A great psychologist once said that 80% of our dreams are demonstrating of our secrete desires. But a psychologist also said that these desires are the fears hidden deep down in your heart. Now for example. I feel like a monster in crowd being madly watched and laughed at by the crowd. This is one of the uncountable time I've been trapped in this nightmare since that day. And all this time in this nightmare I can't even make a sound enduring all this pressure,humiliation, mockery. I just bear with it silently...

Being caught in this never ending loop at people laughing at me, mocking me. I cry out for help. I see Jiang Yi Cheng. The man whom I loved, The man who mocked me for being fat not up to the standard of so called beauty that every one frowns over . The man who made me miserable. I habitually say " Help me Yi Chen" when I see his face as he gives me a sense of protection which I still don't know why ?. Whereas he replied " Don't act like we are close. Fatty like you don't deserve to love me, Chen Xiao." and pushed me towards the floor.

I wake up from that dream. Sweating all over like a pathetic loser. " Damn Nightmare." I take sometime to catch my breathe. I feel a headache as I remember my pathetic past. Why did I fall in love with such a person?? was it my fault that I was fat?? Was I at fault because I loved him ? Why did he made a joke of me and my feelings ? I still   have the fear that I felt in the stage in front of every one as I read my love letter for you infont of everyone. Nevermind maybe that was just my fate. But I promised to never be like my weak self in the past. I will stand strong just for myself. I won't be weak anymore.

I go towards washroom to wash my face. I freshen up and was eating and doing my daily routine until I hear a door bell ringing.There I see my manager and secretary.

"Miss Lily" my manager Zhang Yi Ming called out my name. Yes I am now Lily Chen. The supermodel, singer and a actress. I am no longer the pathetic fatty loser Chen Xiao. My other name Chen Xiao is only known by few number of people my manager, secretary, family and some people of my agency.I am now back and I won't fall down. Yang Yi Cheng just wait and watch.

We continued about our daily schedule. For the day, shooting, press conference, fan meeting, and all. Though the paparazzi is my hatest part. They interfare with my private life which irritates me the most. Currently a paparazzi found my living place so we are discussing about the counter strategy for the solution of the problem..

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