“Are you going to kill me?”

“Eh?”

The man with his waist down in front of me looked dumbfounded.

However, he was amazed and looked down again.

Oh, the top of the hair is white. I won’t worry about hair loss later.

“Can you kill me without hurting me?”

I meant what I said. I’m not afraid to die again, but I hope I die without pain.

Because I was brought here without feeling the pain in my last breath.

“Why do you keep saying ‘kill me’? I’m a loyal servant of Selina.”

“Really?”

I clenched my toes to what was said. How can a loyal servant play such a trick in someone’s back?

He’s ignoring my words.

The man in front of me lifted his waist and groaned as if he were anxious about the meaningless prolonged silence.

“Then you’ll lose your tongue if you use the magic mazara later.”

His face turned blue in an instant. A man’s face can lose like that.

****

It was a few days ago since I opened my eyes here.

In the novel called ‘The crown of dawn.’

A third rate novel romance which I had read before because of my brother who loves to read novels. It was messed up in style and flow but i have to read it because of my brother.

My brother is the only reason why I live in my original world.

I was born as an orphan and adopted by a childless couple, but soon the couple had my brother.

Unfortunately, my brother was born sick and my parents blamed me for their misfortunes.

Slapping, cursing and starving.

I let my life be for my brother. I stopped studying and I searched for a job.

In my previous life, I don’t know what I like because I don’t have time for myself.

I used to hate my younger brother. For being naive to regard everything about me as his own.

But he was lying in bed which I was unable for me to hate him. It was really hard for me.

Our relationship was very strange and subtle. It’s hard to say what’s going beyond it, not being willing to dislike each other.

Before my brother turned 20, he died. Maintaining our relationship that is hard to define.

So my usefulness is gone now.

My parents kicked me out from the house. I was driven to the streets and didn’t think about living.

Even if I get older and earn money, all of that was done accordingly for someone’s milestone…

What more I should do now?

I was stuck in a small room and didn’t even go out to work.

Now, everything was troublesome and hard.

I don’t know who I am. I didn’t get tired anymore. The tiredness that comes from numbness made me extremely exhausted.

My brother’s face comes to my mind. A sickly pale face.

Oh, the only face I remember is his face.

If I had so devoted myself to him… Shouldn’t he at least be remembered by me with a peach-colored face? He should have shown me that for a moment.

Oh, it bothers me. That’s enough. It’s not working.

So I threw myself on a top of a dilapidated building that has only been built and worn out.

It doesn’t hurt.

The day I woke up again, I thought so in daze. It really didn’t hurt. There was no strength in the body, but there was no pain.

Is death supposed to be like this?

I opened my eyes.

What does the afterlife look like?

People’s eyes, nose and mouth were seen little by little in the dim sight.

It was strange. It was strangely bright for the world after death.

Oh, is it supposed to be this bright? What is this?

When I opened my eyes completely, the people who were looking down on me made a noticeable fuss. Someone shouted out loud while I was puzzled on what’s going on.

“Lady Selina!”

My eardrums are going out.

I couldn’t even open my mouth, and only my eyes were wide open.

I wanted to talk but my voice didn’t come out well. I’ve been knocked out for days so it seems that my neck was locked.

Thanks to this, I was lying down and couldn’t speak and ask about my situation.

‘Selina’ as they say, fell off her feet while climbing the stairs, and she was unable to open her eyes for the 4 days.

Then ‘Selina’ opened her eyes today which is me.

The young man who went in with tears in his eyes was the older brother. The middle-aged man and the woman are the parents.

Suddenly, a story flashed through my mind. It is me? I am Selina?

My head got dizzy as I organized my thoughts. So… I killed myself then became Selina. So, what about the real Selina?

I don’t know… This is bothersome.

I just laid out on the bed. It was very comfortable. It was then when the food was brought to the bed.

It can be stretched out with a mind. For a few days, I lived with the bells and whistles of the people around me.

Yes, it is. The maids talk a lot. In this way, they will cry from Selina’s birth.

And finally, a few days later I was able to open my mouth. The condition of the throat has returned quite a bit. I still don’t know what kind of woman she’s like because the voice is very sweet.

After a little lunch, My (Selina’s) mom and dad came into the room to see my condition.

“Selina, how are you today”

“Okay.”

When I spoke for the first time since I came to this world, the eyes of both of them were thrilled.

But soon the light disappeared beyond sight. No, it turned into shock.

Because I didn’t call these people mom and dad.

So I spit it out. The ultimate line of that drama.

“Ahmmm.. Where am I? And who are you?”

My, no, Selina’s parents were dumbfounded that they always had a story to tell.

Name and title, memories of themselves and myself, my brother, etc… Listening meaninglessly to this line-by-side story, I stayed on one thought.

Somehow their stories are familiar.

This is what I felt when I heard the maids talking… Yeah, maybe I read this somewhere….

Yeah. I read it. I read this. This is one of the fascinating third-rate novels.

The Crown of Dawn. And Selina is the time-limited villain in this novel.

That’s how I got to know the world where I am and who I am. Since that day, My (Selina’s) parents have been visiting Selina and others in my room hoping to find my memories as soon as possible.

And come back to this day, the man with pale gold hair, who stands in front of me, whispers his head, saying that he is my loyal servant.

I felt sorry for the man who claims to be the servant, but I knew that there wasn’t even a single word of sincerity in this man’s words.

Even if it is a book that I read roughly, I can remember the rough content of the novel because I read it aloud with my mouth before.

This is definitely not exactly… A… What…

Selina brought the beggar who was being trampled on the street. Then he was enormous enough to call him a servant and used him as a slave.

A quick notice… What is this? He was the most eager to stick with crabs and sassy to her and shout behind Selina.

After telling the magic story, the man, whose face turned blue, closed his mouth tightly with his shaking eyes.

The man’s face was saying ‘How the hell did you know?’ without making a sound.

“Stop, go out. I’m going to sleep.”

Ahh…What is it? He walked out of the room with his head down and an anxious look.

I looked around the empty room. I let out all the maids who would take care of me and lay down on the bed.

Oh, this is a great bed. The blanket is really nice. I want to lie on this bed for the rest of my life.

In the novel, Selina White, whom I came to possess, was a greedy woman.

Her mother hates his other brother, Aaron White, so she can do whatever she wants.

However, she is not as capable as her brother, so she stayed up all night studying this and that.

In short, she’s not talented in trying so much as she wants, and she’s not very successful

As a result, the jealousy and contempt for her brother, who is good at everything differently from herself, and the people around her grew more and more day by day, and eventually she began to commit evil deeds.

And the evil deed extends to her brother and to the heroine, Princess Ariel, who loved each other…

Although she succeeds in separating the two, the boyfriend and supporting actors who are likable to her and regretful to Selina, join forces to trap Selina in prison.

In the end, she fell ill and died in the prison at the age of 23 without any friends, family, or anything.

That’s too bad.

I closed my eyes and turned to find a comfortable posture.

Oh, this posture is the best.

I have absolutely no intention to become greedy.

If I die, I die. If I live, I live. I didn’t have any desire anyway. No, I can’t.

This strange situation was fascinating, but that’s all. Once, the sense of numbness does not come back easily.

I jumped on my feet. With my will.

I don’t know why God holds my life tightly that I was forced into the life of someone, but it is all useless.

“Oh, how bother.”

Yeah. I still find life annoying.

I’ve been sleeping all day and I’ve been dreaming.

My younger brother appeared in a dream. A younger brother who I can’t hate even though I really hate him. The child died while maintaining a strange and subtle relationship. The child who died that day was slowly played before my eyes.

I didn’t even shed a tear that day.

Now my usefulness is over. All I thought was that.

I was looking at the scenes that went by in my daze. Wondering if this is a random past recollection time. After that, the scene changed with Selina.

Sky blue hair, sky blue eyes. The tail of the eyes is slightly raised, but overall, she doesn’t look bad, probably because of her bright hair and eye color. Or maybe it’s because of her pale complexion.

Just before her death, she was gasping alone in an empty, narrow room.

As she crawled to the door, she knocked on the rusty iron door.

A bright light.

‘I’m a little… Someone kinda… help me···. help me! No… please… please… even if anyone is by my side… even at the moment when I die… please… not like this… alone… so miserable…’

She cried out, breathing in, and vomiting dark red blood.

Then she paused for a moment. Anger, excitement, and fear are everywhere.

But soon she shouted again in fits.

‘Oh, no! No···! please······. I… I…… Ah… Ah…!! No!! I’m sorry…It’s my fault!! No···. Oh, no!!! please… please!’

After a big scream and then a small murmur, Selina fell on the floor and never moved again.

No, she couldn’t.

The back that stopped moving was shabby.

So, behind the colorful characters, Selina disappeared without even being a shadow.

Yes, Selina. She wanted someone to be with her at the moment of her death… So did she call me?

A pathetic like me who died alone like her? So she wants me to make her wish come true?

Or did she call me because she seems to have no regrets in life that she decided to die on her own?

Not to make her death be miserable? So that she can hold her breath on her own before she gets sick and dies alone?

It doesn’t matter what it is.

I’m going to live in Selina’s body now, and I’m going to die at the age of 23. Those two things won’t change.

I opened my eyes.

The room was brightened by candles and not with a light bulb. It made me conscious that this is the world of Selina.

Selina was dying before my eyes.

“Well, once…”

Let me grant the wish of the dead.

***

This is so annoying.

From that day on, I managed to get out of the bed to live a little better life, but whenever I went somewhere, I always get attention, whispering and helping me….

This whole house was crazy.

Why are there so many people….

“Oh, no. What if I die a little miserable? I won’t even remember when I’m gone. Sorry, Selina~”

I lay in a field of grass behind the deserted way, leaving myself in a whirlwind of trouble.

By the way, I don’t think there is a Tsutsugamushi (a type of bacteria) here.

I was thinking of sleeping while lying down here, but I heard a sound of footsteps along with a rustling sound around me.

I had no intention of opening my eyes.

This is a dukedom and I am a princess… Then I don’t have to go around. Let’s pretend to sleep.

However, the cause of the rustling sound seemed to have no intention of doing so.

Dug dug dug dug.

Right. You won.

I raised myself hard. It sounds like a sound beyond the grass I was laying.

There was a man there, roughly crawling with his knees, pushing the bush with his hand and raising his head.

A figure of fluttering long hair and wielding a sword.

There was only one thought that came to my mind when I saw him.

By any chance…

Doesn’t this duke have a training facility? Why is he doing that here?

I don’t want to get involved with a troublesome person so I quietly move somewhere else and pull out the hair that was sticking out of the bushes.

It won’t come out. I think my hair was tangled in the branches.

The history of life. That’s right in the novel, the keyword ‘meeting by chance’ also applies to villains…

I can’t help it.

“Excuse me… excuse me…”

The man stopped at my shaky voice and looked around. But, as if he hadn’t found me yet, he looked up and swung his sword again.

“Excuse me…”

Once again, the man fixed the sword.

The man, whose eyes became fierce and looked around, finally came slowly in the bushes where I was.

Oh, it’s like I’m filming a drama.

I really had to look at the man approaching this way with rolling eyes, with only half of his face.

Soon enough, the man arrived here and found me.

Yeah. This is weird. So do I. This situation is weird.

“Help me. I can’t get my hair out.”

The man still looked at me with wary eyes. Soon after, I opened my eyes wide as if I had broken half of my face.

People wanted to climb to higher positions with all their might. Why? What is the reason?

Because you want to be recognized? Or to make a lot of money? No, it’s not.

I stand to make it impossible to say anything even if I smile in front of a person like this.

The man looked back and smiled at me as if he had never done it.

I couldn’t say anything because I knew who this man was. I can’t gather them.

He’s the hero of the novel.

Lucaf Bar… Is it Lucaf?

“Excuse me, Sir Lucaf.”

“It’s Lucas.”

Lucaf, no, Lucas looked with a ridiculous expression

But what are you gonna do? I’m a princess and a patient.

“Oh, Sir Lucas, help me out. My hair is tangled and I can’t get out.”

Lucas came one step closer.

The form of bowing his head without a hand on his chest with a gentle smile, I couldn’t believe that he was looking back like that before. It was very elegant.

“I’ll be glad to help you, Princess Selina White.”

“Please.”

Lucas didn’t say anything while untying my hair. I had nothing to say so I’ll just shut up.

It took longer to remove my hair than I thought, and my eyelids kept falling down.

***

Lucas took the hair to himself and looked at the woman who is dozing off.

Selina White.

A 19 years old princess of the Duke. She was famous for having a bad personality.

The Duke, Duchess, Confucius have gentle personalities. But why does the princess doesn’t have that personality?

This woman is coveting the position of the Duke’s successor.

If it was originally aimed at the Duke, there would be no problem. But from the moment she heard this story that his brother would become the successor, the problem was that he began to use a group saying she would become a successor.

As an extension, she is metallurgically harassing his lover, Princess Ariel, who is likely to marry Aaron.

If they’ll get married, Aaron’s position as the successor will be stronger.

It was a childish kind of bullying, but the people and the duchess were not that stupid to unable to notice it.

Of course, the same goes for him.

It’s too trivial to say anything, and Princess Ariel herself says she doesn’t want to work, so she shuts her mouth…

She was also a princess who didn’t belong to the Duchess.

Lucas glanced back at Selina’s face.

However, it didn’t look like that at all. When she lost her memory… Did the whole person change?

If it was like in the past, she should be bragging about burning the whole bush.

Still, in this state, it seemed that it would not degrade the family’s dignity, so it would be better.

***

“That’s it.”

I opened my eyes in the man’s voice.

“Oh, thank you.”

Lucas smiled. It’s really Nice.

I fixed my gaze on Lucas and thought about the contents of the book in my head.

Obviously, Selina’s being 19 years old, in the winter, Lucas will like the heroine Ariel.

Lucas saves Ariel, who was waiting for Aaron in the glances of being deceived by Selina. And Ariel falls in love with him even before the incident, who leaves Aaron, who is foolishly defending him.

It is the spring of 19 years old at the age of Selina. There are still several months left until winter…

Therefore, this man still has a good view of Ariel as an academy colleague.

Until now, the reason Selina has bothered Ariel is at the level of a childish mischief, so why does Lucas live with Selina like that…?

He would only have this kind of feeling.

So, I think I can make this person mourn the funeral of Selina.

It was clear that Lucas, the exclusive knight and called genius knight, can mourn in the funeral so that it doesn’t look miserable.

Yeah. Let’s do it.

I don’t mind turning away from Selina, so I’m going to get this male protagonist to come to my funeral.

Life is quality rather than quantity. Selina, are you satisfied too?

I nodded at the satisfaction plan.

“Excuse me, Sir Lucas.”

“Yes, Princess.”

“Do you want to be friends with me?”

However, there was a fatal loophole in the satisfactory plan, so unfortunately my relationship was narrow.

Even when I was in school, I always had to run to the hospital room as soon as school was over to take care of my sick younger brother, and the same as when I was in college. It was also the same when I was at work.

Crucially, my parents didn’t want me to make friends.

My poor younger brother was lying in a hospital room and told me that he couldn’t forgive me for having a friend like me.

How was I in my childhood… I trembled and only looked up.

In the end, the only relationship in my life was all about the company team or the homeroom teacher who had to get the early leave.

Thanks to this, I had no choice but to learn how to get to know people and deal with them through books.

And most of the books did this.

Be my friend! okay! This feeling…

“I’m sorry but I can’t.”

Yes. The book was just a book. After all, you cannot learn the world only through books.

Watching Lucas politely, but firmly refused, I cooled down. I was thinking of burning a little passion after a long time…

I can’t help it.

“Oh, well, I can’t help it.”

“Don’t you ask why?”

Lucas looked at me with a puzzled look. He rejected it and it was shameless.

But I already gave up. It is a virtue to give up quickly.

It was annoying and I hate to ask you why.

“Yes.”

I said so and stood up with a whip on my ***. Then I went my way without looking back.

The place where I was heading was the bell tower where the dukedom stood high above me.

As I left the room and headed to the place that caught my attention throughout the walk through the garden, each employee I encountered, they bowed their heads with a long length.

It was annoying to react one by one, so I roughly nodded.

As I walked blankly looking at the bell tower, my parents’ words came to mind. It was a small memory that came to mind when I said friends.

‘You shouldn’t date people. Look at your brother. Aren’t you sorry? There’s not such a thing, isn’t? But are you… a friend? Friend?!’

‘I’m sorry… Mother…’

‘Yes, if you want to call us mother and father, do what we tell you to do. Okay? Otherwise, I’ll throw everything away.’

‘Yes… Father…’

I stopped thinking when I remembered the little girl wandering her head.

I still use the term ‘parents’ when I think of them.

In the end, they abandoned me as soon as my brother died.

I still call you parents.

So I got rejected by Lucas? My parents told me not to make friends, but I asked for friends?

I laughed for myself for being stupid.

Oh, as expected. It’s all bothersome.

When I was very young, I played games without my parents knowing.

A game that was very popular at the time, which made kids my age in the classroom bored.

In the game that started with a breathtaking and nervous mind, I went to a place with a strong monster without knowing the subject.

Then I just died in a little stroke of a monster.

I stared blankly at the filming of Stan 0 in one shot, but all my emotions and interests for the game cooled down, so I quietly turned off the power.

I felt just like that now. The feeling that everything has cooled down.

Walking up the stairs of the bell tower was light.

There is a theory that when a person dies, he or she will climb the stairs leading to heaven. How would people feel when they climb those stairs?

I think I’m okay now. I’ve climbed like this in my previous life so I am used to it.

At last there was a large bell at the top of the bell tower. If I ring the bell here, will everyone run out of surprise?

That’s funny.

But imagination is only imagination.

Sorry, Selina. I think your wish will not come true.

I honestly don’t have the confidence to make people mourn at my funeral. I can’t close my eyes while the others are crying.

Did I see it before? How sweet is rejection, it seems to have been slightly cut. Aiko.

Well, living a long life will change things. I’ve struggled once in my previous life and nothing has changed.

But, Selina. You basically want your death not to be miserable? Right?

So I’ll do the best I can. To make your death not miserable. At least to avoid the ending of dying while suffering from illness alone.

After speaking a long word in my heart, I took one step by step.

Passing a bell larger than my body, I walked all the way to the end of the railing where I could see the grass underneath.

I even close my eyes after taking my hands off that trembling wall.

The sun was warm, and the wind was cool.

I am now wearing a gorgeous dress, and still some people care and love Selina as a family and a princess of this family.

Then, when everyone doesn’t leave, when they can shed tears at least as a family for Selina…

This is good enough. Great. Much better than me.

I relaxed my body. Still with my eyes closed, I took another step forward. With a sense of no path through the air, my body went black downwards.

I choose this as my second death.

At the same time, someone grabbed my arms and pulled me back.

The unfamiliar sensation I felt for the first time. I opened my eyes and looked at the person who pulled me.

“Sir Lucas?”

“It’s Lucas.”

Lucas, who was breathing heavily, shook his head from side to side. His expression was distorted as if he was angry.

“Did you follow me?”

***

Lucas was dumbfounded. Is that the only thing to ask?

This woman was so calm, even though she was just about to die.

He maintained a calm expression as if when he was surprised again, except that he opened his eyes round as if for a while.

“Yes.”

Lucas actually saw the princess heading to the bell tower and just went her own way.

But it was a little strange,

After the accident, the princess, who lost her memory and changed her personality, said she had been stuck in her room for several days.

But why were you there alone? and why did she ask himself to be friends?

He refused to be a friend because he knew the original nature of the princess. However, the princess was too embarrassed to refuse.

It’s like ‘Oh, I just threw it once.’

What···? What? His throat was strangely stiff. It feels like swallowing something undercooked… Of course, it could be just a joke or a joke that she just threw meaninglessly…

Lucas looked back at the bell tower where the princess was heading. What’s in the bell tower?

He was reluctant for some reason. It was a strange feeling. He thought he missed something he shouldn’t miss.

When he rejected the princess, he wouldn’t have felt this way if he had any sense of regret, but because the overly numb face doesn’t look like a living person…

It doesn’t look like a living person?

Lucas turned to the bell tower and started running before he could even think.

How long it would have been, as he climbed to the top of the bell tower, he saw Selina’s back at the end of the railing.

Her long, white hair fluttered behind her back standing in danger.

And the body tilted. It happened in an instant.

Lucas jumped in haste and caught her. How breathtaking it was, his heart pounded until he turned her butt towards the bell tower and looked back.

But still, Selina’s face was calm.

***

“Princess, no way…. Are you trying to die because you were rejected by me?”

What does Lucas mean? I’ve been thinking for a short time.

So, I asked him to be my friend, but he refused it so I couldn’t overcome the heartache and tried to die… Is this a conclusion?

“No?”

Of course, he’s right that he hit my all-stans zero, but I wasn’t going to die just because I couldn’t make friends with him.

For example, even if it wasn’t Lucas who rejected me, I would have climbed this bell tower.

Would he have climbed even if it was the passing uncle next door?

Despite my answer, Lucas didn’t take a look of doubt.

Come to think of it, this man was a well-off man in many ways, and he himself knew it.

A man full of competence and confidence, who believes that he can profit from anywhere by using all his conditions.

That’s the kind of person who will understand that my actions are also because of him.

Well, in this case, I was rejected and went straight to the tower, so I thought about it and shook my head again.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

“Then why did you want to die?”

That’s presumptuous.

No matter how self-centered thinking and my timing problems led to some misunderstandings, this question was a little presumptuous.

Earlier, although it was impulsive, I first said,’Shall I be friends?’ and Lucas refused.

Then isn’t our relationship over? I had no intention of telling the story of every phrase to someone who I had no relationship with. I don’t think he’ll believe it.

“Are we close enough to talk about that?”

“It’s not the matter of friendship.”

I didn’t want to hear anything from this man anymore. He wasn’t a good person for useless conversations. No, in fact, just opening my mouth, it’s starting to bother me.

I just want this man to leave me or to leave me as soon as possible.

As the body pulled back, my butt pounded on the floor began to throb.

“Sir Lucas, it’s not because of you. So, you don’t have to worry about it, you don’t have to feel guilty. I’m sorry to make you misunderstand. Please leave now.”

As I stood up, Lucas’ eyes followed me. As he stumbled in the middle, he even flinched.

It’s because of you. You made my butt wince. So let’s just leave it…

“Will you jump again when I go?”

“I won’t do it twice a day. Maybe?”

I was tired twice a day.

It was easy to be ready for death, but it was not easy to do.

Even if I choose to do it lightly, I get discouraged. If death had been easy with the evidence, I would have already died around 15 years old.

That’s embarrassing anyway. I told Selina what it was, a miserable death or something.

I walked limping past Lucas, who still fixed his gaze on me.

No, my *** hurts so much. Isn’t it cracked?

I wasn’t confident to go down this high staircase. In that sense, I wanted Lucas to go down quickly.

If Lucas goes down, how can I go down on all fours…

I glanced back at Lucas.

“Hoo.”

Soon, Lucas streaked into my gaze and lifted me up.

A person who pretends to be polite or polite is holding up without obtaining the other’s consent… What’s going on?

“Are you going to take me away?”

“I don’t think someone will be here for you until night if I leave you. In the first place, why are you coming up here?”

“You saw it before. I wasn’t going to use the stairs when going down.”

I certainly didn’t intend to.

However, someone made me go down the stairs, so I decided to leave someone to carry me down.

Lucas looked at me, then sighed again and looked away.

If you keep sighing like that, the ground will collapse.

By the way, this man’s carrying skills were great.

It feels like an AX bed seeking comfort? A well-trained knight can move a person or a load so much without vibration, huh? My eyes became dim again in the comfortable sensation.

Uh, I had a desire to sleep. As expected, I’m a man of indecency.

***

Lucas looked down at the sleeping woman in his arms. He was absolutely speechless.

She got her hair stuck in the grass, asked for help, asked for a friend, tried to die and now she sleeps.

He said earlier that this side is better because she doesn’t degrade the family but now, he is taking what he said.

The old princess was better. In the past, even though her personality was dirty, she was straightforward.

But now, he can’t even guess what the princess is thinking.