IT ALL STARTED AT THE DAY YOU MOVE IN TO OUR NEIGHBORHOOD 😌.

WE were grade 5 at that time and the first time I saw your face you got me falling in love,but we were just kids at that time so I don't really pay attention to that feeling.

BEING A FRIENDLY GIRL I Easley BECAME YOUR FRIEND ESPECIALLY YOUR SIBLINGS!

the days past and it was Soo good to be your friend.

days turn weeks and weeks turns month and moths turned years and we still became friends.

but eventually every story has an sad lines.

during 2019-2022(pandemic) you became cold, introvert,and a lonely guy, over the years you spend your time in your room and do your stuff.

but we're still friends at that point.

time flies and we are already 15 and your turning 16 this October 2022.

you got so tall and so handsome that all girls are drooling around you, of course I got jealous but I already new your not gonna like me,so I stay in silence and never told anyone about my feelings.

I really admire you and wish I could have you but it seems so impossible.

everytime I think about you I will slapped my face because I don't want to day dream you, I don't want to think of you having crush on me because it hurts,and for Me everytime I dream of someone/something it'll be the opposite thing so that's way I don't want to think of you!

and there are so many things that proves that you're never gonna like me, because I'm not good enough I'm not pretty enough,and I'm not smart enough for you!

maybe in the future in another life you'll like me and will appreciate me!

and I'm sure my feelings for you won't fade away, as far as I live I will admire you and like you!

to be honest it's really hard to make this story😌🤣 but it's a real story 😌 cause it's my story 😌🤣

IDK if there's a chance but for now I'll just keep my secret from you cause maybe I'm not ready yet! not ready for your answer! answers that will make me sad will make me cry. But someday I'll gather my courage to till everything to you!

I also wrote you an confession letter but I still can't bring my self to give it to you because it scares me😅

it's clear that he hates me, that he'll never gonna like me.

he didn't even know that every guy I liked,I kept comparing them to him.

but for now you will remain in my secret diary that only me and my self know. Someday you'll know about everything and maybe that day I can accept your answer and will appreciate it no matter what.

this is my story 😌

author: ycelaine