I never wanted to be the one I am today. I was the most cheerful, playful, the happiest boy alive on the earth. Things changed, time changed, I changed. Nah! not because I wanted to but because I was pushed to be changed into the person I am now, The heartless, darkened, hollow inside, the loneliest man you would ever meet.

I do. I do allot. But however I try how much I try, nothing changes. I still stay from where I start. When I start to take things further to let myself just to try to be a man who can be happy too who can still exhale the feeling of what I was, I would drag down into the pit of the darkness I try hard to come out.

No! I've given up on the thought of it.

Actually yeah. Once in my life I was able to pass the point I thought I could never. There was a boy, not any common boy. He was special, he was out of this world just like an angel. He helped me through the phase of that darkness. Furthermore, he made his place in my heart which was hollow inside. He started filling my darkened life with the light of his smile, his existence, his love his pure Love. Not only that, but he made me fall deeper in the hellhole of love oh sorry that was heaven. But that heaven was theft from me sooner than I expected. He was my love, my life, my everything, my Jungkook, hayyatam. He also became the same darkness for me who I was before he came into my life, the hollowness, the heartless darkened man when he left me alone in this cruelty again.

No! That wasn't even in his dictionary to fall out of love with me. He was just so into love with me, so into being caring for me, so into being the one I could lean on, so into be the *chokes on his tears* beautiful person I deserve... but in all this he forgot about himself, he forgot to take care of himself, forgot that what will I do if he leaves me one day. He eventually left me, he died. I lost him and the exact second I lost myself, my soul left me with him. I died too.

Baby why would I even lie to you about talking to a friend?

Koo she's over me. She has been trying to move on when she came to know that we are dating.

For God sake! I would never do that. I deleted those texts because I didn't want you to misunderstand anything. It was just a fun script, a short story which we both created.

Baby she was going through rough period of her life. She needed to lean onto someone, someone she could trust. And who's better than a friend to lean on. I was just making sure she doesn't feel alone. My part was just to be her trustable friend.

Don't say that. Don't even think about that.

I am with you because you are the one I love and cherish. I willingly chose you and not her because you are the only person who can make me go head over heels. You are the only one who can wrap me around your fingers.

Jennie can't do that. I won't even think a bit if I ever have to choose between you and her. You are always my first in everything.

Baby please stop crying.

You know those are my weakness. I can't see you crying. Please stop crying.

I am not giving you any assurites by lying.

I will show you by my actions. But lemme explain why was I so much invested in Jennie's life.

Will you please give me a chance for once to lemme explain the whole situation? Because communication is what we need right now.

I love you.

Jennie was committed to move on from me. She wanted to get over me as soon as she could so that her selfishness won't destroy our relationship.

In all this she met a guy whom she thought was a good person. They became friends, and eventually she started filling the place which I had with that particular guy. They slowly became closer than just friends and one night they were invited at a party through some common friends of both of them. They drank a little more than they should have.

That led to the night they never imagined or maybe in the depth of their hearts they did want to have that one night. Things got heated that night, and they had sèx without protection. That led to a disaster in Jennie's life.

She liked him allot and that made her shiver because she thought what if the guy thought that Jennie was a bítchy girl and what if he doesn't even have same feelings for her. Jennie was overwhelmed and left the place right after waking up the next morning.

After a week or two she found out she was pregnant and that was unexpected turn of events. She didn't want this to happen at all. Because she was just a college graduate. She didn't have a job neither had the father of her child. But after a lot of consideration she decided to keep the baby. That's when she decided to talk to me about whatever happened and what the future holds.

In the middle of all this she lost her dad. She was exhilarated. She just had me to share her problems. On top of that she was afraid about meeting the guy she left that morning.

I don't know what and how this happened but the guy found her and he was actually on his knees and begged Jennie to let him have the position he has a right on. He confessed how much he loves her and how long he's been trying to find her desperately.

Now they are together and making good memories with the baby in her belly.

Now you see I was never trying to cheat on you. That short story was the part of her novel she was trying to write but couldn't form the words for that. That's why she asked for help.

Okay okay stop saying sorry. It doesn't matter now. See we are okay. Stop crying hayyatam.

My love stop saying that. I am not leaving you, not in this life at least.

I just love you so much and there's not even a thought of leaving you.

~Hold you, nobody

~You'll never find someone like me

~We gotta rough it up before we take it slow

~It's gonna be a bumpy ride

POV: Sirens of ambulances and cop's cars were heard before everything went blank for me.

POV: But I am happy because the last thing I saw and remember was my Hyung. He was breathing evenly and seemed fine, not that many glasses were pierced through him.

POV: The only thing I feel guilty about is the boy who got hit by my car. I don't know what is his condition or is he even alive or not. I know it's my mistake, I should have kept my eyes on the road and shouldn't speed that much.

POV: It was our usual routine, I didn't know this will happen. I am so guilty and regretting about the whole thing.

POV: I should open my eyes and see what's happening around me. I can hear people murmuring around me.

POV: My eyes aren't opening. I am trying hard but it feels like something pushing me backwards more into the pit. It's hurting so much. I can't bear it.

Can you come a little closer to me? It's kinda difficult for me to get up right now.

Beautiful?

You're quite straight forward.

Come closer.

You are so beautiful.

You're not wrong in feeling that 'love at first sight' exists. I also feel the same.

Love at first sight does exit.

And that 'love at first sight' for me is 'You'.

Did you like the kiss? Does it feel warm to you?

Of course fluff ball.