hi my name is Elsa Johnson i belong to very strict family i have two brothers one is elder and other one is Younger then me i m a middle child my elder brother name is Harry Johnson and younger's name is Robert Johnson my parents love us my father name is Remo Johnson and mother name is Anna Johnson i m 22 years old i have a dream i want to be an interior designer since childhood but my parents doesn't like my dream and in anger i drop out from collage but they never interfer in my brothers dream they always support them me and my father not on a good trems i think he hate me the most when i was 16 i experience worst days of my life my father always believe what other says about me they never believe in me and this things hurt me i can't sleep properly i m having nightmares

my mom is nice but she can't do anything cause my father never listen to her, I don't trust anyone i always live alone even when everyone is present i feel left out for them i useless and in this year's i also starting to believing in it that i m useless and somehow i become a heartless person now i don't feel anything pain happiness nothing i became a stone,but deep in my heart i want someone whom can understand my listen my pain my sadness who love me the way i am listen to me never leave me in my darkness even if i say to leave me alone he stay's by my side and be with me in my every situations in  my happiness,darkness, sadness,fear, nightmares,i want someone.

everyday at night i pray to God that don't i m sleeping please don't wake me up in this world I don't want to live here please God take me.

but i wake up every morning with my pain and today is my 22 birthday i hate my birthday's since i was 16th birthday is the worst birthday of my life and after that year my all birthday's are worst.

i don't want to wake up but my mom knocking my door continuesly.

Mom's Pov:

Elsa dear wake up its 8:00 in morning and most importantly its your birthday we're waiting for you in dining room come fast dear.

Elsa POV:

Mom i will be late please you guys have you breakfast don't wait for me and i will have my breakfast with Maysam.

Mom's POV:

but i prepare your favorite food...

Elsa POV:

Mom do you even know what's my favorite food.

mom didn't say anything so i know she's left after hearing my question.

i hope you like my book

what happened with her when she's 16?

does her father ever understand her

Elsa ...

Elsa Pov:

after mom left i call my best friend Maysam she and i meet on social media and now we're best friends I don't have much friends in school no one likes me and i always sit alone and they thought that i m werid person but its not their fault i m so much broken so I can't express myself to anyone it just i don't know how to communicate with others or make friends but somehow i manage to be a friend with Maysam or i say she understands me when i don't say anything she knows that i m not ok and try to cheer me up.the phone is ringing and she's not packing up my call cause i know she must be watching kdrama all night and must me sleeping right now.

we both love kdrama and BTS.

now i m going to freshen up so i can be ready to get scolded by my father.....

i wear jeans and top i like causal and comfortable clothes I don't like fancy and reviling clothes so now i m ready and going to down stairs...

maysam moon

she's 21 year's old

she's an fashion designer

she loves her family

she can do anything for Elsa's happiness

she don't believe in love

Elsa Pov:

i m going down stairs i was on stairs and hear my Dad's voice and stope.

Dad's POV:

where is Elsa?

Mom Pov:

she's in her room awake but can't have breakfast with us cause she's going out with Maysam.

dad's POV:

what? you're saying that you make us wait for her and she's going out can't she inform us before so we can eaten breakfast.

Mom's Pov:

actually she didn't knew about breakfast plan its me who plan this all so we can have some family time together and today is her birthday as well.

Dad's POV:

ohh so now i have to be ready for her new dramas and embarrassments.......

Harry's pov:

hey Dad good morning why you're so angry in early morning what happened?

Dad Pov:

nothing son good morning how's your work and your relationship how's Lisa?

Harry's Pov:

everything is well and i m going to propose Lisa☺️

Dad's pov:

wow son congratulations so how did you plan everything when are you going to propose her?

Harry's POV:

i m thinking about today cause today is Elsa's birthday and we'll having a party so what do you think.....

Dad's Pov:

what? no we're not planning any party today did you forget what happened last year I can't deal with her shits........

what happened with her on her 21st birthday?

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don't hurt others don't know what they're going through everyday ....

forgiveness is easy but forgetting is harder sometimes family issues kill the person's soul

flash back:

Anna Johnson:

Elsa where are you its your 21st birthday party and you're going to be late come fast.i m so happy today our Elsa is turning to 21.

Remo Johnson:

yeah she's turning 21 and didn't achieve anything how can someone is dreamless.can't believe that she's my daughter see our sons they're so much intelligents hard working achieving their dreams and look at her drop out from collage just because I didn't approve her to become an interior designer...

Anna Johnson:

you never stop Harry or Robert to Chase their dreams.you stop Elsa to achieve her dream.she wants to be an interior designer but you didn't support her.

Remo Johnson:

don't compare Harry and Roberts dream's to her dream.the Harry's dream he wants to be can software developer and Roberts dream is to start he's own business and he's working on it. Robert is just 20 and he's studying and working for he's business and Elsa her dream is as useless as her.i don't want to argue with you i just want this party to end soon peacefully.....

Elsa was on stairs when her mom and dad talking about her and her brothers and she heard everything and she's hurt its not new for her but she's hurt and run to her room and lock the door she's finding her medicines she's taking medicine for stress and sleeping pills so her mind on peace her family didn't knew about this she hide her medicine under her bed and she do part time job in cafe so she won't ask money from her father for her expense.....

she's crying and taking her medicine but she didn't realize that she took 2 sleeping pills and go to washroom and wash her face and then come down stairs. everyone is waiting for her.when she was on stairs she saw her elder brother who's smiling at her....

Harry's POV:

i saw Elsa on stairs and something is off.i wish her.. happy birthday Elsa God bless you always be happy healthy and safe my little sister now you grown up Lady 😉

Elsa pov:

i m on stairs when my brother come and wish me birthday I don't what happened with me my head is spinning and my eyes is heavy but i smile and start to walk in my brother's direction...

party venue

what will happen next?

will she be alright?

does her family understands her?

she find happiness?

does love come and knock on her door?

author's

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