Prologue:

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"I like you,not just a friend but more that a friend " i confessed

alam ko kabaliwan ang magmahal ng taong kaibigan lang ang turing sayo...

pero kung totoong kabaliwan man yun,...ako na siguro ang pinaka baliw dito...i like him for almost five years,,,

He is Asher jade Vlanco

the person i love the most

Ash looked at me as if i'm the most crazy person he ever seen....

his face become cold as eyes, he looked at me with disgust....

it hurt

it pain

but i have to do this cause today is the day i'm going to leave the country,

i want to leave with his answer...

"i like you, but only as a friend nothing more, i don't like guys" he answered without even blinking....

I want to cry, but i cant let him see that side of me..

i dont know what to say at this moment,

i just feel hurt

I was about to anwer when his phone rings its a call from his girlfriend...

"sagutin mo muna yan" sabi ko at tumalikod na i texted my sister and asked her to ready that ticket for me....

my leaving

I looked at him one last time, he looked happy talking to that lucky girl

I dont want him to choose cause i know i will never be choosen, how can a man be compare to a woman,

I will leave for the both of us.....

Chapter 1 :

3 years later........

Palabas na kami ni luke sa airport when my phone ring...

"Hello? sagot ko

"hmm...sino yan" tanong ni luke my friend from thailand who i meet in Paris 3 years ago we became friends for some reason......

he can speak tagalog fluently cause his a mul​ti​lin​gual

"i dont know his phone number isn't registered in my phone" i answered him as i keep asking who was that person on the phone, but no one answer

it just hang up without even answering me,,,,

i just shrug my shoulder

Habang nag iintay nang susundo sa amin, luke put his hand around my waist

i got used to it cause luke me, luke also like men but he only like me as a friend and the same as him, i like him as a friend, for some reason i feel comfortable around him, cause i dont have to pretend,

dumating na ang susundo sa amin, it was my sister and an unexpected person it was ash, the person who i want to forget, i pretended to be normal, like i'm not affected by his presence but in fact

, i feel happy cause i see him after i return to the country....

my sister Eive looked at Luke up and down and look at me teasingly,,, she is one of few the person who knows my sexual orientation but still accept me completely

lumapit siya kay luke na mas matangkad pa sa akin ng mga ilang inches▼・ᴥ・▼

Gwapo si luke every girl would love to be with him, unfortunately he already loved someone and thats the reason why he is here with me.

"come on kuya, who is this lucky man, ipakilala mo naman kami ohhh," sabi ni Aive nang may panunukso.....

kung wala lang si ash dito i kinotusan ko na to ehh...

"his name is Luke Clarkson his a mix, i meet him on paris 3 years ago" sagot ko

"Paris? diba ang ticket na pinabili mo sa akin noon ay papuntang Korea?, tanong ni Aive

"Ahhh, i did go to korea but a month after that, i leave to Paris for some confidential business reason," sagot ko

just mentioning about that day makes me uncomfortable,

" so where is the car, i'm hungry and so is luke," nakangiti kung sabi

i almost forgot about ash, as i turn to look at him, his gazed was not on my face but on the hand that is still on my waist...

I slap luke's hand,

maybe ash is uncomfortable with me and luke cause after that day we never contacted each other, he doesn't like homosexual so maybe, he hate to see one,,

"ahh,,i forgot i'm hungry to kanina pa nag iintay sina mama sa bahay," sabi ni aive habang naglalakad papunta sa sasakyan na kulay black

sumakay na si Aive sa Sasakyan ta sumunod din si ash sa aive sa drivers seat,

Pumasok ako at umupo sa likuran at tumabi din si luke sa tabi ko,

habang nasa daan bigla nalang bumulong si luke sa tainga ko, na ikinagulat ko,

"is the man in the drivers seat, the person you liked" tanong ni luke sa pinakamababang tinig na ako lang ang nakakarinig

"yes' he is" sagot ko

luke was about to answer when a car suddenly stop....

nauntog niya ang ulo sa may unahang seat

"ano ba papatayin mo ba kami', singhal ni luke sa kay ash na nagmamaniho..

pero hindi siya nito sinagot at tiningnan lang ako nang masama

na muntik ko nang ikinahimatay..ikaw ba naman tingna ng ganoon kasama (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

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Sa wakas nakarating din kami sa bahay nang kompleto ang katawan at buhay pa...

Papasok na kami nang bahay nang kunin ni Aive ang malita namin,

"where are you taking that?" tanong ko sa kanya.

" sa kwarto niyo of course," sagot niya na may panunukso ulit

" Your friend will be sleeling in the guest room righ?t," his voice is cold but its pleasing to hear, after a whole day ngayon lang siya nag salita, his voice is sharp as he look at luke so cold that its freezing, he look at me as if he see a person cheating (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

"ohh..no luke will be staying in one of my condo," sagot ko habang binabalik ang malita sa sasakyan

" i will be staying in that condo to" dagdag ko

Tumingin ako sa kay ash, his face is burning with fire that i almost freak out, tumingin siya sa akin nang masama, masamang masama, his face is as fierce as a lion,

" bakit di nalang kayo matulog dito kuya for the time being, i mean na miss ka nina papa at mama its been 3 years sence we last eat together," sabi ni Aive while looking at ash confused...

" ohh..ok" sagot ko nalang baka mamatay ako pag di ako pumayag( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)

chapter 2

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Nandito kami sa hapag ngayon, katabi ko si luke sa kanan at si ash sa kaliwa katabi naman ni luke si Nathan panganay namin...

he looked at luke as if his investagating,katabi ni ash si aive sa kaliwa at kaharap namin sina mama at papa sina lolo at lola,

"Ma stop looking at luke that way your making him uncomfortable" sabi ko habang nakatingin kay mama na para bang gusto niyang hilahin si luke sa tabi at tanongin kong siya ba ang girlfriend nang anak niya(ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

"how have you been Neithan" si papa ang bumasag nang nakabibinging katahimikan,

"i'm fine pa," sagot ko

"kain na tayo" sabi ni aive at nag simula nang sumandok, sumandok nadin ako, i was about to put the food in my mouth when a piece of chicken meat was place in my plate, i look at who did its ash

"thats your favorite right? sabi niya t sumadok na uli, i dont know but i feel sweet and warm in my heart i smiled at him and continue eating

" wag kang marupok" bulong nang katabi ko, nang tignan ko kung sino its was luke

i just rolled my eyes ang continue to eat

pagkatapos kumain ay dinala ko si luke sa guest room, where he will be staying for tonight,

"so ngayong nandito kana, anong plano mo," tanong ko habang nakatingin sa kanya na nakahiga..

" i dont know, i just arrived and i dont know where to start searching, the world is big, my chances of meeting him, is to low," sagot niya

" will if you are des​tine to meet, you will find him,"

"i cant just wait, i've been waiting, if i dont act now i have a feeling that i will regret it later" buntong hininga niya,

i can feel him, its just that we are different, cause they both love each other, its just that people around them is against it, while me, my family accepted me and want me to settle soon, but the man i loved is againts it,

i walked near him, seat beside him, and give him a friendly hug,

"EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT" i said

when the door was slam open buy that tall figure, he walked in and grab my wraist tightly and drag me away, that person is ash,

i dont know whats happening to him, but i feel scared

He drag me to his room, he has room in this house cause when we were still friend he keep hanging out with us...

Bigla niya akong tiningnan ng masama, he grab my shoulder and trow me to the bed,,,

thank goodness the bed is soft

"what are you doing asher" i asked him as i moved my body backward,

he looked like a wolf ready to eat his prey...

he grab my chin and sealed my mouth with his soft and sweet lips, he slowly enter his tongue in my mouth,,

I was in shocked,

my mind was in dazed, all i just remember is his lips kissing me, passionately, i dont know if its just my imaganation or its true,

he just stop kissing me, when i'm out of breath

He looked at me fiercely and grab my chin again,

His breathing became unstable, his eyes is in fire, his adams apple keep moving up and down,

"Ethan are you doing, this on purpose," he look so angry

"what do you mean," i blindly asked

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"Dont let me reach my bottom line, ethan or else, you'll regret bringing other man in your house," he said shaply...

"I still haven't forgive you for leaving without me knowing it, now you bring a man i your house, You really have guts" he held my waist and the push me to bed....

"Asher are you crazy let me go," sabi ko habang siya naka dagan sakin, his so heavy the ****

"you are not allowed to leave this room without my permission" he said as he slowly cares my face and kiss my forhead and cheek, i know luke is going to call me marupok again, but i just want to cheerish this moment, where its only him and me,

I just slowly closed my eyes and sleep,

i was in a deep sleep when a phone rang..its not my phone

Its in the bedside table near me, who would call asher in the time, i asked my self as i grab the phone and and look at thw caller, pero unregistred number ang tumawag, dahil gani na at ayaw ko namang gisinging siya..

I ANSWERD IT

I HOPE I DID NOT

" hello, babe where are you, hindi mo ako sinipot sa date natin kanina," the voice coming from that caller is lovely, i can already imagine its beautiful face,

i looked at him, who is beside me holding my waist tightly and sleeping peacefully....

If you already had a girlfriend, why did you kiss me?

i smiled at myself,

A fresh tears slowly streaming at my face,

I gently move my body away and end the call...

dahan dahan akong umalis sa kama at lumabas ng kwarto pag labas ko nakita ko si luke sa labas nakatingin sa kwarta na pinanggalingnan ko,

he walked near me and patted my shoulder and escorted me back to my room....

after we arrived he looked at me and said

" rest first where going to leave early next morning.

you have to give yourself a break," atsaka na siya bumalik sa guest room.....

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Maaga akong nagising nag empake,

paglabas ko ng kwarto nandon na si luke sa labas nag hihintay, he help me with my luggage,

nagpaalam na ako kina mama, at kay Aive pagkatapos sumakay na kami sa sasakyan,