I didn’t know you were standing there but my eyes just let me to you. I started blushing instantly but my friends noticed so I just blamed it on the sun. Not matter what I do I can’t let go of these feelings. If I gained up enough confidence to say something to you with questionning myself I would ask If you would go out with me. But now that I’m thinking about it I wouldn’t know what to do with myself or what I would do. Probably kiss him but not without asking of course. Because every Kiss begins with K(c)onsent. Or just cry some happy tears. Not as easy as it looks compared to the movies but we all know that is not how life works. But I just can’t see my life without him. Well no one wants to hear a teenager right there a school experience but this is more than just an experience this is my heart where talking about. The last person I liked broke my heart without him even knowing he was so clueless I just don’t get how he didn’t understand. My way of showing love is giving out food and sarcastic comments and I gave him everything. I told my friend about that him and his codename was “Bae”. And I know that sounds childish but he straight up told me you will never be my babe. And my heart broke instantly I had to hold in my tearsand signal my friend I was not OK in that moment. Still trust my friends but sharing my feelings is so hard for me sometimes because I feel like people won’t actually understand me. But I get it not everyone will understand you . I’m just so used to people running, laughing, ignoring and not understanding my love for them. And trust me I have been through friends all throughout elementary and middle school. In elementary when I like somebody I had to hide it because I knew my friends where not my real friends. So I push them away and I still ignore them till this day. Pushing away people easier than loving them and I love the easy way out. In high school I learned with pushing myself was. Crying is not an easy way out. Lying is not an easy way out. Telling the truth is an easy way out whether hurts the people around you doesn’t matter some people just don’t like hearing the truth that’s why am hesitant around my friends I’m scared that they can’t handle the truth. I can handle it sometimes. But it’s OK some people will get you through life and some people will bring you down but don’t let them. You can get caught up with the wrong people and grow an attitude.I learned that the hard way. Now I just ignore all of the mean comments and try not to take them to offensive. But this is just the beginning and we will see how it ends.