My name is hayoon I am 21 years old i have a long brown hair and a cute face that's why people are fooled with it. i have 163 cm hight and 50 kg, I study in university it is my third year I am not really smart when it comes to studying the only reason why I kept going to university is for my parents it is their dream to finish my studies, become a teacher like my big sister get married have a stable life you know ;but i didn't want to live this way that is not me. Actually i am a kpop fan ,there is this boy band i love so much; to be honest i only care about one person in that groupe I always look for him in the internet watching his videos I know everything about him even his family members what he likes what he dislikes literally everything my friends say that I am obsessed with him but i don't care i want to be with him it is the first time I feel that I love someone he is the one for me, i am always asked out by a lot of boys in university i am not showing off it is the truth anyway i can't expect anyone my heart is taken by this one person park do woon, and i made a decision to do everything I can to be with him and the first step would be leaving this country. yes ha youn is not my real name that would be my name when I go to Korea my real name is Celine i leave in france with my parents i have one older brother adam and one older sister yes she is the teacher her name is ana .I was born in a little unknown village in the country side my family was very poor like all the families in that village my father used to work in a factory and they didn't pay him much it is barely enough to feed us but that mony we don't see much of it; every time they pay him he goes to bars drink alcohol spend the night out .i never understand why he does that what was the problem are we not good enough did we do something wrong we never ask anything from him not even a doll or even a dress that would be everything a little girl would want but i didn't all I asked for is that he stops drinking and stops beating our mother every time he gets drunk . my mother was a house wife she is the most most beautiful and kind person I know she has such a big heart she loves us so much she could handle anything for us even the beating that she gets from my father she could of run away but she didn't. I was just a little girl I used to see them fighting and all I can do is crying holding my sister's hand and see my brother trying to stop him from beating her. those scenes effected my life i couldn't sleep at night I see nightmares and i also sometimes find difficulties at breathing and they still happen to me till now , all of us used to share one room my parents and us it was our kitchen and bedroom . we had so many bad days but also we had some good memories my father wasn't a bad person despite what he does when he gets drunk he is a kind person and he loves us when he's not drunk he becomes a different person carring and kind but when he drinks he looses his mind. He is still my father just one smile from his face and i forget everything he did .I was a little girl and i needed my parents to be there . with years passing my father stoped drinking and he stopped the fights with my mother ; we moved from that one room to a bigger house things started getting better or that's what I thought. .....

I waited all my life for this day. the day where I leave my past behind and start a new page in my life i will forget everything and start all over, live the life that I always wanted. today i am going to leave to Korea. i am in the taxi hiding to the airport i am looking out of the window it is raining the rain drops falling down the window glace, the sky is dark i like this weather a lot, i have my earphones on listening to my favourite song magic shop by my favourite groupe this song is so nice it brought back all my memories the once I wanted to forget...

- three years ago..

i was 18 years old , we were in the summer break my father found another job in the city so we had to move with him finally i am going to live this village leave all the bad memories and besides that would be good to me it will be near to the university that I will go to after the summer. the house that we moved to wasn't so big it was all what we can get with the money we had, it had tow rooms one for my parents one for me and my sister, my brother used the leaving room to sleep; there is also a kitchen and one bathroom, the house was small but cozy . It will be my first year at university i wasn't so excited about it as I said before I don't really like studying but i had to for my parents to fulfil their dream and become a teacher or more precisely live the life they want me to live.anyway life in the city is really expensive, thankfully my sister managed to complete the house payment from the money she gets from teaching so we had nothing to worry about my father's payment will be enough to feed us. my sister is going to get married this summer so she had to prepare for her marriage and all the staf.my older brother was of no help he has no job all he does is going out with his friend those idiots stay late out i think i know where he got those habits from, he just makes things more difficult for us despite all what he does my mother still loves him and spoils him . the summer break finished so fast my sister got married as planned and she moved to her husband house i was so happy for her finally she will get to be happy . now it is time to go to university; i study literature so it will be so boring, i always liked art i love painting but my family was against it so I give up on that according to them i will get nothing from art it will not feed me .everything was going so well at the university i made friends and I was able to meet with my childhood friend sara we came from the same village we were best friends we were inseparable but she had to move with her parents in the past but now we met again I was so happy, even at home despite the problems my brother was making we were living a calme life . until the day where everything turned upside down...

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me :no, no, please no!!

I woke up out of breath all sweating the tears were falling down on their own i couldn't stop everything was going well why now ,why this again, i stayed that way for few minutes I had another nightmare but this time it was different i couldn't remember what I saw I just feel like there is a rock pressing on my chest and I can't breathe I look to the clock it was 2:50 am it is too early i used to when ever i see this nightmares my sister comfort me but this time I was alone I couldn't tell my mom i didn't want to i don't want to make her wory about me; the room was dark only the moon light comming in from the window i take off the bed cover and go toward the lights it was a full moon the clouds were starting to form and cover it.

me:I think it will be rainy today

I look to the sky and take a deep breath it was bleu and the stars were shinning in moments like this i wish a whole open go through it change the place and go to my love park dowoon I really wish he was by my side right now . the breeze helped me to relaxe but that rock in my chest didn't go i went back to my bed i wanted to change my thoughts i turned on my phone and started looking to the images i have of him zooming his eyes his leaps and that smile he is a real angel i wonder what he would probably be doing .I kept turning over in bed until 7am i couldn't go back to sleep .

mom: Celine wake up it is time for your university hurry up or you'll be late.

I knew she will come to wake me she always does because I usually over sleep but this time I was already awake.

me: okey mom I'm up .

actually i didn't want to get up my bad feeling didn't go away but i still have to go to university.I get up go to the bathroom take a shower when i finish i put on my blue jeans with a wite t-shirt and my black shoes i like to be simple and I leave my hair loose and because it will be rainy today but still not too cold I decide to put a black leather jacket, finally i look my self in the mirror and tell my self:

me : okey Celine it will just be another ordinary day you're are used to those bad dreams now don't let a bad feeling ruin your day you are strong.

mom: Celine what are you doing in there you'll be late harry up ,you're brother want to use the bathroom come out .

me : okey i am coming. since when he wakes up early this one !!

adam: I can hear you.

I open the bathroom door and in my way out he said :

adam : don't be too surprised I am just going to use it and go back to sleep than you can sleep in here if you want.

me: of course I should of known you'll never change.anyways I am not in a good mood this morning so i am not going to argue with you bye

i leave him and go to the kitchen to take my breakfast but i didn't really have the appetite to eat but if I don't i will be scolded

me : good mourning mom

she looked at me and she opened her eyes widely

mom: good mo.. wow what is wrong with your face and your eyes you look puffy are you ill.

me : no mom i am fine i just didn't sleep will last night.

i sit at the table to take my breakfast

mom : alright, if you say so. huh.. before I forget today in the afternoon me and your father are going back to the village they called him from his old work so he has to go and I am going with him there is some things I left in our old house i will bring them besides I miss that place I will make a visit ...

me: there is nothing to see there i don't know why you want to go you're only going to remember all the bad things that happened to you and will make you sad.

mom: hearing you say that is what makes me sad that place that you're talking about is where you walked your first steps where you were born maybe we didn't have an easy life but it is enough for me that you and your brother and sister were born there the most beautiful thing that happened to me you'll understand that one day .

me : as you wish mom .

suddenly my heart narrowed my bad feeling again

me: mom don't go please don't

mom: what?!! why all of a sudden?

me: I don't know but i don't have a good feeling about this so please stay.

mom : ooh dear we won't stay for long it will just be for one night I know you're not used to be separated but you're are all grown now you're no longer a little girl .

me : it's not like that I just..

mom : don't worry everything will be okay i will call you when i get there common now you have to go or you'll be late.

maybe she's right i just worry too much.

me: okey i will go but take care of your self then and don't forget to call me when you get there

mom: I will take care of your brother in my absence and don't fight

me: if he doesn't start

mom : celiiine... promise me

me : okeeeey I won't promise.say goodbye to my father for me.

I didn't get to see him he left to his work early to ask for permission to go to the village ,I take my bag, open the door and go out as expected the rain start falling i open my umbrella put my earphones and heed to university it is 7:42am it will only take me 15 min to get there just before I start walking i feel someone behind me taping my shoulder i turn around its sara

me: ooh hi, you scared me

sara:laughing hahaha you should of seen your face 😂 good mourning sweety how are you doing?

me: haha hilarious 😑 you never take this road how come today

sara: yeah you're right i had something to do nearby so I said why not going together so I waited for you here .

me: ahh ok .

sara :how silly I am I forget to say good mourning how are you ?

me : yes you were too busy making a prank for me

sara: sorry I didn't mean to scare you i just wanted to make you laught and surprise you .you don't seem alright did something happen?

me: yes I don't feel okey .

we started walking towards the university and in our way I told her about my bad feeling and about my parents going back to the village we came for.

sara : i understand but probably it just because you're gonna be sepirated

me: that what my mom also told me but i don't know

sara : it must be don't worry it happens to all of us sometimes to have this bad feelings you'll see it will despair the day will end nothing wrong will happen.

me: i hope so

sara as always she is there for me we are in the same age she studies law she want to become a lawyer she is a beautiful girl very charming she has a short black hair and big brown eyes she is tall and skinny today she wears a mini skirt a coat and black boots she looks amazing.

me: i don't know what I would of done without you .thank you for being my friend

sara: anytime my sweetheart suddenly she jumped and gave me an embrace

me: ahhh wait i can't breath

we looked each other and we started laughing.we arrived to university and we say goodbye to go to our classes and agree to meet at lunch in the restaurant.

the day has come to an end finally but that feeling didn't go i get to the house prepare something to eat check my phone for a call from my mom nothing it is 5:30 they should be there now

my brother: Celine is it you ?

me: yes I am home, you didn't go out all day long

brother :no you have a problem but i will go out later

me: do as you want i don't care huh did mom or dad give you a call ?

my brother : no, why ? they should ?

me: do you even live with us and I am sur you don't know that they went to the village today !!

my brother : ah that yes I know mom told me before she left now I remembered but dad looked angry before they leave and they were in a hurry it was weired .

me: really!!

brother : yes and my dad borrowed a car to go with.

me: okey finnaly you are good in something !!

I try to call mom on her phone but no one answers i started to worry that something happend to them.

me : what should I do now I shouldn't of let them go.I will try to call my father

the same thing the phone is ringing but no answer.

me:adaaam come here quick

adam:what is it now ?!

me: i keep calling mom and dad and their not answering i have a bad feeling about this

adam : come on now may be they didn't hear their phones don't be so dramatic about it .they will call once they see your calls.

me: i don't know...

before I finish talking I see my father's number calling me

adam: see i told you they'll call you

me:hello dad

dad: i didn't do it , it wasn't me i swear I don't know how did this happened..

me: dad what's going on ? where are you ?where is mom ?

dad: I'm sorry... I am really sorry

then nothing the call is over i started shaking the phone fall from my hand i don't know what I should do now

adam: what happened ?what did he tell you ?say something

me: i don't know I didn't understand . let's go

adam: where ?

me : our old village I think something bad happened to them.

to be continued..