My name is Razien Blue Monteverde.

Im 17yrs old fan girl of 방 탄 소 년 단 (BTS)

They’re my happiness.....

I came from a wealthy family

My dad is a businessman while my mom is a fashion designer and they’re always out of the country.

As always.....

They dont have time for me,nethier no time for a family bonding.😔😔

“Miss Zien , Cylem is here”said by my yaya.(Nanny)

My eyes widened when I remember something.owww sh**t!!

“Deymm !!!Uhmm please tell him to wait yaya ,!!”

“Okey Ija”

Weewwwwww how come I forgot our date?

Yes I already have a boyfriend,Cylem Lopez,18 years old.

I rush to the bathroom to take a bath....

After 100000000years kidding after a mins.Im finally finished .Im wearing a black sleeveless dress 👗.And a dolly shoes.

Godd I hope he wont get angry with me for forgetting.

Before I go downstairs .

I look at the frames on the wall.

A portrait of seven gorgeous men,

It feels like they’re all smiling for me.

They’re the only kpop group I stan.

“Mahal ko kayong lahat❣️”(I love you all)

I smiled before I shut the door.

“Where’s Cylem,Did he leave already??”

I ask confusedly .He’s not here.

“No maam ,he is waiting for you at the back garden.He said he want some fresh air “-Yaya.

“Ah okey.Thanks!”

I run to the backyard.

And their he is with his serious look.

Goshhh .He is so scaryy.

“What is taking you so long?”he asked seriously.

“Didn’t we planned these already? Exactly 8Am!!But its already 10:26Am.”

He added.

“Sorry na okey??I didnt sleep early last night so I woke up late,sorry na babe!!”

I even gave him a puppy eyes.🥺

“Pshhhhh And why?”

“Ahh I watched BTS live concert”

He suddenly grabbed my hand and dragged me outside our mansion.

“Yahhhhh!! why are you pulling me??”

Whats with him this time??

“So because of them?Wake up Zien !!Youre just wasting your time watching those aliens👽!!”

“Aiszsuushshhh are you jealous ??Cy they’re only my Idols Im just supporting them as a fan!”

I explained so that he’ll understand.

“idol?Fan?Im your boyfriend soon to be your fiancée ,but you always act that they’re your husbands!”

Tskkkk jealous guy

He is funny.

“C’mon dont be jealous!You are my boyfriend of course and I Love You more than them “

I thought that he is going to understand me but Im wrong.

“Every where in your room ,that BTS is always there!Posters!T-shirts !Bag!Albums! But I haven’t seen any of your family pictures hanging on your wall!!

Every time that we’re together I felt like I don’t exist. Even your post on Facebook ,Instagram,Twitter they’re are always mentioned.But to them,a girl named Razien Blue Monteverde doesn’t exist!Am I right Zien?They’re making you crazy!!”

I stand there like a statue ,I cant move.

He is right for that,———But actually he is wrong.Very wrong——-

“Can’t you understand?Im their fan !

What kind of fan Am I if I dont have any posters of them??

Owww I forgot You only admire yourself!You dont know what’s the feeling of admiring someone!”

He is getting into my nerves,

Deyyymmm(D*mn)

“Its just its too much!They’re ruining your life do you know that?”

“No!! Youre wrong man!They are my happy pill 💊 .They are one of those persons who makes me happy even though I havent meet them!You don’t know them!Nor you also dont know me that muchhh so back off”

“See ?Im right !You love them very much!The heck! “

Why can’t he just support me?

Is it wrong to idolize someone?

“N0!I LOVE YOU MORE!!You’re just too blind to see it!You’re to ignorant!

You don’t know how to understand!!”

My tears are slowly escaping from my eyes ,I can’t hold them back..Ano ba ito?(What is this?)

Yeah I know that he is right that BTS doesn’t know me,Cause they only knew me as an ARMY😢😢

Yes BTS is making crazy, ehhhh I just can’t stop admiring their talents .

I wiped my tears off.And face him.

“Even though Im like this!I didn’t ignore you!If I haven’t known them maybe I’ve already given up!”