I'm only writing in this book because the school therapist says that its good to write down what you feel or what you do from time to time so I guess I can introduce myself....to me? Whatever hi I'm Zaceff I fucking hate my name so I tell my friends to call me Zac the only time I get called Zaceff is to keep my old *** grandparents in line to distract them from the fact that I just happen to be gay there is nothing better then seeing there old asses pissed when I talk about football they think that football is for men I guess what they think a man is is someone who likes females which I weird because I fucking hate my sister Elizabeth although I hate her to the core its all good because she doesn't really stay home alot she often likes to go out with friends and party like the last time I helped her get back into the house she was mad at me because her boyfriend that was so called sick wasn't sick but sick of her so he just broke up with her a few minutes after she got home sometimes I laugh at how miserable she gets no I'm not crazy I just don't like her that much it pains me to say that I hate to see her not running she loves doing that so when I think of what's going on in her Head I overflow sometimes I wish that she could just be taken away I guess there's really nothing I can do about it though she's my little sister I remember when my mom first told me she was pregnant with her I didn't really know how the birth cycle work so I begged and begged for mom not to have her I promised that I would be good thinking that she was trying to replace me I think that's one of the reasons why I hate Elizabeth so much or not maybe it's just the fact that she's loud maybe it's just the fact that she plays around maybe it's just a fact that when I walk around there's bits and pieces of her clothes or makeup or shoes it's annoying I hate everything about her and I know I know all this stuff includes a female not always but most I'm not saying I hate my mom cuz I don't I love my mom I could die for her but just Elizabeth she kills me inside she is a rotting virus that needs to be destroyed I'm not saying I'm going to kill her or anything why would I do that it would be a good idea im capable I never would ever do that I'll just leave it up to the gods themselves don't really believe in them but I'll leave it up to them maybe by just a miracle she'll get hit by a car one day