Mummy, mummy Elinore' cried out loud the teacher said that am very wise see I drew my family does it look nice? Yes of course dear, it looks quite lovely, said her mother.

She then said I told the teacher once I grow up I will build a very nice house for you and sister. Her mother then pecked her on her cheek and said of course dear I will be waiting for my big house now it is time for you to take a birth Eli let's go now.

*These were the memories Eli had of her mother being nice to her .

She woke up from her deep dreams she had been having and continued crying from where she had ended last night. She'd gotten used to crying herself to sleep she was ten years now today was her birthday. And she knew back then could never turn back.

She got up from her bed went to look at herself in the mirror and said if all only I could visible in your eyes mom I would give up everything I have only I was perfect. She looked at her fat self in the mirror, her short black hair, the frekles that were in her in her face and sighed if only I was. She went to the bathroom washed her face and cleaned her so no knew she was crying.

She went to the kitchen washed dinner is utensils, prepared breakfast and mopped the house. She then went in the fridge and took out some water and poured it in a glass and drank and then she had the kettle timer go on she ran and placed the glass and switched it off and she came back and that her mother had woken up and said mom, look are you happy? trying to show her mother all the house work she had done.

Her mother looked around and said geez if you can't do anything well just let it be and you call this cleaning to me it is more like dirtening. Next time if you don't want to do anything you should leave me. She felt like she wanted to cry but couldn't do anything than keep quiet this was the one she was in but couldn't get myself if only the back in the past she would want to also know what she'd ever done to her mom. Then her mother went to the table and sat down and started eating breakfast she then said, what is this that you have cooked? it is kind of delicious said her mother.

After she ate she looked around and saw the glass. And said Why is there what if it breaks your father left me to take care of you I have felt like I gave birth to a loss I only have 2 daughters and their father. What a nonsense I gave birth to even the food you cooked was like total rubbish,and then she left for work.

This is the life Eli lived in her herself always tried to think that it was all a dream but she knew she was lieing to herself before she could pull herself together her older sister and younger sister walked in and they started showing off their new clothes. She was about to walk out when the younger one held a glass of water and poured it on herself and started shouting their father walked in and asked what had happened Then the two said Eli had tried to pour hot water on Rey's face. She tried to say it was not her but no one believes her father started shouting at her and held her and started hitting her she cried for some time before they told her to get herself and go to her room.

She had gone to her room crying silently when her father came in and pushed her on the bed he was trying to rape her she shouted her mother had already come back she shouted when her mother came in and saw her top was open then her step father hit hard in the face and said I didn't know this daughter of yours would try to seduce me I can't believe it. How pathetic.

She looked at her mother with eyes filled with tears and said he is lieing mom it was him who tried to rape me. Mom but her mom didn't listen and started cursing while hitting her.and then looked her in her room.

She only cried slowly making sure not to shout thinking of one thing if only her nightmare would end even when she knew she was lieing to herself for her it would be better than accept reality.Thinking she remembers when his father left both her and her mother, she remembers when her mother used to tell her we only have ourselves. She would always try cherish that memory knowing and lieing to herself that maybe it would all change next day.

Maybe her mom did it for reason she always thought she didn't move an inch on the ground and lay there slept as the tears dried off thinking of things now it was all her fault if a

only she had been a slender figured beautiful perfect girl maybe her mom would like her. She only whispered one thing, if only I was perfect for you mom.

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