Pam sat in her room, thinking of all the things that had happened recently. That gorgeous guy, just 4 years older than her, whom her sister had brought into her life. she thought about the way he made her feel and how her body was doing, what she thought of as, stupid things. Life at 14 wasn't easy.

Pam grew up, with a mother and father, who were entirely swallowed by their beliefs. the can'toy belief was a strong and powerful thing. the constant sacrifice and worship of the can'toy was all consuming as well as the boundaries the belief had. Pam's parents would have all the say in whom she would be sharing her life with. They would be the masters of what she would do, who she would know and when she would become a mother herself. so Pam was unaware of all the things that were in the world outside of home. she had no friends. she had no one, except her older sister Crissa, and Crissa had been sick of her for a few years, but had now started to like being around Pam again. But of course, Pam's sister had broken the boundaries of the can'toy, without their parents realising.

Pam was very confused. Crissa had told her all these things about the world outside home. a world where people made up their own minds! made their own choices! it was incredible! if it was true....

Pam was scared. some things she saw, confirmed her sisters tales... yet, her parents had taught her different!? they wouldn't lie would they?

the burning skies and the smoldering ground, was all that was for those who didn't believe the can'toy. Pam feared for her sister. Crissa was living on the edge of can'toy. well that was, if she hadn't gone all the way off, Pam supposed.

Crissa had introduced Pam to her secret boyfriend, Dave, and his best friend, Hassi.

Hassi had bowed and taken Pam's hand and he... he kissed it! Pam had withdraw herself immediately! this was not allowed! she only looked at the ground, expecting the ringing bells of can'toy and the ground to open underneath them, as her parents had told her it would if she stepped outside of can'toy.

But no bells rang and the ground was still. could it be, there was no punishment because of that incident? or would it come later? Pam didn't know. she realized, her body was behaving in a way she never experienced before. she had sweaty palms, she felt sort of nervous, but not in a way she ever did before. she could feel a creeping sensation in the small lumps on her chest and a tingling sensation between her legs. was this a punishment from the can'toy? she felt nauseous at the thought and worshipping in her mind, with all her might, she begged for those sensations to go away!

Pam was confused and scared.

she was just a girl.