the fear in my lovers eyes as I lay there after attempting to end my life godforsaken life. he runs over to hold my bloody wrists as I cough up blood. he cries his eyes out saying "why, what did you do" I tell him its OK, I will be alright. the pain he felt as I slipped away, but he suddenly picked me up and carried me to our bed and ran to get the medical kit as he knew, how I got when I was in this sate, except he did not know I would actually do it this time. he bandged my wrists up and held me as I was in agony.

He quietly whispers "I know your In pain because of that horrible monster but you are safe now, I will always protect you no matter what". I cry trying to explain myself. As I try to get I fall making my wounds bleed my bandges slightly turn red. He pulls me back gently before I hit the ground. I start breaking down in front of him as I struggle to cope with my emotions, I tell him I need to go to the bathroom but he knows I will do it again

I stand up and tell him to trust me, he let's me go after I made a promise to him, I know I'm going to break. I slowly walk to the bathroom and lock the door as I don't want him to come in. I walk to the mirror i say " it all my fault, why does he love a broken person" i remove my banges and look at my cuts. i cry at the sight of what i have done. my emotions get to high an i accidentally smash the mirror, I find a shard of the glass and throw it across the room as I am afraid of what has become of me.

I turn the shower on and sit there fully clothed, waiting to feel the warm water comfort me as I try to get myself together as I calm myself down I find myself slowly fall asleep from the warmth of the water. As I wake up I look at the time on the wall and see I have been in the bathroom for an hour. I get up from the shower floor suddenly I fall back down again as my knees have given way.

He rushes over the the bathroom door and bangs on it to see if I was okay as I had been there for an hour. I groan in pain "I am fine, I just fell, my knees just gave out, I'm ok". He replied " ok I was just worried as you have been in there for a while, would you like to unlock the door, I won't judge you or hurt you". I cry "If I open the door don't look at the mess please" he agrees calmly.

I slowly slowly unlock the door a step in a corner where the glass shard was which I didn't know I was with. he opens the door to see the mirror shattered into millions of pieces, he looks over at me standing next to the glass shard. suddenly he rushes over to over me with a towel as he could see I was soaked. He carries me to the bed and dries me off with a towel , puts new bandges on my wrists and get me clean clothes and leaves so I can get changed. when I am changed he comes back in he says " Let's lay in bed".

I get in bed, he wraps him arms around me. I say whilst crying " why do you love me, I'm a broken person". I scream "why" after no answer. He is completely speechless. He turns me around to face him and he says with slight tears on him eyes " I love you because your you not because your broken" I respond after I process what he said " I love you too even though I am broken and I cannot forget what happened to me in the past, I am with you now. I want to thank you for loving me through all my dark times and good"