Chapter1\~ Having Family Such As Mine

“Huh, day dreaming again” Jay shakes his head thinking of how his friend ‘Mr. Handsome’ be loosing his focus the fifth time today.. and that is a new record.

On the other hand ‘Mr. Handsome’ was having a dilemma with his constant confusing but steamy dreams about a stranger that his mind subconsciously reminds him that it is the same gender as him and this was what had him in deep thoughts. As per him, he should be feeling at least concerned as he had never liked or even imagine himself with boys but disgust was so far in the back of his mind.

The first time he had dreamt of this he ignored but then he had another dream with almost the same context but different than the first. That has him thinking is he into boys now but in waking life he never felt any attraction towards any boys in school or even outside school, however this morning he bumped into someone that automatically causes him to stop in his tracks to investigate and missed him by seconds as a group of students came rushing before the last bell. Hence his predicament now...in deep thoughts about a person he bumped into.

Jay being his closest friend was the only one that dared to call him out on his bullshit and amongst their friend group he was the first ever friend he made when he moved to the country and new school. They clicked right away, as many of their interest were similar. He would never compare any of his friends as they all had a different personality and that complimented each other. Jay is as almost as tall as him shorter by a few whilst he stood at 6ft 1 with this dark and mysterious look that girls always fall for and to top it off he had a scar on the left side of his lips which adds to that. Jay on the other hand was at 6ft with the typical handsome look with bleached blond hair with his sexy man bun.

Jay kept blabbing but to ‘Mr. Handsome’ it was like he was physically present but mentally somewhere else and to Jay’s disappointment he was talking by himself. Finally he snapped his fingers in front of his friends face a couple of time to get his attention and received a couple of blinking motion from him and with an expression of a deer caught in headlights. He lets out a chuckle but couldn’t deny that he wanted to know what has got his friend this way. The next question that came from his friends mouth was the last thing he ever thought he would ever hear.

“Hey Jay, how do you know you like boys?”He did a double take and almost forgot how to breath but recovered quickly. His mind was processing the last word ...‘boys’... what did that mean. Wait!!!!!!

How does he answer that question? Did he know that he was Bi? But he never mentioned it to anyone and he has always been discreet when it comes to his encounters.!!!!???? “Huh” now it was his turn to be a deer caught in the headlights

“How did you know I liked boys too?” He ask in a quick response and did not realize that he just outed himself to his friend without even knowing.

“What??? No man, I mean like...as in a general question! Bu....t did you just say you like boys too....!!!! HA.... that has to be the best secret I’ve heard in such a long time... It’s cool though” Jay couldn’t believe it, he outed himself to his best friend unintentionally, his friend accepted him all in a minute. His faces must have shown his friend on how he went from surprised, confusion, questioning this understanding and happiness!!

With the big smile on his face he answered his confused friend with the most honest response “You think about him and want to spend time with him even if it does not include getting physical... you know what I mean!!” With that his friend was even more confused.

The bell rung signaling lunch time. Looking at their desk they realized that little to no work has been done on their project during this self study period. With a sigh both of them made their way to the upstairs cafeteria as food on Wednesday was much better than the downstairs one. Jay like usual was leading looking handsome as always and ‘Mr. Handsome’ looking like he just woke up and being his mysterious self with this hard look on his face.

Each time they walk through these familiar hallways girls and boys alike would stop and stare either being jealous or plain out drooling. Jay would flash his side smirk and flirty eyes whilst his friend would be with this hard stare not knowing that that made him more charming and girls dig that.

They finally spotted their two other friends Parker and Sun. Parker was the life of the party where as Sun would do almost everything that Parker would tell him or force him to. Parker was this tall guy with boyish look, he was considered as average as per their fan club but what he lack in visual he made it up with his personality being flirty and charming knowing what girls wanted to hear, whilst Sun was the cute one he was average height and shortest amongst the friends he was considered as the mother of the group, his girlfriend is the sweetest bringing them treats every once in a while and the friends could see how they complimented each other greatly.

Parker was stroking his jaw as if in deep thought or mostly conspiring to do something out of line again. As the other two approached the table, they noticed that Sun had a look on his face that seemed like he wanted to run away until he took notice of the two giants and let a sigh of relief with a small smile.

“Finally, some sane people” Sun exclaimed whilst motioning for the two to check on Parker’s mental state. “Yo, Parker” Jay squeezed his shoulder as to acknowledge him and asked “What are you up to again?” As he knew this kid always have some weird ideas every other day on which scenario to use to get another girl. With that Parker startled all of them when he stood up abruptly with a bright face giving an excuse that he will not have lunch anymore. Sun shook his head whilst rolling his eyes “This kid need a strict partner to keep him grounded...and imma get our lunch cool” with that he stood up with two lunch cards getting in queue with a silent Jay following him..

“DAWN..” A shout came near the door with a petite girl skipping across the cafeteria. She was dressed as a doll today with two piggy tail on either side on her head a fluffy pen in her right hand and small pouch in her left. She would be considered as super cute with a babyish look, button nose, big doe eyes, pale skin and soft pitch voice. She was all smiles when she reached the table and climb on it facing ‘Mr. Handsome’. Letting a smile appear on his face for the first time today whilst pinching the cute girl’s cheek.

“Davon asked me to give you this and said that you should text him after you’re done..” she said in the cutest voice. He nodded his head as to acknowledge what she said with her handing a small piece of paper from per pouch.

“Dawn, I got you some....” Jay stopped mid sentence when he saw a girl between his friends legs on the table and he was not angry, once got closer he realized that it was his friends, brothers girlfriend “Hey Jewl’s, how are you doing today?” She turned with a big smile and side hugged him and jump off the table saying she’s good and mentioning that she will leave them to eat because she had things to do as she is a busy girl.

“Dawn, what was with the question earlier?” Jay asked while placing the food and drinks on the table for his friend. Dawn as in ‘Mr. Handsome’s’ name stared at his friend with a look of are you kidding me!! But answered anyway “uh. I’ve been having some weird thoughts lately and was thinking outside the box” and that was a typical answer to expect from the tall boy. He was never one to give you the full picture and Jay understood him perfectly where as Sun was lost altogether and retorted to texting his girlfriend and ignoring the two.

“Hmm, okay... when you want to talk about it I’ll be ready. Let’s eat” and that was how a typical day between the friends went. Occasionally Parker would make some crude remarks about some irrelevant things and they would all ignore him for the most part. School ends with Parker, Sun and Jay going towards the east and Dawn heading to the North of town.

Dawn came from a line of strong male personality and all males are tall except for his late uncle. He was a mixed breed as his family would always mention, he was the only one that had a different feature from the rest of the family and that caused jealousy amongst the aunt and uncles. He choose to walk to and from school everyday as this was the only time he had with his own thoughts. 30 minutes going and 40 minutes returning from school. His mother would give him all the love she could on behalf of his father that is rarely ever home due to his line of work. He was the middle child and considered the most favored than the rest of his siblings. His older brothers Davon 21 and Dane 19 both were in college constantly fighting for their parents affection but ending with them getting scolded for little nothings. His sister Diana being 15 was a drama queen, exaggerating about trivial stuff. Then there was his princess Destiny only 5 years was an unplanned one and came with a lot of complications hence the name. She was the only one that did not get on his nerves and he loved her to bits. His mother would sneak a few pictures of the both of them taking naps or playing and send to their dad. She would always express how proud she was of him and would smolder him every chance she gets. The house is always a mess, now more than ever because all of them are under the same roof. The house is never quite when Davon and Dane comes home from vacation and he dreads those long weekends. Being Wednesday he knew that he would be able to breathe properly when Monday comes, only then will the house be quiet again.

He stared once again at the small piece of paper and felt his heart quiver as it was his princess birthday today. He already got the best present for her and being Davon he could never differentiate between presents for any of them and this job comes back to him always. Dane would always give envelopes with money being on the safe side. Diana would create something that you would always question her mental health but as per her ‘it’s the thought that counts’. Their father would drop a couple more bills in their monthly allowance for that month. Their Mom will cook the celebrants favorites for a week taking in consideration of those not home.

After getting lost in my head I had bought and wrapped the perfect present for Destiny and could see the house come into view. In my neighborhood our family had the least impressive house but our neighbors still gossip and express their jealous thoughts on how we’re doing this to prove that we are better than them. The truth is that this was my mums preferred design and did not want our rooms to be far from each other being in a two storeyhouse so she had Dad paid to have a one storey build and I can say I liked it too. As I approached the gates I could hear the loud mouth of Dane screaming at Davon to stop and knew that this is going to be a long night and weekend. After I entered the code and stepped into the compound I was tackled by Iggy the dog she was named by Diana in a fair fight.

“Do.....w” Destiny screeched as she came speeding down the pathway and jumped right into my arms. These couple of months after she heard I will be going to college she has been super clingy but in a good way. She was a very bright 5 year old and expresss that she will be clingy until I go to college so when she miss me she can use up her imagination of when she had me close. She still could not say my name properly and we settled with Dow, which I don’t know how it came about.

Dragging her inside from holding on my right leg we settle on the couch with her climbing on my lap and caressing my hair as she does with iggy when petting her. “Skwol was boword today, kid sucks” I stared at her surprise she express herself in that context, but had to chuckle eventually with her cute expression of an eye roll and sigh. I hugged her in a tight embrace and heard a click on the side followed by an oops and chuckle

“Mom...” my deep voice sounding hoarse from lack of use...we stared at one another and smiled goofily. This is the only sane person in the family and she keeps all of us grounded. I miss her even she is right next to me, smiling at us as if we were her most prized possession. She loved all of us equally but you can tell that most of the time she favors Destiny and I. The others just try too hard.

“How was school today?” She ask making herself comfortable on the couch next to us. Destiny was busy with my phone which she took from the side pocket of my bag trying to understand the features. “It was okay, same old same old” I exclaimed followed by us falling into a comfortable silence, after a while placing Destiny to sit on the couch while taking my bag and kissing both of them on the head with a faint I love you being whispered from my side. “I’ll go freshen up then help with dinner” I looked back at my moms face noticing the wheels turning in her head. But she nodded anyway acknowledging what I said.

Birthday dinner has officially become my least favorite dinner. Dad made a surprised appearance after two weeks of business meetings overseas. Mom was super over the top with all the PDA happening which made it awkward for most of us. Davon and Dane kept bickering like old married couple. Diana was screeching with a fake accent and that was giving me a head ache. Destiny was all quiet and this happens each time Dad comes home for the first few days and then she becomes normal but seeing this made me sad and cannot fathom on how she would be once I’m off to college.

Our Dad was observing us and to say that this man is every woman dreams to shag. He was a very hot Dad as per our neighbors being tall as me with dark hair a little grey here and there, a straight nose, sharp jaw, hard and sharp gaze. Once he smiles it would always be towards Mom or Destiny but us the older ones we get a stare of acknowledgement with him trying his best to not scare us. Thankfully he is the only person to make Davon and Dane remain quiet enough for me to enjoy my evenings.

I was snapped out of my thoughts with Dad clearing his throat as if to start his interrogation after months of having all of us together.

“So Davon, how is college life going? Did you make progress in your political science class?” One thing with this man is that regardless of him not being here, he knew everything about us. Even more than mom.

Davon nodded with eyes ready to bulge out of their sockets as if he knows what’s coming next “Good, but I do not want a low score again, tell me when you’ve decided which university you will attend after graduation and I expect a good report with regards to your attendance” and here is the thing with Dad words scares more than his action. Dane was already sweating now that lime light was directed towards him “Explain Dane” two words and now I’m scared. The tension has doubled. Instead of happy birthday it’s an interrogation room with a lie detector attached. “I....I...I was distracted with soccer this semester but I’m taking online tutoring during vacation to improve Sir” typical Dane. I’m pretty sure it was because of relationship matter that he failed one subject which was vital for his dream in becoming a doctor.

“Diana, by 18 me and your mum have come to an agreement that we will not give you allowance anymore until we see improvements of you wanting to do something any thing at all. So you have two years to decide” and shock was on all of our faces. Diana was on the verge on crying but nodded without making eye contact with either of us.

Each time these discussions came into place I was the one that got ‘The Talk’ after everyone has had theirs

“My little girl, happy birthday we will open your presents after dinner okay” he informed with a soft voice. Then came my turn, having be the only one with features like my grand father on my moms side Dad always felt that I may have as well inherited his personality as well

“Dawn, have you decided on college yet? If not Joel informed me that a few universities would like to give you a scholarship and after dinner I would like to discuss something else with you”

I only nodded knowing that the others must have the same nasty looks on their faces as usual after all of our talks.

Dinner went quiet after that and my princess was happy with all of her presents mostly mine as we would go to the park this weekend with just the two of us to enjoy ourselves.

Dad was waiting by his home office when I made my way towards him after all of us was gettin ready to call anight. He motioned for me to close the door and sit on the couch. This was unlike any of our previous talks it looked serious. He started with me remaining quiet for the most part. First was about school results and how proud he was with them. Next was university and how I want to proceed with having a career as I have not express any interest in any thing yet. Then the one that struck me the most. Since I’m coming of age of 18 I have an inheritance left by my grand father and Dad wanted me to take over his company. From what I’ve heard Davon mentioned before each male in the family gets a partial inheritance from our grand parents and it’s was my turn now but he never mentioned Dad offered the company with that.

“ I don’t understand Dad, which business” I knew that I may have been confused from the way he smiled and pat my shoulder

“If you accept I would teach you everything you need to know and after you are done with university you start as the President then I hand over the chairman position. This business is base in a different country hence my travel as your mom didn’t want to move again” comprehension dawned on me on what this entailed. I’m already not in good terms with my siblings now it will become unbearable. I wanted to come to a compromise because I knew that Destiny will have a tough time when I’m not here, but if I decline then Dad will force me anyway but using means that I don’t want to imagine. I nodded but stated my conditions; Destiny comes with me regardless, no arranged marriage I choose who I like knowing Mom and Dad was arranged to be married. And the last I have the final say in anything. Dad was not I favor with them but agreed and said that he will speak to Mom and announce everything on Friday night. With that we bid good night and I knew that this was something that was beyond me but cannot be handled any other way.

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Bright personality that is bigger that his petite body is bound to make him a bit to much to handle. Like his name Hwan was a bit hard to handle even by his own family. His mother mentioned numerous time that this was not inherited from her side of family as everyone was easy and same goes with his father.

Hwan was a happy go lucky kind of person with a lot of energy, foul mouth, being overly dramatic and loud. His mother prayed for him to get a person that can balance him out but until now no one was able to suppress this child. He would throw tantrums if any of his things goes missing when he is to blame for it getting lost.

Wednesday morning was a pre warm up for him as his personalydouble by Thursday afternoon and Friday no one can hold him down-so to speak-. That morning he was walking through the hall ways being all giddy he just felt overly affectionate and childish which come across as cute for people who would not know him that well. Goofing around with his friend Benedict (Ben for short) and bumped into the chest of someone and was punched to the side being only 5 ft 5 he could not see whom for him to apologize as the sea of people just came rushing out of nowhere and once the canal bell rang it came to him. He was late for first period

During lunch hour he was back in the yard under the tree his spot almost every lunch time. His mother would pack a big lunch that he could finish and allowed his friends to help him out. Today he found himself staring at him enemy a bit more than any other days. Parker!! He stole his crush of the year Kelly last summer and broke her heart that she transferred school. Parker was stroking his chin and that was a sign that he was about to venture out and capture a new prey. All of a sudden he saw the two tall guys that Parker hangs with approach with the one placing his hand on his shoulder and giving a head nod. The taller one always made Hwan sit in confusion, as he rarely interact with them in return, even when they were smiling at some funny and that caused Hwan to smile softly thinking of those scenarios.

His two friends was staring at him weirdly but he was so engrossed now with that tall boy (He shall be named Bruce banner) that he did not noticed. Then he saw Parker abruptly stood up and the face ‘Bruce Banner’ had made him smile again. Then the two others woke up which Hwan understood to get lunch. Right after a girl came and sat right in front of ‘Bruce Banner’ and that was when Hwan understood that his smile was really attractive and it was directed to this cute girl which must be his girlfriend. The other boy that came with him approached the table with their food and acknowledged the cute girl with her handing ‘Bruce Banner’ a paper and left. The rest of lunch was him staring at that boy and one would think that he wanted to strip him with his eyes.

This was the first time his friends saw him quiete for a long time and they were confused as Parker made Hwan lonely complain of every and anything and curse like a sailor. But this was different.

During self study in the afternoon Ben felt that he should ask Hwan what was up because he and Gun were concerned now. Ben being the tallest of the three was a little over 5 ft9 and Gun at 5 ft7 it’s like eight was not present when they were born but they still had a few years to grow taller as per them.

“Hey, tell me the issue now and don’t hide I saw your eyes glued Dawn the whole lunch period, spill it...” Hwan was shocked that Ben noticed and he thought he was being subtle about it. Scratching the back of his head anti tip his ears turning red proved his friends right

“Is that his name?” He got back with a question in return which did not denied the previous statement but they both nodded a yes to Hwan making him smile in return. He finally knoew his name and it suits him.

“Dawn... huh.....” he exclaimed dreamily but then realized that he did that aloud and composed himself right away but as the day the cats out of the bag already.

Both Ben and Gun had the knowing look and smile to each other as they were going to mention something else they last bell rang signaling end of school.

The three rushed to go to the small hangout/ Gun’s brother’s cafe close to the intersection and college. Hwan was still thinking of Dawn in a way that he never imagined. He was sure that he liked girls but whey was he mesmerized by this ‘tall handsome, bad boy vibe with charcoal dark hair and a strict gaze that made him want to drop... no no no no no... where is this going’ he stoped his trail of thoughts not knowing where this was going. Just as their order arrived they noticed the gang entered minus one, to say that Hwan was a bit disappointed was an understatement but he kept quiet until he felt the sugar rush from the Pink milk he consumed in three gulps.

Parker being a stupid idiot of the three then the other two being nice as per his observation. They sat on a table that was right behind them and started discussing on school stuff and Hwan finally know who was who, the tall guy with bleached hair was Jay and seemed closer to Dawn then Parker of course with the short guy being Sun and the girl earlier was Jewl Dawn’s brother’s girlfriend. Ben kept staring at Hwan’s facial expression as if the boys were talking to him and he was comprehending what’s being discussed. All of a sudden Gun let out a loud laugh causing the boys on the other table as well as Ben and Hwan to stop and turn to stare at him.

Hwan ears was already getting the pink color to it, where as Ben had a facial expression stating that this was a new revelation for him. Sun was the first to take notice of them as Gun was in the same curriculum as him after class

“Oh Gun” Sun called out to the young boy gaining his attention and realization strict him “oh Senior Sun” he acknowledged the other with respect that he is older

“You come here often?” sun questioned

“It’s my brother’s cafe and these are my friends we shill here after school sometime to complete homework and stuff” giving the extra details in the mix. Ben gave a raised brownie understanding.

“Oh cool nice to meet ya guys, these are my friends ‘Annoying Parker’ and ‘Handsome Jay’” pointing to each. Parker gave an ‘I don’t care face’ where as Jay gave a smile with a small wave. After some chat between Sun and Gun over the table, Paris the friend of Gun’s brother approached the table to clear the used mugs and plates. Gun asked if his brother’s whereabouts as he had things to give to him from their mother and Paris mentioned that he should be back any minute.

Jay has never felt the way he felt staring at this person exchanging word with Gun. He was about 5ft7 and to him that was perfect for a partner. His hair was a light brown with dark brown eyes, a flushed cheeks due to his work, some chocolate or what appears to be coffee powder smeared on the tip of his button nose, his body was the perfect fit for him. Jay knew he was thinking way ahead but he liked a challenge and this boy will be his no matter.

After their talk Gun called Paris name and mentioned that it’s better to have him give it to his brother as he will go home now. Jay smiled triumphantly knowing that he at least knew his name and the rest will follow smoothly.

Hwan started becoming drowsy with homework and bid his friends goodbye and a shy bye to the other table. He stayed close to the school and since it was still bright outside he took the shortcut through the alley.

Greeted by his mothers screaming at her older sister Maggy because of her boyfriend being in her room again with door closed for the nth time.

He made his way to his room greeting his mother and straight inside and shutting the door of his room. That caused his mother and sister to look at each other weirdly as he rarely silent.

With the boyfriend matter being forgotten for a short whiletheir mother motioned door open when boyfriend is over and went downstairs.

If I as Hwan is starting to think of a boy then there is an issue here. I was in deep thought taking my uniform off and getting in the showers getting rid of the sweats from school. I have to ask mum about this, to me it made no sense. I liked Kelly so why now.

I finished changing and running down stairs feeling my old self returning. “MOM!!” I shouted and heard something break and mum cursing “That little shit...” she turned around from picking up the broken dishes “I’m not deaf and stop shouting out of nowhere almost gave me a heart attack” she exclaimed taking water from the fridge and prong in in two glasses giving me one to drink. I took mine whilst she sip hers slowly.

“Mom, how does boys have sex?” This could have gone two ways, she spits the water out or choke and sure enough the latter. She started chocking on the water as I believe it went through the wrong pipe. After she composed herself she sat and stared off in the blank space with a look that could be discribed with WTF did I created! She cleared her throat once more and whispered

“Is someone bullying you?, you can tell me baby” I stared back with a literal WTF look as to who would dare bully moi an amazing person as me

“Answer the question mom... no one bully’s me”

“Oh okay... urh but where does this question comes from, did someone ask you to do that with them” she questioned again

“I wished they did” I whispered back “WHAt??!!” She snapped her hear towards me again and I answered nothing and motioned that I will look it up.

By dinner time I think I’ve become an expert on boy x boy and you do not want to know the rest.

Dinner was silent on my mother’s side with her in deep thoughts my sister on the phone screeching away with her friends and me humming a song I don’t know the lyrics to.

We all bid each other goodnight and got into our respective caves.

Chapter2\~ Teenage love blossoms

Thursday lunch time was fast approaching and Sun only now realized that his Juniors had mix physical training with them. This was a surprise both him and Jay. Jay was the first to approach the boys that was laughing at some weird joke Gun made about their class mate.

“Hey Gun,Ben and H” Hwan was weirded out that he addressed him as H but smiled awkwardly and surprised as well. The two boys said their greetings to Jay. Slowly they found themselves talking and following Jay to their sitting area waiting for the coach. Hwan only realized that there is four of them and got freaked out for a split second and noticed after looking around that the fourth person was not here. He let out a contented sigh and smiled with his eyes closed doing a little turn to bump right into.... the last person that needs to be here

Hwan did not know why but his heart sunk in his chest, hands and feet clammy, face paled and Ben jump into action as he knew his friend was having a panic attack. On the other hand Dawn stood there whilst examining that miniature boy becoming paper white with big watery eyes staring at him like a little sheep afraid that the big bad wolf will eat him if he make any sudden movements. His head tilted like a dog does fascinated with what’s in front of him.

Ben dragged his friend away from the tall boy and had him sit on the bench folding a paper for his mouth and nose covered and taking deep breaths. Dawn still analyzing the situation sat crossed leg 5 feet from where Hwan started getting his composure whispering so Ben could hear him and Ben nodding his head as if he understood where he was coming from

In Hwan’s mind he kept questioning, how come he never saw them before in this class or is it that he just never noticed, as before yesterday he never saw Dawn in this light. Dawn was still confused and dumbfounded with what just happened, he has seen this boy being super loud all the time since beginning of the year so why is he quiet today. Apart from his princess he found himself liking Thursday’s because of this boy. He would over heard his crazy thoughts and idea about almost everything. He would smile inwardly to whatever crazy idea he had. Now looking at him he felt confused just as he did yesterday and that got him frustrated so he sat with a sort of pout and scowl making him sort of cute and the caused a chuckle to be heard in front of him from the miniature boy. He snapped out of his mind and stared again at the boy with fascination this time.

Jay was loving this scene and was also taking proof of his friend being confused, fascinated and surprised all in that sequence. He approached Dawn and sat crossed leg also and showed him the video of how he looked just now. Dawn had to laugh and this surprised not only Jay but everyone within an earshot from them. This was the first time he was vocal in public with his laughter. Not aware that he gain a few attention from people and they were staring he kept replaying the video until whistle could be heard notifying them that coach was ready to begin class

Hwan was mesmerized by that laugh like any other people that stood and stared at Dawn. He kept thinking that maybe he was jealous even intimidated by him but he didn’t know. He is just plain confused now. He stood in line like the coach ask and was ready for whatever he planned for them.

Gym class was finally over with Ben and Gun ready to pass out from the amount of running around and obstacles to avoid, the seniors did not take it easy on them and were savages.. Hwan was really hyped up after that as he loved the thrill of getting chased somehow the only person that managed to catch him twice in a row was Dawn and after that it was like he wanted Hwan to have fun withoutsittingand feeling bored waiting for everything to be over to start over again

Lunch was about to be uneventful when Jay approached the three friends before exiting the locker rooms and said to join them leaving no room to refuse. Hwan being hungry skipped to the table that the others was occupying and took his lunch out and signaled Ben to get his favorite beverage. Hwan tookouthis three containers which his mother prepared. Today was sausage day with rice and eggs. His mother was of Japanese decent but he got a korean name which he always questioned. She would make weird caricature with the sausages but he ate it with a contented smile as it was super delicious. One box was for the sausages the other rice with eggs and the last box was a surprise. As he was about to open it Ben approached the table with his lunch and the Pink milk for Hwan. The occupants on the table was silently whatching the boy enjoying his meals immensely a smile appeared once more on Dawn’s face while he made his way towards the table and it seems that he got free lunch again. He set it on the lunch table and slid it a cross to he friends. One thing Dawn doesn’t really do is eat. He would take few bite and that’s it he rather drink water but once in awhile he would appreciate a nice meal that his mother would prepare once a month.

Being Hwan when it comes to food is like watching two lover unable to resist each other’s presence and everything else is silent in the background but once distracted he looses interest in the food and becomes immersed with the new discovery. Today was like he just came back from a hunger strike and was ready to empty the bowls. He took a few sausages and shared across the table whilst his mouth was occupied and without realizing he forced one small sausages in Dawn’s mouth and continued to much while humming a tune with swinging his leg beneath the table.

Every chatter on the table was stopped awaiting for what Dawn will do next but just like Hwan was immersed in his food Dawn was immersed in his phone and started chewing slowly on the salty delight with a small smile. Jay cleared his throat and got the others to snap out of what the just witnessed. To Parker something was totally wrong with this but chose to keep his mouth shut for once. Sun already saw the start of the it couple in the school with only four months left he could see it happening. Gun and Ben almost jump off their seats appreciating the start of something beautiful. Jay finally came to a realization that that might have been why his friend asked this question yesterday and totally knew where he was coming from.The rest of the day went without any new surprises on either party.

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Hwan has felt a change in him since the time he met Dawn but still insisting that it’s a part of growing up being a 15 year old boy going through puberty. He no longer felt compelled to look at girls with his friend like they usually do but he didn’t feel that towards boys either but only one person stood out. Dawn. Numerous times during this week he would curse Dawn and his mother would be confused but settle with his son not wating to go to school as dawn represented a new day.

His sister would notice how he would take a lot of time in the bathroom in the morning fixing his hair over and over and knew his brother is smitten with some girl and her name must be Dawn. So being the good sister she spilled her thoughts to their mother. Being a concerned mother to her two kids she started checking on her sons behavior and came to the conclusion that yes . Her some was in love more like have a deep affect for this Dawn person.

Parent-teacher conference week was happening starting with the juniors and Hwan’s mother was eager to meet this Dawn person. She has planned everything for her to surprise her son on giving her feedback on Dawn. To conference started at 10 and and teachers met with the parents during the day so this cause all crude tro have self study class from 10 am till end of school for a whole week followed by a pre exam test the next week and handing in projects. Dawn was dreading this day as his result was not so good. Becoming afraid that his mother will embarrass him in front of everyone like last year. He was in class two and does not wish to ascend or decend. He wanted to stay in class two.

Finally it came for him to visit each of the teachers class with his parent which was his mother. In his heart and head he was praying full force for his mother to not embarrass him . First class was for physics and he sucks bad at this subject and to his surprise he saw a bleached haired boy walking towards that class and shouted “Jay” forgetting his mother was walking right next to him. He skipped next to him and hug him to jay and his mother’s surprise. She didn’t know that he had older friends and he never mentioned so that caused her to feel that these older boys must have influenced him someways. One the boy turned to gave the small boy he had a huge grin and pat Hwan on his head in a friendly manner more or less like an older brother would do. “H, what are you doing on this side of the building? You did not get lost again right?” Hwan shook his head and spoke softly making his mother walk a little bit faster to comprehend why his sone was behaving this way. All of a sudden the taller boy lift his head and stood his height and staring in the direction of his mother and flashed one of his charming smile towards her. She was surprised and flustered with the boys beauty and has to get back her composure. She felt a bit out of breath with walking fast to reach them and by the surprisingly charming boy.

“Good day Mrs. Noguchi, I’m Jay. Hwan’s body guard” he joked on mentioning body guard while smiling again. Hwan’s mother had to let the smile appear on her face when she felt not threat towards his son. Jay escorted them towards the classroom and mentioned to the teacher that he was a visitor and went to his seat that was I. The back with Dawn.

Hwan appeared first and searched the room ignoring the stares of other student and rested on a bored looking Dawn staring out side until he saw Jay whispering and his head turned as quick as he felt jay finished what he said. Hwan blushed and did a quick wave and followed by his mother he sat on the chair set up next to the teachers desk. His mother took a little time to check the class and noticed Jay sitting next to another handsome boy whose gaze was fixated on her sone and she felt it was a treat so she as her son of the other boy next to his friend and he shrugged mentioning nothing.

The teacher came back with few documents a few books as well. Before gathering teacher could say anything Hwan asked to go sit with Jay and went to the back of the class. He stood next to Jay ignoring the stares from Dawn and giggled every now and then at something jay showed on his phone. This was making Dawn frustrated and Jay felt the heat coming from his friend. Before he could say anything to appease his friend a student burst into the class went straight to the teacher and asked for Dawn. The teacher shouted Dawn’s name to go to the office for a meeting with the principal. Hwan’s mothers face lit up smiling that she would finally see who the girl that got his son smitten to only scowl when that tall handsome boy stood up and walked out as if he is walking on air. His presence was missed when he left and he saw that as well on her son’s face. Jay caressed Hwan in his head pulling him closer as to console his son and whispered something that made her sone smile md with his ears becoming red.

After they left the class the rest went by in a blur and last stop was at the office to sign a few papers and check if tutoring would be needed. Hwan did not want his mother to spend any more than she already have with the extra curricular after class that he promised to study hard from now on. As they were about to exit the office a door was pulled open with Dawn’s father exiting thanking principal Joel for his time a a chill looking Dawn behind him with a lack of interest. Dawn followed his father outside and Hwan’s mother saw where this boy got his presence from even though their feature were not apparent.

“I’ll drive you home” Dawn’s father stated “It’s okay dad, I’m hanging with friends after school” he politely declined. His voice was really deep for a kid Hwan’s mother was mesmerized as well as respect for his parents for bringing up such a nice boy “Don’t stay out late, your mother will worry okay” Dawn nodded and did a small wave. As he turned he noticed the loving stare he received from Hwan’s mother and next to her this boys ears was already red with shyness. He approached them thinking that now was a better time to get the introduction out of the way

“ Hello Hwan’s Mum, I’m Dawn, Hwan’s senior” he introduced himself with much effort to make it as honest and non scary as possible adding his rare smile

Without realizing Hwan’s mother held him and a tight embrace pulling him to her level and patting his head softly like a loving mother welcoming their lost child back. Hwan was as surprised as Dawn was and tried to have his mother release the tall boy. After she let go she said two word “ I approve” and bid farewell to his son. The two boys felt confused as what she meant until Dawn smile from figuring out what she meant but the smaller boy was still confused as usual. With a chuckle Dean motioned for the smaller boy to follow him inside and get his stuff as school was about to end soon.

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The three Juniors and four Seniors was seated at the back of the cafe with their books out finishing projects as well as studying for next week’s exam. Parker was feeling bothered by the fact that these juniors just changed everything over night. Dawn was slowly changing from being the brooding type to a more tolerable person but he did not understand Jay’s intentions. He felt that Jay may be having feelings for Gun but it’s not the case at the same type so that caused him to be bothered.

Sun was just cramping his head as much as possible feeling the stress mounting up as well frustration as he had not met his girlfriend for the entire last week and now this week and next week also he was ready to burst. Jay being closer to Dawn’s level of intelligence was not really preoccupied with studying and homework was done already since self study. He was more interested with the server that took his break just a minute ago and wanted to interact with wilder boy. Gun played a major role on providing lucrative information about the older boy and now he had a lot of topic to star from. As per Gun, Paris is batting for the same team and was currently single, he is studying business administration in college and that was were he was considering taking his education to as well. Gun gave the go ahead and he excused himself and approached the older boy sitting at the far corner of the bar area. His heart was beating so hard that he felt that someone might hear. Paris never felt the need to take extra time with his appearance but that changed suddenly when the tall boy before him started frequenting the cafe and paying extra attention to him. He questioned what a high schooler will want to do with him but the moment he flashed that charming smile he knew he was screwed.

Hwan was struggling and it was sad to watch, especially for Dawn. He felt that he’s had everything handed to him and hence him shutting himself from other people to avoid them knowing how much his had or have in his life.

Since his seat is next to Hwan he pulled the chair along with the boy close to him and took the book and examined what he was struggling with. He chuckled softly when he saw a faint trace of his name in the corner of the book after being erase but poorly. Hwan felt even more stupid now when he heard Dawn chuckled. If he could he would bury himself in a hole and not come out just for food. Dawn placed his open palm asking for his pencil and scribble something in his book then took the blank paper giving a details solution for Hwan to follow. Hwan was impressed that not only is this kid smart but his handwriting was super neat. “Is there anything you’re not good at?” Hwan asked under his breath but Dawn replied leaning to his ears and whispered “Not Sure” and that caused the small boys ears to turn bright red.

Parker was fed up with these stupid equations and essay and called it a day. He mentioned that he will not come to school because his brain has reached its capacity. Sun bid his goodbye as well saying he will go mad if he doesn’t see his girl at least an hour. Ben was next to leave as his mother called him to come home. Gun left shortly after leaving Jay flirting away with Paris. Paris had a permanent flushed face and Dawn knew that his friend was already giving his best to get this older boy.

Hwan was starting to grasp what the teacher was babbling about with Dawn’s detailed explanation. It was starting to become gray outside but the two kept at it for another hour and finally with a satisfied sigh Hwan felt accomplished. He noticed that it was only him and Dawn at the table and friends no where in sight and it was dark outside. He started freaking out until Dawn placed a hand on his shoulder calming him instantly. “I called someone to send us home, let’s wait outside” Dawn inform helping him packing his books. After stuffing his things in the bag Dawn wondered how did this small teen carry such heavy bags.

After much complaining about who to carry the bag and paying the bill that everyone seemed to have forgotten Dawn was seen in a new light by the small teen. Once they reached outside a slick car stopped right in front of them with a driver stepping out and calling Dawn young master. Dawn open the door and gesture for Hwan to step in and climb in after him. Giving direction they reached Hwan’s house in 5 minutes. To Dawn the house was cute and cozy. He walked Hwan until the fist step leading inside his house. Both stood awkwardly with Hwan’s ears already red and Dawn staring intently at Hwan’s biting his lips. Out of the silence a voice came through the door surprising both boys,

“Kiss him already” if the earth could swallow Hwan, he would have been fine with it. Dawn had a wide grin on his face contrary to the smaller teen that now even his face was red from being embarrassed. Dawn leaned and gave a peck on Hwan’s lips and whispered “Be a good boy” and turned heading to the car. Hwan entered the house red as a tomato with his sister filming.

“Did you filmed us?” His face surprised and eyes ready to bulge out of its sockets when she nodded. His mother was grinning finally seeing the person that had hold of his son and control on his ploud self.

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Dawn made his way to his princess room. Opening the door slowly and saw that she had already fallen asleep with her story book open next to her. He felt a strong brotherly love towards her in every type of way and wanted to protect her from the work and everyone. He closed the book and felt that tonight she would sleep next to him. Taking her and her plushie he carried her to his room and placed her on his bed with her plushie secured in her arms. He took a quick shower and went to sleep with his princess next to him.

In the dark hour Dawn’s mother stood admiring the amount of love her son has for his sister and that love was more that he loved her and she came to that realization fairly quickly the first time her held her and whispered Destiny to the little bundle. A tear slipped her eyes thinking how unfair she has been with all her children especially Dawn.

Chapter 3\~ Guess I’ve never had a love like this

Jay made his way to the cafe at the junction. He vowed that he would have to get Paris to become his and he knew that childish flirting would not work this time. He had inquired about the older boy and made sure that he was really single and had no particular love interest.

Earlier That Day

“Yo Gun you’re sure that he doesn’t have any one right?, because I’m going to go hard” Gun chocked on his coffee but nodded as to guarantee that the provided information was credible. Gun had asked his brother about his friend to avoid getting the wrong information. His brother and Paris has been friends since he could remember. Paris would have sleep overs every weekend at their house at a certain point in time and they were referred to as the twins.

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Jay kept smiling thinking of the older boy. He felt that there was a difference in what he was feeling toward Paris unlike any of his past partners which were mostly a one time thing. He felt that he wanted to cherish him, keep him safe. Thinking about it made him feel warm inside.

Opening the door of the cafe he was met with the fresh smell of coffee and something sweet. He made his was towards the back where a few college students were seated and chatting away while some had their head buried in books. He checked the counter area noticing that Paris was not here yet so that leaves him to check a few equations he left for situations as these.

after a few minutes the door opened and in came the person he was waiting for. He checked Paris out to find that the older boy seemed exhausted today. He was making his way to the back area with giving a few glance at the seated customers. After a few minutes he had on a different shirt with apron tied around his thin waist. Face already flushed and his lips seems swollen today and that caused Jay to feel uneasy. ‘Did he make out with someone before coming here’ he thought but then dismissed it thinking that he was not his yet so why is he feeling this amount of possessiveness.

Taking a deep breath, Jay made his way to the counter getting a few stares from older female students. Since he was not wearing uniform today people would mistake him as a college student due to his physics. He ignored the females and reached his destination staring straight in the eyes of Paris. He wanted this older male so much that he was afraid he might jump him. He was so lost drinking in the cute person in front of him, loving how his lips was so inviting.

“I want to pursue you, may I?” He found himself saying and this did not require a response as Jay would still go after Paris regardless. But he wanted the older male to know where he was coming from.

Unconsciously his head started moving closer to Paris but he was snapped out of it when the older male cleared his throat loudly with a pink tint forming on both his cheeks. That caused Jay to chuckle awkwardly and stating his order handing a hundred note and made sure that their hands touched when Paris handed him his change. He went back to his seat waiting for the older male patiently.

A vibrating sound came from the table distracting him from something important ‘like how blue complemented the older male’s pale complexion’. He was about to ignore but he was it was his mum and thought it might be important.

“Hello, Mum” his voice sounding sweet but his face showing agitation.

“Jay, are you home?” She asked in a rush

“No, I’m studying outside” he shot back

“Oh, when will you go back?” She inquired further

“Don’t know, depends..” leaving her to fill in the blanks to what comes next

“Okay then, do you need a car to pick you up after” she tried

“No mum, I’m good” he shot back and that seemed to let her no that his done with this conversation

“Okay, don’t stay out too late and love you” she whispered that last part

“Yeah, love you too” he replied back but his voice devoid of any emotion.

The relationship between him and his family being mother and father was not really stable, his mother working in politics having a high salary, people surrounding her day in day out and little time to look after him and that job quickly became his nanny’s. His father was considered as just a sperm donor, he was rarely there since his job requires him to be surrounded by body guards and staying away from his family; him being a big shot judge in the city. He did not understand how his mother coped but he knew that he struggled and would have been a different person if not for his nanny that was more of a mother to him than his own.

He was cut out of his trail of thoughts and became engrossed again but the older male. He stared at each move Paris made while setting his order on the table to wiping his hand on the apron after doing so. The older male made his way to go back to the counter when jay held his wrist and placing a piece of paper in his hand. A smile made its way to his face where as the older boy was surprise as well as confused. Jay released him and the older male made his was back to the counter opening the paper scrunching his face making him look even cuter, he stared at Jay and crushed the paper throwing it in the trash. Ouch!! But Jay expected that and will definitely have this person to open up to him and that will be very soon.

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To Paris, Jay looked like he was one of those people that was unearthly beautiful and that was the type he try to stired clear of. But that boy had a way with words that really got him thinking of changing his own rules with that be ; No dating younger males - Date only base on personality and compatibility - Handsome boys are a no go - Don’t do one night stands - Falling in love is out of the question and No drama. He got too many bad experience when he was starting with clingy, possessive and psychotic exes and he did not want a repeat. Hence the rules. But now this guy is having him breaking one and he could not let that happen.

“I want to pursue you, may I?” Jay asked but it sounded like a no response needed question. Paris in turn stared at him with an agitated look on his face. But he knew that this was a defense mechanism that’s unintentional. His walls was so far up that he sure won’t let the younger male climb over. His day went by as normal after the younger male left the cafe and he focus on finish the day as quick as possible.

Paris was exhausted and spent to the limit today. He took a quick shower as he felt sticky and achy everywhere on his body. After that he went in diving on his bed and going straight under the covers. His mind went back to that guy again. He had some nerve to hold his wrist and guts to hand in the paper with his number asking for a call or text.

He had had those in the past but none had the look that this one had. It was different and warming. Still pondering on that and thinking of different scenarios, he started drifting unaware of the smile on his face.

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A beeping noise kept interupting the sound sleep of the older male. He was not feeling well at all. He might have over worked himself this week a bit too much and this was the result, getting a flu. He turned off the alarm and turned to check the time being six am. He took his phone sending a quick text to three person. One being his best friend, next his homeroom teacher and the last the leader of his after school activity stating his condition and that he is unable to make it today.

Being him he knew that he would be bored during the day and already made a plan to visit the cafe and spend some time with his best friend. After a few ideas of what his day may be like he found himself asleep again and woke up with a vibrating sound.

Without checking the caller ID he accepted the call and waited for the other person to speak.

“Hello?” Came an unfamiliar voice

Still feeling drowsy Paris checked the caller ID and found it as a restricted number. Confused and in a daze he replied while questioning back with a raspy voice “who is this?”... “Did you catch a cold?, Are you okay?” In turn getting a reply with a question. “Who is this and how did you get this number?” Ignoring the question of the other person. He heard a sigh and the stranger replied with a calm voice “This is Jay, and it doesn’t matter how I obtained your number.. I’ll let you rest for today.. bye” before he could clarify if he knew the person the line got disconnected.

Paris made his way down the alley leading to the cafe. Today he felt refreshed due to exams coming up their schedule were lighter and no extra activity after school. He went straight to the back and came back well presented. Late afternoon the familiar group of boys made their way to the back tables as usual. He has become well acquainted with most of them due to his best friend’s little brother accompanied they all the time. That handsome boy was present but it seems today he is not bothered by his presence and focused on something else. Paris felt a disappointment was over him but he quickly dismissed it. Why was he feeling this way? He himself clearly didn’t know.

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The time to close was fast approaching and Paris was taking his 30 minutes break. He was so engrossed in checking the schedule for next week during exam that he was not aware of Jay’s presence. Jay wanted this boy, he truly did and he thought that it might be an obsession even. He cleared his throat to get his attention and indeed the older male lifted his head to see the person that had the nerve to disturb his ..... “Hi” it was him again Paris though but acknowledge the younger male with a nod. “May I sit with you?”without waiting for a reply Jay already sat down. “ What do you want?” Paris started but what made him angry was the fact that jay was smiling. “I want to pursue you and wanted to ask if you are free Saturday?” .. “I’m not free and I’m not available” Paris responded as rudely as possible but the younger male kept on smiling. Is he for real? Paris though. Jay made a comment that really caught him off guard and he found himself falling for the boy and hard. “ You look cute when you are angry, be prepared to stay cute each time we meet” Jay left it at that thinking that he did good for this round and he would definitely have this boy begging soon. Before he went back to the table where Dawn and Hwan was studying he fixed a star d of hair that fell in Paris’s face and that caused the older boy to flush a deep pink color all over.

After the exams Paris couldn’t handle it anymore. He didn’t know what to do. He will admit now that he was missing the presence of the younger male. He hasn’t seen him for two whole weeks but his friend visited the cafe like usual but he was not there. He started thinking the worse. He was taking orders like usual being a busy Thursday afternoon. This would be the last busy Thursday as the college students will be on vacation for the next 6 weeks. Some students like himself will be taking vacation classes at the college for the four weeks and remaining two visiting home. This year Paris will go home after 2 years of being apart from his family. He has already thought of the places he would be visiting whilst being back home, home cooked meals he misses so much. That brought a smile on his face and just as he was about to finish for the day Jay made his way towards his friends table not sparing a look at the counter.

This was all part of the plan, Jay wanted to make the older boy miss him enough to start a conversation even if it’s to scold him. Gun was well aware of that as well and would fill Jay in on information about Paris. He knew that the boy was missing him and wanted the older male to confess all on his own.

Paris’s face was flushed with anger and jealousy when he saw that Jay was not alone. There was someone hanging on his arm and he was cute. Paris felt jealousy coursed through his body and took off without sparing a glance at the two. He knew that if he stayed he might out himself on the feeling he was starting to have for the young boy. Since tomorrow there was no class Paris made up his mind to go the one of the pub two street over. He called a few college mates and set up to meet them at around 9pm.

He would get laid tonight regardless of who it was. There goes another rule ( No one night stand). He was jealous, angry, frustrated above all confused. He was no ****** but he was surely acting like one being all confused about the feelings developing for the younger male.

He arrived at the pub an hour after the initial time they were supposed to meet and he was already tipsy from the few beers he had along the way. He greeted each of his mates and drink straight out the bottle of spirit that the boys ordered. One of his mat Carl already knew that something might have happened as Paris was known to be very responsible when it comes to drinking. He knew his limits, but today seems to be a no rule day. Carl kept in mind that he would keep an eye on him just to be sure.

After a few hours the whole table was a mess. Some was making out with chicks they did not know, some sleeping, some taking videos as evidence for blackmail later. Paris was on the dance floor grinding against a guy he didn’t even know but he was happy. Getting lost in the music and whatever feeling of satisfaction was having came to a halt when he was pulled from the guy he was dancing with and landed in the embrace of a person with a familiar scent. He tried hard to make out what was happening but knew that the party was over. Next thing he knew, he was being pulled out of the pub with his mates following close behind but all with poor coordination. He laughed softly seeing drunk people trying to walk in a straight line but failed. “That’s me ha ha ha” he said with a chuckle after

Jay couldn’t believe it. Paris will be punished for his behavior. This was not what he wanted the older male to do after he asked one of his junior to be his pretend partner for a few. This was the last thing he needed a drunk and jealous guy to take care of. He wanted to slap some sense back into the older male but damn he looked appetizing with flushed face, droopy eyes and swollen lips. He snapped out of it and gave the older boy a slap on his bum getting him settled in the passenger side of his car. The rest of his mate were placed in a taxi with directions towards the dorm area. Jay got back in the car to find a sleeping Paris mouth slightly opened. “Why are you so cute?” He asked brushing the strands of hair out of the older’s face. He made his way towards his parents house knowing that everyone is asleep and his parents being out of town for a few weeks due to work.

He parked his car in front of the two story house. To him this house was too big and flashy but he had no say in that as he was born in this place. Him being taller than the older boy found it easier to carry the older boy upstairs to his room. He dropped the older boy on his bed turning his over slapping his bum once more to wake him up from his slumber. Paris was startled and took in the room he was in. “Go take a shower, you reek of alcohol” was all he heard before the door was closed behind him. He groaned feeling the tingling sensation from being slapped on his left bum and made his way towards a door that he thought was the bathroom. Trying so hard to to fall on his face since his head was spinning, he got into the shower and went about his business. Everything in this bathroom smelt amazing or maybe he was drunk. He was pretty sure that he might have been using shampoo instead of shower gel but who cares he chuckled at his thoughts. After toweling himself he went back to the room and threw on whatever he saw fit from the closet. That being only a big shirt that almost drown him but it was comfy. He chuckled again this time a bit girlish. His mind went to why he was here but he was too tired to think further as he laid there on the bed legs raised swinging from side to side without realizing that the shirt was pulled up, his treasures for the world to see.

Jay made his way back up the stairs after closing the front door, and getting water for the older boy. He just cannot imagine what he would do to him when he is sober again. He opened the door to his room to come to a complete stop, his heart beating through his ears, eyes bulged his mouth opening and closing. His pants becoming unbearably uncomfortably. Unaware of his presence Paris was humming to a tune he could not decipher his everything was on display for the world to see. His mind was being clouded with lust but he knew he had to stop it now before he does something they will both regret.

She shut the door a little loudly to gain the older male’s attention and went straight to his drawer to find something to give him to wear beneath that shirt. Paris was now seated and could finally make out who that person was. Once realization hit him his face became flushed. Once Jay turned around he could see the way the boy stared at him and that was driving him mad. He was really holding himself back but the older boy was making it hard. Paris saw the effect he was having on the boy and being not fully in his right mind set he decided to tease the younger and that was a wrong move. He stared into Jay’s eyes, slowly pulling the shirt up his leg towards his waist. Jay’s eyes were no longer on his face but the action bing performed. His eyes was lustful and Paris knew if he did not stop now things will truly get out of hand.

He climbed off the bed and grab the boxer shorts out of Jay’s hand and made his way to the bathroom. Before he could reach the door jay grabbed his arm and pushed him on the bed. The boxer short slipped out of his hand landing on the floor next to the bed and the shirt now rolled all the way to his waist, legs parted being fully displayed in front of Jay. Paris hurriedly pulled the shirt down but was stopped by Jay’s voice.

“Don’t move, stay like this” jay said while locking the door with his voice becoming two times deeper than his normal voice. Paris on the other hand had a panic look on his face and the embarrassment of it all but still he found himself complying with what Jay asked if not that made him hot and bothered. “Move up the bed same position” Jay instructed. Paris complied and in his mind was asking if this was really the boy that would always smile just to kiss him off whenever. But now he was dead serious with lust all over his face. Jay settled at the feet of the bed and stared at the older boy full on display in front of him. How far was he willing to go? What did he really want to do? Is Paris wanting the same thing he wants? Those questions had him pause for a second to thing of what he really want to gain from this. But what he said next shocked both himself and the older male. “Play with yourself” Paris almost chocked on his saliva but he found himself doing what he was told. Was he still drunk, tipsy it was hard to tell now as his body had a mind of his own. He nodded and started with caressing his chest slowly moving down to his intimate area. His mind went to how his past partners would tease him that way and since he would be on the receiving end he have to do it for Jay. He smiled a bit thinking of Jay’s reaction if he would touch and play with his entrance as well. Will it drive him made? Would he like that? Could he do that? He didn’t ponder too much and found his hand releasing his now hard member and going straight to the prize. He wanted Jay to be proud of him. What is happening to me? He** questioned himself but dismissed it as he felt his finger pushing through his entrance. That was the first time he had something there and it felt weird but not bad. His legs spreading further allowing him to have a complete access to that area as he placed another finger.

Jay was loosing his mind, he was so uncomfortable, hot all over, and a complete mess as he was mesmerized of what Paris was doing in front of him. He did not realize on when he undressed himself but he was now butt ***** hovering above Paris with the male’s arms pin above his head lust in both of their eyes. In that moment Paris thought on how he always were the one giving and taking care of his partner but now he knew that he would be on the receiving end and it scared him. Jay lifted his legs to have them on his shoulders and directed his member towards his entrance and with one force penetrated him.

Paris was sober now, his brain was fully functional now. He did not want this anymore. He tried pushing Jay off but Jay held him down. “Don’t move or it will hurt more” Jay whispered with a strained voice. He felt his member being squeezed hard and that was driving him on the borderline of taking it slow. He saw the tears that was rolling down Paris’s face but he asked for it.

He wants to hurt him but at the same time cherish him. He wanted to stay like this for a while until the older male get used to it. He knew that he was a bit bigger that the average hence he wants Paris to get use to it. Paris wanted to hurt jay as much as he is hurting now. Is this how the people he screwed felt? How could they enjoy this? His thoughts was interrupted when he felt Jay starting to move deeper but he did not want that

“Stop ... ah.ah.ah” he whined trying to push him out but that caused him to slip in deeper. With a groan Jay was fully in and gave Paris a few moments to breath. “Is it rape if you like it?” Jay asked teasing the older male’s intimate part. “” Paris had no answer he was as much to blame as Jay and he knew that regardless, nothing would have stopped jay if he didn’t instigate the first move. “I’m gonna move now” Jay stated as he started slowly thrusting in and out. Paris froze when he felt that jay was rubbing against something and he panicked. Jay knew what that look meant and leaned down giving a full open mouthed kiss on the older’s mouth. His tongue slipped in. Paris was confused on what to focus on the abuse his mouth was receiving or his rear end or his member.

The night went on with Paris begging for Jay to stop as he was well over spent, he did not know where and how this boy had so much stamina. What started to be a one time thing became a three times thing.

Groaning awake Paris felt his whole body aching and burning feeling at his rear end. He lost count at how much they did it and he think he fainted as well throughout. He crawled out of bed seeing pain killers with a glass of water with a note stating that a bath was set up for him to soak. He hated himself more than he hate Jay because he was the one who started it. He took the medicine, walking towards the bathroom with lots of effort. As he was about to enter the tub he felt something flowing down his leg and came to a realization that “He came inside?... Ah I’m gonna kill him” whimpering he settle in the warm water and let a contented sight escape his lips. He sat in the tub for a good fifteen minutes until the water went cold. He cleaned him self once more in the shower making sure that no trace of what they did were left, however he almost dropped the towel once he stared in the mirror. It looked like he was mauled by a dog or a beast, bite marks and purple bruises littered all over his chest, neck, belly and thigh he turn and even saw bruises on his bum. “What the hell? This guy...” he complained loudly. He saw a shirt and boxer shorts on the counter and hurriedly placed them on, brushing his teeth and slowly walking back to the room. It no longer burn but it was uncomfortable.

Jay sat on a clean made out bed when Paris came out of the bathroom. There was a plate of food placed on a small table near the bed. Jay motioned for him to eat while he went down to the floor as well. Paris tried his best to not show discomfort but jay was ahead of him placing a soft cushion on the floor. Paris’s face flushed and he whispered a thank you. They are in silence with each in their own thoughts. After breakfast Jay took Paris to his dorm mentioning that he will not be available for a few days but he will text him whenever he could. Paris dismissed him and exited the car with a glance towards Jay.

Over the next few days Paris was too busy with school project for the vacation classes and parttime at the cafe that he didn’t realize that true to his words Jay was nowhere to be seen. He came back from his two weeks vacation and October classes was hectic.

He had little to no time to spare for other things. Today being Thursday, with a long week end ahead Paris thought of getting laid this time he would allow another person to do what Jay did to him. Lately he felt that he wanted the younger boy but thinking that maybe he just needed some release, so he tried it with one of his college mate but did not work so he planned ahead that he would find someone to do it to him instead.

He was ready to meet the guy at a small motel three street from their dorm. He went to the room and found the older male already prepared. He didn’t waste time and started removing his clothes and getting into it. Just as the older was about to enter him he got a flash back on how Jay held him, hurt him, but over all cared for him. He pushed the guy off and excused himself whilst exiting the room placing his shirt back on. He couldn’t believe it. Jay broke him, he can’t have sex with other people without thinking of Jay. He has to find him and get his release. He needs to.

Paris made his was to the cafe and found Gun crouched near the counter. Just the person I’m looking for. He thought “Gunner, where is Jay?” Gun turned surprised that Paris asked for the older boy first thing. “Uh... I think they mentioned that he went to a camp or something and will be back.... uh today” Paris didn’t wait long and made his way to his dorm to shower again to get the sweat and smoke off him dialing Jay’s number. The call didn’t go through the first two times on the third try the voice he was longing for answered seeming tired “You Finally called”..... a smiled made its way to Paris’s face and nodded his head. Then remembered that he cannot see him. He chuckled and answered back with a question“ where are you ?” The next three words got Jay to go silent “I need you” and it was an invitation that was rare to hear from the older’s mouth. “I’ll come to you, okay” that was all before the line was disconnected

Both Jay and Paris was passed out from their recent activities. Some new discoveries were found that both boys did not know how it came about but the were happy.

Jay was the first to be awaken and could help to stare at the older male. Many may mistake that Jay was the oldest between the two. He would be mature about everything when it comes to Paris on the other hand Paris was his baby. After his camp training he felt that he was ready for the next step and that is to be fully committed and loyal to Paris.

The older stirred awake with Jay staring at him lovingly. Never would he have thought of breaking all his rules just to be with this boy. But he was happy.

“Paris, please be mine” Jay asked with a soft voice while looking in his eyes

“I was yours before we even spoke” Paris whispered softly whilst staring back into his eyes. With a smile on his face.