The laughter, hunger for humiliation surrounds the school and wraps itself around the students head for that is all they see.

The only light that guides them is through tormant, to torture others in the process.

No one lives "happily" for there is no such thing as a "happy" ending for there is tragedy waiting to happen.

In this world or society is glued to what is put on social media, the internet. For what ever people hear or see on the internet they believe.

Do they believe that the violence, the bullying really goes un noticed? It doesn't, in fact people not only watch but they'll record it, post and share it.

Everyone looks for happiness, but surrounded by negativity only brings you down along with it.

Happiness is everyone's struggles, everyone looks for it and struggles to find it.

Same for love, you may think you love someone when really you were wrong. You find out the true identity behind the mask.

The mask of happiness, smiles and giggles. Yeah I smile, I laugh, I seem happy at the time.

But at the end of the day I only find myself in loneliness and sorrow.

Surrounded by saddness and all those around to see. They see me as happy but weak.

When really im strong, im sad.

Those who can carry saddness but still find the love behind it.

The light at the end of the darkness surrounding you.

There the ones no one cares to notice because they are already "happy".

Those that show their saddness and depression just want attention. The lines that show.

The LINES that show are only for those to see, those to notice, those to show sympathy.

Things that I never got in life, a family, friends and those who cared.

They all ended up leaving in the end.

It shows me that no one ever stays, there will be people who leave.

Those who get to close I push away.

Why? Why they ask. Why push those who care away and make a big deal out of how your alone. How your sad.

Why? You may ask, because i'm tired, i'm tired of seeing those i love leave. I'm tired being surrounded by darkness.

Only trying to find the light in the most simplistic things in life.

Spending time over and over again, time i dont have, a life i dont want to waste.

Spending the time in my only life.

My one life. Trying to be happy.

Why cant i be happy?

Why cant i feel loved

So ask again.

Why?

Because i dont want to keep feeling hurt, the betrayal of those you trust most, those leaving who you think would stay.

Those that end up letting you down, people who bring you down in the worst way possible.

Always feeling tired.

So ASK ME AGAIN!

"Why?"

Because i hurt those, before they can hurt me.