I fell in love with you since the day I first met you. At first I admit that its your looks that makes me head over heels to you but as the time goes by your personality makes me fall for you deeper and deeper each and every day.

My friends keep telling me that I am crazy and looks like an idiot whenever your around. Sometimes they are teasing me and keep on saying your name loudly for you to hear it and that makes me shy. I gigled and smiled a lot everytime you're near. I admit I am crazy over you but what can I do if you are the cause of my euphoria. My one and only euphoria.

It's my first time to feel this kind of feeling towards a man a man who is not a celebrity. Before I met you, my world revolves around male celebrities especially KPOP idols. You are my first crush, first love and I hope you can be my last love.

A lot of people says that you are cold but for me I can feel that behind that cold personality of yours lies a softhearted person who has the heart to help those in need. A person who doesn't smile outside but laughing inside. A person who looks like he doesn't care but secretly observing and ready to take action when its needed. A person who doesn't speak a lot but his action will tell you all about it.

You are so popular that even the students of other universities know you. You are so popular that many female students have a crush on you including yours truly. I can't blame them cause you are so handsome, intelligent and very responsible student. I think highly of you and so are the others because you are my inspiration and a deserving leader in our school.

But is it wrong to be selfish? Is it wrong to keep you all by myself? Huh! Who am I kidding, I know it's wrong because I dont have the right to be selfish and definitely don't have the right to own you because you don't belong to me. Maybe you don't even know me that I exist.

At first I am satisfied loving you behind your back. Secretly looking at you from a far. But when I saw you cry for the first time I decided to try entering your world. I have done a lot of first times in my life that I dont even think before that I can do it. But as I tried to enter your world I realized that there is so much distance between us. You are so near yet so far.

As I enter your world, I get to know you more and more. And finally that day came when I found out the truth behind your cries and that shattered my whole world.

And this question is what I keep asking within myself since that day: Will I continue this long journey towards you?

It was an unexpected time and date when I first met you. I admit that I notice you and started to be interested in you not because I saw something in you but I saw someone is with you.

It's her, my ex-bestfriend and my first love. I am happy to see her in the same university and at the same time sad because she still ignores me. Maybe she still hates me and blames me for what happened in the past but what can i do if I can't control my feelings towards her anymore and become greedy to wish for the both of us to become more than just a friend.

Everytime I saw you with her. I can't help thinking the old days when I am still her only bestfriend and not you. I keep on comparing the things you do with her with the things we have done together. I am jealous whenever you are with her, I know it is wrong to be jealous with her present bestfriend but I can't help it because I was once her only bestfriend who is at her side during better or worse. And I can't help comparing myself to you because I hate you. I once want you to disappear in her life, for her to return to me and we can do the things we had done together in the past.

As the time goes by, I didn't noticed that by comparing and comparing myself to you and keep on observing you I have known a lot of things about you and I started not to hate you.

One day, I saw you together with her and a man who is I think your classmate. Many things have been running in my mind. Who is that man and why is he always sitting beside her? And the next day, I heard a shocking news that he is her boyfriend. Am I late?

I am questioning myself. Why didn't I notice? How did it happened? And then realization hits me how can I know if I am busy observing you and getting to know you more instead of observing her and knowing her more.

Since that day I started digging information about her and his boyfriend. I never stop until I find informations about her boyfriend.

Then suddenly you become part of the student council. I am distracted at your presence because I don't know if anytime she will visit you at the office.

From the day you started as part of the student council I keep on observing you if you know me because I am hoping that maybe she tells you stories about me. But to my disappointment I can see that you really dont know me.

Because of jealousy I had done an unforgivable sin to you without you knowing it and when the day you will know the things I had done you will hate me for the rest of your life.

As you enter my world, I get to know you more and more. You are a happy go lucky person and you also make the people around you happy. So when I saw you cry for the first time I felt a pain in my heart that keeps me sleepless for how many nights.

And finally that day came when I found out the truth behind your cries and that made me regret all the things I have done to you for the rest of my life.

And this question is what I keep asking within myself since that day: Will I continue my long journey towards her?

~Euphoria

Take my hands now

You are the cause of my Euphoria

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah (Ooh Ooh)

Ah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Euphoria

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Close the door now

When I'm with you, I'm in utopia~

I am having the sweetest moment in my life that Jeon Jungkook of BTS, my golden maknae and my euphoria is singing in front of me his ultimate song Euphoria while staring at me. I am smiling from ear to ear and enjoying the precious moment when someone throw a pillow directly at my face causing me to go back to reality and face the truth that it is just a dream and the song is just my alarm reminding me that it is already 6:00 am and I need to wake up and be ready to go to school. I angrily looked at the devil who throw the pillow at my face and that is no other than my devil cousin.

Cousin: What?! (trying her best not to laugh)

Me: Can't you be nicer! You can just wake me up using your hand you know! (angry tone)

Cousin: You wan't me to use my hand? (pretending she is thinking)...

You want me to slap you in the face using my hand? Hahaha (laughing non-stop)

Me: Whatever you evil monster!!

Cousin: Hahaha you are so funny cousin! If you can just see your reaction a while ago. It's epic. You smile like an idiot. Hahaha

Me: Whatever you say! Just prepare for school. You don't want to be late, don't you? We can't be late for our first day as a college student.

You heard me right. It is our first day in Hope University today. I'm a bit nervous and excited at the same time. New classmate, new teachers and new environment. I hope I can enjoy my 5 years stay in this university. Me and my cousin is staying in an apartment near the school and living independently away from our parents. So we must rely on each other until we graduate.

By the way, I am Marie Lu, 16 years old, and will take the course Bachelor of Science in Accountancy. For now that little introduction will do because you will get to know me more as time goes by.

I am now at the gate of Hope university when someone calls my name. I turn around to see who's calling me and there she is my stunning bestfriend Alexa Go. My bestfriend since 3rd year high school. She was a transfer student at that time. I invited her to have lunch with me because she doesn't have a friend yet since she is a new student. Since that day we became best of friends we have other friends too but she is the closest friend to me. She knows my secrets and I know her secrets too.

Me: Hey Alexa! I miss you!

Alexa: Hahaha I miss you too? It's been what? A decade? A year? (continuously laughing)

Me: You're overreacting again Alexa! It's just a month! Hahaha

Alexa: You can't blame me. It feels like a year since the last time we saw each other. God, I really missed you.

Me: So, how's your vacation?

Alexa: Boring. Nothings fun in staying at home. How about you?

Me: Same with you. I stayed at home during vacation. But it's fun because I have the time to watch my Idol BTS and now that we have a class now I cant watch them everyday. Let's catch up later. We can't be late for the orientation.

We are on our way to the gymnasium where the orientarion will be taking place when someone bump me from behind causing my books to fall on the ground. I immediately pick up my things without looking at the man who bump me. He helps me pick up my books.

Stranger: Sorry miss. Are you alright. (while giving me my books)

Finally I look at the him and at that time I felt that the time suddenly stops at that very moment when our eyes meet.