I was woke up in the loud notification of my cellphone, it seems this is message coming to my someone who makes me feel happy everyday. I go and check the notifications that I receive.

When I read the message, my eye’s blush…………., I felt so annoyed. The message I received is coming from to the telecom network, it says “your promo that you avail is now expired, to enjoy surfing to the internet, avail another promo, thank you and have a nice day”.

When I finish reading the message, my tears flow in my eyes, it seems I can’t not open my account and chat my someone I said to my self and I have no money to used to buy a load to the store so that I think a way to have load.

I tried to beg a money for  load to my papa, he said “ I have no money today, my dear. Go to your mama if you give you a money “.

When I hear the response of my papa, my heart is continuously pumping not because I felt in love with him but in his response. All salary of my papa give to my mama, yes he gives all every cent , that how my papa loves my mama.

My mama is very strict about in money, every single cent and grains of rice should we kept it. Their was a day when I didn’t eat all grains of rice in my plate because I’m late in school if I will finish or continue eating.

My mother said to me “where are you going? “, I respond to her that I will now going to the school, if not I will be late. Then she get a plate and  fly to my direction, “I said  since you are one year old that I don’t want to see any grains of rice to your plate”, she said to me in angry face and tone voice. If I continue eating I will be late in School  mam…, my mother slap me with a plate, I’M not the reason why you will be late today, yourself. Haber….. you sleep late night every day. The rice is not the reason why you late today so that finished eating first before you go to your school. Their is a lot of children hungry everyday and you wasted a food, with another slap coming from her. “Hurry up and eat thosed rice on your plate if you like to go in your school today “.

I cry and do what my mother says to me, I go to the school with mark of design in the plate.

That is the reason why my heart pump hard when I heard what my papa response to me. If I beg a load to him I will receive a thousand words or she does not give me.

Maria a loud  sound coming from outside of our house, the tone of voice is like my best friend Melody. I open the  window and I wave to him.

Hey melody, it’s a long time to see you, a smooth and sweet tone. Come and go outside.

“Yeah it is along time that I didn’t see you, I’m busy working and studying, hmmmm….. I think you have a boyfriend, who’s that? “

Where you heard that news?,” No  he is not my boyfriend but it seems I in love to him, we only chatting in messenger,. “with blushing face.

Did he know that you  fallen in with loved him?

That question of Melody I didn’t answer, that time a strong earthquake happened, we experienced a magnitude 8.5. I advised to Melody that we should do the duck cover and techniques to avoid falling debris and makes us safe. When the earthquake stop, I and Melody able to go outside but the earthquake aftershock caused our house, neighbors housed, and establishment collapse. I cry loud when I see….… my papa die due to the collapse of our house. He sacrifice his life to saved mama in falling ceiling and hallow blocks. I feel that it is like a dream that I never thought that it happen in my life. My papa is like my best friend, he knows all my secrets, and happen in my life because every day we talked and share a story.

All his memories to me is flash back, I never forget the story he thought to me, when  he courtship may mama. My papa serenade my mama with a lovely song and every day he bring flowers of squash. They always go to the river, fishing and swimming with their’s cousins. My papa proposed to mama in front of my grandparents in both side, that gentleman my papa. But always questioned my self that, why the story of papa to my papa seems she is have a nice attitude. Not like what she is today.

I go to the coffin of my father, and I see my mama talking to my aunt. I heard my name and I probably I’m their topic in their conversation. I didn’t focus my attention to them but to my papa because that day his last day that we with him.

In the cemetery, my best friend Melody confort me and hug me while crying. Until my aunt Lita the one who talking to my mother yesterday called me. She command me to prepare all my clothes and things when we arrived at home.

I was shocked, why I should prepare my clothes? I responded to him

“Maria you will now go to me in Manila, that is your mama want, she can’t give what your needs “ she said to me

It is true mama?, my mama didn’t responded to me but he walk away from us.

When we already in our home, I talk to my mama and I beg that I don’t like to go in Manila with aunt Liza, but………

Shut up Maria…… your papa is already dead and I can’t give what you needs

Ma, I don’t like go far with you, I respond

Go to your and prepare all your clothes and things, I already made my decision that you should go t your aunt in Manila.

I go in Manila with my aunt, and I never send message to the person who makes me feel happy. When the earthquake happened my cellphone destroyed and I think it is now over. It is sad but I’m know in the new path of my life with far to my parents.