" I'm not innocent , yet I'm not guilty either. I just love the one that I love."

In a relationship, I'm a coward.

I dare not to call you.

I fear for the desperate tears.

Fear for the empty house.

Fear for the promises you made.

And fear for getting hurt again.

Zihao Zhang

from the first sight I saw you,

I knew there was nothing I want more and I would do anything for you.

What about you?

You said that you love me,but why your love brought me sadness and pain as well.

I thought you would be my today and all of my tomorrows.

I imagined that someday you would turn around again and stare at me with all your love.

If love between you and me cannot last forever,

Then I'm sorry

I'll have to let go........

I look at the view in front of me.It still the same as I first time come to this place.It's like my second home for me.

It snowy today......" Aahhh....I'm cold "

I walk to the bus stop while observing surrounding me.I look at the couple who warmth each other at the cafe.There are also passer by who's holding hand with their partner like this is their own world.

I missed this situation. *bitter smile*

*In side the bus*

toot....toot....toot....toot....Sorry the subscriber you dial is busy now.Please dial later.

He still not picking up.I try again for the second time.This time he answer my call.

" Hello .....Its' snowing today , winter has arrived." * low voice*

On the other side." Is there anything you need? I'm currently working overtime."

" Are you coming home for dinner tonight? You haven't been home for a long time."

" Is there anything wrong?"

" Are you coming home tonight? We should have dumplings for a snowy day. I can make you some.

" Don't wait. I won't go back today. And no need to make dumplings yourself. I will get Simon to order take away for you. I gotta go now. I'm busy. toot....toot....

sniff....sniff....He did it again.Everytime I make a call he always said the same thing.My heart ache so much.I would allow you to do whatever you want to make you happy.But you wouldn't come home even once.Sniff....sniff....I dont know if I can have dumplings with you in the first snow night next year.

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*In The House*

In the first night snow,I'm alone again.*sigh* I stares my photo with him in the phone.

sniff....sniff...*I miss him...

Ding dong....Ding dong....

*wipe tears* "wait a second..I'm coming."

*open the door* " Oh Simon! What brings you here? "

" Mr.Qin, I brought you some dumplings. "

" You don't need to errands for Zihao.You can just focus on your work at the office. "

" That's what an assistant should do.I have to work hard to satisfy the high wage I am given.Is there anything else I can do for you Mr.Qin? "

" I am good.Thank you. "

" Then,I'll be going back to work first. "

" Ok.Take care. "

I put down the dumplings on the table.I look at it emotionless.

*FLASHBACK*

"Zihao! Why are you putting so much candies in the dumplings?"

"The lucky dumpling often get taken by you.If I wrap to little,I won't be able to get one."

*smile*

"Dumplings are ready! There are mine."

"Hhmmm....*sad face* Those are yours.Why did you divide the dumplings into two plates.

Take one and get into his mouth.

*speechless* "I got a lucky dumplings"

*END OF FLASHBACK*

Drip....drip....*nosbleed*

It's no wonder that I would get illness like this.Didn't I offer you all my luck to you from the beginning.*smirk*