“Hello everyone my name is Mina age thirty now.” I am here dancing with the man I call my spouse. "how dearly do I love him? I would say I love him in all ways and in everyway." dancing with him, now I have

purple hair and blue eyes with caramel-colored skin, but in the beginning I didn't always look how I do now. my voice is

soft and gentle, warm like the kiss of the sun on your face in the hottest time of the day. I find myself dancing, lost in thought.

“I think about how I got here as I dance and sing in his arms.

It wasn’t easy getting here.” i thought to myself as I

went on reminiscing about my life. “You know that not everyone sees nor can they even comprehend your way of thinking

all the battle everyone fights.” thinking as he spun me in his

arms looking over his gorgeous dark skin as he pulled me in close,

chuckling as I stared at him, speaking sweetly into his arms as I

looked at our feet moving. “You know I am glad we met the way we

did,” I smirked as I looked over him, and he is a few inches taller than

me. I held him tight, our hands crossed and fingers linked.

his rough hair that would tangle and grow hazardly ontop of his head. Long facial hair that is scruffy looking. I know he is stronger just by looking at him but the roughness of his hair looked like a large piece of cotton was ontop of his head, his body built and muscular but shapely

and soft to the touch like a soft bear to me. “I am sorry I am

not as graceful and as beautiful as the other girls.” he smiled at

me and moved my hair out of my face as he would shortly kiss my cheek, his

hand touching the side of my face as i stared at him. His voice

deeper and gentle tone of voice grabbed at my whole body , his hand at my waist to pull me in

close. “You don’t have to apologize for anything, Everything about you is

perfect to me.” my eyes water as we dance in time our feet tapping along the floor

hearts beating with the steps of our feet. I smiled as he reached out for my hand “You know without you I might never have gotten out

alive.” my eyes watered as I held onto him tightly. “You bring

the sun to my life and make it easier to breathe when you are even

just around.” I have on Shorts with tights under them and wore a pair

of plain black and white shoes, a tank top that shows off my tattoos. my

arms are the story of my life, they are painted with roses and vines. Every rose a different color, and every color for something I have struggled with in my life and each rose of a different meaning and depth to my personality that make me who I am.

The things that weighed heavy on my heart everyday , every colored each on the way it made me feel . “You know why you are the white rose on

my body?” I said as he teased me with a smile back at me and with a coy smile

facetious looked into my eyes. “Is it because I am perfect like

the heavens?” A light smile ran across my face “Oh you would

like to think that, wouldn’t you? Maybe I won't tell you?” He -

leaned into my ear “You know a while ago you wouldn’t have even

told me you would have been hiding herself and not accepting who you

are Mina.” I can feel my face red as we danced and suddenly i was finding

myself moving from him trying to get a little distance from him.

“Well you know Glenn I wouldn’t want another day without you now,

I am fully in your debt in this lifetime and in the next so you

better find me the next time. Other I might not have the courage or strength to find you.” he smiled ”Well you aren’t

allowed to die without me so don’t you even worry about it love I

will find you time and time again. After all wasn't it not long ago that you and I got married?” his hand pulling me back to the

floor.”Well let's talk and dance and you can tell me everything over

again so you can come back to me, I know how well you get stuck in

your mind, why don't you tell me so I can remind you of how beautiful

you are to me once again.” I held him firm in my hands

without a tear in my eyes but a shaken voice heavy with experience

that would come out in several emotional tones. “Well, then why

don’t we start with the beginning?” His hand was firm in my and

squeezing mine as he twirled me back on the floor for a dance, feeling my legs move with ease into his body“Keep

your eyes on me while you think, you know I am here for you.” I

nodded as she was dancing with him. “How did I get here, how

did I find myself after getting lost? How many times did I search for

someone like you and you were there?” the thoughts of my life

running through my mind as I keep thinking about the past and of

all the things I went through. You know life wasn’t always like

this...It started soft and in a loving home with morals and dignity. I

have two sisters and a mother and a father. I just want to scream out

all of these emotions out of my body as if I was expelling curses out of

my body. So I guess I should start from the beginning and how I have seen

things and how I thought when things through as they happened to me. You could say I

was a normal girl living in the suburbs, a small

city in the state of a great

nation that I am growing up in. After all, what happened to me could be happen at

any time, to anyone, and any place. Would you make the same decisions as

I? Who are you to judge but perhaps you will learn a thing or two

from my story and learn why love and life is a beautiful mess and it

is worth fighting for.

I grew up in a household of two sisters Bridget and Alina. Both of

them are pretty beyond compare I can't even compare, My sister Alina

blessed with both beauty and a fine figure and loved by most she came

across. Dark brown hair enriched by the sun-kissed with red

highlights when out in the light, you know I just wished to be like

her. Bridget, popular light brown hair fair skin, light brown eyes

a small figure, and sporty, popular even among men my age. All of

us sisters two years apart Alina the eldest and Bridget the middle,

I well me the youngest. My sisters would tell you I am the favorite

of the sibling but that isn't what I saw or even felt at the time

frowning up I just wanted to be included in their activities in any

way shape or form. Growing up with my mother who was always home

tending to us. I remember our homemade of brick that was connected

to several houses, my grandparents living right next door to us. I

wished for friends love and family just like everyone else, I strive

to love myself and work on myself. Anything to not be alone, anything

to just be there. I remember growing up with my first friend ever

Nicola. Now she was a gift a friend, still, a friend if we ever

talked, but Sadly her mother moved and once she moved It was as if

fate had other plans and friends for me to make, she taught me to

laugh and enjoy every moment you have in life you might never get to

see a friend again. I remember her birthday party with all her new

friends as we were there and I knew that she was going without me,

and day by day the time we spend together would be less and less the

further she moved and there was no way for us to get in touch after

all this was a time before cell phones and the interwebs, or a time

before I was able to have them for myself after all they were

expensive in the beginning. So with that my first friend was gone.

So I hung out with my parents more Tye and Alicia and I would often

go to my parents when not in school. I loved every moment of the time

I spent with them even though our different interests. I just loved

spending time with them, I didn't have to be alone and I could spend

time with them to remember for a lifetime. Somehow things didn't

turn out the way I wanted. I guess In the time I was naive and

thought that if I loved everyone I came across just maybe, just maybe

someone would want to stick around with me and discover life

together. I would have given up anything just to be by their side. I

now understand what they were saying to me but sometimes their

actions made things worse than they were supposed to be. I remember

the first time I was in a group of friends, it was funny you know

there was a whole group of us. Tabatha, Devon times three, legit

three devons’ one we called Warren because that was her last name

Devon the responsible one and Devin the pretty one in the group who I

thought we were the closest, and Tevon the strong one, who always

said what needed to be said. I finally had a group that wasn’t

family and I too would have family and friends. Something was missing

and I didn’t know what it was. So I continued to grow with them and

have fun not even interested in boys like that till Steven, but

sadly he liked Devin so I knew I didn’t want to mess with him

because she liked him too. I knew it would be just like my sister she

too would grow apart from us and depart her ways with him like Alina

did when I was growing up. Now Alina had Jim and he was tall and pale-skinned,

but a little bit of a bad boy. But Alina was willing to

catch the wrath of mother and father's displeasure for his love for

her. Though I have little knowledge of how they got together I just

felt like I dint want to intrude on her love life like that. Never

the less I just wanted to be part of the group even if it meant things

were going to fall apart slowly. I watched it before I knew the

feeling that was there even Devin told me and I knew how she felt

about him. Though I felt like he was a player, He was just a few

inches taller than her and he was a playboy but he was accepted into

the group because Devin liked him. The group grew and we would walk

and go down the halls together and go past lockers to each classroom dictated

in specified teachers for certain classes. The floors

of our school were white and blocked out in small patterns with an

occasional black square. What I didn't expect was him, Ray, now he

was a handsome one to me. He was dark and camel-colored with hair

dark as the night sky when looking at him dark beautiful eyes that

sparkled when he looked at him. I could tell he was looking at me

differently than all the others. I thought now him, he was handsome smart

caring kind, I would have done anything to hold his hands, could this

be the beginning of love?

Ray, Ray, Ray! His name just flew off my tongue whenever the girls

were around and suddenly someone new to the group was added, Jenny

now had a friend Jessica. I never knew how she looked at Ray

because my eyes were on him. Walking down our halls He would always

cross me and I would slowly close my locker to stare at him right

when he passed and our eyes would lock for even just a moment my

breath would be taken away as if the world stopped when he walked by.

But one morning I stopped and I looked at him and stopped him stood

right in front of him “Ray!” I remember speaking sweetly to him

as if my words were honey to him. “Ray wants to walk me home with

the group?” He stopped and leaned into my ears making them hot and

red as I held my books in my hand. “Of course Mina. I will walk

with you home, your what like a few streets away from me?” Nodding

as he spoke to me in his tongue that was sly and sleek as satin to my

ears. “Oh well, then I guess you should walk me home make sure I am

safe walking home.” He smiled at me and I felt like just maybe

things would go perfect. I couldn't wait to see him and I was off to

choir class. Standing next to Devin with her blue eyes and blonde

soft hair. Singing and talking to her so the teacher couldn't hear

what we were saying next to each other not paying attention to

who was listening. Not realizing that this would get me into trouble

in the near future. “Devin! Guess what?” She sang back in low

tones so we could talk. “What happened Mina?” I smiled and sun

the next words of the song so clearly to only whisper in the next

beat of the song. “I finally asked him to walk me home Ray!” I

couldn't contain the joy on my face.” Oh that is good Mina, what did

he say?” turning to her and accidentally got the attention of

the class as the teacher called me out “Mina! Are you paying

attention to your tone, are you even singing the right words?”

Flushing red as I was called out in between the class “Oh sorry

Teacher my mouth was a bit dry and I lost focus.” The teacher

clapped her hands “Alright miss, Mina please get water and get

back to class.” Looking to Devin and nodding knowing that I would

tell her after getting water, I stepped out to the hall and there he

was too getting water from the fountain as well. The door slammed

behind me making my presence known he looked worried like he got

caught by a teacher then realized it was me. “Mina! Getting

water?” smiling walking slowly to him as I wore a cute printed top

and a pair of shorts with sneakers. “Oh wouldn't you like to know ,

but yes, yes am getting water. But you look like you got caught

skipping class.” I teased him as he pulled out his pass “Oh yeah

I just happen to have my pass right here little Mina, and what if I

was what are you going to do about it?” I smiled and smirked with a

face red as cherries. “Oh well then I would have, to tell you to get

back to class. I wouldn’t want you to get into trouble, you know If

you even knew what I thought about you, I bet you wouldn’t even

miss any classes.” Jessica at the door and coming out of the class,

“Mina the teacher said to hurry water shouldn’t take that long.”

I looked to her and sighed in discomfort and belief the little time I

had with him was getting cut short. Passing right in front of him to

grab water from the fountain. A quick drink as I sipped the water

through my lips was refreshing to the heat of our encounter and

embarrassment earlier, turning and tapping my pass at his chest.

“Well just remember you have to walk me home now.” winking as I

turned with a light skip knowing he was looking at me with a flushed

face as I turned to him and waved right in front of Jessica to him.

Jessica grabbed my arm “Mina what was that all about?” I was red

and stuttered. “Oh nothing just was talking to Ray, you know Ray

he's a really nice guy you know, you should like him one day maybe he

will join our group and we all can hang out together.” Jessica

looked confused and off to me her eyes looked at me with a hate I

didn't understand as she gripped at my arms hard “You know I hear

Ray is a bad boy you never know, just don’t like him promise me.”

I was confused and just nodded her statement confusing me at the

moment. “Alright, Jessica let's get back to class.”But I knew I

wouldn't give him up no matter what.