(write about changes like "making ppl happy" at the end)

Senpai is a Big man with a small brain. A face that screams "Get away from me" but is still a softie for me.

I.... " I mumbled my words, again. I just can't stand and act normal after I got to know my own feelings.

"You Okay?" He asked me. Of course not. Hiding so many emotions in that little head of mine, is not always easy. I hang out with him everyday but still I'm unable to tell him. And Now after so long, his graduation day is around the corner..

I used to be your normal school girl. I was a big overthinker, a person who does everything for a reason and did not perform any unnecessary action. I had a lot of trust issues. I used to test Every person I met. I couldn't be my normal self in front of anyone. Except my best friend. She introduced me to her friend, My senpai, Known as Kagami Harkua.

I tried to test him as well. I told him about my unusual interests and my crackhead behavior. I was surprised he didn't judge me at all. I gave him many examples of how I was always into self interests and was not a good friend at all.

He just didn't seem to care about that at all. He sticked with me all the time.  At first I was annoyed but eventually our relationship smoothened. And then the time came when I realized how I felt about him, After 2 years.

Nothing unnatural. . I checked if he had a crush or any girlfriend. Of course he didn't. He was a boring guy after all. He was a normal boy. He didn't talk to girls much and was a scholar. Girls liked him though. He was a package of sweet, cute and handsome. And I knew he didn't have a partner, because we hung out together, practically everyday.

He was attractive though, It kind of made me insecure.  I doubted myself, 'Why does he hang out with me, he is out of my league...." All the time, thoughts like that hovered around me.  One day, I finally thought that this is high time. After class I decided to tell him. But what I overheard made me happy, sad, angry and confused all at the same time.

''She is like a little sister to me. If I had a little sister, I would love to have her."

"Like a daughter?"

"Yeah like a daughter"

He said to his teammate. His teammate laughed and went away after saying bye. I was devastated. What am I in his eyes? I am just an year younger! and he considers me his daughter? I was kind of happy because I got to know that he cares about me. Like seriously how much more boring can he get?

I was not going to give up. I was desperate. I wanted him and him only. The method doesn't matter.

I thought of how to make him Think of me as a girl and not a daughter or a sister. Yes! That's it! I have to make him think of me as a woman. At that moment I peeked from the gate and saw him organizing his Basketball kit. I went to him normally except, I opened the first three buttons of my shirt.

"SENPAIII" I ran up to him.

"Oh, Hi, Han Chan! How was your day?" He asked with a big smile.

"Fabulous, Senpai" I leaned a little bit forward, to reach his height as he was sitting.

He gave another smile and continued getting ready for leaving the school grounds.

He had not even noticed my unbuttoned buttons. Of course it didn't show anything on my body or cleavage.

He looked so hot. His face had tiny drops of sweat originating from his forehead and continuing till his Adam's apple and then to his collarbone where after the Shirt blocked the drops. I was being a whole pervert and was just staring at his perfect jawline and defined biceps.

I got a grip of myself and then I sat down beside him. I tried to press myself against him, but failed. I still didn't have the courage to be that bold.

"We aren't getting anywhere" I thought.

"Can we walk to home together?" I asked.

"Sure, Han Chan. And you had to tell me your grades too, right? Don't forget." He said and that sent shivers down my spine.

"Senpai, I'm very proud to tell you that I had the top score in my class." I said, standing up. Under his influence even I had improved my grades . After all, whenever we hung out, it was either a library or a museum or just my home, where we studied sand talked about school.

He jumped as well and said, "Finally, you are getting a groove."

I just hummed at that and thought "Why is he not noticing my buttons."

It was as if he read my mind. He looked at me and turned to completely face me giving me full attention.

"Han Chan, Your buttons are undone." With that he bent down. He was 6'3''. obviously, he had to do it. Bending, He hooked my buttons with the hook, all, one by one. His big hands touched my chest through my white shirt, whilst, he buttoned me up. I was beyond pissed at this point. And I was beyond flustered. I didn't know what to think.

My heart was beating fast and loud. I just stood there as he did my buttons. Even though it was for just a mere 40 seconds, it felt like forever.

"Yosh. We are all done." He sighed as he stood back up.

"Senpai..." I prompted.

"Yeah Han Chan?" He replied.

"I like you" I said. I could not hide it anymore, I just straight up said it out loud without any other thought.

"Haha" He laughed.

"I like you too, Han Chan" He laughed and patted me on my head.

I came to my senses and realized what I just said. I gave a big smile and started walking forward.

"Not like that, you know " I thought as walked looking up at the sky.

He must have thought I liked him as a "father" or something. What is this fruit basket shit and why is it happening to me?

Then I spent the whole year, trying to seduce him. Or merely tell him that I'm a girl.

I would invite him to my house and tell him that I liked him, sitting close to him. But he would always laugh it off. I spent more time with him. I went to cafes and helped him whenever he was in need. He Did the same too.

He protected me from local boys who were trying to get with me, even though I didn't need any protection. He was playing real hard as a father.

"Let's have a baby then" I thought. He would be a real father then. I remember when I was at an ice cream stall with him, Some guy was staring at me. And as soon as I reached my pocket to take out the wallet, I gasped as the same guy gripped my Waist and started to caress my stomach.

"Umm excuse me?" I tried to shake him off. Senpai had gone to click pictures of a landscape for me and he returned to see me struggling with him.

I could have thrown that guy away but I saw Senpai rush up to my aid.

He gripped his wrist and said, "Mine"

The guy disappeared in a second. Because of his strong built and height not-so-average, everyone around school was mostly scared of him.

after he left, Senpai said something ridiculous again.

"I was about to say, My daughter but, oh well" He said.

"Are you serious???" I questioned.

"I mean, if he saw that you're with your father, he would certainly go away right?" He said with innocent eyes

"I don't have an actual daughter I'm just 17 afterall!" He rubbed the back of his head. I stared at his biceps for a moment and then.

"Hey, that is -- boyfriend coming to aid ---but --whatever." I tried to reason but gave up. I rolled my eyes and thought "We've got a long way to go".

Back to the present.

We were at a shopping complex. He wanted to buy clothes for himself and give his teammates a parting gift. I just tagged along Because I wanted to get him something as well.

"So, why are you here? Got a boyfriend yet?" He asked me, laughing hysterically.

He never mentions something like that. So I thought let's play along.

"Yeah why?" I said.

He had a pause and then looked down on me and I looked up to him. We made eye contact. As soon as our eyes met.. he looked away.

"Ha! You can't even lie properly." He scoffed.

"You got me, I'm hear to buy you something." I said, not caring even a little about my lie being exposed.

I frowned and pouted. At him being dense. Such a big body with no brains.

Since he was a third year then, with his big statute, he scared everyone. Even though he didn't mean it. He has this natural frown on his head that keeps people away from him. And I just tried to clear his name. He had got so many rumors about him.

"Hey, Han Chan! This shirt will look pretty on you!" He said as he picked up a boyfriend shirt from the counter.

"Yeah, of course, you want me to wear something like that." I said giving him a side-eye.

"Haha" He laughed again.

People say that he only laughs when he's with me. That kinda makes me happy and less insecure. I never stopped any girl who tried to hit on him. When someone came for advice, I said as I sighed "Instead of his girlfriend, you'll end up either his daughter or little sister." She gave me a look and just left.

I'm desperate that doesn't mean that I'm stupid or weak. I'm capable of living on my own and protecting myself against anyone. I was in the track club during middle school and was on the girl's volleyball team in highschool till my second year of highschool.

After some time we got all of what we wanted and then left the store. Tomorrow was his graduation. I wanted to give him all the time the day after, to coop up with his teammates and classmates whom he'll probably not see as much.

At the day.

We all were gathered in the main auditorium. I couldn't help but steal glances at Kagami Senpai. Even though we had been friends for like 3 years, I never touched him on the hand or even hugged him. Let's leave intimacy, I couldn't even bring myself to say his First name. Maybe because of how much I respect him.

The principal began his speech. Boring as always. After the speech, we all went to the ground for the farewell. My tears were in my eyes, all the time. Until Kagami Senpai came to me and said, "Thanks for making my three years more special than they were already."

"Dummy, I'm the one who should be saying that" I mumbled slowly.

I couldn't help it. I have endured it for so long. I want to touch him. I've touched myself to him many times. But I want him. I thought and Jumped into his arms and cried into his chest. His embrace was as warm as a warm sunny day in Canada.

I held him tight and cried as ugly as I could. Tears were shedding down as if rain fell from my cloud like eyes. All watery and swollen from last night. I clenched his shirt in both my fists and took out all the frustration I had.

Senpai was shocked. But that wasn't gonna make him fluster. He Hugged me back and embedded his head In my neck as he picked up, making me float in his embrace. I loved him. I loved this man, Now and forever.

He put me down. I thought he was going to pat me on the head again, but no. He consoled me, as he patted my back. I don't know why it made me happy.. and surprised.

And don't get your hopes up. I didn't confess to him that day. But my confession was way more erotic. Just like I wanted it to be.

After the graduation day, we couldn't hang out as regularly as before. I was not going to pressure him. I knew he had to manage his college life now. But we still roamed around the market to get him supplies for college. For a little time, In a big while.

Him being so talented had gotten offers from a total of 6 colleges. I was a third year now. Next year I would go to his college too because his majors are also mine. He chose the college that I recommended and got himself a 2Ldk (Living, dining, kitchen) house. it was mainly a flat that his father owned.

It had been quite a few Weeks from his graduation. And I got a call.

"Han Chan, would you come to my new house?" He asked and their was no reason for me to refuse. I wanted to see him and nothing special was going on in the school.

The next day, I visited him. It was quiet far away but anything for my daddy--oops, I mean Senpai.

I knocked on the door. I heard footsteps come up to the door. My heart beat raised as the footsteps became louder. I had never been to a guy's house. And because of my habit, I dressed up Seductively again. A low neck line, my cleavage almost visible. With the tight top, that complimented my curves and my pretty short skirt. I dressed according to summer. it was 39°C here.

He opened the door and for the first time, for the first time ever, he looked at my body and I got glimpse of his little blush at the edge of his ear. I was beyond Happy. Seeing him blush, I got flustered as well and grabbed my string bag shyly. He looked up quickly and welcomed me in.

"This is----Kagami Manor!" He said as if announcing something big.

I gave a look around the house and said "Yay, yes very good" my voice had a sarcastic tone.

He whined a bit. And signaled me to come to the dining table. I did As he said. I sat on one of the chairs, of course, in front of him. He brought pastry, and my favorite one!

"AHHH PINEAPPLE!! SENPAI, You know me so well" I commented.

"Yes I know, But Han Chan, have you ever tried calling me by my first name?" He asked.

I straight up ignored. That pastry looked so tasty and I wanted to devour it full. I started digging in messily. and got a lot of cake on my cheeks.

"STOP EATING LIKE THAT!" he said and leaned forward. He removed the cake chunks from my face with his long and big fingers.

"No fair!" I said. And leaned forward myself. I helped myself on his fingers. I licked the cake of his fingers with my tongue. Soon I realised what I was doing. Thinking of it as a nice opportunity, I continued licking it, but this time, seductively. I made my tongue visible when I licked the edges and I put the finger in my mouth when I reached the top.

I was waiting for his hysterical laughter. But I heard none. I pulled the finger out of my mouth and I saw a trail of saliva connecting the finger and the mouth. I looked up as I wiped my face and licked the cake off my fingers too. I was surprised.

He just stared at me while I did my thing. I could see his tough face go red. That was the first time it ever happened. I quickly got back to my seat and apologized. He got up without saying a word and went to wash his fingers. The next few minutes were just complete silence.

"This has never happened between me and Kagami Senpai, What should I do? Did I go overboard this time?" I panicked and clenched my skirt. That was a very awkward moment.

Kagami POV

What-Wha-What is she doing? She is just licking the cake off my fingers, why am I feeling so warm and heated up? Her Cleavage never bothered me before. Now I can't help but stare at it.. Ple-Ple-please stop! But I don't want her to... What is this.. it's disturbing! Oh she stopped..

Umm what is this awkward silence. I can't bring myself to lighten the pressure and start a conversation!

I know, I recently realized that I liked her, before the graduation. As a women. Not because of how she dresses or tries to seduce me but because of how she is willing to stay with me. Her erotic behavior and revealing attire never bothered me because she never touched me but now it's different. But I know for sure she does not love me as man. She sees me as a father figure right? Han Chan.. Do you like me?

Back.

I wanted to break the ice. It is finally the time I give a proper name to our relationship. He's a fool if he still hasn't figured himself out. I thought.

"Senpai, Listen closely, I'm serious." I stood up and went to the couch where he was sitting.

"Ye-Yes, Han Chan?" He stammered. I made my face move closer to him. I sat beside him. Took a deep breath and said.

"I adore you Senpai, I love you, as a man, not a father figure or a friend, I want to make you my boyfriend, **** **** to you, get married and live a happily ever after. I gave you so many hints, obvious as hell, but still you were completely unaware. I am more than just serious about you. Senpai, I want you." I Said the first part normally and the last part I whispered in his ear. Witnessing it go red.

I was insecure about nothing. He likes me too. His blank expression told me. He stared at me. I couldn't read his expression anymore. He straightened his back and stretched a little. Whenever he was feeling weird he would do that.

I couldn't stand that. I cupped his face to face me. And I slammed my lips with his. My whole body was heating up. I could feel my heart rage. Kagami Senpai looked shocked. But he closed his eyes soon and returned the kiss. He was an extremely good kisser. Which was quite unexpected. He licked my lower lip, asking, no, demanding for entrance. I was hesitant at first but after a while I opened my mouth. He swirled his tongue when he entered and then his, danced with mine.

I soon felt myself go out of breath and broke the long kiss. A trail of saliva connected our tongues. I panted heavily. Then after catching my breath I said.

"Th-Th-That was my first... k-kiss" I panted still.

"What? Seriously?" He said, normally.

"Can I call you my boyfriend then?" I said.

"Umm...I don't think I can turn back now." He said looking away.

"Let me tell you sincerely. I love you, too. I'm sorry this is not the normal kind of confession with flowers or anything but---" He said but I cut him off.

"Don't worry, this is the exact confession I desired, Thanks, Senpai" I said as I shushed him.

I laid on top of him but I heard Kagami Say..

"No, Not now..." He said.

"Okay... I. thought you might want it since I did something terrible a while ago." I said with glimmering eyes.

"Ahhh, it's completely fine! And you should go home now, okay? Or it'll get late." Senpai Said.

"OK, let's meet soon, now, we will meet as Boyfriend and Girlfriend." I said as I got off and walked to the door.

He got up too, and proceeded to see me off.