Dear diary.......                       August 25

Few days past  , I was dragged here . somewhere in the Middle of nowhere . no one knows where this plac- school is , at least that's what they say. all I know is this is the place I need to be Or else- again I don't know.

Funny how I thought I knew many things, how people think the Same , but after finding out this whole new world I want to laugh at my own self .

How can this be hidden from everyone ,

How can hundreds and thousands of vampires And witches And what Not be seen Or found out ......Or maybe they know, they just don't to tells us. Maybe we are just ignorant to see what clearly can be seen.

I want to Be a vampire .

Seems like a childish thing to say .

But now being a vampire it seems More childish.

Here people sometimes feel too good to be true . everything confuses me and one question always emerges inside me , can I fit in. Even being a vampire or not fully a vampire , cause I am still alive , have a beating heart . for being a full vampire we need to die . I still need to be fed on  blood tho. Being a real vampire at least they can fit in as vampires.

Their system is always strange to me.

Everything about me was ended or finished or labeled as dead , the day I came here , I AM DEAD FOR EVERYONE.

This is how my life fell from the sky and is stuck in a date palm .........

I remember the date:

14th August.

My mom, who was the dearest to me,

The person who cared for me and the person so warm as the sun was........gone.

it was raining harshly that day

It was a normal day.

I was coming back from my meeting

I said bye to Sarah who is my only friend, while she walked away she turned and shouted

"Have a good day ".and gave a half-grin And walked away with her umbrella in her hand. I saw her disappear in the ore I went in.

It was, it was a good day Before what I saw......

In front, of my eyes laying there, half-***** only in her inners, her throat slit and blood coming out of her throat and a cut open stomach, body full of scars hideous to look at. her mouth still opens like she was trying to grasp air, And her eyes- the look of her face. The room was a mess her dresses And vases And glass all shattered as if they had a fight and started throwing things at each other. I opened my phone and dialled 911 and started getting near her I stepped on a few pieces of glass and my right foot started bleeding but I didn't feel anything as still beeping.

few tears escaped my eyes without me knowing

I still went near her, not wanting to believe the reality there was so much blood, every corner of the wall had blood .my phone had slipped out of my hands everything around me was dissolving and everything was starting to blur with then when I couldn't move my self to go any near I still did, the person on the other side was asking what had happened but I couldn't focus on that. I was about to touch her just a few centimetres apart

when someone came running and grasped my shirt from behind and threw me to a wall and my head hit a wall harshly and I played there with my stomach facing the ground couldn't move an inch, but I wanted to see his face so I tilted my head upward, but it was all blurry I couldn't make out his face but his long black hair and baggy clothes his eyed giving a hard stare, I couldn't see him a glare but feel it. I tried to move a bit I cant, it hurt so bad . my lips were bleeding and my head was painting and slowly my eyes closed.

my eyes Opened wide and someone shouted

" he's awake " before I could look at the person, they have already run out. I looked around And it was a hospital, and the first thing I remember is my mom.

I tried to move my hand but my muscles pained the more I moved the more it felt like my muscles were tearing apart.

Before I could do something a doctor and a few nurses rushed in while holding some clipboards and said

" Mr addition Anion, can you hear us " I nodded

" Follow my finger " his index finger went from left to right.

after they have left, I finally saw someone I knew

Aunt ruby. She lived with us

She was my mothers younger sister

she was much more soft-hearted and talkative than my mother after mom adopted me, the second mother to me.

she looked worried and I could see her dried-up tears, she didn't look too well.

She looked at me slowly sitting down at the side chair while holding my hand and said in a tiny voice

" Adion, I am sorry " and burst out crying, squeezing my hand

" I am so so sorry " why was she apologising. it's not her fault. I wanted to tell her this but I couldn't move a lot of talks I could just stare. Stare at her crying her eyes out but here and there again I remember her body- my mother's lying dead, scratches and marks on her body. I also wanted to cry but couldn't. after a few minutes when aunt stopped crying someone knocked on the door. I looked at her come in, she was trying to look strong but anyone can see how her legs were shaking and mouth was trembling there, I tried to move how much I tried I couldn't

my eyes were shut again,n their own and I found myself alone in that darkness, no one with me coldness embracing me then suddenly I heard my mom screaming her lungs out and I ran towards the sound in more darkness and there was the picture of her, just as I last saw her. But she was alive, it felt like I was there, it felt real but I couldn't go any nearer, I tried to see something else and spotted someone with a black mask on, covering his eyes and nose and he was in a suit. nowhere near the guy who threw me to the wall, I could see her saying something but nothing was hearable or some were just in another language. I tried to read her lips and I could make a few words out

- bound, wait, heaven, ibi. (Or something like that)

- Frink o birn is it a name? Or from another language

but before something could happen my eyes opened wide And everything disappeared slowly

I was at the hospital again And this time police was also there surrounding me and before they could even call my name my aunt shoo-ed them away as soon as I woke up and came running to me asking and bringing the hospital food which was on a table plastic-wrapped, seeing her do this, I feel bad about myself and her making her do this, even after her sister died she needs to take care of her adoptive child.

I felt even more horrible than ever

after seeing her die in front of me and after the dream that felt almost real where I saw her.

And suddenly I couldn't remember anything about the dream just a few scenes of her crying and a word

- Frink o Birn

- after a few days -

I was released on 20 August.

The dream ( more like a nightmare )

Never came again since then. but I did see her dead in her room just how I saw her waking up in cold sweat was pretty regular now

I wasn't badly injured but my muscles went numb for a few days after being hit harshly.

We were planning for moms funeral,

The police called us and wanted us to ask to examine her body more than they already did but we refused.

Seeing her again, dead and pale no warmth in her would give me even more nightmares than I already have.

We had interrogations with the police about my mother's case. they haven't found any traces- they would reply every time aunt tried to find more about it And shrug her away I saw her frustrated and she kicked some cans on the road and felt sometimes would cry at home and pull a happy as soon as I came in the room it was more frustrating in many ways, I kept seeing my mother's dead body In my sleep I wanted to keep hidden nightmares and sadness. The least I could do I be out of her worries.

" Adion, " aunt called me down and I saw all of my mother's stuff on the ground spread on every part of the living room, I was stunned for a second and though I fight to want to cry again'' oh you are here, can you help me sort her things, soo messy '' she said and looked through the whole thing. I nodded and sat down facing her

'' we should start with the ones which are too personal to her, and things which are not so much '' she said and laid it down

We were looking through the stuff and aunt suddenly said

'' look this is the photo she preserved and never let anyone see, it is you when you were first adopted '' I looked at it, I was hardly 1 year. and saw her smiling in front of the house

'' This was the place we were but we moved out she didn't like it much ''

'' um really, but why ''

'' don't know but she did always say that ''

I nodded and looked started looking for something and a pendant came into my hand, a white colour circle pendant inside a square with white flowers ones, I looked at have never seen it before she never wore it.

" is it hers "

" yeah but she never wore it after she adopted you " I shrugged it away

I was thinking of getting a job or something. She is getting a load of work on her-

Suddenly My aunt's yelling voice ........

My aunt was yelling downstairs, I have never heard her yell before, went down stair out of curiosity .

" aunty ruby , what happened " I asked slowly proceeding downwards .

" no-no thing " she said

" how have you're injury been and why are you comin-"

"Aunt don't change the topic " I said looking at her , after a while she finally spoke

" kris....her body disappeared "

" what , disappeared " I for once thought I misheard it

" kris's body had disappeared over night"

How her body......

Her body was in the place where dead bodies are kept in freezing compartments,which was heavily gaurded .

" what !" I said and suddenly I lost balance and fell on the stair , sitting their in silence , tears running down my cheeks .

They cant even let her body rest in peace .

That was my last chance to say good bye to her which I couldn't say last time .

I regret not wanting to see her again at the police station .

We were again called by the police again,

When we went there , they called us for signing few papers. She asked me to be outside , even when I asked to come in .

After few minutes , a voice sharp as a knife , came yelling , even from outside I could hear whatever my aunt said .

" sir , how can my sisters body disappeared over night and you're here doing absolutely nothing!!!" She yelled , lord I have not heard her yell like this ever .

" mam we are doing every thing we could ,but still we couldn't find anything , you need not to shout here ,

We will do what we can to find you're sisters body "

My aunt scowled and , again things went silent . she came out and went near her car , i followed her a sat on my seat plugging my seat belt in .

" did you sign it " I asked

" of course I did " she said getting in her seat and checking all the mirrors .

" so what happened " she sighed

" they said , her body just disappeared over night and there was nothing caught on cameras either . "

" you were yelling "I said

" am I not a good yeller " she said jokingly

"Hmm"

" hmmm, is all you're reply . no wonder sarah can't never ask you out ." she said the last sentence under her breath

" what "

" nothing " she said rolling her eyes.

Its been few days , to be exact 2 and there still no result about my mothers body .

The killer didnt just kill her , he also took her body so there could be no clues of his murder .

My nightmares are getting worse, each time I would see something more nerve racking than yesterday , today I saw aunt ruby dying just how my mother died . those were the days I couldn't help but cry .

I felt even more worse seeing aunt smiling through pain . sarah helped a bit but she too cried once in a while .

'Knock knock '

" come in " I said , and my aunt came in with a tray of fruits and sat on the corner of my bed keeping the tray on the bed .

" thanks " I said and she said peeling an orange

" what have you thought about going to a university or college "

" what! Why?"

" nothing , I mean you are 19 now and you're quite smart-"

" I don't think so , I think i should look for a job or something "

" what- no , you are young first you need education and-"

" but what about the money , universities are pretty expensive "

" leave that to me , it was you're mother's wish for you to have a good future And education "

" but "

" no buts "

" aunty , you can't handle this alone , I feel like i-i am burden to you "

She looked at me with low eyes vn And I added

" I don't want to do any More than what I have already caused you enough-"

I burst out crying

" i can't see you do all this work and smile through pain just for me "

" I can't - " she hugged me and Said

" you will never be a burden " she patted me on the back , after few minutes , I stopped crying .

I was meeting sarah the next day . she have been asking me to meet a lot recently and cheering me up , buying me food and asking for ice cream in return .

" hey " I Said waving to Sarah . she waved back at me , standing near a café which just opened recently .

" shall we go in , I have been here once , and there coffee is amazing "

She said and we walked in , it was wooden café and smelled of rosemary .

We took a seat near the window where we could see the outside clearly and a waiter came to us

" any orders "

" macha tea for me " she said and I nodded

" macha tea and for you sir " said the waiter

" iced coffee " he nodded and went to the counter .

I was looking out side when she said

" looks like you're not interested in dates " she said , which caught me off guard

" this is a date " I asked

" of course , I have been trying to find opportunities over opportunities but now I know why they said no one can ever ask you out " she grinned , I leaned on the table , keeping my elbow for support and rested my head on my left hand and said

" what else do they said about me " she smirked and said

" the guy with blank face and what not "

" and I remember myself being also called handsome "

" for that , you are " she blushed and our orders were served .

" enjoy " .

I took a sip and looked at her already looking at me .

" do you remember our firsts meeting "

She said

" of course, you were crying you're eyes out about you parents and I just listened to you speak "

" yes , I remember my day worse than expected and no one listening , and you a complete strange did ." she looked down.

I sighed looking up

" you looked pretty......ugly-" she lightly pushed my shoulder , smiling

" with all you're make up smudged . I remember the first thought thinking ,

'Should I run or should I run faster ' "

She again hit lightly on the hand saying

" stop teasing me "

" I wasn't , I just said what I thought " she hit me harder .

Sarah , when we met few years ago , she was crying while her makeup was all smudged up And she looked at firsts glance tired And frustrated , crying because her parents divorced and her mother did suicide just after 1 week of divorce. I did liked Sarah, she was the social butterfly of our class back then but after we became friends things became More complicated than before .

Now I can relate to her . crying  , over thinking , sad. were the  only word which could describe me.

I went home , after a pleasant day after nearly a week . I didn't wanted to feel happy , thinking how my mom just died and here I am enjoying .

When I went home, my aunt was nowhere to be found and terror and panic washed over my body thinking my dream had come true, I ran through the whole house when I heard the door open and I grabbed the nearest object I could find to hit someone.

And someone came........

My aunt came in with a bags full of groceries. And looked at me , awkwardly holding a baseball bat in my  hand . 

" what are you doing with that" she asked pointing to the bat  

" um nothing , thought about playing baseball "

"But you hate baseball " she looked at me with a blank face

" I--saw few matches so I thought to try it out " there was a awkward pause and nodded and started going towards the kitchen , i followed her she said

" who are you gonna play with  , you don't have friends "

" I didn't thought about that " I said , i didn't thought about even having a baseball .I sighed through relief .

Nothing happened to her .

" where did you go "

" oh I was going to get some groceries and some flowers , were you worried ?"

" nope , just asking , flowers  "

" yeah , her favorite flowers , thyme " and smiled , my mothers fave flower and a herb was rosemary . sighing I looked at them laying on the counter .

" help me with washing the vegetables "

She said 

" hmm "

" also can you do the laundry for me , I forgot "

" ok "

" thanks , you're the best " she said patting my shoulder and she started to take out the groceries to the counter .

" how did you're date went " I looked at her turning my head and said

" fine , honestly was I the only one who thought it was a casual meeting "

She stopped And laughed

" you thought that was just hanging out , no wonder you had no girlfriend till now " I looked down at the wash basin but silently she can near me , making me flinch  .

" Or maybe......are you into men"

" what! No , you got the wrong idea "

" its fine , its just harmones And we can't control them , you can tell me , I will understand "

" no ! No , I am Not ,  its Not a bad thing to be gay but I am Not "

" all right , no need to be feisty " she Said giving a *I don't believe you* look.

After washing the vegetables aunt .

" lets have pasta , Or you want something else " she Said bringing some lettuce , tomatoes And other kinds of vegetables

" nope , fine with me "I Said

" oh and I invited sarah for launch "

" really" i need to be cHill about it , calm, she is just sarah , coming to my home for first time.

When we were just laying the food on the table the bell rang .

"i'll go get it "i said,  hoping its sarah and it was.

she was wearing a casual skinny jeans and crop top .

"hey sarah , how have you been, come in " she. Nodded and took her sneakers near the door mat .

I lead her to the kitchen.  Where aunt ruby was already peaking leaning on the kitchen counter ,at us and shifted to Her usual position and looked at us weird .

" lunch is ready , hope you like it "

we sat down .

" oh i will get some glasses for water " they nodded.

" oh thanks , i forgot , i only bought the jug  " she said chuckling at her mistake.

the dinning Table was Just few steps front of the kitchen , there was a pendent neckless in the shape of a of a square whose one side was missing or was not there and on one end was  circle coloured of pure black and a crack like design with a flower design made out of metal on the other end ,laying on  the ground which i have never seen before , it was so pretty and black colour seemed like no light could enter it . perhaps its sarahs ,  I grabbed it and kept it in my poCket and went to Get some glasses.

" sarah is it yours " i asked her , she looked up from her food and saw the pendant In my hand , her eyes went a little wide .

"how did you find it , i was looking for it in my purse for so long" i nodded and passed it to her .

" its pretty " i said

" thanks" she said and was about to drink water when

" really can i see it " my aunt said .

sarah kept her glass on the table  but took the pendant out , and was about to pass it when she accidentally pushed the glass half filled with water down .

' splash '

" sorry , it accidentally  happened , i will help you with this " she bend down and started collecting the pieces

" oh sarah , dont do this " my aunt said and i nodded but sarah was already bleeding, i looked at it and something was off with me , its smell and colours were perfect , soothing smell with a hint of sweetness And hint of bitterness , red glossy colour   .

" oh i will get the bandage " my aunt ran and i took her to the drawing room and aunt ran in getting the bandage . I saw her finger where she was pricked and blood was coming out quickly and my aunt came run towards us with some bandages and first aid kit.

After sarah had apologized 101th time she left .

aunt was getting a mop and broom.

I looked the blood which was still there on the floor , it was still the colour of glossy red  , its smell was sweet and hint of bitter , it was as if telling me to bend down and-. It was perfect for-

" why are you here. You'll get hurt , go sit on the couch , I will clean it up " my aunt said from behind . I nodded and i smelled something 2 , maybe its aunts new perfume .

" you changed you're Perfume.  "

i said

" no , i am not wearing it right now "

she said mopping the floor

" oh but i smell something new"

" maybe a ghost was near you " she said , i chuckled

" ghost. As if " and turned and the smell didn't leave for a long time.

In bed i was thinking of sarah , and my feelings .

I did like her when i first meant her but i don't really know now , she is great just i never had the heart racing feeling neither did i ever blush nor felt flustered , ever  .

that are the ways to tell you  , right?

I don't want to date her only to find i never had feelings for her.

When i woke up , sarah asked me on  yet another date . Maybe i should just tell her about my feelings . Yes thats the right thing to do.

I was waiting for her , and saw her looking at the pendant she dropped yesterday

"hey " i said from a distance she looked up confused and then saw me waving at her .

we were again at the café We went to.

" you look pretty  "  i couldn't find anything else to say   .

" really , thanks  , lets get in " i nodded

After our "date" i don't say it , even when i wanted to , its like i forgot how to talk . we were at a street and she said.

" thanks for walking me home " i nodded and said

" glad , i could " and i prepared my self to say about my feelings in 3,2,-

" ouch " she said

i looked at her hand with a scar and blood dripping out of it

" how did this happened "

" i thing its just a big paper cut "

" paper cuts dont bleed this much  " i said

the smell , again hit me .

Here i was with bloody mouth........