I always thought that maybe you were the missing piece of my life. I thought you will help me in redeeming myself. But dreaming with open eyes hurt right? You made me realize that. Being surrounded by your family, friends, well wisher and still feeling alone, do you understand that feeling? Do you know that feeling? I thought that maybe you were the person who will fill that void in my life. But you made it bigger instead. You were my life but you destroyed mine instead. I am carrying a memory of you inside me. But maybe it's finally the time to let that memory die.

Just compromise! compromise compromise was the word I hear the most. You are stone hearted, you are selfish was what everyone told me. But can't I be selfish for just once? Don't I deserve that? I never wanted to share you coz you were my most precious one. Was it so wrong of me?

you hurted me in the worst possible way

but still I couldn't return you the same hurt

you brought colors to my plain life

yet at last you left it tasteless

I began feeling with your entry

but it hurted me in last

Never getting the required love made me selfish for that when I finally received it. I crushed my self esteem for you but now not anymore 💔. I guess finally it's the time to let go. What you have taught me is to never search for your happiness in others. From now I will be my own happiness. I will never let anyone become so important in my life that they could get the right to destroy me completely. I am done for once and all and I mean it. Maybe God introduced us so that we can be a temporary solace to each other . Just temporary not permanent. You helped me pick up my scattered pieces and yet you were the one who completely scattered in me a way that I couldn't be assembled again. But I have decided to not lament anymore 😕. Whenever I saw the meteors I always wished for us to be together. But I guess it was wrong of me to wish for that. You said I was the most important in your life but why you made me feel so insignificant? Was I that undeserving? I yearned for you truly and I loved you deeply ❤. But I guess you couldn't value that. You just threw me out of your life so easily that as we throw the daily garbage out. After encountering all these I am now feeling that maybe you never loved me. Maybe it was all a play to land me in your trap and alas you were successful. I lost my life most precious possession 😪 💔

Your words will always accompany me. Your memories will haunt me till the time I will not let it go. Don't worry you will be an irreplaceable part of my life but in the past.

My alarm began ringing. I woke up and it was 5: 30 am. I went to bathroom and freshened up. It was a usual day for me. By usual I mean boring. After freshing up I checked my phone and there was a message from him. It made me happy He was my happiness dose 💕. I checked the message and it read I am not coming to school today make an excuse for me as you usually do I frowned seeing the message. Leaving as it is I went for breakfast 😋 and then went to my school. As you could have guessed till now I was living alone. And yeah living alone has uts own advantages. You could live your life on your own terms. School was 10-15 minutes away from my home and thus I preferred walking. Reaching in school I directly went to my class . Putting my backpack on the seat I sat on my seat and slept. After half an hour bell rang and I woke up before the teacher arrived . It was not so interesting day for me as my best friend was absent today. Our class teacher entered who taught us accountancy . She was quite strict. Like this time passed and breaking arrived. Lina one of my good friend came to me.

Lina: hello iti, you are down today! What happened?

me: no, nothing happened.

lina: is it because aaren didn't came to class today?

me: yeah he messaged me in the morning saying he was sick.

lina: see you are my important friend that's why I am telling you this. Aaren isn't sick but he went with Lisa and his group of friends to picnic . I saw the Instagram post of Lisa earlier in the morning.

me: Then why he didn't told me? Am I not his friend? I was not asking him to take me with him. Why is he always so ashamed of me? I really don't like this feeling.

lina: I have told you many a times to clear things with him. But you always postpone it.

me: I don't have the courage to do it. What if he stop being friend with me? I will be left with no one. He is one of my important one and he is literally the only person who understands me and with whom I can share my thoughts with him.

lina: are you being too coward?

me: no I am just too afraid too loose him . Anyway lina let's end this talk here as our next teacher can come anytime and you do know him right?

The further day went too slowly , slower than tortoise . School was over and I reached my home. After going into my room I found out that my phone was continuously chiming with the notifications sound . I took my phone in the hand and there was a message from aaren reading call me! I was confused as he always called me whenever he wanted to . But he never texted like this .

I called him. He replied with an enthusiastic hello. I said hey. He said I just wanted to inform you that I am on a picnic with my friends. I said you don't have any obligations to explain to me. He was dumbstruck because I never talked to him in this tone. He explained that iti see I know you don't like Lisa and her group of friends that's why I didn't invited you. I said I never wanted to come with you in the first place . So just stop your nonsense 🙄. He said dear you know na Lisa is my friend and I can't neglect her like that. She is very nice and it will hurt her. I said so you ignoring her will hurt her? Then what about me? You always ignore me on the pretext of meeting her. You have literally called me after 14-15 days. Am I that unimportant? He sighed 😕 and said you know I care about you the most then why are you being this insecure? I said are you labeling my feelings as insecurity? You know how important you are for me . Whether you like it or not but I am very possessive about you and I hate to share. He fondly replied feelings are mutual iti. And I love you from the core you should know that. I didn't invited you today because I didn't wanted to spoil your mood You Literally don't like them. So what is the point of engaging you with them . I just wanted to avoid any discomfort you could have gone through if you met them. I plainly said you know Lisa like you then what's the point of sticking up with her? He said I couldn't fathom your hate for Lisa. She is a nice and kind from heart . And you have never reciprocated my love. I Saud despite knowing my family situation you are blaming me? You of all the person know that I didn't received any love from my parents as I was the girl child. My surroundings was such that I hated the word love with a vengeance And yet when I am trying so hard to change for you so that I could say the magical words to you, you are here blaming me. I don't want to talk anymore. Enjoy with your so called best friend Lisa and leave me alone. Saying that I switched off my phone and went to sleep.

I do have this weird habit of sleeping whenever it is too difficult for me to handle my feelings . But that day sleep also deceived me and thoughts about aaren was roaming in my head . On the other side aaren was devastated . He never wanted to hurt you with his words. He just wanted to make you understand that though Lisa was his good friend you were his little one; the most closest to his heart. His mouth slipped and he regretted it He never wanted to use your insecurity against you. Sighing he hugged your photo frame and a drop of tear left his eye.