Amy just opened her Instagram account, it's not even much time she opened her account..

many days passed she got many text request from many people but she didn't accept it,,

but suddenly someone named Ren texted her "hi"

Amy didn't know why but she replied Back "hllw"

after sometime Ren replied back how are you..?

Amy consciously answered "I'm fine"

then Amy asked "do I know you".?

Ren replied no you don't know me,, "where do you live" Ren asked Amy

Amy was a child like girl so, she replied

I don't even know you,why should I say where I live..?

Ren then said yeah it's true

but I live in *********** so know you know mine can you tell where you live now..?

then Amy said I live in **********

they talked for some time Ren asked something Amy asked something they kept talking for some time,,,

then Amy said I need to go know so bye let's talk later

even Ren said bye

they kept their phone's and started doing their own stuff

Amy is a girl from a middle class family so she needs to do her own stuff,,

just after she put her phone away,

her big brother came home from work,,

her family is not in a good condition,so she always tries to stay away from people who will hurt her,,

she has ambition,,she has a dream to fulfill,,

her brother is from another family,,

when her brother was 2 month old his father left him and his mother,,

so Amy's mother got remarried to look after her little child

after she gave birth to two girls,,

but not after much time she got to know that

Amy's father has another women in his life...

Amy was Soo little at that time that her mother had no other choice but to stay,,

her mother kept tolerating her father's torture,

her father used to beat up Amy's mother..

Amy's mother never could do something to save her from this,

...Amy's mother is from a very poor family,,,her father died before 1 month she gave birth to Amy's brother.....

but her mother used to support her from every way,

but her mother was too old to support her,,

not even her sisters and brothers used to support her,,

she had no other way but to suffer her second husband's beatings

when Amy was 15 days old her father said to her mother

"I'm going to a new city for work"

" I'll return soon"

but after sometime Amy's mother got to know that he's in a foreign country,,,

and he's not gonna return soon,,

she was broken,,, she thought

"how will I raise my kids" how will I feed my kids" "what should I do"...?

but she got a hold on herself

she tried every way to feed her kids

when Amy's father went away her brother was 10 years old

Amy's mother had no other way but to give up on Amy's brothers study,,

Amy's brother started working in a little shop since then .

when the family of Amy started to stay in a good shape

her grandmother died,,

again Amy's mother was heart broken,,she used to love her mother a lot

after her father died,,her mother was her only way to talk about her sadness,

her mother was her best friend

she again started staying depressed,

she was very much broken when her mother died

it gave Amy's mom a sudden shock

before the day Amy's grandma died she met with Amy's mom

she said that "if I die what will happen to you".?

"how will you manage everything"..?

"please do forgive me"

Amy's mother said

...(while crying)...

"please don't say that"

"if something happens to you I'll die"

after chatting for some time

Amy's mother "mom please do forgive me"

"please do forgive all the bad things I said or have done"

"please do forgive me"

then she came back home,,,after asking for forgiveness

then the other day she got the news that her mother is dead..

Amy was only 3 month old

she didn't even had the chance to see her grandma

she doesn't even remember her grandma much

she still craves for the happiness of grandparents

even her father didn't have father-mother

she used to see others and used to feel very sad

then again though her mother was in grief but still she took care of her little children's

she never wished for a family like this,

she only wanted to be happy

she just wanted a happy family

then their life kept going like this

they went through many ups and downs

Amy's childhood was not like any other children's childhood

she never used to ask for more

even if she wanted something she never had the opportunity to buy it

her father used to talk with them on phone

but he didn't even asked them if they're fine or not

they usually used to talk about money

even in different festivals she didn't used to get new clothes

though every children used to get very beautiful clothes

but she never said anything to her family about it

her father used to send money and even his brother used to earn but that wasn't enough

for their daily expenses

......even in festivals she used to cry......

even in festivals her father used to swear at them

saying

..."what else do you see without money".?...

Amy used to get very heart broken

but she never showed

she was a very calm and understanding girl since childhood

she never asked for more,,she used to get happy with how much she used to get

her childhood was not as happy as other children's

but she kept smiling through all the hardships in her life

they used to live in a rented house,,,

they had to face many problems regularly

so they had to change their house very often

even though Amy had so much to share to but she never could share it,,

she always longed for someone who would listen to her all the words

who would understand her,,

she always longed for a person who will understand her sadness,,

who will understand how many things she had to go through.

Amy's mother was always in sadness,,she never cared much about Amy's feelings,,Amy always felt lonely even staying with her family

she always felt that she is not among the family,she doesn't belong to it,,,she was always made feel like she was an outsider..

so she always wanted a person in her life who will at least understand her,,,

Amy was like a book which was waiting for it's reader to read it,,but the book nor was it ever bought by anyone nor it was read,,

she was like a book that she herself wrote but no one ever even opened it to see through it,,

Amy always used to talk with herself,,,,,, she used to say that "it's better to speak with myself at least no one is gonna hurt me later by my own words"

Amy was a very thoughtful person,,,she never had any bad intentions for others,,,she always thought about others first,,

but

in return she never even was in the last number of anyone's priority,,,no one ever even used to think about her,,

not even her family members understood her,,she always craved for those loves ,,,she always used to see others being loved

"being loved by their mother"

"being loved by their father"

"being loved by their grandparents"

but in her childhood her brother used to love her a lot,,maybe in the whole world her brother was the person who used to love her..

so she always said to others that she needs a person like her brother as her future..

when Amy was about to born her mother was taken to the hospital, but her father hadn't came to the hospital to see her,,

he sent a friend of his to see what happened (if it's a boy or a girl )

when his friend saw that a girl was born he went and said to Amy's father that "congratulations you got a baby girl"

Amy's father was not happy,,he hadn't even had gone to see Amy,,

at that time Amy's brother had brought her back ,,,he always looked after Amy..

washed her clothes,,fed her,,made her asleep since childhood she was brought up by his brother..

what her father hadn't done for her,, Amy's brother did much more for her,,

so she always idolized her brother,,her brother was the best gift she ever got from almighty since childhood,

so she always was very much grateful for that,,she always said that "I'm very happy to get a brother like him"

Amy never had a permanent friend since childhood,, because her family used to change house and schools very often,,

so she never got the chance to make a permanent friend in her life,,

whenever she used to make friends they had to move out because of some reasons,

but when she was a child she never understood these things so she never felt much bad

infact she used to feel very happy to see new people in her life,

she was a very funny loving child so she used to make friends very easily.

other children's also used to like her because of her friendly behavior

she always used to he happy no matter how much she suffers inside she never made anyone feel that she's unhappy and broken inside

whenever she used to hear someone say that "my father bought me this"

..."my father is like this"...

she always used to feel very bad cause her father never did anything for her,,nor can she say something like them so happily

but still

she used to smile hearing everything,,she never made anyone know how she felt hearing those words

she always showed that she was doing well but in fact she was broken from inside,,she thought that these happiness wasn't meant for her

she always thought that "maybe I deserve much more than this that's why I'm not getting these things"

she always made her mind saying the words of comfort to herself,,she didn't had anyone to make her understand,,so she had to make her understand everything by herself

her mother was always depressed,,, her father was not with her,,her brother used to go to work,,and her sister was carefree,,

it's not that her sister was not in pain but she was very much strong

and maybe nothing used to effect her much,,but Amy's father used to love Amy's sister a lot,,he always fulfilled every wish of her,

so,, sometimes any used to feel bad hearing those things that how her father loved her sister

...but never even had gone to see her when she was born...

she never showed nor said anyone anything about how much broken she was

...she always just smiled...

after hearing everything

she always showed that kind of face that these things never hearted her

but from inside she was broken,,,she always felt like crying her heart out and saying that

..."it hurts,,and it's killing me"...

but she never could do that because she knew

she knew her family's condition,, she also knew that no one even will understand her,,

so she kept everything to herself,,,she kept everything to herself and made her stronger

she knew that there's no one in this world who is gonna understand her feelings

who will understand how she is feeling

she couldn't even expect from her family to understand her,,

she never could say how much it hurts her when her father abuses her just for some money,,

she never could say that when her mother says

...that "her father went away because of her"...

she was broken by those words from her mother,

she never could say it to them how hurtful it is for her to stay alive in this place ,,,in this world where she only gets hurt,,

everyone whom she thinks is not gonna hurt her,, always breaks her

she always wanted to kill herself,,she always wanted to do suicide

...but she couldn't...

she couldn't cause it's Haram in their religion

...to kill themselves...

so no matter how much hurt or broken she was she never could kill her self