Dear Steven.....

Falling in love with you has been one of the greatest privileges of my life. There's not a day that I don't miss holding you in my arms, listening to your gentle voice in my ear, and feeling the warmth of your skin. All of my life i've been told that you should treasure that one that you love, but I never realized how much those words meant until this past year.

Sometimes I wake in the middle of the night with tears in my eyes, my arms reaching for something that isn't there. Tonight was one of those nights, so in order to calm myself I'm writing this letter. A letter that will never be seen by any eyes but own, because the courage that once made me stand tall has failed me once again. I fear that I am losing myself, losing the person that I once was when I was younger. My friends tell me that this is a good thing, but I have a feeling deep within me that says that it's not.

I miss you now more then I ever have before. You were always the one to set me back on the right path, the one that I knew would always stand by my side. I pray to our gods every night, that they might bring you back to me. That i'll one day hear your gentle voice once more, be able to run my fingers through your soft hair, a feel the softness of your lips on mine.

Today our daughter saw a picture of you on the table and asked who you were. It makes me realize how long a year can really be, especially when your as young she is now. I know that its hard for children to hold memories in there head, but still I felt some resentment in the fact that she couldn't remember your face. Perhaps its because I can see it whenever I close my eyes, and somewhere deep inside I feel she should ask well. Maybe I want someone to feel the same pain that I do. The same feeling of longing love that keeps me awake at night, that plauges my dreams.

I know that I shouldn't take out my suffering on our child, but sometimes I am unable to hold myself back. I hope that in the future that I will be able to overcome this weakness, to show her that I love her as deeply as any ocean. I never imagened I would be raising a child by myself, and I'm not sure how to do it. I'm sure that one day I'll figure it out, but until that day all I can do is try my best.

Its seems that somewhere along the line I got off the topic of my letter. So I suppose Its best if I find my way back to where I left off. Back to the love that has planted itself in my chest, and shall remain there until the end of my days. I know this is love is true, but I feel that I must set it with ink, so that I will be reminded whenever I look at this paper.

No matter the distance between us, the people that separate us, or whatever may prove to be an opstical my love shall not falter. For you are my castle, my King, and my heaven. Even after death I will pray to the gods that you will one day return to me.

With Love, Your Stardrop.

P.S. If anyone should ever come to find this letter, let it be known that I have cast a curse upon the words, so that whoever is to read it shall be struck down by the power of the gods themselves.