So many people out there in front of Snow's

house.They are celebrating the traditional festival all night.Snow is standing and watching beside them while her whole family enjoying the festival.She don't like being around by many people.

In group of people, someone is coming near to Snow.It was Cyan.He came closer and

whispered to Snow.

Cyan:"I love you.Can you be my girlfriend?"

Snow was surprised because she has been in love with him since childhood.She didn't answer immediately to him.She asked him to wait for three days to answer.But later.....

Snow:"I....I love you too".

She whispered softly to him.

At night,Snow can't even sleep and thinking about what happened again and again.

For a little while,

Snow:("Arrr.... what should I do?I feel so shy.

I still can't believe that Cyan loves me.I thought he was a gay.Maybe he is trying to use me as a cover for his real identity.Well...

whatever,he loves me even it might be a lie,

he said he loves me.So I don't care about that he is gay or not.I love him just the way he is.and........")

Snow kept speaking herself until she fell asleep.Her dreams might be full of about Cyan.

When the morning come,Snow woke up with a happy feeling and also exciting.

Snow:"can't wait to see him...." while brushing her eyes.

At school,Snow was searching Cyan because he's late today.

Snow:"why didn't he still shows up?Does he don't want to see me?"

Meanwhile of waiting Cyan, Snow's friend, Olive has been curious about Snow and Cyan's relationship.

Olive:"Snow tell me everything about what happened between you two last night."

Snow:"Umm.... please clam down.I will tell you about that.You are my best friend after all.But promise me not to tell anyone.okay?"

Olive:sure.I won't tell anyone.So just tell me.

Snow told everything about her relationship with Cyan.Olive was surprised.Well...she already expect that but she still surprises because she also knows that Cyan is not a straight guy.

Olive: "Snow,are you sure about dating with him?You knew that right he is a gay.Or are you out of your mind?He is the one who will make you cry someday."

Snow:"I know.I know.......but... I ..couldn't help it.You know that how much I love him.I don't wanna lose him.I already made up my mind."

Olive:"Alright....so be it.Just remember that I'll be right by your side everytime."

Snow:"Awwwn...you are so sweet that's why I like you so much."

Olive is one of Snow's childhood friends too.

They grew up together.Actually Snow has many childhood friends because she has a friendly mind and she hasn't been able to understand anything.Snow life is still complicating for her.

One month later....

In the break time of her school,Snow was thinking about what should she do for her one month anniversary with Cyan.

Snow:(What should I do for our anniversary?

Did Cyan know that today is our one month anniversary?)

Snow is full of her own thoughts at her seat.

She suddenly heard the rumors from her back seat.The girls said to Snow....

The girls:"Snow you know that Cyan is just using you as a cover.He doesn't love the kind of girl like you.You are just a cover girl for him."

Snow:"You guys don't need to told me about that.I already knew that."

Cyan came to Snow's class before the bell rings.Cyan said something to Snow instead of

"happy one month anniversary day to us".

Cyan:"Snow,I... have something to tell you."

Snow:"Okay...."

Cyan:"Ummm....I think we should break up.

My parents have know about our relationship.

I don't want to make you get in a troubles."

Snow:"........"

Then the bell rings and Cyan goes back to his class room.

Snow cried like a child and everyone is watching her.She already knew that will happen in someday.But it's so hurt to admit that.

Before the teacher come, Cyan came again to Snow.He looks like he is worrying about Snow

and he didn't mean to hurt her.

Cyan:"Don't cry Snow.... I'm sorry about that.

I couldn't help it."

Is this the end of Snow and Cyan's love relationship?

After a few months,

Snow and Cyan are still stay as a friend.But Snow didn't stop from loving him.She just don't show it again.Snow has been obsessed with Cyan....it might be he is her childhood friend or maybe he is handsome and cute at the same time.

After rejected by Cyan, Snow acts like a boy.It can be the reason of Cyan is a gay or something else.She is barely to wear dresses.She often wears like a tomboy.She made friends with boys more than girls.But still she is not a tomboy.She just like to act like that.

One night Snow's classmate confessed his love to her.She doesn't even know him.Her boy friend,Sky comes to talk with her...(in class)

Sky:"Snow...,there is a boy who has been crush on you badly."

Snow:"I knew about it and he already confessed to me in phone chat box last night"

Sky:"So... what did you say back?"

Snow:"I...I declined him."

Sky:"Why....?Wai is really love you and he is...well a good guy.Don't tell me....is it because of Cyan?!"

Snow:"Ummm......well...yes.But not only that I just don't like him.How do I love him when I don't even know who he is?!!And I can't think about other boys except of Cyan..."

Sky:"You really....are a stupid!! Cyan doesn't even like you anymore and you already knew it and yet you still waiting him.I don't understand you anymore.You shouldn't be waiting him.There is only one thing.It's you should try to move on.I can only suggest this."

Snow:"I want to.....but what can I do that I always looked his face only.I don't know how to love other boys."

Elite approachs them while they are talking.

Elite:"Snow....I think you can't distinguish between girl and boy's love...and friend love.

You think you love him cuz you know him for so long.But..Snow, it's just the friend love.You should think about it clearly."

Snow:"I.....I....."

Snow don't know what to say.She goes silent.

Actually Cyan is not the first boy who has been in a relationship with Snow.Well....He is her first love but before date with him,Snow has loved another one.When Snow is date with Kon,she was still a young girl.Kon is taller than Snow and also handsome.

Kon treats Snow so kindly.He cares about her in the whole time of dating each other.But every relationships have a problem.Kon is stuck with his own troubles and Snow......

she ran away from it instead of supporting Kon.

The reason is Snow has no feeling for him and she saw him like other people that she used to afraid.She knows that Kon do nothing wrong.He is also a kind person.But Snow is the kind of person who will not hold into the boy that she doesn't love anymore.She wrote in a book about "Let's break up" and gave him. It's hard for her too.

The day Snow gave that book to Kon is the last time she saw him.Snow even barely to face with him.She knows after reading it,

Kon will cry and hate her.

Snow's love relationships are a little confusing

Do you think Snow will able to move on from Cyan someday?

Snow always reads every Cyan's update posts in his Facebook page.He usually shares about cats.Because of that Snow even tried to act like cutie.She thought that if she is cute like a cat,he might be notice her.

But it's doesn't work out.Cyan treats Snow like a friend not even a best friend everytime.Snow was hoping for him to treat her as a best friend at least.

In one night,

While Snow reading Cyan's posts,she saw it.

It's the post about Cyan and his boyfriend.

Snow hated him for a moment but she tried to understand him.

Snow:("It's okay....He already rejected me obviously.I'mjust clinging to him.He must be annoying.I....I.. should be happy for him.At least,he and I are still friend........I hope time will cures.")

Later she cried so hard until she falls asleep.

It might be hard for Snow because she has been loved Cyan for 10years.

Because of Cyan and her other problems,

Snow mostly spends her time in sleeping.She

thought that sleeping is the only way to escape from everything.

But Snow is not just sleeping,she also creates dreams or stories.Snow has her own dream world.She can do everything whatever she wants to do.She can even kill the person she hate or can make a lover from enemy.Snow already killed her brother's wife more than once in her dream world.

Snow and her brother's wife are not in a good relationship.She do hate her for some reason.Snow hates the people who hurt or make upset her mother.Snow made a line between her mother and others.But her brother's wife crossed it.So that woman...I think she better stay away from Snow.

Dreams are different for Snow.Some are just a dreams like others having a dream.But most of Snow's dreams are created by her.Still she can't control from having nightmares and sometimes she even creates nightmares by herself.If she doesn't like the dream,she changes it.

(*I think some people might be doing the same thing like Snow when having a bad

dreams.*)

But sometimes Snow has being afraid of sleeping.When Snow was so young,she had a nightmare that she still hasn't forget even she wants to.She saw her mother's death in front of her in dream.

The dream of her mother's death is

connected with water.That day she has been cried for whole night,....being afraid of her mother's death and she even got afraid of deep water.She just wants to stay with her forever.

From that day, Snow got a habit.She used to cried in her sleeping every night for many reasons.

(*Well.... what I believe is that "no one life is perfect". Everyone has at least one reason to cry.The only difference is some cry out and some did not.But Snow is both.She might be cry out loud or sometimes she may just keep it in her heart.*)