My love for you is like the sky never ending.

I can't describe love because its a feelings and I have no words for this so called love. We all fall in love at some point in our life with someone boy or girl.

Does it matter?

No,love is love,

Have you ever thought why people say love is blind it's because in love it doesn't matter whether it's a boy or a girl.

We can fall in love in anyway, without knowing, without seeing or even without meeting and yes,I fall in love with you a girl without meeting you or without seeing you because what I said earlier applies here well I can't describe this feeling because words can't describe it.

What I feel for you is something very different and this a very beautiful feeling is the so called love!

I'm writing this book on your name,just to prove you that my feelings for you are true and real,that I really love you. This is the proof and I hope I can proof it to you,I can make you feel my presence.

I'm writing this book for you and you know what I can write my whole life on your name.

Well we both live in a very different world

One is free and have no worries at all and the other one which is me facing many difficulties and have a lot of worries. The one can share her pain and is open and the other one who can't even share her worries,pain and problems with anyone. Me who has no one to share my pain,problems with anyone because the truth is no one cares and no one understand me. I hid my pain from myself and I only reveal my pain to myself.

I buried all my pain inside my heart and now it's about to explode one day when I'll no longer hold back my tears, my crying voice, my pain but where this pain will explode, having no where to go, no one by my side not even you, dealing with everything by myself,hiding everything inside me and wearing a fake face of a happy person who look very fine from outside but broken from inside I need help, I want you by my side forever.

My heart is screaming SAVE ME!

HELP ME!

This emptiness, this state of being alone only you can chase everything away.

When I was a child my parents said don't make friends they are not good I said ok

They say whatever we do is for your sake and for your happiness I said ok.

My parents said we have the right to take your life decisions, you have to do what we tell you to do.

No freedom, just do what is said.

I think they are playing the role of villain in my story.

I'm not saying they are bad but the thing is they never understand me,from childhood till now I have done what they had told me to do just like a machine.

Can't make decisions,can't have feelings for anyone just do what is told.

But I have the right to be happy,to make decisions,to be with the person I love isn't it? This life belongs to me and only me and I am not a plaything for anyone. And whatever i am doing is just for a little love, just want love nothing else. I am happy having nothing else but love, I don't want money,I don't want comfort,I just want love. I had a dream since I was a child and that is I just want a peaceful and happy life with the person I love,cherish,that's all. Am I asking for too mush? What I want to become in my life is a perfect life partner and a good person with a lot of love,care and not wanting anything in return but just love.

I want you to be with me so that I can share everything with you love,pain,worries. who can stay with me at my worst and at my best, with whom I can walk hand in hand and step by step till the very end, looking at you and telling everything without saying a word.

From childhood till now I have never got what I really wanted not even the person I like, god always take everything I don't know why this discrimination. I fall many times but still stand again with some hope that one day I will hold your hand,I will hold you,when I will walk with you holding your hand because these arms are made for holding you and only you. I want to say I love you while looking in your eyes, a day when I will fulfill all the promises I have made. I am selfish because I want you for myself only. I remember every word you said everything. I always like to write and when for the first time you stepped into my life I had shared a piece and in return you had shared a sentence

"Don't take my hand as a pillow"

At first I didn't understand what actually you meant by that.

I never thought that I will have someone like you who will change my view of looking at life.i had struggled a lot and before you came I never know what actually love is? You believe it or not but it's true. I realised that I like girls when I was only 13. A lot of girls came and went but I never liked anyone of them and I really don't want to talk about anyone of them . Yes,there was someone I liked but she left me and I and after that I didn't dare to believe anyone.

Dark nights

Alone me

I want you to accompany.

SHINE you know what,I don't know if I will be able to prove my love through this but I pray to god that this time I win,I want the person I love.Shine I don't want to save anything for later,I just want to tell everything, don't want to left anything. Do you know why I call you shine it's because I don't know whether you will be in my life or not but this stars and the moon will always remain in my life as long as I live. Moon and the stars, their brightness,the way they shine will always remind me of my shine, you are my moon and the stars really can't live without you,life is boring,life is dark ,life is silent without you. Nothing feels alright when you are not by my side. Do you know I have very deep connection with the moon,stars and the universe, I like them very much ,I like the universe because they give me pleasure. When I have no one I always talk to the stars and look at the moon and after talking with them I feel relieved,calm and happy because atleast I the stars with me . When no one listen to me the stars will listen my story, our story. Besides you the moon is my darling. Everyday I stand in balcony and talk with my darling stars and look at them as much as I want because it's dark but shining, beautiful, charming and silent just listening and never saying a word.

Why I talk to the stars? Just because I believe that in the universe and one day the universe will give me what I want .

When you have no one the universe is with you, tell the universe about your wants and dreams and one day the universe will complete your dreams and fulfill your wish,have some patience,hope and believe in the universe and you will get what you want this is the power and magic of universe. I believe in the universe that's why I am writing this for you. This is something I wanted from the universe. I wanted you to know everything about me through this.

The magic happen and so I am writing this. I am happy that somehow I am able to convey my feelings to you.i"I can't forget those shining eyes of you just like the stars.

I can't forget that beautiful face of yours just like the moon".

I like silence

But I want company.

How you became so important to me?

Now let's start but from where?

From the beginning or end. Don't know!

Okay let's start from the beginning because it's beautiful.

Let's make this ordinary story a beautiful story. At the end of April you came in my life just like a gift.

Appeared in my life like a gift.you took the initiative to message me said hi then I replied hi then you said goodmorning I said the same and then I said, you don't know what to say and after that it all started and went on then we talked for a day or two and I asked you if you like me or not and you said yes after that I didn't contact you for a week just because I thought you will be gone after some time just like her. I thought you are just having having timepass and already have someone else just like her. But I waited for a few days and finally sent you a message but I never knew that you were actually waiting for my text. This was the thing that touched my heart but still I had lot of doubts and the truth is I was not ready to believe that someone is actually there for me. But now I guess that this life is making fun of me. You know what I want to decorate my life just like a bride but this life is not cooperating.