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I have a crush (big crush) on my cousin 😳

I hope he doesn't get a girlfriend in the future

Me and him are pretty close /we used to be but now he is cold to me . Even i have my first kiss with him on the lips when we're little but he doesn't even care anymore. I wish like the fantasy that we will fall in love but fantasy is not real a just needs him with me .i keep pretending that I'm a Otaku but my head and heart still and will love him. My heart will break if I find that he will have a girlfriend is not me but fantasy is a fantasy after all. I think he will have so many girls that have a crush on him. Because he is handsome young man. I'm scared that he will know that i love him maybe if i knew he will think that I'm weird.....and never want to see my face

...this is my cousin when he is young and I will give you his nickname because it will be much better than him or he...

so he is (deeki )

wish me luck to have a strength to confess to him I know you . think I'm weird but i don't know what to do so please no hate and I'm sharing this to you because I'm having a depression and anxiety so I want someone/something that I can share and show my feelings I'm good at day dreaming but i don't know to accept that day dreaming is only a dream or a fantasy world build by my imagination . so i keep being the bad one in a problem that my cousin name angle but her name is opposite of her .she a devil and a slut you ask why I'm so mean to my cousin because of her . my life become more and more that i hate i been always that a good girl that doesn't lie but because of her I'm always lie because she . always give me a lie that i will need to says so she don't get scolded but if i don't go it she will hurt me but because I'm a good cousin i don't want them to be scolded i know that her family is poor but anything or everything that i have why she wants it even it's is my favorite one and she keep post in a secret account of her some pic that is not for her she is a minor she keep posting pic of a guy and a girl that is kissing and i can't say it and a pic of her that only have a short that is covering her tummy and only a bra it's okay for me but she having so much boyfriend there is a time that i can open her secret account and she keep saying that it's is not her account but a stalker and i everyone one know that it's her account ...

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