After all we are just human, everyone makes mistakes but in the end of the day, I am a nobody.

A nobody with a dream, a dream to succeed. But in the world we live in, the society we live in where people judge the way you look or act, there is nothing you can do, but one thing is to never give up.

After all that is how life is...

Growing up, to what I am now, I have changed, changed to a better person.

A person who can leave the past and look forward to the future that is waiting for me.

A future which is now the present.

We grow old, but we still are us, I am still me!

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Chapter 1

"Thank you for accepting this interview, Mrs. Siwoo and Mr. Seokjin!"

"We would like to ask you some questions, as you two have been receiving a lot of attention on the media due to Seokjin's sudden proposal at the Olympics just after receiving gold! Congratulations on your Engagement!"

"Thank you, Sure" The couple replied in perfect unison.

Wrapping their fingers and gazing at each other for a quick second, the couple instantly had reminisced the memories that they had together, since they were just 11 years old.

16 years ago

Siwoo's POV

"The Gold winner of final swim of the season, goes to Lane 3, Kim Seokjin, with a time of 2 minute and 23 seconds. In silver, it goes to Jee Siwoo, with a time of 2 minute and 30 seconds." The announcer cheered as a woman dressed in a blue, green peculiar tracksuit had hung the ribbon around my neck.

Watching the woman move to her left the boy in front of her, Seokjin bowed down at her as she hung the gold medal on his neck, and handing him a flower bouquet.

Looking down I examined the light grey coloured medal thats around my neck and polishing it with my towel; that's when reality and disappointment had fully hit me. Scanning around me, I had no sight of my parents, but instead Seokjin and his family, laughing and cheering for his win.

I knew my parents would not come, so why did I high hopes. My parents rather go on business meetings than waste there precious time to watch me swim. But I guess it's pointless for them to come if I know that I can't make them proud.

My parents may have a huge company brands to manage and have a reputation to hold, but they were never there for me. Both are too focused on their job that they never had a weeks rest in the last 3 years.

I love them from the bottom of my heart but I just want some attention, its as if I am not the favourite child but the forgotten one... even though I am their one only child, it just feels like it.

1 year later

Seokjin won gold and I got silver again... but what can I expect, we have been competing each other in more than 35 meets. His family also seems more happier than the previous time. He's lucky to have a family like them, a happy and very excited mom, funny dad, and great older sister.

Honestly, I envy him, what can I say he has the talent, the brains, the looks... wait what am I thinking?! But he has all the things I want... which is love from my parents. I may have more money than him but that's it.

My parents have been going on more international business trips since for the last year, Mom's and Dad's fashion brands has spread globally. With my Mom as main head designer and dad who is the CEO, co-founder alongside Mom.

I'm proud of their success, and all I ask for is them is to be proud of me.

6 years later

"Are you sure about this?" Mrs. Choi, my swim coach questions me, resting her both of her hand on my shoulder.

Thinking to myself, I made up my mind.

"Yes!" I voiced, creating Mrs. Choi face to be full of emotions, mostly vividly showing sadness.

Taking her hands off my shoulder, I took the chance and hugged her tightly as I whispered in her ear a faint but sincere 'thank you'.

Just then, I could feel wet splashes of drops fall down on my hoodie, as I tend to be an emotional person, my tears got the best of me. I was a full on water fountain at this point. But I can't be anymore grateful to Mrs. Choi, she has been by side since the day I was introduced to her about 8 years ago. Without her, I wouldn't have gotten through my depression. Without her, I wouldn't be alive.

Before I had time to stop crying, I could hear my name being called outside of the girls change room. So quickly wiped my tears away, then hugging Mrs. Choi just one more time, I came to see who was calling my name. By the door, Seokjin was standing rather innocently.

"Seokjin? Why are you calling for me?" I asked, rubbing my palms together, in hope that he won't notice my red eyes.

There was a long pause before he able to answer me back, " I just wanted say that race in 10 minutes! Also good luck!" he walked away awkwardly after his response.

"Thanks!" I mumbled, as I went back inside the changing room, I took Mrs. Choi's hand and dragged her out.

I lead Mrs. Choi and myself out to the swimmers area, taking my hoodie off revealing my swims as I sat down on a grey foldable chair.

Hoping to receive some techniques just like always, Mrs. Choi just said, " Its your last, so just enjoy it!"

As my name had been called from the announcer, I stood up from my seat, and since Mrs. Choi was busy looking at her papers I took the chance to hug her again.

"Mrs. Choi, I want to make you proud. Even though this is the last time." I smiled before heading myself away and go to the group of racers. Seokjin and I shared eye contact as I seemingly walked towards him, he looked sweaty, worried and looked rather guilty. Causing me to think that something was wrong. By the time we were 2 meters apart, his lips came apart as if he was going to say something, "Siwoo, I didn't mean to overhear you while you were with Mrs. Choi in the changing rooms but I am sorry. But I don't know why I have had a cr-"

Suddenly just as Seokjin was about to finish his sentence, the announcer said for the swimmers to head to ther places. Walking beside Seokjin to the lanes, I whisper, "Don't worry about it, if you want we can talk later"

Seokjin's face had lit up from excitement, and I just stood there staring at him. Thinking about what Seokjin had to say a few seconds ago, I thought of what were his last words over and over, 'But I don't know why I have a cr-'

Then out of a sudden, I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders, making me snap out from my thinking. I looked to see behind me, it was Seokjin, "Siwoo, snap out of it... And get into position! Don't think about what I had said earlier!" He exclaims softly.

Heading myself to my lane, I stood on the block in a ready position, clearing all of the distractions from my mind, from the loud cheers to the small mumble some of the swimmers said to encourage themselves.

Looking forward down to the water, I try the new strategy I have been practicing to help me improve. I look at the how the water moves, and how it would feel as soon as parts of my body reach contact with the water, then I was ready.

"On your marks... get set... go!" The Announcer said followed by a loud bang.

Diving into the water, my body speeds through the water, combining my arms and legs motions I moved faster than I have ever been before. I felt as if I was just gliding through the water. Then Mrs. Choi words, came to me, 'It's your last, so just enjoy it!"

Her words gave me a boost of confidence, and I came to realize that I only have 2 meters left to swim. Taking my hand out to touch the board, I lifted my head out to see on the screen to see my time. I got a time of 1 minute and 4 seconds, making me in Gold, with Seokjin with a time of 1 min 13 seconds in Silver. My face was filled with joy, getting out of the water, I saw Mrs. Choi sprint to me. Running to her, she hugged me tightly, forgetting that I was wet, I let my happiness out.

"Are you still going to retire? Because you just set a record, for the fastest female swimmer of this swimming season globally for your age group!" Mrs. Choi happily cried.

Then out of no where I could see my parents walking hand in hand towards me. They had a proud smile on their faces, so I walked up to them and they both hugged me. I could hear my mom cry, "Siwoo, please forgive your Eomma and Appa! I know we never come to your meets but we do watch them live on a screen, we always try to come but your Appa and I have a big schedules. Every time you place in top three, I get so happy and proud of you, but I never get a chance to say that I am proud of you. Your Appa and I felt guilty for not showing you any attention for so many years! Siwoo, I am sorry!"

Mom's words struck me, but the pain still hurts, I don't think I can just easily forgive them.

"Siwoo, we love you and we a proud of you!" Appa smiled as he looked tearful.

Camera's came flashing at us, but I didn't care, my parents didn't as well. "**** that reputation!" Dad whispered. With dad's response, mom pinched dad in the elbow, making dad whine, and causing me to laugh.

Both hugging them back, "I love you both! From the bottom of my heart!"

After 3 solid minutes of hugging and lights flashing in every direction, I caught Seokjin standing in the corner of my eye, proudly smiling with his family. It looked as if he was busy talking to someone, but I couldn't seem to see who since reporters were surrounding us, blocking my full view.

I gestured my parents if I could go to Seokjin, to talk about what he said earlier before the match, as it had been bothering me. Separating the hug from my parents, I quickly ran to Seokjin, with the crowd of reporters chasing after me. But suddenly a girl who stood directly in front of him rushingly hugged him. Stopping me frozen, in an unknown feeling of sadness.

Trying to recognize who the person who just hugged him, the reporters caught up to me and then once again crowded around me.  Mic's being shoved right at my face, camera lights flashing every second, I started feeling lightheaded and a rather unusual loss of balance.

"Sorry, but can I have some privacy, you can ask questions to my coach." I requested, bowing respectfully to the group of  men and woman.

In an instant the cameramen and reporters, said their apologies and headed their way to Mrs. Choi. Once as I had my sight back with nothing flashing on my face, I couldn't seem to find Seokjin where I last saw him. So looking around, I saw him with the girl that hugged him sitting on a chair with him. Respecting his privacy, I started walking away back to my parents. Then unexpectedly, Seokjin called for me, shouting my name loud for everyone to hear.

With now eyes on me, I embarrassingly speed walked to him.

"Siwoo, meet my older sister, Jin-ae" Seokjin flashed a smile at me.

"Jin-ae this is Siwoo, Siwoo this is Jin-ae"

Looking at Jin-ae they both look exactly they same but just different genders and ages. How did I just find that out.

"Hi Siwoo, I have heard a lot about you! I have been abroad, but I have heard a lot about you" Jin-ae stood up, taking my hands and shaking them.

"I can't wait for you to be my sister in law!" She laughed. Causing my checks to become red and hot.

"Noona!" Seokjin punched his sisters arm.

"I guess my baby brother right here hasn't confessed yet." Jin-ae cheekily smirked at me and grabbed my shoulders, making me sit right beside Seokjin.

"I am going to give you both some privacy! Just saying I would like a nephew, but a niece is also cute!" Jin- ae spoke out before leaving to go to her parents.

With a flushed face, I immediately stood up and faced a direction trying to avoid eye contact. But before I could take one step away, Seokjin took my wrist, bringing me back to my seat. We sat there for a while in complete silence until Jin's confession somehow brought me in pure happiness.

"Siwoo, I-I like you!" Seokjin stuttered bringing me to his attention.

Due to his sudden confession, I was speechless, I didn't have much to say. All I heard was my pulse beating faster and faster, my checks were starting to get hot, and an inability to speak. I don't know what was happening to me but surely I know that I am happy.

"Siwoo, you may have mixed feelings right now! But please let me chase after you, if you don't catch any feelings after 2 years. I will leave you alone. Siwoo I don't want you to look at me in a weird way, but I genuinely like you a lot" Seokjin exclaimed.

Still not able to process what is happening I let all my feelings and emotions take full control of me I eventually said "Yes, make me fall in love with you!"

With my response, I turned to Seokjin and kissed his right cheek, "Bye!" I blushed, running away to my parents.

Looking back at Seokjin's direction, he was smiling as he placed his hands on his right tomato cheek.

Turning my head front, I saw my parents huddled close with smirks on their faces, and standing along side them was Mrs. Choi with a familiar expression. "Wasn't that Seokjin? Is he your boyfriend?" Mrs. Choi asked patting my back.

"No" I rubbed my neck with my hand.

"Then why did you kiss him on the cheeks?" Dad questions.

"You saw that?" I exclaimed.

"Don't worry! I was wondering when If I was ever going to get a grandchild. I guess I don't have to worry anymore." Mom laughed.

"Anyways it's time for the interview!" Mrs. Choi reminded, bringing me to my seriousness state.

Walking to the podium with Mrs. Choi right by my side, I could already see Seokjin being interviewed. So we both locked eye contact, and broke it as soon as I stood right beside him to face the camera's.

With questions rushing at me, I tried answering them with the best answers I can provide.

" Can you please introduce yourself to the camera!"

" Hello, I am Jee Siwoo!"

" What can you say after receiving the most fastest time this season for your category?"

" I am very proud of myself, I hope to do better next season!"

" Can you say anything to the camera?"

" I like to thank my family, my coach and I would like to say that it was great versing the other swimmers."

"There was a rumour saying that you were going to retire and that this was your last meet. I this true?"

"Yes, but then I came to realization is that swimming is what's keeping me alive! It's my true passion"

"What would you like to work on regarding your performance on water?"

"Focusing on the moment, but nothing much really!"

"And lastly what is your relationship with Kim Seokjin?"

" I- " I stuttered to respond.

" I am courting her!" Seokjin responded for me, as he took my hand and kissed my palm gently, resulting my face to become 50 shades of red.

"Just wait and see!" Seokjin chuckling at my reaction.

Only two days have passed, and a lot of things happened.

All of my social media accounts inceased tremendously regarding the amount of followers.

Tons of people have been asking for interviews. My parents company headquarters were crowded asking for interviews as I have been number 1 trending on twitter, for having the fastest time for my section but also because of Seokjin's confession on tv. I feel like one of those kpop idols shown on tv.

It's currently 6 am on a Sunday. I was getting myself ready for morning workout since I have noticed to have gained a little amount of weight after that celebration feast I had the night of the meet.

Picking up my phone from the bedside table a small blue sticky note that was on top of a book had caught my attention.

Peeling the note off the novel, I stared at the random numbers that was nicely written it said a phone number. Which made me remember that it was Seokjin's number that he given me just as I was about to leave from the swim arena.

Before I could forget to add his number on my phone, I added him on my contacts. Doing that quick task, I was out of my room in a 2 minutes and in the home gym.

As I did my workout, push ups, squats, some weights. etc I was watching the meet that I was in, since the live was posted online.

2h 30mins later,

2 hours and 30mins passed, I was awfully tired, I did't have any more energy to keep going

Going back to my room, I took a quick shower before having my breakfast.

Heading to the kitchen, I saw Mrs. Jung making tomatoes, cheese and eggs on toast.

Mrs. Jung is our personal chef at home. She is also the A+ List head chef and owner of a couple resurants around the city. But the reason for her success was because when my parents were just starting they took her in the company to make the food for the employees.

From what I heard from Mrs. Jung is that my parents encouraged and helped her make a restaurant banches, she's very greatful to my parents so that's why she's still here with us.

Mrs. Jung glides the plate of toast to me, and as soon as I had contact with the plate, I tried eating as fast as possible.

Eating a lot in a small amount of time is not a good idea but the hungry person I am, I didn't care. "Slow down and have some water!" Mrs. Jung gave me a glass of water.

"Thank you!" Taking a large gulp of water,"Aunt, is Hoseok busy today?"

"I don't think so" Mrs. Jung said washing the dishes.

"Aunt can I come with you to your house? I am bored here!" I whined.

"Sure! We'll leave when I finish!"

40mins later

We arrived at Mrs. Jung's house, and directly went my way to Hoseok's room. Swinging the door open I immediately saw him dancing.

"Hey!" Trying to catch his attention but he didn't seem to hear.

But then I saw that he was wearing AirPods, so swiftly I went up to him and took off them off.

"Oh hi! Didn't see you there!" Hoseok paused the song on his phone. 

"Yeah, you sure didn't!" I scoffed, sitting on his bed.

"Hurry up and get yourself showered, I have something to tell you!" Pushing him out of his room.

"Okay Mom!" He teases.

Leaving me alone in the room, out of boredom I look at the pictures hanging on the wall. Most of them were pictures of J-hope when we were just 4 years old going to our first day of preschool.

Hoseok and I have known each other since the day the day I was born, he was only 6 months old.

We had eventually learnt to be dependent on eachother, and knew eachother's habits, likes, dislikes, actions that have never fought about anything deeply serious. We only argue about who get's to eat the last slices of pizza his mom made for us.

Staring at my younger self, a lot changed, mostly my appearance.

10 mins

"What do you have to tell me?" Hoseok sat down crossing his legs on the mat. "Seokjin gave me his phone number" showing my contacts list.

"What! When?" He snatched the phone off my grip.

"2 days ago, after meet" I mumbled.

"Good luck with the last few months of high school! My Woowoo has a boyfriend!" He pinched my cheeks.

"He's not my boyfriend"

"No, soon-to-be boyfriend" Hoseok smirked.

"You may not be my brother by blood, but you do act like one!"

"I am your older brother!"

"By only six months, but sure!"

"Let's eat"  I asked as stomach growled.

12 mins later

Since Aunt went back to work, it was only just Hobi and I at his house. J-Hope is making a strawberry and cream cheese cake, lucky he got that talent in cooking from his mom. If I was the one to cook, we'd have to goodbye to the house.

"We have to wait for 30mins and then we can eat if" J-hope shut the fridge door.

Being the person I am, I stood up from the stool that I was sitting in and looked inside the snack cabinet.  In the cabinet of snacks it was loaded of chips, so taking one of them I popped it open.

J-hope stuffed his hand into the pack of chips saying, "Are you going to text him first?"

"Who?" stuffing my mouth with 2 chips.

"Seokjin"

"Ohhhh, no"

"Why though?"

"Fine, I will do it!"

On my phone I went to my contacts, and pressed on Seokjin's profie. But suddenly J-hope took my phone, and started typing something. After he finished typing he sent it and gave the phone back to me, "What did you put?"

Hi Seokjin, this is Siwoo!

"Oh"

"I had to secure my chance of become a uncle in the future! because I knew you were just going to pretend to send it in front of me. Not going to happen!"