back once I collapsed. how- how long have I been out? I pushed the train of thought I had aside as I noticed it was silent "ah lady, Im just here to change your IV bag" the man frowns, as he reaches over me "NO!" I don't know this man, but that didn't change anything before "what is going on here" a different man with a husked tone walks in "the lady won't let me change her-" "I'll take it from here Brent" the man replaces "listen Madam, I know you're in shock right now" his tone is slow and calm "but we must change the IV bag, you'll still very much deprived of fluids" he holds his hand out to me, confused I pull away "do- don't touch me" "ma'am, I promise we won't touch you, we only need the bag beside you" pointing, I follow his finger. "hospital? I'm in... a hospital" the tears once again make their way down my cheeks. "WHAT?!" the doctor steps back "miss, please calm down" he attempts to ease. "I- I really not back there" I weep looking back at the doctor "is.. is this real" I try to stand, but my feet buckle beneath me "miss you were very badly injured when you were found." concern apparent upon the doctor's expression, but as much as I wish to take this calmly, my chest begins to squeeze. Clenching onto my heart, my sight again takes a dark view, as everything spins and blackens.

As if on an infinitive loop, I open my eyes to see a man standing over me. but this time, I take a deep breath in, smelling the saline and clean oxygen. "I smell smoke" the man startled asks "what?" he begins sniffing himself "I thought I sprayed enough" "it's not you" I turn away "I'm just hyper sensitive to the smell" trembling from the memory, I clench my hand closed "I.. sorry, you must not have fond memories of the smell" I look to face him "they're not particularly good ones, no" but at least he doesn't smell of booze.. that's the only reason I can bare the smell "if he smelled of boozed to I would loss my mind again" I mutter, noticing I spoke out loud, he founds "I'll try not to smoke before checking on you" confused, my expression gives me away "I'll be placed to look over you, beginning this morning" he explains, with a comforting smile "you've been comatose for two weeks now" he frowns "so take it easy, please"

he left me to my thoughts. I still am not sure if being alone is best for me. I'm left with memories of only that place. but being near people still leaves me on edge. "will I ever belong anywhere anymore" "of course" a voice peers into the room from the doorway "hello, I'm the nurse who'll be watching over you this evening" she nods nearing the white board on the wall "I thought.. I thought it was a guy" I mumble avoiding eye contact "he's gone home, he said he was in a hur-" "hey you .. I was as fast as possible-" the girl nurse and the guy from before pause as they stare at each other "want? ARE YOU DOING" the girl shouted, smacking the guy as he winced. in awe I gawk at the two as she keeps hitting him "a- you can.. hit back" without fail my eyes well up. "huh?!" the guy panics "look what you did Mara" "me? what bout you Harvey" Mara smacks him again "get out" mara points to the door, sternly he kicks him out "wait.. I wanted to say by-" and the door shut completely. "sorry bout him" mara sighs "I'm mara, if you didn't hear before" she tilts her head slightly "and you are?" she waits. "Im.." I pause "my name is..."

Chapter 3

Name?

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

Thoughts if self degrading and Self harm

As the thought of my name crossed my mind, I realized "I forgot" I slip aloud. Noticing my mistake, I glance towards the lady in a hurry. just to see, her eyes teary and sad "w- what happened to you" she asks wiping her cheeks as she turns away "ahem" she clears her throat "that was impolite of me" she turns to face me again, this time her eyes void of tears, but overflowing with pity. "just write whatever" I look away, my disgust for that look overwhelmed my tone, as I brushed her off "I'm tired, can you leave me alone" unable to look at her I stay looking out the closed blinds of the window. "... yeah" she states shutting the door behind her. "disgusting" I mutter "I'm disgusting so don't give me that look" my skin crawls at the mere memory of that place.

Moments of being in a setting of self pity, I notice the tray that nurse forgot to take. Staring at the empty used needle they used to inject a calming sedative in my IV, "what can I do with that" my thought slips seconds before the door clicks open again. looking away abruptly "I said I want to be alone" I snap "oh you did" hearing the hesitant tone I look back "I thought you left" I state blatantly annoyed "What happened" he steps in closing the door behind him "did Mara do something" he inches closer "No, I just wanna be left alone" I sigh clenching the thin hospital blanket "is that such a problem. as my eyes squeeze shut from the overwhelming anger and disgust that fills me, he suddenly clasps my hand "calm do-" "NO I- IM SORRY" I tremble "i I wont do it a again" my voice cracking, as he steps back. flashes of that place that man currupt my reality "don't.. I'm warm... please. I... I don't want to... " snapping the IV off my arm as my body begins to flail and struggle from the man in the memory. I unknowingly begin to seize.

...OUTSIDER POV...

"OH DAMNIT!" Harvey shouts "CAN I GET SOME HELP IN HERE" He rushes "Code blue on JANE DOE" He repeats "code blue on JANE DOE" he flattens the bed, attempting to listen to the nurse from before Mara, listing off her vitals, "CLEAR" he exclaims. but no change "CLEAR" but again no change "don't do this, you gotta live" he mutters recharging the paddles "CLEAR" beep deep beep deep "Vitals stabilizing" Mara states glancing back at Harvey.

storming out of the room, JANE DOE was just stabilized "what the happened Mara" Harvey questions as he approaches her "what? you're the one who was with the patient" she scoffs, as she views another patient's charts "I'm talking about when you kicked me out" he leans on the edge of the counter. "nothing, I asked her her name" she sets the chart down "she didn't remember" mara blabbers on "I didn't expect that answer and I asked what happened" she snickers "and yea I might have gotten emotional a bit but I'm okay no-" SLAM!!! Startled mara looks Harvey in the eye "what's the de-" his expression, his demeanor, all obviously omitting anger "why the hell would you ask her her name" he questions "she was comatose and had no iden-" "she was found in the woods in rags and covered from head to toe with injuries passed out" he continues "probably held captive, you think a name is her top concern" he slams the counter, storming off. "I-" Mara's eyes well up "I didn't know" she excuses "i- I'm sorry" she reaches "don't apologize to me" Harvey echoes "don't apologize at all" his expression full of disgust and distain. "it'll only make you feel better" he enters back into the patient room, that's occupied by JANE DOE. shutting the door quietly behind him. he leaves the entirety of the hospital staff utterly speechless.