CHAPTER 1: I AM JUST

A KID

“Hi, I am really happy and excited right now, it is first

time for me writhing my thoughts, I keep them to myself all of the time you

know? I still can’t believe Mrs. Miley trusted me and gave me you. As far as I

remember she mentioned that you have a name Rose, your name is lovely, sounds

beautiful. My name is Mia…. Mia Armstrong, I am 14 years old teenage girl,

studying in 8th grade in lyceum of science and technology of New York city.

 I can’t keep all

these emotions, I feel like they are eating me from inside and making me feel tight

up in to the chair with rope made from hot steel. They are everywhere, each

year they grow up. Home I am finding silence at school I hear devils laugh and

crazy human beings having double sided faces. these problems make me hate

myself, feeling miserable and depressed. Overthinking every word in my head all

the time, seeing them smile and after taking of their masks. I am so done with

all of that, just want to run away, from staying strong, from pretending to be

okay.

 Yes, people can be

cruel, talking things I have never done behind my back, I lost my trust to

human race forever, once I trust them they make me regret, being bullied became

my daily routine, thinking I am ugly and feeling horrible thoughts if I am

really that bad.

Not even a single soul at home, my parents are business

people, all they think about is developing their company, well I am glad they

do work that much to make my life best, I am in private school, have always

money in my pockets, and what I like about my parents is that they always trust

me. I have freedom.

 The only thing

holding me from sending my soul fly free in the sky is that I don’t want to

make all those haters happy, they don’t deserve that!” This was Mia’s first

note in her diary.

 She is thin, approximately

170 centimeters tall. Her shining, soft, long, light brown colored hair loves

to play with the wind all the time, by waving in the wind. Her eyes are just

like brilliant, grey color of eyes are really rare, they have one feature which

other eyes don’t. they laugh with her sparkling, and looking serious and deep

while thinking.

 No one ever was by

her side, being shy, kind, soft hearted, smart, and beautiful in addition made

people be jealous, she never had a feeling of her being the best. “Why am I not

good enough? “she asked all the time standing in front of mirror in the

morning. It was okay to not sleep whole night because she just couldn’t, by the

time passing features like never being okay or sure about her answers,

overthinking each word, so maybe she will get what she did wrong. But that

torture became her shadow. She had social anxiety, depression, self-esteem and

all she wanted is just some worm words from real human beings, having someone

real to trust…. have at least a reason to live.

  She is strong and

powerful, wise and kind. She never had that heartless emotions, so she could

easily ignore a homeless beggar on the street, or a kitten\puppy starving to

death.

 Mia found herself in

books, she is so innocent and naïve living in her own world when it is silent,

but when her eyes see no shine outside ocean of memories of the school life

just fill every inch of her head. “What have I done wrong?” “am I really heartless

and bad in other peoples mind” “ I don’t see a reason in this life, but if I

will go, the same day I will make people who work day and night for me to be

educated sad, and those who make me starve happy, they don’t deserve it”…..yes-

yes these are her usual thoughts, no one will ever understand her, but who

knows maybe one day everything will turn upside down and help her, give advice

about loving herself, and show her that those who dose that don’t have anything

in life that Mia has. That all of it is only jealousy of her dreams and ability

to love.

 Who knows maybe Rose

is the one who will take care of our little flower and take her out of fire

safe and sound.

CHAPTER 2: WHO ROSE

REALLY IS?

 Mrs. Miley was lovely

old woman originally from Japan. She didn’t marry and had no brothers and

sisters left. She used to work journalist and loved reading more than

everything.

 Mia’s favorite quote

from Mrs. Miley is “Cover of the book is beautiful and attractive, but you see

the truth when you open it and realize that words are more lovely and get

unreplaceable place in your mind and soul”, Mrs. Miley’s kindness was always

warming Mia every day after horrible school time.

 Mrs. Miley owned

little book shop, she was selling her books, Mia was coming to shop every day

to read new book. She even started learning Japanese recently. That shop and

books in there were like shield against dark times she had.

 It was usual Monday

evening, Mia had to stay at school to finish her science project. She was so

tired, but still visited Mrs. Miley’s book shop, as always she greeted her

lovely. Mia wanted to read something new, well since I read all of the books

which where place in the doorway of shop, she decided to go to the very corner.

While walking and looking for something, suddenly one of the books fell of the

shell, Mia got frightened so bad and after about 2 minutes was breathing hard,

and after at herself.

 She lifted book up

and called Mrs. Miley at the same time. Mia didn’t see any title, and inside

book itself was empty. Mrs. Miley took book in her hands and got lost in her

memories.

Mia got worried so asked:

-        Mrs. Miley are you feeling okay?

-        Oh yes honey, just remembered the origin and

history of this diary.

-        Oh really, can you please tell me, if it is not

private of course.

-        Oh darling of course, I would love. Let’s sit

there – she pointed at couches

-        Of course, why not, lemme bring some tea.

 Since Mia visited the

shop a lot, new where is everything, and generally felt herself like home. So

she poured some tea and brought it to Mr. Miley, she already was sitting and

put some candies. As always her warm smile was on her face, eyes shining. She

looked at Mia, when she sat down in front of he.

Mrs. Miley recognized fire of interest in her eyes, and

without even a pause started her story:

-        I believe and trust you my dear Mia, that’s why

I am able to talk about this diary. It is not a simple notebook like diary. It

was made around 1600s in Honshu, Japan. See these flower like decoration, they

are trapped by the lava of Fuji volcano, wooden base once was an atlas elegant

dress on her, these silver ornaments of trees was a tiny crown which she was

wearing all the time. Her name is Rose; she is my great great great

grandmother. Once when Fuji volcano had its first explosion, she used her

powers and turned into sakura, which after being cover by lava turned into this

diary, this diary and a note on leaf was found by my relatives, note said “

this is me now, please pass me to my daughter and say that she has to pass me

to her daughter and so on “ and what make this diary even more special she has

ability to answer to you, leave a comment on your thoughts. You can talk to her

on whatever topic you want. I got her from my mom back in japan, she also told

me about a miracle that may return grandma. Her words were like a riddle to me.

She said “Once you will see the reality no one can and be wise enough to

believe and smile just like a little child with naive and innocent soul, doors

will open and Rose will show herself as human one more time and take care of

you there forever in a place where no sadness and war exist only shine that

will make you happy “. I am still thinking about those words in my head, I am

pretty old now. 124 is not a small number huh- she said by looking at Mia’s

shocked face with a pure smile – I don’t have any relatives left and I see you

as my daughter, I wish you trust and believe me as much as I do and will take a

good care of Rose

-        A……ar…are-re you giving me this priceless for

you, diary

-        Yes, you deserve, your soul is pure and you have

something that no one has a dram and kindness, you are the strongest human

being I met in my lifetime. And yes I do know what you are going through,

people became really cruel, don’t they?

Mia’s mind, heart, body, soul felt something she hasn’t felt

in years…...happiness. feeling of being in security and trust, tears of

happiness and finally stop being strong, just let yourself to be free from the

case that life trapped her in forever.

Mrs. Miley smiled and came closer to her, hugged and

whispered:

-        Everything is okay, you are safe, you always

have me okay? No matter what I will never leave your side. Come on relax, you

already have two people to share your wounds, me and Rose. Don’t be ashamed of

showing your weakness.

-        I am just really tired and sick of it-  Mia replied after a while

After drinking some tea and having short pep-talk, Mia took

Rose with herself and brought home. She was so worried to write something and

wanted to believe that magic exists even though there is no scientific proof of

that. After making her first note she didn’t wait for reply because she thought

it was just legend or myth.