Today, I got frustrated when I hurriedly make my homework before the class starts. I don’t want to blame myself for not doing my homework. It is not my fault that I fall asleep that night while I was doing myhomework.😂😂😂.I realized while I am writing my first entry of diary ,I repeatedly say the word, homework. I wonder if this is the result of how I can never move on because of what happened on my homework that day? Well.. This is my diary . No one can read it right? I can do grammar free and no worries that I would be graded on every wrong grammar that I write. Back to where I start making myhomework.

My last sheet of paper when I got it from my bag, it tore in half. This would do. Would it? Still in half right even though it tore in an ugly way? This is what the teacher requires though. Submit a homework in half sheet of paper. What is important is my answer. I would be so embarrassed if I am the only who would not submit anything especially All of my classmates are geniuses.

I just finished writing all the answers. Suddenly, I saw someone having many sheets of paper but I don’t have time to transfer it . I just hope the teacher would not notice. After passing the papers. Mrs. Pollock ,She is our ***** teacher. I would not dare say the subject. Just her name is enough for me to remember what happened back then. I would sure do go back to my diary to see how miserable and ashamed I felt that day. Then read this laughing. I am sure , I could move on right? It is not like she would be my teach when I go to college . Hope not!!!😥

There she saw the sheet of paper . She saw my homework then let everybody see what it looks like . It looks acceptable though since it still in half. Then It crossed my mind. I should have just cut it like this. Oops.. still slanted but what I am saying is straight half . I can still fold and cut it in half .Too late , I passed it already.😨😰.

She said “Look at this paper. This is rubbish”. Then she tore it in front of the whole class.

Many things come in my mind .Will I still stay here in this school? Or not? Should I just ask my parents to transfer me in some school? This is so much embarrassing. I wish I should have not submitted that ugly rushed homework. It would be nice if she talked to me first instead of randomly tearing my homework apart in front of everybody. Ughh how am I suppose to face the Mrs.Pollock. Ughhhhhh ughhh . It is already 9pm . I need to sleep now . I need to wake up early. Well this is my 1st entry of diary. What a shame I had to start my diary like this.

Dear diary,

I have to write this down. I remember how my brother use to make a deal with me when washing the dishes. By the way, we are poor so we don’t have a dishwasher. We wash dishes manually. We have a scheduled routine.

During Lunch, my brother told me. Hey wash the dishes now & after dinner so that you won’t have to wash twice tomorrow. Well, I don’t think it well. I thought yep, I would have lesser schedule washing the dishes. This sounds like a good deal. This would do. I don’t need to wash twice tomorrow. Silly me. Without knowing brother would be washing the dishes twice. I got fooled by him. It goes on and on during elementary days.

But now I am in high school, homework tends to pile up like they would not even care that we need sleep too. They would love surprise test or the teacher would jokingly say we have recitation. It seems like I don’t have enough time. I get so moody that I would even be grouchy that I would even say “I had lots of homework to do”. I can’t even afford to wash the dishes anymore. My brother never complained about washing dishes everyday. It became his daily schedule. It is not like he's busy. The school he had transferred too. People there are nice. They give off the warm vibes “You are welcome here in this school”. We do homework but in the right amount. What I like about that school is that they don’t just focus on the intelligence of the students but also the way they do deliver speeches. They know how to express a message to everyone. I want to transfer schools but I am too scared since It is a new environment for me. I want to go try new things, but I ended up staying in the same school😟. I think I am a loner type.

About how my brother makes a deal with me, Thinking about it. I learned a lesson that when people offer you something, you don’t look easily at the advantage you can get but verify it first. Before believing into something that it is a good deal, think and study it first. List the advantages or any disadvantages. It is like when I see mothers who see a 90% discount on a curtain in the mall. They see the big discount value but the truth is it is just down by a smaller discount. If you would look at the older price like example a candy that is worth 25 each. It would have a tag 90% discount. But It is being sold for 20 each😅.

It is a good heads up not to fall into a pyramiding scam. Too good to be true deals are not good at all. It always comes with a price which you don’t even know.😥My family teaches me a very valuable lesson in life. Hahahahaha

Gosh, it is already 12:41 am. I can’t sleep anymore. My mind is so active right now. I’ve got school tomorrow. Why does having water on your hands or on your face makes you wide awake? Ughhhh... ugh ... I wonder if some people is just the same as me. Wide awake from the touch of the water.

I am still sick though. I’ve got runny nose. I can’t go to school. The only good thing not going to school is not seeing my most least likable teacher who tored up my homework.

I was accompanied by my father in the public hospital. I need a record of proof that I am sick. It sucks I have to proove to the school that I am sick. I am still weak . I’ve put my green jacket on with a skull design . I look like a tomboy in my jacket. The jacket is not mine my brother left it. I think this jacket is a couple jacket? Her relationship with her girlfriend is like a melodramatic movie. I don’t know if they would end up together until the end. All I know is happy ending happens only in fairy tale.

Back to going to the hospital.

The doctor just asks me. How are you this that and so on . Check my heartbeat then wrote a diagnosis. Then after giving my results,The secretary in the public hospital is so mean. How can she say I have influenza when it is clear that it is cough and colds. The result says so. I hate going to the public hospital . The employees there are mean. Don’t they like their job? Or they just like to make the patients there so worried to death. How did it started?

On wednesday,It is my fault for sitting on the Municipal rescue team because there is a bench there. I’ve risked my health for just a bench. The rescue team member would not even bother to cover his mouth when coughing and sneezing. I can’t believe I would be infected by colds. I hate having colds. Sore throat... runny nose.

My symptoms started last sunday. I feel weak and hot and my throat is sore.It sucks.

As I am writing this one I feel dizzy. My eyes are watery and red. I’ve got runny nose. How many pile of tissues have I waster in just one hour. I hate myself when I got sick. My food selection is full of junk. I can say that I am not a healthy eater. I ate lots of candies before I sleep . I buy many bubble gum with diferent flavors without my parents consent. My mom nags me about me liking sweets . Even when I hide that I love eating sweets secretly, she knows when I got sick and then she would nag me .😂

I feel weak and miserable . I feel sad. Tired eyes is a no go . I even blinked as many times today. When will I stop for my love sweets? Maybe when I got older afer college? I would change my lifestyle? Maybe for the better.