Introduction to the characters Of -

I̶m̶ l̶o̶s̶i̶n̶g̶ m̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶ ! I already lost Myself.🙂

Name- Kim Namjoon. profession - Kpop idol /Rapper. Under - Bighit Entertainment. Sub gender - Omega/ But is not treated as one. Pack-Bangtang pack. The - Most underrated and hated member.

Name- Jung Hoseok. Profession-Kpop idol/leadRapper. Under - Bighit Entertainment. Sub gender - Alpha. Pack-Bangtang pack. The - Most loveliest memeber / the sunshine of the group.

Name-Jeon jungkook. profession-kpop idol / Main Vocalist. Under- Bighit Entertainment. Sub gender-Alpha. Pack- Bangtang pack. The - Most hottest member / Bunny of the group.

Name- Park Jimin. Profession-Kpop Idol/Vocalist. Under-Bighit entertainment. Sub gender- Beta/More like Omega. Pack - Bangtang pack. The - Most cutest and Adored member.

Name- Kim taehyung. Profession - Kpop idol / lead vocalist. Under-Bighit Entertainment. Sub gender- Alpha. Pack- Bangtang pack. The - Most handsome member.

Name- Min yoongi. Profession - K-pop Idol/ Main rapper. Under-Bighit entertainment. Sub gender- Alpha. Pack - Bangtang pack. The -grumpy yet cute member.

Name-Kim Seokjin. Profession- K-pop Idol / Vocalist / Main Visual. Under-Bighit entertainment. Sub gender- Alpha. Pack- Bangtang pack. The - World wide handsome of the group.

Name- Jackson Wang. Profession - K-pop Idol / Soloist. Under- SM entertainment. Sub gender - Alpha. Pack- NON / individual. The - Most handsome Soloist ever. Best friend of Kim Namjoon. Cursh- ??? ??????? from the childhood.

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Well then let's begin the story

Hope so y'all will enjoy.

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Let's start the story.

Prologue / Glimpse

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I̶m̶ l̶o̶s̶i̶n̶g̶ M̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶ I already lost Myself.🙂

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Everyday was as usual for Namjoon.

As usual getting scold, As usual getting hate, As usual getting tried of life.

As usual wanting to die.

He always gets the thought of dieing inside of his mind

But never gets the guts to do it

Because his a loser

A worthless loser an idiot

He gets out of his bed

It was too early in the morning

almost like 5:00 am

He took his phone

and unfortunately went to the app Twitter

He went to the photo which they clicked an week ago for the last song of their latest album.

And then he unconsciously starts to read the comments.

@ot6Lover Omg they all look so handsome ACEPT that fat pig Namjoon 🙄. I don't know why does he needs to be in the picture.

@Jiminswifue Woow Jiminie and other boys look so cute .Eww Why does this pig Namjoon needs to be near Our Jiminie 🤮🤮

@Lillmeowmeow Yuck why does he even exist in this picture 🤮🤮 I hate this fate pig Namjoon

@Jimingotjams Yes y'all are right I just hate this Ugly B*cth Namjoon so much , I mean his the ugliest in the whole kpop industry. eww why don't he already die 🤮🤮 #Namjoonleavebts

@Jinhitentertainment Yes y'all are right Namjoon should leave BTS . Because of him the boys are getting down. I mean eww how could an Omega be so ugly 🤢🤢🙄

@seokkie234 Yes this Namjoon is an Omega but still so ugly eww he is gross he should leave BTS #Namjoonleavebts.

As like this

there were thousands of comments like this.

Namjoon felt BROKEN by this

well he always does

Day by day he was going deep and deep to the hole of darkness , the path of depression.

He was super skinny now yet he thought he was fat

He tried so hard to skinny as much as possible for the peoples who called him fat

He was tried very hard to be beautiful as the other members and the people's who told him he was ugly

He tried everything he could just to fit in the Society's Omega standards

And by now he was so skinny that his ribcage bones cane be shown

He's eyes full dark

He had dark circles too in his eyes

He could get any sleep at nights as he Suffered from Insomnia

His Anxiety was growing day by day

He started hearing voices inside his head

Saying him how ugly he was , how fat he was, How Disgraceful he was to his parents for been an Omega.

And soon he started to throw up food that he eats just to be skinny.

He started self-harming too to himself.

His body was going pale and pale day by day

And at this point he was even more paler then Yoongi.

His Bandmates were also Harsh towards him more and more day by day

specially Jimin.

He always told Namjoon , he reminded him how worthless he was

How he was an disgrace to there pack

and By all this

His heats stopped

He becamed more and more quite

Day by day

Hoseok his once bestfriend became like an stranger to him

It was like they don't even remember who he was

They were all day out of the dorm with eachother eating food at restaurants and hanging out with eachother

They even didn't bother to ask him for once

Seokjin who always called him Personally if he skipped any meal

was now like an stranger to him

Seokjin didn't even bother once to talk to Namjoon

well nobody did

and for this he always stayed locked in his room

been invisible to everyone and no-one didn't bother to care , No one.

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let's continue it.

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They were in the dance practice room. They were all practicing there new dance choreography. It was pretty hard for Namjoon, Jin and jimin. But soon jin was cleared with it . But Namjoon and Jimin didn't. They both were still having some problems with the choreography. And soon the practice time overs. All the members were tired and exhausted. They all were sitting in the corners and getting water's for themselves. Namjoon sat in a corner. and suddenly Jimin joined Namjoon. Well Namjoon was quite surprised by it , Because Jimin never ever did camed to him. Soon Jimin spoked Jimin- Oh Namjoon. How are you? And frankly speaking Namjoon did feeled good for Jimin asking him it. He replied Namjoon - well I'm good . How are you Jiminie 😄 He said happily Soon Namjoon didn't Recognised that all the members were already out of the room heading towards the lunch room as it was the lunch break now. Jimin suddenly got up and went to the door. He locked the door. And again turned to Namjoon. He galared to Namjoon as if he (Namjoon) was some kind of criminal. Namjoon started to feel uneasy And so he speaks Namjoon - u-uh Jiminie why are you looking at me like that??? Jimin - *didn't respond , continue to glare* Namjoon again asked Namjoon- u-uh j-jiminie why are you look- As he was about to finish his words Jimin pushed Namjoon on the nearest wall and grabbed his throat choking him (Namjoon) Namjoon breathlessly tried to free himself and speak Namjoon - j-ji-jimin P-please Stop ahh- Then jimin pushs him and leaves his throat. He spoked Jimin - You bicth how dare you say my name as Jiminie huh!!! Jimin - don't you dare say that again !!! Jimin - you were, are and always will be an ugly bicth an disgraceful Omega !!!!! And with that he left Namjoon felt BROKEN He ranned to his studio and didn't came out for the lunch anymore that day. He cried that day in his studio. Because he thought that how true Jimin was. That day he came late in the dorm. But do you think anyone even cared about it??? Of course not. He went to his room And tried to sleep but he couldn't, Suddenly he started to get flashbacks of how a disgrace he was to his parents, friends, his bandmates and specially to his pack bangtang. [Words count - 500]

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