"you don't have to worry i can go quietly"

"I won't make you worrying about me again if i have problems i can face it myself don't worry you can do you want i know you are busy so....(for the last time) goodbye"

He say that with smiling and he faded from my view...

............

My name is Hamayumi Im the top student in my school no one can beat me i m the top...but one day...

Teacher: Students today you have a new friend

Teacher asked. to that student to introduce himself

Kazuki :Hello my name Is Kazuki nice to meet you..

After he entered our class he always be the top in the class...then secretly i crushed on him....

After that I was Always stalk him i dont know if he reconize or not but one evening he told me that he want to see me after the school...i never expected that he wanted confess to me...

he says "around 10 months if you don't like me anymore you can just break up with me"...i agree to the condition he gave to me...

After that we being a couple... although I don't know what he actually was...i tried to ask him about her personality and his personal but he always says "me,,haha nothing special about me,i m just a normal man who loves my girlfriend"

after 2 months i know he actually kind i meet his mom and he introduced me to his family...he is a good person...my relationship with him goes well before...

In 5 months after that the results of his exam down and he always absent from school...

When i go to his house he looks like very healthy and if i asked him why he always absent from school he said "nothing practicular i just have a little problem"...

After that his exam results is down very bad...

So,,i decided to make a study group so, he can study again...i asked him to come, he just say "ok but...."

I waited him for a long time but he didn't come many time i promised with him but he didn't come...

"after a long waiting he texted me..."Mayumi,,can we meet at he cafe near school i wanted to told you about something's important"

After he says 'somethings important ' i was so worry and rushed to that cafe...then after i arrived i see him laugh with another girl...

In my mind i thought "i see..i know why he always broke our promises...i know the reason about the conditions he give me when we start dating...i see he doesn't love me anymore"

I rushed to him and slapped him... I can't thinks logically right now my hearts feel so hurts it like someone stabbed my heart...

I slapped him before he can say anythings

"you are jerks..now i know why you make those condition,i fool enough to trust you,you are very upset" after saying that i left....

Tommorow morning after lunch i meet him when i look him he looks really pale...but i dont care about it anymore...

"Mayumi wait this is all misunderstanding wait i want to says something importance to you please give me explain"

"i know what you want to say...you want to break up right i know it you really like that girl...i was an idiot to believed you in this whole time...i just an idiot worrying about you...now can you just leave me alone i dont want to care about you anymore....just go from my life..."

He looks very shocked..

"Then if you say so...i dont have to worry anymore..."

" I don't want to make you worry anymore you don't have to worry about me i wont appear in front of you again so...(for the last) goodbye"

" I Hope you can live a happy life without thinking about me anymore"

He Say that and after that...he didn't come to school anymore...

He absent from school many months and no one know what's happening to him...

2 Months passed

In the dark raining day i got a news that I didn't expect it anymore...

"Students today i have a very bad news for you guys....Kazuki is...."

After hear that news i rushed to meet Kazuki

"students i have a bad news for you...kazuki is dying"

After i arrived at hospital Ward i saw He lays in the bed weakly...his face look very pale...

I approached him after he saw me he force himself to smile

"M...mayumi y..you don't have to worry about me i m alright you don't have to come here i don't want to bothering your live...so...sorry..."

He looks so weak...

I approached him and hugged him tightly...

"sorry.... sorry...i didn't know anything about you...i didn't know...and i just blame you...that day i just very upset and angry i didn't know how to control my emotions and i end up mad at you...i m very sorry...i didn't mean it...can...can you forgive me?"

"soo...is that what happened...Ma...yumi i didn't want to break up with you at that day i just want to say...that i....(cough... cough)...i m really sorry that i didn't make our promised..so..sory"

"just shut up...you don't have to apologize i the one who has to apologize with you..."

Then he Just Smiled and nod weakly...

"then you have to be healthy again and that we can go to school togather again.. rights.."

...Then he smiled again....

*Beeeeeeeeeepppp*

The monitor show the straight line...

He gone in my hand

His warm hand becomes cold...

He didn't smiled to me anymore

He didn't called my name anymore

I can't hear his voice anymore...how hard i call his name he naver...open his eyes anymore...

..............................

(Three years latter)

I wonder what he wants to say when he asked me to meet at that cafe...

I never know what actually he wanna says back then....

As always...

I became top student in my colleague after one day my position taken by one mysterious student...

I hear his friend call his name.....

*The end*

Hika notee.....

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"Kazuki are you serious that's you dont want to say it to your classmates about your condition"

After that girl Asking Kazuki weakly nod...

"Than you don't want to explain to that girl either?"

"did you mean Mayumi?"

"yes,that girl after she saw me with you at the cafe that day she mad to you and ran away... didn't you have to explain properly to her..."

"This is for her to this will make he forgot about me...even if i die she can live happily and don't think about me..."

He say that will a pale face and a fake smile..

He always like that smile to hide he true feelings..even if he hurts very much..

"Miyuki...one day...if she come to you and ask you about what i want to talk to her at the cafe that time you just answer that i..........can you?"

"Oi Kazuki idiot that things you have to tell her properly not pass it to me...so get better fast and tell it to her yourself"

He smile a bit and say

"yeah i want to do so but....(cough...cough)"

He coughing blood....

"oi Kazuki are you alright?!!!"

"(cough cough....wheeze) as you see my condition is getting bad day by day...so if i can tell her you must tell her about it for me"

"Kazuki...idiot...i m your cousin right you can't pass that responsible to me"

"Sorry but....(cough...cough)...ughh...i feel a bit sleepy i want to sleep for a bit can i?"

"Idiot you don't have to make permission to me..."

And he Smile again and go to sleep...

After He sleep he don't wake up for a month

doctor say that he fall into coma...if he didn't wake up in a mont his live maybe in danger

Luckily he wake up after a month but his health is dropped day by day...he became so weak...

I went near him and try to talk with him

"Kazuki Idiot you better get better soon if you don't i will punch you"

If he is actual Kazuki he will reply "haha Miyuki you always like this I won't bear with your punch..so dont punch me ok we are cousin right..."

But he didn't answer a single word he just keep silent

(FLASHBACK)

Kazuki And I always togather from Childe...he is smart a chearfull..he always make me smile if i was with him he so active until one day...

One day

I went to his home as usually...but i found no one at his home...next day i asked his mother what happening to him because i didn't saw him that week...

His mom said that he is being hospitalized because an unknown illness doctor can't examinated what illness that he trough...

After that his smile always look fake

His Cute face become pale everyday...

but,he didn't lose hope he just keep studying even if he being hospitalized...

Year by year passed...

We becomes highschool student...

He always become top student in school.

His body becomes a bit health..we all thankfull about it..we think..that he will be fine...he will recover soon...HE WILL...

But after a few months his body becomes very week he always passed out suddenly...

Than,,,He stop went to school...

He told me that he has a girlfriend..

After hear about that i don't know why but my heart becomes very hurt...

"Why i like this i should happy for him...he will be happy with her girlfriend"

But,my heart don't hear me..

He talked again...

He says that he didn't want to tell his girlfriend about his condition...

I want him to be happy...than i must convinced him to tell her about his condition

"Kazuki i think you must tell her about your condition you can't make her worry about you...if you like this than she will very worry about you..."

I try very hard to make him tell her..

He agreed with me and decided to tell her as well

Because his body is weak i accompany him to place that...she want to meet..

And That situations happen

Its all my fault...

I keep say it my fault...

Then..he say

"Miyuki it's not your fault its my fault dont worry you are my best freinds and my best cousin...its not your fault"

Than he smile..

When i see his smile i know that not the fake smile... that's make me really relief...