^^^[Jungkook]^^^

With his body leaning against the large window of his apartment, he could see the sky being lit by lightning and rain forming large pools of water on the streets of seoul.

Turning on his feet he found his suitcases already packed, and the one that would no longer be his home, empty.

He tried to warm himself by hugging himself, with his wet clothes, the little makeup he used running down his face in a silent cry, it was the perfect setting to discribe how disastrous his life was, what his life would be. lips wanting to dissappear the trembling that they had, but he did not say that a sob broke out from his thraot.

I try to stop crying, he swears by god that I really try to do it, as well as i try not to fall in love.

He simply shouldn't have thought he would drop anything, He shouldn't have believed his words when he told her that everything would be fine.

Anyway, who in his right mind would risk losing and dissaponting his family for a simple boy like him......

At 23 he believed that his career as successful model and writer, a quite life, and apartment in the best place in seould had it all.

Untill the boy with that heart-shaped smile appeared, the most beautifull smile, his eyes with that special shine, with his reddish hair and soft skin, literally the perfect man who lit up the dark days of Taehyung perfect in his eyes.

But saying perfect was perhaps too much, and he took it into account too late.

When he started dating Hoseok, he explained to him about his life, how difficult it was to take care of her younger sister, how to go to collage and take a career he didn't want, but it was his parents who decide it was the best thing for his future. Accirding to his words.

Also like his older brother Namjoon decided to move in with his boyfriend Jin, yelling at him that he was fed up and infuriated that his parents tried to control his life as they did with Hoseok and Jiwoo.

But when Namjoon saw the face, his brother apologized between sobs, and told him that it was time to tell his parents about his sexuality, but above all to them that he was not happy and that he really wanted to be a dancer. He thought about it, Hoseok thought about for weeks but he couldn't he couldn't see his parent's faces full of dissapointment on him, it would be too much he would end up breaking it.

Namjoon left with Jin on Thursday afternoon, and the last trace of hope of his older brother who needed to lean on when his world was falling apart was gone in the blink of an eye.

Jungkook understood Hoseok, because something similar happen to hin, his father ran him out of the house for wanting to be model and that was not done by ream men, but of course he had enough guts, he left everything behind, and with that he is where he is now.

2:32 am.

His crying was present with more force like storm outside, remember how he met him, the nights and days they spent together making love, whispering how much he loved him while leaving a kiss on his forhead just to see the beautifull smile, answering that he loved him too, he hurt him.

He carried his heavy body to the nearest sofa, letting himself fall without much care, he was tired, sad, dissapointed, angry. There was so many emotions that he would not be able to move on after leaving.

Everything has changed when he asked him to live with him, knowing how selfish he was, with that thought he told him that he could do a career as a dancer, without fear of being left alone, because Jungkook would always be there for his little solitude, but he recived a resounding no "that i was sorry but i didn't want to", " that they were and would be better this way" Hoseok replied.

He wanted to overcome himself by saying that it was Hoseok'a first relationship and also with a man, and that is why he did not accept, that he was afraid.

It was not like that, a week trying to communicate without getting an answer, he went to his house, obviously he had to make many calls to find out his address but Hoseok did not know that.

Nervously be raised his hand and rang the bell of that beautifull house, it would be first time that he would enter hell as Hoseok himself said he felt like vomiting, and the noise of the heels of woman's shoes approching the door did not they helped a lot.

When i opend the door, a girl appeard with long, black and staright hair, she was a little thin but she was beautifull. She introduced herself as Hoseok's sister jiwoo.

When Jungkook streched out his hand to say hello saying he was a friendn of Hoseok he felt sick.

The house was quite large and luxurious fot taste, decorated with sand-colored walls, black armchaired and red curtains, without and shine, which people without taste thought Jungkook.

Jiwoo brought him a tea, and so he started a conversations about fashion, and Jiwoo told him that when she grows up she wants to study design no matter his parents don't like it. If only Hoseok was strong as you. Thought Jungkook bitterly.

He had not finish her tae when the front door was opened and Hoseok entered, becoming 3 shades of paler when he saw Jungkook, a blonde girl, and a lady very similar to Jiwoo who did not have to think much to deduce that she was the mother of Hoseok, his mother-in-law.

He was in his worst nightmare, he knew it when the blonde girl introduce herself as: Lisa, Hoseok's girlfriend and future wife.......Jungkook wanted to yell at her that no, that Hoseok was his boyfriend, that he saw him six months ago, that they loved each other and that what she said was stupid.

With what little pride Jungkook had left, he said goodbye to the familym Everything has already been clear, he had nothing to do there.

He left the house without giving any explanation, he would not allow himself to cry not untill he got home. But someone took him by the hand, his skin crawled when he recognized that touch he knew so well, that hand that prevented him from continuing on his way.

Hoseok was seen with big dark circles, broken lips and discolored, also underweight, but no less beautifull in Jungkook's eyes.

He withdraw his arm in a sudden movement, and yelled at Hoseok that he was a fucking hypocrite, an idiot for having made him fall in love with him, also that he was a idiot for being 21 years old and still beleving that pleasing his parents would be happy. Hoseok yelled him to understand, that he always lived like this and was very scared to change his lifestyle with his parents for someone he met only 6 months ago. Hoseok realizing his words tried to take Jungkook's hand and tell him that his visit took him by surprise, but jungkook took it away.

His face was red from the effort of holding back tears. But that was had hurt the most, and he let out his pain with his last words "I love you Hoseok, I love you as you have no idea. I also suffered throughout my life, my mother committed suicide, my father ran me out of the house, I had no friends and people tunrned thier backs on me. But you know that, I am not the coward that you are today, because i went ahead  and tried hard evert day. On the other hand, you will continue to be unhappy for the rest of your life.

3:12 am.

His mind was exhausted, with his problems, moving, work and what had happend in the bar he felt dirty, it made him want to sleep and not wake up. He knew that calling the taxi station would be crazy and he assured that there would be no fights untill the storm passed, but he did it anyway.

He took the last suitcase that was on the ground, looking sadly and what one day was his home and love nest for him and Hoseok, he closed the door and went down the stairs, he went out to the street and the taxi was waiting for him.

The car started smoothly, when the taxi driver kindly asked him where he was going with a hoarse and broken voice, he answered.....

"To the airport please"

4 years later......

Hoseok's mind traveled deep from his thoughts wondering where the **** is Jungkook right now?

He looked at his left hand, where a beautiful symbol of love, made of silver adorned his ring finger. She felt her eyes fill with tears lately he was crying over everything.

He bring his hands to his face and wipe his tears even without shedding. He took the last sip of wine he had in his glass, enjoying the dry taste of it.

perhaps he was exacerbating but the past did not leave hin alone.

10:08

He put the wine away, blow out the candles, put dinner in the oven, and clean his plate. what was meant to be romantic dinner had gone to hell.

He walked to his room dragging his feet, he was tired, it had been a long day shopping then he had to go to the company where his presence was required.

He had spent 2 hours choosing clothes for the occasion, amd when he finally did, it took another 2 hours to cook to celebrate his "anniversary".

But a certine person never came. So not to screw up his day anymore, he decide that the best thing would be to go to bed.

When he was wrapped up, he allowed the momeories to fill his head.

One memory in particular came sending chills through his entire body.

*Flashback*

~Four years ago things with Jungkook, has been on attention and Jungkook asked him to go live with him. Obvioulsy he refused, believing that Jungkook wouldn't min. But once again he was wrong.

One day like any other, his world was blurred, be knew that telling his parents that he was gay would have consequences, but he was detemined to do it. He couldn't stand it anymore, he wanted to be happy and he didn't just do it for him, but also for hie Jungkook.

But he never thought his parents were so selfish. A few day's later his mother arrived with a blonde girl, be introduce herlself as Lisa, His future wife.

It was a waste of time arguing with his father, he just told him, "You are not a Hoseok fag, be a man for the first time in your life, you will get married, form a nice family and you will take over the company.

He doesn't come down from his room for a week, nor does he answer his boyfriend's calls. When one day he was alone with lis, he apologized for her futuer marriage, Lisa explained that her parents wanted to join their company with that of the jung and what better way than to unite the 2 heirs in holy matrimony.

She also told him she never would want him, that she wanted to marry someone she loved, and that was not Hoseok.

Feeling great relife, he also told Lisa about his plans. Go with Jungkook away from thier lives together. above all to compensate his boyfriend for all the bad times that they had put him through.

But life had fucking sense of humor. One afternook when he arrived shopping with his mother and fiancée, he found his sister drinking tea, but not alone.

Jungkook was there. He felt every part of his body lose a trace of heart. Every second that passed his gaze never left that of his boyfreind, he could see pain, betrayal and especially dissapointment when Lisa introduce herself as his future wife.

When Jungkook left his house saying anything his heart stop for a few seconds. Muttering "I'm sorry" to those present in the room, he ran after him. When he took his hand and Jungkook walked away as if his touched burned, his heart broke.

With hurtful words, looks of disapointment and pain, Jungkook announced the end of thier relationship, all that was caused by Hoseok, he could not balme anyone other than himself, it was his mistake, his fault, his selfishness .

*End of flashback*

10:56 pm.

The unsehd tears in the eyes were present, and this time he would let them flow.

He needed to get rid of the pain and that had tormented him so much since that day.

He heard the vibration of his cell phone letting him know that someone was calling him. He didn't feel like talking to anyone.

That led him to another memory.

A few says after Jungkook broke up with hin, and namjoon call him to say "fucking coward" for his new engagement, he decide that it should all end.

Seeing the inceredulous faces of his parents when he told them that he would leave business and study at a dance academy had been the greatest satisfaction he had ever felt. Jiwoo squealed with happiness, took the opportunity to also tell them that she would go with Hoseol, since she would go to study fashion designs.

To say that they were angry was not enough. They looked like damn demons just out of fucking hell.

But it was worth the scream from his mother, the punch to his lips that he recived from his father.

There was only one thing missing, to recive the love of his life, the man who made him feel good, Jeon Jungkook.

But life again had a surprise for him, because not only was there one of the worst storms that seoul has seen, when he arrived at hsi ex-boyfriend's apartment, it hurt his heart to call him that, he notice that it was empty.

He was about to curse when the sound of his cell phone distracted him, it was something namjoon told him that he should answer him and he did.

*call*

Listen and don't talk you idoit. jiwoo told me what you just did, so i congratulate you little brother. You are free, but you just lack something and that is man who turns you into 4 every night and makes you moan and that you clearly love Jeon Jungkook. Do not ask how i know because i will not tell you, but at this moment he is going to taht airport. hurry if you want to stop him from leaving.

*end of call*

And so  namjoon cut the call. it took Hoseok a few minutes to come out of amazment, he had called him an idiot! Also, was he breathing when he told him all thatz, without any pause?

When he realize he was beginning to wander, he put his cell phone away and started down the stairs as quickly as possible.

Going out into the street, he began to run at full speed that his legs allowed him towards the nearest airport. Hoping to arrive on time, and thought while running, with a stork like this it was impossible for any aircarft to deploy. And come on, it was the first time that life favored him.

When he began to question whether he had taken his car, he could visualize a taxi in the distance.

It was Jungkook.

Why was he so sure? Easy was the only taxi on the streets of seoul in the wee hours of the morning under the storm.

And if it wan't, he had to risk it.

He scream his name, but it was impossible for him to hear it. He took a couple of shortcuts between alleys and when he finally saw the taxi coming he jumped on it. perhaps he should have thought better of it before doing so, his nose hit the windshiled so hard that for a momnet he felt dizzy, and as he rolled on the hood he felt a sharp pain in his ribs.

In his head it had been a good plan but now he was in the middle of the street , hearing murmurs coming from the driver, he tried to concentrate to know what he was saying but all he heard was a heartbreaking scream from that hoars voice that he loved so much.

"Hoseok" shout was his Jungkook's voice.

Then everything went dark.