I was standing under the open sky to feel the warm breeze on my face. It felt nice. The weather was cool and the warm breeze was helping a lot. Didn't realised how long I stayed there when suddenly it got colder. The blue sky I was standing under started getting covered by black clouds. From both sides I can see the clouds running towards me as if going to chase and then kill me. I got scared. I felt chills running down my spine. I knew something bad was gonna happen. But wasn't this just a feeling...and isn't it that I hate these feelings...

I was trying to convince myself that it's just a false feeling when suddenly my phone rang...

A very unknown number popped up

"Hello! who's this?" I asked

"Seems like you forgot me too soon Anne!" the voice whispered.

"..... Jake...?" my voice started shaking.

"Bingo sweetheart... I'm back"

My whole body froze. This time I realised it wasn't any Normal feeling. It was the destruction feeling..

"When did you got back..?" I can feel my voice shaking and betraying me already. It was like I made myself clear I won't let my gaurd down. but here I was. shaking just by hearing.

Jake, my ... my... what is his relationship with me? I always stumbled on explaining who he was. We used to go to same school and used to live in same locality. He was always famous and I on the contrary was someone very shy and silent.

I had this one sided crush on him. He probably knew too. We started going out as friends. I used to enjoy his company a lot. And he used to enjoy the females around him.

I used to get jealous of them sometimes.

Once I decided to confess. I was prepared. it was the last day of exam and I thought of waiting for him.

After handing over the paper, I stood outside under the tree waiting for him to come out. Everyone, except him, came out. I went inside to look for him. I looked everywhere for him. But he was nowhere, until then, I saw two figures lingering over each other, inseperable, immersed in kissing. And there was I, standing and watching the guy I liked and another girl kissing passionately. I felt my cheeks turned warm and hands turned cold. I knew it wasn't something I should have seen. I felt guilty for coming inside. I...I was heartbroken. I knew Jake loved to roam with girls but didn't knew he was involved with anyone. I was thinking all of these when suddenly our eyes met.

He looked at me, horrified. Pushed her away. I thought of running away. But I couldn't.. maybe I wanted an explanation. But then I saw both of them looking at me. The girl gave me an annoyed look. He looked at me in despair. I felt like an utter moron...

That was the time...

I knew then that it was time to let go an unrequited love of all these time.

They saw me.

I'll be a total object of pity in their eyes. He is aware of my feelings, maybe. No. You've to run. Go away ...just run...RUN... the voice inside me cried out loud.

I started moving.

"Anne, .... Anne.." I heard Jake's voice behind me. The kind of sound I wanted to be only mine.

I was crying. I knew I made a full joke of myself. Knowing the fact that he doesn't care about me, I still went after him. I felt so stupid.

"You're such an idiot" I told to myself. I ran..Faster... Faster... my legs started giving up. I fell this time..

I hurted myself. But this pain was nothing compared to what I was feeling inside.... I stopped there. Sat down for like hours. Cried... wept my heart out.

"That's it. I won't make fun of myself anymore.. I'm done with these. I'll now study hard and I'll be successful. Plus Jake's not the only guy. I'll find better. " my inner self shouted.

I got on my feet, pulled my bag and pulled my respect and guts together and headed home.

"I can do it... it'll be fine Anne. you can do it"

I was about to open my door when I heard,

"Hey! Anne..." Jake's voice from the back came.

"It's not what you thought Anne. I was fulfilling her wishes. She wants to be with me..." Jake's explanation did no help. It was rather a very ugly explanation. I got more heated up.

"Jake. it's okay. I don't care about it anymore. You can just leave.

"But Anne... you see things got like this and I know you like me and it wasn't easy seeing me with some...."

"So you knew? You knew how I felt about you"

"Umm... yeah like everyone does know that"

"Oh... so basically it was a fun game for you to play with me? i was just your tiny doll? You were just fucking playing with me?"

"No it's not like that. you're my best friend and you know I like you too but..."

"Get lost"

"Wha...what?"

"I said get lost."

"Oh my god... Anne you're overreacting".

"1…2…I'll count to 5 get lost in the time being"

"ANNE"

"…3…4…"

"GOD YOU'RE SO CHILDISH"

"Don't shout at me .....5. That's it" saying these I entered my house and as soon I closed the door,

I can feel all my anger turned into tears, all my tears were now rolling down. I know it wasn't a betrayal, but was it really not!! I was heartbroken, there was nothing I can do about it. I moved to my bed, lied down, clutched my pillow tightly and let everything flow.

"Cry Anne..cry out loud. This is the last time you'll be crying for that jerk".

I didn't realised how long I slept.

I woke up next day at around 5:30. The sun was shining brightly and the rays were coming inside. My sun catcher made it look beautiful. I felt like this is the time to move on. I have my whole ahead and college will get better.

After that years passed. I got into college, I'm a biology major and I keep myself really busy so that I don't have time to think about my pathetic past. like, isn't it what people do, think and mourn. I didn't wanted to be like that. I started studying too hard in college. Got two part-time jobs. One in library another in a small cafe. The cafe owner is really good to me. She gives me coffee on my exam day. She became like a family to me. And the librarian is good to me too. She is old and lost her husband a few months back. Sometimes I cook for her. Sometimes she cooks for me. I didn't missed my family much because of them.

My life was going properly, or better say normally.

"8:45. Shit... I'm late.... nooooo...." I rushed out of my room as fast as I can. "Damn you're late on your first day of new Sem. f**k." I told myself as I ran into the university corridor to my class...

"....Ma....May... May I come in ?" I staggered to say as I gasped for air.

" This is the first time and I do not expect any second. Get in and after that Don't bother to come from next day if you're going to be late." My professor said without looking at me.

"I'm sorry. " I said as I walked my way to my seat. "God he's so rude." I thought with sheer irritation.

"morning" words broke my train of thoughts.

"Oh morning Dave. it's been long. how're you doing?"

Dave , my junior. He is really a nice and cheerful guy. Actually, too cheerful sometimes. But yeah, everyone likes him, one, he's cool and helpful and second, he's handsome. it'll be a clear lie if I say he's not good looking. He's really good looking.

I have known him for months now.

"How long you plan to be late? This new professor is a real pain. He won't allow anyone to be late nor be bad. He wants everything to be perfect."

"How do you know? "

"He said when you were busy sleeping. remember, you came 10 min late"

"Haha very funny. now I'm going to doze off. tell me when class gets over. I'm really tired Today."

"Kay.."

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"Hey! get up. Heyyyy!"

"Huh.. what! what happened?" I asked as I tried to remember where I was.

You're again the class representative. last semester ones are again." Dave explained.

"But why? " I asked more irritated.

"Because he wants that, now go and report him the class status. I'll see you at lunch. I have class again."

"Oh bye." I bid him farewell as I started moving towards professor's room.

"Prof. of scientific biology" the name plate tagged. I didn't bothered to read the name either.

"Good morning professor. I'm Anne and I'm here to report the status of the class".

"We meet again Miss Sofie. Or should I say, Miss Anne." He said the two names with extra pressure and that made me realise I'm doomed.

Sofie was my family name.

My heart started beating really fast as he turned to look at me.

The smile .... those eyes... That same face.

"Long time no see to-be-wife"

"I... I'm not. And what're you doing here?"

"To teach ofcourse, and maybe to marry you." He said those with extra seduction and each and every hair on my back straightened up. I had major goosebumps.

I looked at him and he was smiling at me.

Where was my life going?"