My NO Girl

 I fell in love, the

moment I laid my eyes on her. Even after 5 years, we eat together, eat together,

sleep together but she still says no to love

 I don’t believe in love,

it’s just a distraction. But I want what I like, and I don’t share what I like…

with no and literally no one.

 Alen: Ruvi let's get

married…

(Hopes she agrees time, this is my 10,586 proposing her….)

(Please say yes (hope.. please please)

Ruvi: Ehhee.. 😑😐(Again….even I feel bad for him…🙁 but)

Ruvi: No.😖

Alen: Again ( Disappointed)😣😩

Alen

She is my girl for the last 3 years. I mean we

work together, eat together, go out together, live together, even sleep

together.😣😣

But… every time I propose to her the answer is the same.😣😞

It has been 5 years.  I thought things will change. But they are still

as if they were 5 years back.

 Yeah 5 years ago…

when I first met her.

 On 26th June,

one of the worst day, yet the best day of my life. I broke up with my girlfriend, lost my job for which I had been

working for the last 4ys just when I was hoping for my promotion, and now Casper

ran away with neighbor Lassy. By the way is my Dog, who was with me from last

2 yrs.

I was tired, but I had to find him,😣 or else I will lose my house too. My landlord adores Lassy.

I can’t go back without them😩

I have to find him.,😫

I sat on a park bench, 😓just engulfed in my thought.

Suddenly I heard someone, I lifted my face and just saw a shadow.

Maybe I was tired?

The sound questioned... “Is this your dog”

There he was my idiot Casper “ just smiling at me, by side was Lissy”🦮🐕‍🦺

He is such a dog😡, I mean a dog, Dog.😡😡

How can he just leave me like this for a girl?🤬😡

Those 2 years count to nothing.🤬🤬

 Bad Dog.😠🐶🐶

I was engulfed in my thought.

Suddenly someone asked. Is this really your dog?

I lifted my head following the voice. Due to sunlight, it

was difficult to see her. and after adjusting my vision to light😶🙃

There she was. The most beautiful girl I have ever seen.💞💖❤

I nodded in yes.

She replied. “OK”

I thanked her and asked where did she found him and how did she knows that it was my dog.

She replied “can you please calm down with your question, actually, I usually come to this park and have you play with him, that way I remembered”

She asked” usually you come on Sunday on Saturdays, how come you are here today”

I explained how my dog fled with Lizzy, and due to which I am on the verge of being homeless.

She nodded her head… just when she was about to go. I don’t why I stopped her, asked.

Can you just, sit for five minutes?...

(My eyes glued to her, 🥺😳today was really tiring.  just want to talk to someone, someone unknown.

I know it sounds creepy but that I want to)

…..

…..

Hmm… Ee 😖  h   😣OK😟😶🙂

Ruvi

I just couldn’t ignore those puppy eyes🥺🥺

Eyes glued to me like, I mean the whole world to him, like

my simple gesture or a single word can change his whole world what else a girls

could ask for, besides he seemed to be a good guy, I have seen him many times laughing

wholeheartedly, playing with his dog many times on Sunday’s eve.

Yes 5 years ago, when it all started between us.

Since then, many things have changed.

 But one thing remains

the same, our thoughts, most importantly my opinion about love.

 I mean I like him, I want

him but I can’t love him, because this single word can change everything, I mean

everything.

When you like someone, your heart is there with him, you want

to be with him,

 But if you say you

are in love, you have to make sacrifices and adjustment, fake lies, and I am

not ready yet,

 And I will never be ready for that.

5 years ago,🤔🧐

 When we met, we finally

had some conversation. I got to know how mesurable he was since that morning.😑

It was a bad day for him. I was never good with words but I tried to console him.

Suddenly it started to rain.

I asked him for ice cream and potato chips. 😋😋And yes like everyone else gave weird look and asked “ who eats ice cream with potato chips.”😏😃

I laughed and said “whenever my mom used to give me ice

cream, I was too lazy to go for the spoon, so I used to make potato chips from my stash

for the spoon, and eventually, it becomes habit”😁

 After listening I was assured that he couldn’t believe that some can develop such a habit of being lazy.😁

and hare I was thinking, what and where his mind would go if he will really other things about me. 😜🤪

Denying his resistance I took him to my ice cream parlor

and we had some ice cream.

I asked my staff to make one “ Gulaknd Paan Ice cream with

some crispy home-made chips and frozen paan”

After listening to my order he was confused again. I just said him to wait for the suspense.

Offcourse he would not have had this before, but I definitely knew he would love it.

 (Ever since a kid, I was found of the desert, and eventually, it becomes my passion.I opened this ice cream just a few months ago, and to people

liking it running well😊😃)

The order arrived at the  Gulkand pan ice cream placed inside boat-shaped cone, with frozen pan, kept aside, the ice smoke covering the whole platter, and

rose-shaped bucked filled with homemade chips.

He was very doubtful and astonished at the same time. 🧐

He said, he was not fond of sweets.

However, he took a bite.🥴🧐😶

I watched anxiously and excitedly at the same time.😬🙀

He just ate… one bite after another and said nothing…..🤨😶🙇🙇

I was dying inside ( come-on just say something … you are🙇🙇🤷🙀😾

not the god of taste… please say something)😖😣🥺

He ate all, and still nothing yet.😶🤨😬

Is he dumb,😡😠😡

Or he had a brain freeze.😾😡😖

 10 min passed … just ... say something.🤯😵🤨🙇

After 10 min I saw the plate.😶😶🤫🤭

 And I got my answer …..also he seemed happy.😛🙂😊

Much better than, when I met him in the park.😃

After he finished the ice cream, which was meant for two.😜😝😛

We just talked about things.💞👩‍🦱👨‍🦰

He also informed that he is digital marketing by profession and a food blogger.

I could use his help. So I ask him to help me

with the parlor. He was a bit hesitant but agreed.

We took our leave and went our ways after that.

 I actually talked to🤔😶 a stanger, above that I showed him the parlor even offered him work, which 😳

was opposite to my nature.🙄🤔

Alen :

(Wish I hadn’t accepted her request at the time, wish I

hadn’t met her, at the time, but I can’t deny the fact without her existence, things won’t have been the same, beautiful yet complicated.)

Ruvi was waving her hand in front of him.

Alen, Alen wake up…

Suddenly came back from a pool of thought.

Alen: Ruvi…

Let’s Breakup😖😣😦

….🙁

...😐

...😑😑

Ruvi : (is he joking🙄), you already know what I feel about😟

love, can’t things be just normal, as of now.😠😦

Why do you have to complicate everything? See how happy we are…. Then why?😠😣

Alen was quiet for some time.😑😐

After a long pause he said: No, they, we can’t be like this forever, I can’t live with the fear of losing you any time, the more I am involved in this the more I will be a mess later on.

I always fear, that one day you will wake up and say that, you are bored and want to leave.

 No, I can’t bear that …

Let’s Breakup.😟😦😖😤

Ruvi: Alen you are in meek of the moment, we will discuss this later once you calm down.😧😟

Let’s end this topic and have dinner, see I have made your favorite.🙁😗

Alen: no, I should have done this long ago, please try to

understand.😐

I can’t….😐😐

He left, tightening his fist, leaving her hand, watery eyes and deep soul-piercing pain in the heart.

Ruvi could not understand anything, she was dumb stuck with Alen 's stubbornness this time.😓😩😫

She just sat on the floor, with the feeling of warmth, that was despairing, from her hand and leaving cold darkness behind.😩😫😢

She just couldn’t understand this feeling. Tears start

flowing from her eyes.😫😢😭

She felt like just like Alen, the tears are also leaving

her, rolling down her cheeks, with every drop that fell of the ground, as if mocking her and saying that they are better off without her, and this was the reason she heated love.😭😢😫😣

Love makes us weak; it runs on emotions; it can even make you selfish till the time you don’t care about others.😣☹😞

Deep in thoughts, she just crumbled up on the same floor, where the Alen had his last step, where her tear left her eyes,😑

Just trying to gather everything that had to happen.

She looked like a beautiful flower frozen in dense ice.

Alen

 It's over, it finally...everything fell apart… love, hope,😣😖

everything I had with her is over.☹😨

No... No... No... I think this time I was very angry… I think I still have a chance…😧😦

She is Ruvi, though she hasn’t committed, we were happy, we had our small beautiful world...😦🥺

What else do I need?🙃

I have to go before she really gets angry. I ran back and stopped only at her door.

I was heaving very badly. He called her while trying to catch my breath.

R..vi... Ruvi…. but what I saw was that she was laying onvthe floor, in her safe cocoon, crumbled up like a soft cotton ball. I walked towards her, Ruh,… Ruvi… there was no response.🙁😐

Ruvi… Ruh.. get up. Please don’t frighten me up.😠😧

She was unconscious as if her soul has left her body.😟

I couldn't think of anything.  I carried her and placed her in the car seat. I drove towards the hospital, still trying to wake her up.

😠😡

Why there was so much traffic?

Why only today?😟😖😠

Ruvi… you better be, ok? Or I am not going to forgive you. please let her be the happy girl like when I first met her.😑😔

By the time I reach the hospital, the nurse took her into the

emergency ward.

I didn’t know, what to do?😩😩😫

We were so happy just an hour ago, it's all my fault. Why have I been such a J**k?😡😠

God. please let her be ok, I’ll never ask her to marry me.

Please...😔😔

After some time, the doctor came out and said, she will gain consciousness in some time.😌

I was relaxed a bit, she asked me if Ruvi had any earlier trauma.

I said no, she was a very cheerful person.

She just nodded her head and asked to wait, as they need to do some more tests.

I was going to the pharmacy, and I show her pale face lying on bed.🥺🥺

I just hope.. she is fine again.🥺😞😞