Life is a mixture of feelings. Love, regret, friendship, happiness, sadness.....But it's a little different - HOPE.

We may hope happily. But soon it will hurt badly.....That's what happened here between them. The two unknown lovers. The three of them hoped. But the result hurt one of them. It's really bad. But we can't blame any of them. It's because of our hope. They both loved her. But it became different in the end. ***

oh Yeon Joo, Taehyung and Jungkook.

Oh Yeon Joo: A rope held her neck tight from her childhood and until now, it seems like never going to let her from the sadness. That's why she wrote letters to god. Believing that one day God will reply. Then everything slowly started to change in her life after the letter came.

Taehyung: From his difficult life, he learned many things which made him open his eyes and look at the real world. All are just the same as in the past until her letter came into his life.

Jungkook: Unwanted past hunted him a lot. His parents never got a chance to love their son. Not because of him. They forgot to give some love to their only son. That's why he is so desperate for that feeling. But it only happened until the letter from her***.

- Don't expect a happy ending. It's going to be a sad ending.

'Amal's name meaning is Work, Hope, Aspiration. Amal is an Arabic name that is widely popular in all Muslim countries. It is often used to form names in combination with other words. The word itself is beautiful as it is one of the only ones in the Arabic language to mean this.

This story is completely AU (Alternate universe). There is no relation between the persons I used in this story. The female character is just a fiction which I created on my own.

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This story contains much sadness so don't expect a happy ending for them. This story is completely fictional although it resembles some real incidents. Also, it is inspired by some real incidents.

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Hope is the expectation that one will have positive experiences or that a potentially threatening or negative situation will not materialize or will ultimately result in a favourable state of affairs. Hope is also linked to optimism—the attitude or outlook that good things will happen and one’s wishes or aims will ultimately be fulfilled. In this sense, hope is essential to setting and ultimately achieving goals. But not too High. We can hope. But also we have to keep don't expect anything from anyone with it. Take the famous line from 18th-century English poet Alexander Pope: “Hope springs eternal in the human *******". The emotion of hope pertains to that which hasn’t yet transpired. So it’s only natural that the more favourable our expectations of the future, the greater will be our disappointment—or disillusionment—when these expectations aren’t met or are irrevocably crushed. Hoping may be pleasurable, but hope defeated can be quite painful.

-This is the message of this story***

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She tilted her head subconsciously as she wrote the most important part of her life.

THE LETTER

Maybe it's because of the story told by one of the nuns when she was a child. She believed something which anyone ever believed. Is it because she was an orphan? or maybe her imagination had moved into the realms of fantasy.

Building a completely different world is not a good thing. Because as the day passes, we stay there and maybe we lose our connection with the real world.

The smile on her face stretched at the two ends of her lips. It's always like that. Writing this letter, smiling her own.....

She started to write letters in her childhood. But the saddest part is, that she never got a reply. But surprisingly she never stopped. Maybe she was desperately waiting....or maybe because of the story. It was 15 years ago. She still remembered the story told by one of the nuns, which made her live every single moment, which made her write letters that didn't even reach near the god. It's about a girl and her letter. A little girl always wrote many letters to god. Because she didn't have any shoulder to cry on. That girl always wrote the letters Believing one day he will reply to her. But she never got any reply. So that she might stop this letter writing, do she? .........

NEVER!

She kept writing that letters. Never gave up...She wrote until the happiest part. One day, on a winter day in December, she finally got the reply letter that she was desperately waiting for. The little girl started to dance when she got the letter.

Although it looks fictional, the girl oh Yeon Joo believed in that story. She sometimes assumed that she was the girl mentioned in that story. The small imagination became a big expectation. so that, she started writing letters to the god. Because she was also without a shoulder to cry on. But this girl, in the real story never got her reply....it's been 15 years. The story of when she was five years older and the posting letters to which she hoped to want the reply is the saddest part of her life. Because this girl was always desperate all along in her long life. The wish she had in her heart and wanting a reply are her expectations. Today also she wrote the letter as usual. Every Monday.

As she finally wrote the letter, she walked towards the postbox kept in front of their hostel. One last time before putting it in, she slowly closed her eyes.

"I hope God will give me a reply to this letter this time". But why the hope??.... It's her only way to live. The hope. But she never thought about the final disaster of this false hope.

All the way back, she was thinking about something. Maybe she that much wants that reply. STOP...

This girl is stuck now. They are here. In front of her. Lisa and Ji woo. Speaking of them, it's something unexpected. Oh Yeon Joo's seniors. That's why she had power over this silent girl. Bullying is the best way to make her nothing according to the lazy girls. This girl in front of them, Oh Yeon Joo is mostly scared of them. Just like a senior - junior thing....or she was really scared... Thinking about her background is not a problem for her. Although she is an orphan, she knew she is not only the one like this. There were a lot of children like her. But the thing is, she never had a friendly talk to anyone except the letter. "Yeah....where were you at early in the morning??". Lisa was always one step before Ji woo. Ji woo's role is to stay there by her side and if the girl Lisa gave permission, she can scold.

"I....I....just looking for something". It's the best way to avoid them so oh Yeon Joo spoke up.

"For what?". Ji woos just interrupted. Little did oh Yeon Joo know that they are trying to irritate her.

"Just....My book".

"And did you get that?". Lisa was so stubborn.

"Uh....I think I dropped it there". This poor girl always ends up like this.

"Oh...then we also coming with you".

"Uhm...for?"

"Come on.... we only just want to help you". Oh Yeon Joo's eyes widely opened. Not because of their unexpected behaviour. But it's the confusing look on the face. Probably Lisa knew that she is lying. Screwed. If she can't find it in this girls' hostel except in her room, it's gonna end up bullying oh Yeon Joo.

"It's....okay.....I can find it".

"Hm....".Lisa wore a serious look on her face. And that she was gone. Is that what it is?? Just gone?. It's new. Maybe God is going to reply to her letter. But what made her surprised is Lisa's reaction. Maybe it's better for oh Yeon Joo to forget this incident.

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She made her way to the main hall after the class and stood there without any purpose when the thought came to her that someone calling her name out loud. "oh Yeon Joo - SSI...you have a call".

It's surely them. The orphanages. They want to know how she is doing. Although she was not their real child, according to them she is like the rest. Their child.

She grabbed the long wire of the telephone just to listen and say some comforting words. "Hel-"

"Hey...oh Yeon Joo, you never gonna believe this". Mrs Lee's voice was trembling and somewhat she felt like Mrs Lee is smiling.

"Oh...calm down...what was it?".

"Your stepbrother searched for you and came here". For a second oh Yeon Joo didn't have words. It didn't come from her tongue.

"What?"

"Ya...your step brother, he said he is your step brother".

A smirk unknowingly came on her face.

"Did he say that he is my stepbrother? What's the proof?".

"I know you would ask this so I asked him for that. Then he showed me your photo with your mom and dad when you are a baby".

"H...how?". Tears rolled down her cheek.

"He came here to take you with him".

Oh Yeon Joo can't believe this. Not like that. It was just a dream. She loved this. She waited for this special day for a long time. Finally, it's near her. But what's the matter?. She can't accept that they are her blood. If they loved her, why so sudden left?. She was a baby at that time. Not know how to respond to anyone.

"Oh, Yeon Joo...." Mrs Lee became a little confused.

"ha..."

Her voice was so weak.

"You want to go, don't you?".

This is the next response from Mrs Lee. Little did oh Yeon Joo know that Mrs.lee was sick of her. Everyone is just fake.

"I don't want to know them or go with them. I don't want that fake love".

Oh Yeon Joo was a silent and calm girl. But the first time in her life she spoke filled with anger in her voice. She is sick of everything.

"oh Yeon Joo....are you sure?".

"Ya...just damn tell them that I don't want them or their stupid love. Also tell them that don't even try to contact me". Her dream is gone now. She is the reason for that. But she never wants those fake feelings.

"Okay, I will tell him. But remember his name, it's Jung Ho-Seok".

"For what?". Oh Yeon Joo was too happy for hearing the name of her brother. Although it's her stepbrother, she is so happy about that.

"Maybe it will use in your future".

That's the last part she heard from her.

End of the call.

A fictional world created by oh Yeon joo inside her head was the only survival for her. It's 11pm. But she can't even close her opened eyes. What is the most important part is about her parents. If they loved her, It will never happen. But the thing is, they didn't loved her. Oh yeon joo always wanted to know who are them, her parents. But at the same time she know that it's difficult to find them. She never had any trace. The only proof is that the chain when she was a baby on her neck. Thinking everything again and again, rolling over the bed as grabbing the woolen back and forth, She can't even know what to do. Never felt like regreting her decision for their offer. Because oh yeon joo always believed in herself. It's the best part in her.

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As she was counting the white pages on the book, a sound she heard from outside. She fastly looked down from her 4th floor. Long as down, a guy stood at the gateway. Seems like he is searching something important. Oh yeon joo became curious to look at his mysterious face since she can't saw it clearly. He had his big bag on his back.

Complete black.

That's weird. His bangs fallen across his eyes as they are blocking them. Suddenly the guy looked up. Oh yeon joo head was outside the window. When the guy looked at her.........thud thud thud thud thud thud

Why so dramatic! Her heart beating so fast like a metro train. This was an unexpected incident. First of all, why this guy is outside at the gate infront of the girls hostel?.....This was the first thing popped up on her mind. Maybe he lost his way. Or maybe he is new here. Slowly looked at the ground. That guy is looking at her room. Maybe he is also curious about who is the girl looked at him. Oh Yeon joo shaked her head as she removing the thoughts and hold all her heart beat. Then she looked at him at the ground. He was still looking her. His eyes were too small while looking up. Clearly made his eyes to catch oh Yeon joo's figure which is now staying like a statue. She went into a deep thought. The guy was so handsome. Can't argue with that. Many confusions popped up her mind until the guy calling her. She came to the reality. The guy is saying. But she can't get it. Yeon joo looked at his moving lips to find what is he saying.

D___I___D A G___U___Y C___A___M___E T___H___E___R___E?

She jointed the all words. 'Did a guy came there?'. That was it. yeon joo looked around and shook her head as a No.

Again he is saying something. She waved her hand as a no like mentioning she can't understand what is he saying. The guy got what is she saying. The next thing he done was actually calling her out. To the ground.....

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Yeon joo came at the ground. The guy was there. Waiting for her. He looked and ran towards her. So this is the guy. But he is much handsome when looking close up. "Hey, uhm....did you saw any guy here? He is almost looks like a dump".

Although that was the matter, she laughed a little for the word dump.

"This is a girls hostel. Men are not allowed. So I don't think that a guy will enter here". Yeon joo looked into his eyes.

"But he didn't know that this is a girls hostel". This guy have a beautiful voice.

"If he entered in, then he is gonna end soon. The teacher is so stubborn".

"Can you look him in the hostel for me since I can't get in?". His words are innocent.

"Uhm...then... wait here. I will be right back ". Yeon joo started to search for that guy.

Walking through the way, thinking about that guy, Yeon joo became a little tired. She can't find that guy. It's almost 15 minutes that she searching for this guy. She came infront of the hostel to tell that handsome guy that he was not here. But when she came there, she couldn't find that guy anymore. He was gone. Maybe he got his missing friend. He can't stand here too long anyway since it's a girls hostel. But little did Yeon joo became disappointed. She don't know why she became disappointed. But when she saw the guy at first, she felt something on her heart saying 'He is good for you'. But when she thought something like that, she shrugged it off.

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The post man collected the letters. But soon he paused while looking at one of the letter.

"God.....This again How can I make an end for this?".As he said, he threw the letter to the same basket which he always threw the letters in it.

The rich guy, no...he doesn't seems like that. He was always calm as now. But deep inside, something he want to show everyone. Maybe his anger. The calm boy walked towards the post office.

"Hey jungkook.... what's up?". Namjoon was always stand there for posting his unread letters to his died mom. Everyone calls him lunatic. But jungkook know how much this lunatic guy missed his mom. Jungkook don't know what is love or never experienced that thing. But he can sometimes understand people since he also wanted his mother to love him. Something like desperate for love.

"Posting letters?"

"Yep. Mom told me that she will buy some new clothes thus I can ride of this old clothes". Little did jungkook was guilty. It's not because of him or it is not his problem either. But when looking at this namjoon, he felt so sorry. Namjoon was from a poor family. He didn't have many clothes. 3 or four. Plus he looks like a lunatic. Clumsy hair, his slow walking....like that. "You will definitely get that". Jungkook can only encourage him.

Jungkook really want to tell this namjoon guy to Stop this stupidity. But he can't. Because there is someone writing letters to namjoon pretending his mom. If that makes this poor guy happy, then it's okay with him too. "Jungkook, you know....there is also a girl writing like me. But poor thing. Her letter didn't even reach at the god".

"God?"

"Yep. She always wrote letters to god. But this post man always threw it in the waste basket. Now look at the basket, there is her letter. They always get ride of it during weekends from here also".

"Oh...". Something on him said to ask her name.

"Do you know her?".

"No no no. I don't know....But I noticed her name. It's ...uhm...It's Sarah".

"Is she not a Korean?"

"I don't know. But the name does".

"I felt sorry for her".

"Why?".

"Just...."

"Oh...I forgot, I have some works to finish at home. See you" .

Jungkook was alone at the post office. Can't move or go from there. He was staring at the papers, the letters from the girl. He slowly walked near the waste basket and took it. He started to read.

Dear god,

I got good grades in my exams. I am so happy. But I don't have anyone to share my happiness cause I am an orphan. I don't know if this letter will reach you. But I will keep writing this. Because I believe in you.

Everyone are looking at me like I am a lunatic. They don't know about this letter. When I walk, When I write, When I read....Just They are staring at me. I want to share this all with my family. But I don't know about them. Also, why they abandoned me?.... Sometimes everyone are mocking at me. But I want to continue my study, I want to keep going.I wish you can reply me. I will wait....

If you read this, can you please atleast reply me?...

Little did jungkook felt really sad about her. Because he know how it felt like when we don't have anyone to share, anyone to love. On a hand, he was also like that. He placed the letter at the same place before. But he noticed the adress. Something in his heart want to write a reply for her.