<She excitingly says while staring at the the beautiful sun set, the orange-golden light shinning on her face, the boat is going to the other side to reach the shore she was standing on edge>

<She jokingly says while laughing>

<He also smiles and says it jokingly or in a flirty way>

<She feels shy and looks away in embarrassment>

<After having a beautiful sudden date which was completely unplanned they finally reached the shore and were back at the city or the cage>

<Time passed by till they reach the shore and the orange sun is gone and full moon has appeared on the sky>

<While she said this her black deep eyes were staring at the golden moon excitement all over her face but covered with the mask, he looks at her with adoring eyes of his and says with a smile>

<Sure he was telling the truth, truth is whatever the hearts believes and he believes in his words and way of thinking>

<They were waiting at a bus stand, as the moon has come out it was getting darker and late, stress and fear starts to take over Jiya's mind>

<Maybe her face is covered but her eyes were enough to read that she was worried, and he was worried for her too>

<She haven't eaten since the morning of course she didn't tell him because she knows he would bring food for her on spot and would make her eat as if she is a baby who needs to be fed, she didn't wanted to trouble him so she didn't say that she is suffering from weakness>

<A sudden chill runs through her nerves of her brain and she suddenly looses her balance>

<The girl who was smiling and laughing a minute ago says in a unconditionally weak voice while having trouble in breathing>

<For her she was trying hard to see and stand on place getting hold of her own self but no she couldn't see a thing even if her eyes were wide open she couldn't see anything and her head started spinning and she couldn't stand still at all>

<The bus they were waiting for arrives at the moment>

<Luckily they found two seat right next to each other, maybe the moon was shining on their luck>

<Both of them sits together, he noticed how weak she is at the moment>

<A tear drops from her eyes>

<She was breathing heavily and couldn't keep her eyes open it's so obvious that she doesn't have much strength left>

<He himself connects earphones to her favorite playlist let's her choose the song and plays it for her>

<And puts the earphones on her ears with carefulness>

<She speaks in a way that he just obeys her as he doesn't know how to say no to her>

<The voice of one of the most precious angel of God itself echos and touches every depth of the hearts, he who means the world to her sings with his deep ocean alike deep voice, finer than the wine, starts making her drunk in love>

🎵🎶Travel with me Don't you wanna get away Don't you wanna run away I can take you to anywhere Ride with me anywhere Four AM in the night Sunrise is on the way Just take a hold on me Cause I'm ready🎵🎶

<It was like a scene right out of a K-drama, a melodious voice who's owner was her soul's protector singing the one of the most romantic love song and her man taking care of her as if he was written by a woman>

🎶🎵And the light will guide us to a million stars My love, just hold my hand In the end its you and I And clouds that disappear So hold on tight🎵🎶

<His soft touches on her forehead, her neck and on her ears feels like touches of feathers on her skin>

🎶🎵And in the end I wanna show you what happiness And show you all my colours to you Just tell me you love me then I could give everything And that will be the best part of me Oh oh...🎵🎶

<He holds her with his right arm and also keeps his right hand's palm side on her forehead so her head doesn't move and she could stay soundly without disturbance>

<They reaches the bus stop, and both of them gets off it, he holds her bag and makes sure to take care of her until her dad comes and takes her home safely>

<And her dad arrives and she waves bye at him and goes back to home (not really a home)>

<later at night>

<Tears falling down on her cheeks and loneliness took over heart, it's almost so heavy to carry it all together and a sound of receiving text message arrives>

<After she comes out of the bathroom, wiping her tears she looks at the screen while changing her clothes>

✉️

<She replies him>

<And then they starts to talk>

<After wishing each other good night, it's time for her prayers after she was done with prayers she talks to the moon, or her self or anyone without the presence of that person>

<Her heart sincerely prays, she acts so strong but at the end she can't hide her true face from the universe, she is afraid, worried, stressed to loose what she has right now also grateful for it at the same time>

<and finally she falls asleep with all the marks of tears on her face>

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<After a few days>

<Jiya suffered from severe weakness yet she kept on hiding it taking pills and continued to go to college because if not the college she can't meet him or see him at all, and she was afraid since the pandemic isn't over yet and positive cases were increasing again she was afraid that any given time the lock down will start again and she won't be able to see him for months and months, so every single moment is precious for her and she doesn't wanna miss it>

<The night before Christmas>

<Silly girl begged God for like crazy, of course Christmas is a very special day and this him is also a very special person too, she always saw her friends or other people going out on Christmas with their special ones, she may have never expressed it but yeah she also use to feel lonely and use to curse at her soulmate like where is he, how come he is still so far away, still not coming and taking her loneliness away, that she is waiting for the moment when she could spend her Christmas with her special one too>

<On Jiya's phone>

✉️

<On the day of Christmas>

<She again and again asked for the permission>

<And her dad gave her permission at last>

<She texted him>

<but no reply came, as he wasn't even online>

<But she sure got lots of texts from her friends>

<and many of her friends texted her>

<The smile on her face was priceless, she waited for this so long>

<She went in front of her table and looked at her beloved ones>

<She then called him since he wasn't coming online>

<and it said the person you are calling is currently busy please try later or wait>

<He always calls her back in a few minutes so she thought he'll call, she started to dress up as she always gets late on their dates, So she thought this time she'll get ready early so that today she won't get late>

<She was putting foundation and lip balm on her face and talking to the wall, oops talking with her husbands who's pictures were on the wall>

<She was smiling, making faces, she tried on 10 to 12 different outfits, One second she giggled another second she talked with her boys or with the pictures but she was nervous and excited for her first Christmas with her first ever boyfriend>

<But then her excitement started to fade she waited and waited but he didn't call back>

<One hour passed, two hours passed, hours after hours passed but no he didn't call>

<Neither texted back>

<Since Jiya didn't got out of her room for long, Samuel also came to check up on her>

<He immediately got out of the room>

<She was trying to study but she couldn't, she tried to eat and sleep but she couldn't>

<She ended up listening to some songs then saw an episode of run BTS>

<She finally smiled yet it didn't stop hurting>

<Her parents called her to have dinner she said no, as she lost her appetite>

<She looked at the screen and said>

<Sure BTS brought a smile on her face but she was worried, what must have happened that he didn't reply or called back>

<Her another classmate called her and she picked up>

<Sure she is too embarrassed to say that he is not picking up her call either>

<her words were like salt on wounds>

<She hung up>

<Thousands of worries crossed her mind why he is not picking up anyone's call>

<She didn't wanted to annoy him by calling again and again, but she couldn't stop herself from worrying>

<so she called him again>

<He didn't pick up>

<and finally after a whole day he called her back>

<She immediately picked up>

<Out with the boys?>

<If he wanted to go out with his friends, why he asked her out so many times this whole week? she was worried like hell, even if he was out with the boys he could've called her ones to notify her that he is going out with his own friends, that she doesn't have to worry or over think anything, she got depressed and whole evening she cried while over thinking why he was ignoring her, did she do something wrong again? did she made him annoyed? is he out with other girls?, is he done with her so that he wanted to have a peaceful evening without her presence or did something bad happened to him? is he sad? questions and questions and thousand of insecurities and worries crossed her mind making it hurt like hell yet he only called her back now just to say he was out with the boys>

<But it's her own fault right? it's her own mind which over think, there's nothing wrong with what he did>

<Her voice started to cracking up>

<So she cut the call>

<and she cried more, it was really a worse Christmas ever for her>

<later he texted>

✉️

<Jiya was shocked>

<it hurt, it really hurt>

<Was it a technical issue, or he actually deleted the logs and pretending to not receiving a call, or it's all a flow of negative thoughts in Jiya's mind due to her own toxic mind>

<Jiya didn't know who's fault it was but she knew her sensitive heart hurt a lot, and her mental and emotional stability is gone, as a girl suffering from mental illness littlest things hurts and effects her a lot>

<She cried whole night to sleep>

<She sang her heart out>

<She was praying begging crying to God, that she wants to feel okay as her dad slapped her again out of anger her mom called her useless too>

<Days after days passed>

<And her mental health has gotten worse than ever before>

<Jiya had been always fighting against suicidal thoughts>

<But she never reached the state where she googled easiest way to die>

<But she did today>

<She was standing on the rooftop of the building>

•From Cloud's POV•

<He was too hurting still he was more worried about her>

<Jiya came down from the rooftop as thought, she'll be fractured not dead from that little height. So, she locked herself in her room she was laying on the floor>

<She hears the sound of notification>

<She sees the texts from Cloud and replies him with "I am okay don't worry">

<She chokes on her voice and her eyes starts to shower tears of misery and she calls them, them who is the only ones she wants to save her>

<It was hurting and hurting, only a person who struggles with their mental illness can now how it feels to be like caged in a body where your mind both wants you to die and live>

<She looses her consciousness and voices starts to echo>

"If someday a guy breaks your heart, I want to be there for you"

🎵Mmm, please stay alive, yeah🎵

🎵When did things start to go wrong? I can't remember at all I whisper as I hide myself in this small room Darkness is my only friend (Only friend) My hand reaching out for salvation Am I strange? A room stained with blood Please, somebody save me🎵

🎵Hide in the moonlight There ain't no miracles My hopes are humble Hide in the moonlight I'm not asking for a lot But I guess it's too much🎵

<Her lips moves on her own and she whispers a name under her breath which can be barely heard>

🎵Please, you stay alive (Woah-oh-oh, woah) Please, you stay alive (Woah-oh-oh, woah) Please, you stay alive🎵

<The days where it all begain, it use to hurt but she had her medicine>

<She was afraid back then to still she took braver steps each day>

<She fell before too, but they taught her how to land>

<She was in misery before too, they saved her>

•An year ago•

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Hi guys!! I know I don't write regularly these days, And I barely make a chapter, I was caught up in some problems and didn't had what it takes to write, this story is not basically a BTS fan fiction but it is a story of BTS army and basically the people she loves, youngsters who struggles from mental health issues, toxicity we face in society, real life issues and also relationship and society too I hope you all like it💜