Hi.’m not an author…but I guess i ll b using it as just a place to say my thoughts…i m just an amateur legal adult...some days are dark, some bright..sometime i cry while some i laugh..smtym i crave to be rich while on other i appreciate my current condition..i love and hate myself as well..not only days matter..but also i feel the change happening in emotion the next minute..i watch kdrama, cdrama, turkish, Hollywood majorly..yeah anime too ofc..i listen songs ofc of many artists.’m a BTS army, Blackpink blink and all too...Eng songs too ofc...well rest i guess mention later if interested...

I like to write most tyms when m too happy or too sad...writing comforts m nd it feels as if u hv found a good listener to yourself who wont judge you a bit no matter which side you show...it lets my inner self become free when i find myself lonely..and yes i like being alone but lonely is hard...yes am introvert but i try to familize myself with people till then it works but if i wnna form bond it fails nd that is disappointing...

the other reason for m writing is that i find myself forgetting most things..as if no short term memory is being converted to long term.I often forget recent events...i believe myself as a good secret keeper coz i tend to forget most unless it challenges my moral...i am disappointed in things so fast that its funny...am forgetting memories of my childhood nd some one important and i cant imagine myself without them...

and yeah am sorry in advance and thank you..some views might be filtered with media and platforms...

I am normal..i had normal life...and will lead who knows how life...i lack in many ways...i am one hell of a procrastinator and lazy on whole another level...i wasted time pitying myself too much...i am on the beginning line of race called life...i live off my parents...i sleep and wake up late...i annoy people too much...i enjoy silence..i think i go back on my words..

I think people dont know other as whole...i mean yeah they can know certain things and may either remember or forget them...no matter how well they seem to know i doubt it highly coz i feel i dont even know the true me...and i am hypocrite and am affected by people...sometime my points might contradict but who cares...i may be fake sometimes but one still can feel..in some you wont relate...but i cant try coz i dont know your life...i hardly know mine...as most i live repeated day each day...it can be boring and tiring...winter is coming...still on its way..i dont when i ll stop writing...coz m messy

i live in a developing country...so yeah in progress in all areas and aspects..we were discussing and one randomly said why does govt start all schemes and construction of whole country simultaneously..in my view because I highly doubt that citizen themselves are so patient to wait for there turn and time for such enormous will be required. ..first city will be as old as it was never updated on the time of last city...so not only mental patience but also emotional..

i love to travel…even when for smtym I feel like motion sickness...and yet I can't get enough..i wanna travel the world…I wish the day when my country is called a developed nation, it will worth it and will return where it once belonged...the pollution is high as always and i wanna use mask but its somewhat awkward well no, but it leaves oily after…

I have the least memory of myself ever going to funerals...when i see people crying there i question myself do i have to be sad,is it necessary to feel that when you honestly never had such bonding with deceased person...i one way or another has accepted this truth of life and death as a pair...i even wonder what is better a sudden death or suffering from chronic illness type which eventually leads to death...does the time spent living justifies the suffering patient has to go through...why not be happy that the ýdeceased one has finally ended his/her sufferings...and how should one feel of sudden death of which the person never showed any symptoms or signs before...honestly i think that might cause their family to not accept reality...

I always thought i was dark..but i was watching Wednesday and i thought oh i was not much of dark...she was whole diff lvl...smart and cool as hell...

I was reading manga and wondered how if fl was in place of villain, how will we see the story...whole perspective changes...a whole different view...so i accepted that every one has different story, diff view, diff reason, overall they all are different people so are their circumstances...maybe some are born that way rotten or some are made...who was i to judge...but then again am human, i doubt we can live without judging others

its getting colder but most i see around is dust, pollution, i find hard to distinguish coz its just started...what will it look like...will it worth all the devastating change and compromise people are doing with our lives,...we are moving ahead, i get it,but why do i fell we are taking step to our destruction more than to bright future...aqi is rising too much...will we fell it when we had to ask what is aqi ppm etc everyday to go out with mask and everything...i dont know whta m thinking or if m right