My name is Jay. I graduated from art school. Now I live with my boyfriend for more than 7 years and my heartbreaking story starts at the 8th anniversary.

10 day's before my 8th anniversary with my boyfriend (Jiu)this morning it rained so hard I was with jiu planning to buy an apartment for us to stay when we got married later even though we knew it was impossible, because we were a man ...(Jiu) Jay we can't go outside if raining like this, should we go later ? (Jay) *nods* up to you and also i'm lazy went out i have no strength cuz last night how many time you did to me ... I replied while hugging jiu on the bed, Jiu smiling while cares my head softly and we're continue sleeping cuz the rain didn't stopthe day was getting more and more we slept so comfortably under the raindrops .. jiu gets out of bed and cooks and prepares for us, jiu always spoil me he never lets me do anything he always says "Jiu invites Jay to stay with Jiu not to protect me but Jiu who will always take care of Jay and love Jay to death which separates "(Jiu) " Jay wake up... lunch is ready.. come eat and also its afternoon already until when you gonna sleep? " jiu calls me over and over again but this is where I have the most difficulty when told to wake up. jiu spoiled me so much that I became lazy Jiu spoiled me more than my own mother sometimes I think what if one day me and jiu split up how I continue to live without jiu. JIU: jay.. jay.. jay... wake up , jiu walks into the bedroom and sits next to me while stroking my head gently "wakeup jay we eat" jiu kisses my forehead gently. I smiled and opened my eyesJAY: i don't want to eat i am not hungry .. i replied jiu while looking at him with cute face JIU : you want jiu be sad ? JAY: *shakes head* nope jay never wants see jiu sad *smiles* Jiu: then you must wake up now JAY: carry me jiu also carries me to take me to the bathroom and take off my clothes and bathe me, at this time I feel like a sick person who can't do anything that should be helped by a husband on the other side of happiness because for 7 years with jiu, jiu always treat me well

JIU: when you will grow up? How if i die before you! Who will took care of you if not yourself

I turned to jiu while holding both jiu cheeksJAy: "jiu do not ever talk of death, if we have someone to die so Jay is more likely to die, because Jay is unable to live without jiu" and my tears dripping, jiu wiping tears that fell on my cheeks then hugged me JIU: jiu will never let Jay go first, because jiu too can't live if jiu has to lose jayafter bathing and eating jiu doing work with his laptop as usual jiu type of person who works hard, while unemployed like me just writing stories with my laptopJiu: its dark already, jay what you want for dinner ? Jay: jiu also know jay never picky at a food so jay ok with anything..after dinner I immediately went to lie down in bed while jiu clean up our former dinner .. for a moment I felt useless, I wanted to help jiu take care of house affairs but I could not do anything sometimes I thought would jiu bored with childish attitude me?

Next day ( day-2 before my 8th anniversary) as usual when he woke up in the morning jiu was already there beside me he had gone to work and prepared everything for me first before he went to work ..as usual boring days, because I just sat at home waiting jiu came home from work, today jiu came home early and he brought his office friend home and introduced him to me*door bell* i walk towards the door and opens door for jiu with happy face as usual whenever jiu comeback i will be happy after bored whole day..Jiu: how was you day ? Ask jiu while walk iñside the house with his friendsJay: bored as usual I replied while close the door Jiu: ah jay this my colleague at office I smile to jiu friend and he also smiled to me Lay : Hi, jay i am Lay jiu friends jiu always talking about you...Jay: really? Lay: yeah .. andturns out you're cuter than what jiu tellsAnd i blushed with lay wordsJiu: enough lay don't seduce my boyfriend Jiu pull me and hold my waist Lay: oh ho what a possessive boyfriend you are (lay teased jiu)

after the day that lay visited my house he often came when jiu was or was not at home to accompany me, jiu also believed in lay because lay might not be gay like us.(Days-9) this is the ninth day before my 8th anniversary and this is the beginning of a tragedy that will make me sad.this afternoon jiu went to shop for home needs and a few minutes jiu away from home lay came to visit.*door bell* Jay: wait (i walk towards the door) have you forgotten something jiu? Lay: oh jiu not at home? Where did he go ? Its sunday no work Jay: lay ~~ i thought jiu *smiles awkwardly* Jiu go groceries , come in layLay: thanks ( he walk inside the house) so i can wait him here right? Jay: hehehe *smile annoyed* it is your first time come here ? Why need ask permission? Lay laughing after teased me ..