His hair, his face, his eyes wandered around the room, eventually meeting mine, I looked down and walked  over to the only unoccupied seat, directly behind him. hearing the bell ring followed by our teacher’s voice I put my head down wanting to fall asleep, suddenly she announced,

“We have a new student, please stand Max.'' lifting my head, and with all eyes now on me, In a faint voice looking down I begin to introduce myself  “My name is Max, I just moved here.” sounding a little annoyed the teacher uttered. “Max, we couldn’t hear you very well, can you please repeat yourself?” I repeated myself but not much louder than then before.

“How about later then.” The teacher exhaled and began to teach the lesson.

After what seemed like forever the class ended, a small group of boys started to walk up to me,

“Hey new kid, you're weird you know that?” this again? This is what I didn't want, I wanted to get away from people like this.

“You shouldn’t go around picking on people you know nothing about, get lost.” The small group of boys said nothing more and walked away, someone actually defended me, but why?

“Don’t just let them bother you like that.” who’s voice is this?, it’s comforting, it sounds close, could it be his voice?

“Okay…” I looked up and locked eyes with the boy from earlier. He looks really good up close, this feeling…..  I haven't felt it in a while, I started getting nervous, “your name is Max, right?” the boy smiled, it was nice, a contagious one, I smiled back and nodded.

“My name is Kai” His name, I know his name. “If they bother you anymore, just tell me okay?” still looking over at me he grabbed his bag and put it over one of his shoulders,

“Okay, I'll let you know,” I quietly muttered.

Kai, I want to know more about him, I want to get closer to him.

The school day soon ended, I found myself  walking behind Kai, far enough where he wouldn’t notice. His house, I need to know what it looks like, his address, I need it. I stopped as I saw him walk up to a house and start to unlock it, once he went in, i checked the address, i know where he lives. I need to know more, I need to know everything.

Him, it’s his fault, if he wasn’t so nice to me I wouldn't be doing any of this. Crazy, I'm not crazy, I don't want to be crazy, I can't help It,  I quickly went home and studied.

I didn’t sleep last night, I found something out about Kai, he likes guys and girls. Maybe I have a chance, the feelings I have for him, I think I love him.

A/n: this chapter was so sort due to it being difficult for me to think and focus, im sorry <3

I see him, I see him walking to school, but who’s next to him? Who is that? Are they just friends? Are they dating?... no, no they can’t be, they aren’t, right? I began to walk faster, eventually I was able to catch up to Kai. My heart was beating, I decided to just walk past and not say anything, I couldn't do it, I couldn't talk to Kai.

“Max?” it’s him, he’s calling my name, I turned around we locked eyes, he’s so perfect.

“Yes?…” I held my left arm with my right hand. My heart won't stop beating.

“Are you okay, you seem like you’re in a rush” his voice is soft, it’s soothing, I want to hear it all the time.

“Yes, I’m okay” he’s too nice, all I can do is fall for him even more. “Would you like to walk with us?” Why is his hand resting on this person’s shoulder, they're friends, they have to be.

“Oh... Are you sure? I don’t want to be a burden.” Of course, I want to, I'm just being polite. I want to set a good image for myself whenever I'm in front of him. “Don’t worry about that, Koda wouldn’t mind anyway” Koda, why does it sound familiar, people can have the same name, but now that I think about it his face looks familiar too.

“I don’t mind at all, Max” why did he say my name like that, I definitely know him from somewhere, maybe he knows me too.

                                      Flashback 3 years ago

“Your love is clearly one-sided, can’t you tell?” So many things ran through my head, I couldn't think straight, nothing made sense to me.

“You’re lying!” Ryo loves me too. Why is he saying such a thing?

“Max, I'm telling you the truth, he likes me and I like him too. He's planning on breaking up with you soon, he never liked you as anything more than a friend. He just felt bad, so he pretended to return your feelings” I tried to hide how I felt, I couldn't help it. I cried, that's all I could do, I love him, he's the only one I want, the only one I will ever want. I said nothing else to Koda, he said nothing else to me. He walked away.

The next day I went to hang out with Ryo as if I knew nothing, all I wanted was to enjoy the time we had before he broke up with me. I knew that once he did, we would never say a word to each other ever again. I knew he would avoid me. He would act as if he never had known me, that’s how Ryo is.

Once he’s done, he pretends as if that thing he did never happened. I’ll no longer be in his life, all the years we had together from elementary to now would soon mean nothing to him, he will throw it all away. I don’t want to ruin our time together, I want to be in his life for as long as I can, even if he doesn’t love me back.

A week has passed, today is the day I won’t be in Ryo’s life anymore. He texted me to meet up with him, so we could talk. He arrived a few minutes after me, I’m fine I’m ready for him to end things.

“Max,” Ryo said, walking up. I felt my heart race faster and faster, I held in tears I told myself I would be okay, but would I really?

“Yes?” happy all I have to do is act happy, pretend you’re happy.

“I want to break up.” I froze, I knew what was coming, I wasn’t ready to hear him say it.

                                           He was my everything.