Life 4 years ago was harsh and devastating when I saw my mum being attacked by some random guys. They all had black suits and one guy had this bomb in his hand. And he threw it at my house. I didn't dare to glance at my mum or house. There was a big bang heard. My dad hugged me tightly and whispered into my ear ' be nice to everyone be just like your father ' and with that, I hear a gunshot.

4 years past and now I am an adult I need to stop thinking about the ugly past. I get out of the taxi and hand out the money to him. I whisper a thank you towards him, he only nods to me and drives away from my apartment.

I make my way into the front door

I smile towards the neighbour that has known me for 4 years.

TIMEPASS

I hear a loud voice and a lot of banging on the door. I take a big breath in and deliberately walk into the kitchen. I look around for a knife.  I grab the biggest knife I ever had and walk slowly towards my front door. I open the door. This guy looked at me with sympathy and kindness in my eyes for no reason. "May I help you?" I say pointing the knife towards him like a crazy woman. 

"I need help little girl. I am stabbed in my stomach please help me" I look around behind him I don't want nobody to see this or hear me. I reminded myself of what my father said when he died. I take a big breath once again "Get inside and stay on the couch I will get you some water and some medicine " I whisper loud enough for him to hear.  "Thank you," he says.

I position him on the sofa.

I get the medicine from my bathroom and I got a water bottle from the fridge.  His eyes were on me which made it for me hard. 

"Drink this, " I say not glancing at him. He has big blue eyes and brown but blonde hair. he looks at me but I don't.

"Sweety, did you put something in this water?" He smiles at me.

"I had put cocaine and a little bit of heroin, does it taste nice?" I say in sarcasm.

"Yes it does " he leans back on the sofa and sighs.

"Do you need anything else?"

I say sitting next to him on the sofa.

"Yes," he says.

"What do you need?" I smile gently.

"I need your name and a phone to call my dad to tell him I'm fine " he looks at me. 

His injury is totally fine to me. He has a little blood dripping down but the cut isn't that deep.

"I will bring you a phone my name is Ava " I smile politely.

I get up from the sofa and get my phone from the kitchen counter.  I walk slowly to him and sit next to him." here you go " I say. "Sorry for not introducing myself I am Mathew, Mathew romano," he says as he takes the phone out of my hands. This name sounded so familiar.

I only nod and give him intimacy so he can talk to his father. I went inside my room and  I get on my bed and look at the wall.

Ava is a family friend. Her father was a good man to us and his wife was like a second mother towards me. Ava after the explosion lost some memories all this was because of some stupid money that they had to pay.

"Yes, dad she is fine don't worry " I smile as I hear my dads worried voice on the other end. Our call ended fast and I am looking for Ava. I open some doors which only shows a big bathroom another guest room and then I see the big name on the door AVA. I think she might have a roommate and if she doesn't have a roommate maybe I will move here. I knock on the door but when I hear nothing I open the door slowly and I see sleeping ava.

I make my way towards the big bed and I look at her beautiful face. One minute was over and I take the blankets and cover her cold body.

TIME

          PASS

"Mathew good morning " I hear a sweet voice coming from the kitchen. I look at her and I smile sweetly at her. She has this big blacktop and her hair thrown in a ponytail. She also has shorts on her.

"Morning sweety," I say as I am making my way towards the kitchen counter.

I have a question for you Ava it's not that big " I say trying to look at her.

"Of course go ahead " she smiles as she puts a cup of coffee in front of me.

"I see that you live alone...do you need a roommate?" I say.

She looks at me and smiles at me.

"Actually yes I need a roommate I had been putting everywhere information about this place but no one wants to," she says looking up and sighs the tapping of the nails on the cup stops and she looks at me one more time.

"You should be my roommate but there is going to be some rules Mr."  Her smile fades away and she sits on the chair that was in front of me.

I nod to her so she can start her rules.

"number one -no inviting friends after the clock hits 1 AM.

NUMBER 2- no swearing

Number 3 - you have to pay 500 per month and I will pay my half.

Number 4 -no drugs " she says as she was counting them on her fingers.

"You remind me of my friend," I say as I am smiling at her like a stupid guy.

"What do you mean? I'm a mean?" She looks at me worried.

"Nope, you are sweet and kind just like my friend," I say with a chuckle.

"Well that's good I guess I have to go to work " she smiles at me.

"At what do you work, " I say as I sip from the hot coffee.

"I have my cafeteria. Not that far from here just a 30-minute walk" her brown eyes are on me trying to find a response in me. I nod at her and put my head down. She changed a lot.  I can feel it and see it. She used to be the bubbly and funny girl that had a lot of sarcasm in her.

see him looking at me but I don't do anything.  I turn and walk away from the kitchen " I am going to change " I say to him. He responds with an 'okay.

I go into my room and I changed into a cute outfit. I have blue mom jeans on me and a white shirt.

TIMEPASS

It's late, I need only to make sure that everything is clean for tomorrow. I make sure that everything is perfect but I hear the bell go.  "It's closed," I say to the big guy that had a black suit on. I am nervous.  the hair on my back makes me shiver constantly.  "Remember, me?" He says as he takes a gun out of his blazer. In my neck, there is now a knot that makes me stutter and cannot speak properly.  " I don't think so " I stutter. The only thing that separates both of us is the front counter.

"Why don't you remember me?" His voice is filled with annoyance and arrogance.

"Ha I don't think we met before, " I say to him. But I think that makes him angrier. He looks for something in his black blazer. He pushes some photos to me. I hitch. Hesitantly pulling the photos to me.  Scared. That's what I feel. I look at him. 

"You...YOU ARE THE FUCKING IDIOT WHO KILLED MY PARENTS?"  I shout at him and bang my hand on the desk. My eyes are filled with tears. "But did you ever ask why silly?" He says as he crosses his arms.

"They borrowed some money from us and...they didn't give it back to us, of course, we had to kill them. But after we killed your parents you got a hit in the head. I left you alone there until the cops came they didn't find anything about us so they didn't know what to say to you when you'll wake up so they kept it a secret." He smirks an evil smirk is evil.

I stay paralysed but the tears didn't stop falling from my eyes." anyways goodbye  I hope you have a good night " with that he left. I stay and stay until I hear the doorbell once again.

I see Mathew looking at me with worried eyes. "They did it. They killed my parents they took their lives. I DON'T KNOW EVEN WHAT IS THE REAL TRUTH. " I have a breakdown. I cry and cry. I feel big arms hugging me. I don't know how to feel.

I am devastated I feel numb I feel like nobody. Did they kill my sweet parents? how am I still alive? Why didn't they kill me when they had a chance? It hurts. It's not the price to cry now. What's in the past stays. even if it means to leave someone who you adored. I take big breaths and  I whisper so many things that I forgot about. "I am here ok I'm here ava please stop crying "Mathews's voice echoed in my head but I didn't say anything. I let the ugly dark take me.