Sighing, I hurriedly went downstairs before my mom could shout my name.

I live with my mother and my dad, well he is dead. I really don't feel any pain whatsoever about his absence because I have never met him. My mom has only told me that he died before I was born.

"Ah! bubba, your breakfast is ready". My mom caressed my black hair down as she saw me. She has always called me bubba because when I was little I couldn't pronounce boba correctly, instead I said bubba, so she started calling me that.

"Good morning mom, and thanks". I sat down seeing my plate filled with a mouth watering scrambled eggs and bacon.

Finishing my meal I and my mom entered her mini van as she drove me to school.

"Alright what should we listen to?" she said rhetorically.

Soon 'maniac' by stray kids started playing and my mom and I bobbed our heads to the rhythm and we sang out loud.

"mom! you sound like a dying cat". she really did sound like one and that made me laugh till my tummy hurt.

"hey! not every one sounds like a super star".

We soon reached my school and I kissed my mom and jumped out of the car.

"Have a great day Jade" my mom shouted.

As I walked through the busy hall way I really wanted someone to run up to me, shouting my name, or hugging me expressing how much they missed me but that can't happen cause I have no friends.

I won't call myself a loner but I guess that's how it looks like.

But...

I Always looked forward to seeing one special person someone who I cherish. Jin Young.

I admire him always from afar but today I wanted to confess my feelings to him because I can no longer hold how I feel. Just thinking about him already made me smile and brighten up my day.

As soon as second period was over it was time for gym class and I was anticipating it because that's when I'll tell Jin how I felt. But not in front of the wondering eyes of our classmates.

When the teacher was done with roll call I walked towards where Jin sat. Today he sat alone around the bleachers which I was grateful for because he is usually surrounded by his friends.

"uhm-h-hi" I internally cursed myself for stuttering.

Jin looked up at me confused but I was a woman on a mission.

"I-i uh wanted to uhm wanted to talk to you about something"

He shrugged. "sure, whatever".

I looked around making sure no one was around us to hear me.

And I closed my eyes and blurted out.

"I have liked you for a long time and have always admired you. Please it would be a huge honor for you to accept my feelings. Will you go out with me!".

My eyes were still closed till I heard a loud sound of laughter from him.

why was he laughing?

"uhm-..."

After he finished he looked at me.

"Wait let me get this straight, so you like me and expect me to go out with you". My heart broke because he was looking at me in disgust.

"I mean look at me and look at you, you're not even close to my league. What will a prestigious guy like me want with a cheap looking, dirty freak, skinny dog like you huh! Your ugly and filthy, when you get some curves and boobs or *** then you can talk to me".

Hearing laughter behind me I knew there were other people listening to us. I looked at the only person I held dear to my heart, as tears fell endlessly from my eyes. I couldn't take it anymore, I ran out off the gym and out of the school till my feet were numb.

I struggled to enter my room through my window but I managed. My mom was likely still at work since it was almost 2pm.

Dumping my school bag on the floor, I remembered how before I rushed out of school I had picked it from class.

I can't believe what happened to me, why would Jin do that to me, I mean even though he didn't have feelings for me he could have just said 'no' instead of making a scene.

I kept on wiping the tears and snot that were overflowing on my face. I was so embarrassed and degraded by someone I held so much respect and love for. Maybe I don't even love him, what can a 17 year old, 12th grader know about love. We are graduating this year so I thought it would be a great idea to just tell Jin how I felt.

Guess it was a bad idea.

I kept mulling in how I can show my face tomorrow at school till I heard the front door slam hard.

oh man!

My mom entered my room with a scowl in her face.

"What is this I hear about you skipping?".

And her hands are even on her hips! that's when you know shit hit fan.

"uh well mom... you wouldn't understand..." I started scratching my head, I mean its quite difficult trying to explain to your mom that your supposed crush degraded you in front of half the school.

Seeing the wary expression on my face, my mom sat down with a softened and worried face.

"Bubba, what happened at your school?" holding my hand she offered comfort.

I took a deep breath and explained what happened. A big part of me expected her to be angry at me for what I did but Instead she hugged me tightly.

"If murder wasn't against the law that measly child would have been tortured slowly and be dead". I looked at her partially scared and partially amused and grateful.

"That won't be necessary mom, I can handle anything".

"Well I wouldn't want you to, your my bubba".

"And your my mom, if you go to prison who would I rob the bank with?" she laughed and hugged me more.

"Your my Clyde, you would find a way to get me out of prison". I smiled looking at her.

"And your my Bonnie yeah?". I love my mom she's like my sister but in a motherly form. I can never do without her and because of that I'll make her proud.

While my mom was oblivious to my thoughts I realized that no more boys, no more love, that will get me nowhere, my only motto is to make my mom proud.

And with that I looked at my mom who was humming a song I definitely knew didn't exist.

"Can I be homeschooled mom?". I prayed she would agree. Even though there is a 80% chance she would say no.

"Well I'm not sure but if you're not feeling safe in that uncultured school of yours then maybe, I mean you are graduating in four months so it won't be a big deal." I was so happy that I gave her a fat kiss on the cheek.

"Thank you mom, Thank you, Thank you so much". she laughed seeing my happy face.

"Yeah, yeah....sleep okay I know today has been rough on you. Tomorrow we'll talk about your education".

"okay thank you mom". As she left I changed into my pajamas seeing as it was already 5pm.

I guess we spent alot of time talking.

Lying down I started thinking of how I'll make myself into a greater person far richer than Jin or anyone. It was a big mistake thinking he was different from the others.