"Beep beep" the alarm kept on blaring into my ears I carried my pillow then covered both of my ears... my phone decided to join in the melody 'heat waves by glass animals '

playing as my ringtone,i looked over at the phone screen it read (Bryan).. I sat up immediately answering the call

"hello" I said

"hey man.. do you know what time it is? "Bryan yelled over the phone...

"yeah.. it's just early nothing much" I scoffed.. Bryan really knows how to get someone worked up doesn't he?.. I sighed turning to look at my clock, the moment my eyes met the clock I jumped out of the bed running to my bathroom.. I didn't even mind where I threw my phone

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The hallway seemed empty.. I ran straight to English home room, the minute I stepped in all eyes turned towards my direction, literally i was ashamed as to the glares I'm getting from Evey single person here... this is how it is in this school.. I'm the loner freak and talking about Bryan we go way back since childhood he'd the only one I got,

"Mr. Dorochi.. what's the excuse for today? " the teacher asked with hatred and anger in he'd eyes.. I looked down at my shoes, trying to bring out any word that may help my situation right now..

"I'm sorry sir.. I overslept " great, just great that was the reply my stupid brain could find for me? just so shameful I thought and now everyone is looking at me like some idiot douche bag

"detention later... for now go to your seat " Mr. Fedrick said, I was taken aback a little.. he didn't yell or curse me today, that must be a good sign right? just mabybe ,I nodded then walked slowly towards my seat which is just by the window

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Finally class came to an end.. so I started packing up my books, shoving them into my bag

"hey punk" I heard Tyler's voice behind me causing me to stiffen, not again please God why me?

"w.. what do you want this time? " I managed to ask out of fear and trembling all I wanted to do right now is to run away and hide somewhere, but before I know it I was been shoved to the ground then Tyler towered over me sending punches to my face.. he's minions kept on laughing loudly

this is what I pass through everyday and no one.. I mean no one seems to help about that I learnt this s while ago that I'm alone in this world my best friend doesn't show up much anymore unlike before we would walk in together, get bullied together... now I don't even know where he is but I hope he finds me soon enough..... after they finished hitting me with punches and kicks they left and I thought the torture is over I was wrong more awaited me

I know y'all are wondering who I am and stuff like that yep.... I am Brown Hidaka Dorochi, abandoned by both parents because they hated me and I don't know why... I stayed in an orphanage home right when I was three years old... then it happened that the orphanage home was shut down years later so I stayed on my own in my little crib... been a 17 years old kid.. staying on he'd own no parents... it's killing but I manage

at the orphanage home that was where I met Bryan... but he was lucky to get adopted and I was not maybe life really hated me or I wasn't supposed to exist

I got myself a job with not so much of a good income and got myself registered...there i met Bryan again but long story short.... the worst torture is the one I'm having now.. daydreaming about a girl I would never get the chance to meet or say hi to... it's frustrating and tiring and here's the catchy thing she ain't just any girl

she's Sarah finnman the badass of the school ,even Tyler and he's gang fears her and she's been my crush for 3 good years... wow... wish me luck if I try😀

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(ART class)

The teacher Kept on talking about this and that, while I zoned out on my drawing, I was so much into my train of thoughts that I didn't realize Mrs whyte presence. ..she slammed her hand on the desk making me flinch out of fear and shock.... seeing the paper on my desk it had a drawing in it, she picked it up then looked at me.. .

"Mr Dorochi.. would you explain to the class about what you drew?? " she asked. .a wicked smile plastered on her face... oh no no I can't. ..i can't, I started freaking out because if the whole class finds out I would be a laughing stock for them all

seeing my silence Mrs whyte took that as an advantage to Mock me

"this is a dream that never come true.. when it comes to you" she said harshly in my face and then raised the paper up so everyone could see.. .laughters and remarks erupted ,the whole class even Tyler was present..... I couldn't take it anymore so I grabbed the paper away from her, running out of the classroom

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sitting at the start of the stair leading to the upper hallway.... I kept my thoughts high, swimming in them, everyone thinks I'm an idiot now, even Sara would think so

"hi" I heard someone call out.. I raised my head up to get a better view only to be met with those dark eyes and it belongs to Sara ,her black long hair shining like the stars.... I can't believe she's actually talking to me I mean... me? the loner freak... the school badass is right here.. talking to me.... okay take a chill pill and breath, act cool

"h.. hey" I blurt out, sluttering a little... come on Sara finnman is here talking to me... man I think I just died 😁

"can I sit? " she asked smiling warmly at me

"yeah.. uhmm yeah " I said a little nervous... nope I'm so nervous not even a little ,she sat close to me then smiled.... I smiled too

"why are you talking with me? " yep and here goes the downfall.. my mouth couldn't wait for my head to think before speaking and she's gonna hate me... I'm so sorry bad at this

"let's just say.. you're cute and lonely a little company would do right? " she asked or more like telling me and to say I was dumbstruck was an understatement I was literally out of this world

probably I'm space right now😁

"wow.. It's beautiful " she exclaimed as we walked all the way to my locker.. Now here's one thing, I started getting angry and jealous looks from both boys and girls ...some asking why the badass Sara is walking along side the one and only loner freak,.. Well that's what I get for trying to blend in OR feel alive a little.....

Finally we got to my locker, with Sara still holding my book from earlier

" are you gonna be free today? " Sara asked, I looked at her then nodded my head, well come to think of it I'm actually free nothing for me to do so yeah... She smiled at me before walking away

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I arrived home earlier than usual.... With a tint of joy in me I laid on my little bed, daydreaming about it already.... Come on I've never felt this happy before in my life, it's like a dream come true,,, now I think I have a purpose and a reason to live...im not lonely anymore,

My phone beeped... I looked at it only to see its a message from Sara, what? How did she get my number... (hey.. How did you get my number?) I asked clearly ignoring the first message

(got my ways cutie... So should I come pick you or?) she asked.. Looking at the message I felt like a wave of hope hitting my face... I was so overjoyed at this moment

(yeah.. As you wish) I replied, just then a knock landed on my door... I rushed over to the door then opened it wide, Sara stood there looking so beautiful and I think I got lost looking at those dark eyes she got.... She looked nice...

" I was here anyway...so let's go" she said turning back... We walked over to where she parked her beast... And when I meant beast I didn't mean beast beast.....

I meant her motorcycle.... A Kawasaki ninja HR, ranked as one of the fastest bikes ever...

"oh no no.. I'm not riding on that thing " I said fear in my eyes... She laughed then held my hand

" it doesn't bite.. Besides its just a bike, cmon you would love it" she blurted out sweetly... I gulped hard then climbed on

" where to? " I asked, curiosity in my tune

" You would love it, I swear" she said chuckling, I think I'm in love already

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It's been weeks now and we have gotten closer day by day... And here's a shocker, we are even dating when Tyler heard about it he was dumbstruck to say the least,, everyone was.....

Right now I laid on my bed, smiling to myself... Having a meaning once again... Sara gave me hope and I threw all my trust on her, loving her all the possible way I could ......feeling lonely I picked up my phone then dialed her number it rang for some minutes but no one answered... I tried again but still the same... Getting worried I put on my clothes then headed out of the house under such heavy rain

On getting there I started hearing loud music from afar... She having a party? Without me?... That's unlike her, I walked into the house ,drunken teenager's all over.... Walking over to Ryder who used the wall as he's standing aid....

"Ryder... Hey" I called out as I tapped him on he's shoulder, at first he was just looking at me.. Completely he wasn't on earth no more, Ryder was known for drugs it was normal for him... Suddenly a smile crept onto he's face....

"oh, I know you now.. You're Sara's pet hahaha" he mocked.. I clenched my fists then walked away from him, he's just a drunken bastard

"I wonder what she saw in you anyway, you're just a brat" he cursed.....

I didn't bother answering him as I struggle to pass through the crowd dancing and smoking, whatever they do in teenager's party yh...

Everyone I asked... Said the same as Ryder I guess I still got many haters huh....climbing up the stairs I decided to try her number again,but still no answer

Actually I got scared many thoughts running in my head,, what if she's hurt and doesn't want me to see her, but I didn't do anything wrong, what if she's someone else... No she wouldn't do that ,she loves me I know that

I stood in the middle of a very long hallway the doors most are open...most aren't walking towards her room I knocked on the door, leaning my ear to it I heard moaning sounds.... Immediately my heart sunk.... No.. No maybe it's one of this f••ked up teenagers in there

My hand acted before I could process it... The door opened my mouth fell open... My heart beating as fast as flash..... My head started aching.... I couldn't believe what I just saw right now... It was like the whole world was crumbling on me...

Sara laid on my only best friend... The one I thought I had as a family ....my heart was broken into multiple pieces that I couldn't apprehend... They were both having a hot make out session,, but stopped when they saw me.. Standing there like a statue

And all Sara did was to laugh.... Bryan joined in on her laughter, she walked up-to me then smiled

"awwn..poor Brown sorry you had to find out this way" she said chuckling,

"why? " that was all I could ask

"really? You thought we had something? Like come on.. You really thought I would be with a loser like you? " Sara fired at me I felt alot of pains in my chest.. My heart beat increased rapidly I clenched my chest with my fist....

"then why... Why did you love me? Why did you give me so much hope? What have I ever done to deserve this?" I asked anger.... And many other emotions I couldn't think of flooded into my head my whole body trembled

"Get the **** outta here loser!" Bryan yelled at the top of he's voice...even my best friend, so they planned this all along, Bryan wasn't really a friend he just pretended around me... I'm really a loser you know,,,, my parents abandoned me when I was 3... Now I got betrayed by my I thought so lover and my fake *** best friend.... The world really chose a harsh fate for me.... Maybe it's time to accept death,, that seems to be the only escape I got from this reality... No one cares if I die anyway

"didn't you hear me.... Bitch!! Get the **** out!! " Bryan snapped