It’s a love story that show how much a boy can love a girl.The tough time , struggle,fights and tears. It’s always a hard time when we try hard to explain our feelings but the opposite gender don’t want to understand it’s hurts like hell .First love is something we can’t forget we can’t forget the person whose smile makes us smile whose tears makes us cry .I think it’s something wrong some people get their love easily but some of us like me are unlucky. I try 5 years and still trying continually. But everytime when I explain my feeling she hurts me a lot . Maybe she knows everything or maybe she knows nothing .But good thing is that she always listens me it’s gives me courage to do that again after the failure .I propose her maybe 30 times in past 5 years means I broke 30 times already. But I still try don’t know why maybe it’s my heart says one more time . If u go to depth of my story u will definitely going to cry . It’s full of emotions and the real emotions . Mostly people’s fall in love with her classmates like me . If u also fall in love with someone and try to explain her get ready for pain. She hurts u again and again. Maybe u can take some experience from this story so join me and let’s go through that because again I’m going to cry when I writes that . U know I have patience more than anyone even I can try 100 more years if she will not marry. Because if she settled with some and got married I lose the hope . Believe me my heart says one day she accept me . She understand my feeling my emotions . I know U r thinking that I’m not good looking that’s why she is rejecting me but it’s wrong. I’m good looking because I have also some proposal of girls but I can’t love anyone . My feelings attached with her. Talking about me I’m 23 years old fair with good jaw line. Height 5’9” muscular with a good personality I’m damn sure my personality is not the reason she is rejected me it’s something else.

Maybe her past or maybe she also love someone and rejected her and she try hard quiet possible.

But I have to do my work I don’t want to know why she rejected me I want to see how many more times she can reject me .10 times,20 times or more I’m ready for broke more . Ohh something left maybe the reason of rejection is my work . I’m working in Indian navy I’m a soldier. U all know soldiers are mental then one more possibility that she didn’t like my attitude my way of talking. Let’s see what happens come enjoy my story .

We all have fallen in love with someone at some point of time . The person is to much special for us.

That’s definitely true that love is the world’s most powerful and special feeling. And it’s not important that the person is beautiful or handsome. Actually love is unconditional we love that person because she/ he has some different qualities a different type of attraction that we like about the person. Maybe we like her rudeness or maybe the humble behaviour it’s anything but we like that. When everybody even the world against her/him we can stand with the person because we love her . When we love someone we can do anything for that special person. It is the only thing where age,colour,personality nothing matters only matters is how much we love that person.

Okk that’s the things we all know because it’s happens with everybody you are also the part of that story.

Coming to the topic I want to start it from the starting. 2014 I completed my 11th from my hometown and move to the city near me Alwar the place in Rajasthan. My father send me Alwar for better education. I took admission in a institute named PI Academy. And I take hostel near the institute .

First day of class 12th I reached in class at 11 o clock one of my classmate moved to city with me.

We are sitting on the 2nd bench because that was the first day and the class is almost empty.About 20 students in the class it’s like introduction class . Almost all the students are old students of the institute . We are feeling very bad because we have no friends there and first time we are not with our family .The institute time is over we came to hostel and had lunch .We meet some boys in hostel they all were new in city like us. We were try to make some friendship bond. The day was finally passed we talked to our parents after dinner and then went to bed.

Next day 7:30 we reached to institute we reached early because it’s first day of class 12th after introduction class. The class room was changed.

But we still sat on second bench. First row of benches reserved only for girls .Two beautiful girl sat there muskan Arora and Komal gupta.Then a fair and beautiful girl enters in classroom with a million dollor smile.Her name is Nishtha Jaiswal. She says hello to muskan and Komal and sat with them on first bench.

It’s the love at first site when I saw her I felt something very special. I never felt like that before I was in love with her. I said that to my friend Hemant who moved with me to city.He said yes she is beautiful.But I thought she definitely had a boyfriend and also she was beyond my level.God gives her everything beautiful , charm and a adorable smile why she loves me . She had better proposals I’m a thin guy 48kg that time .I instantly losed all hopes then two boys entered in class one with glasses on his eyes .They were old students of institute and a confidence on there faces because they had a lots of friend in the classroom.One of them was the topper of previous class .They started handshake with other old students and after that they say hello to first bench girls . And the girls also said hello to them with a smile on there faces. When nishtha said hello it’s like a losed my all hopes.

After that they boys came to second bench and said to me “This is our bench you have to shift the bench behind.”

I said why then they said we always sat there in previous class they were old students and they ruled the class .We shifted to the last bench which was left for us because today all students new and old were there the classroom is full with students. Then the principal of the institute came to class his named Nischal. He was also our chemistry teacher he was a bulky person with face fat.The was looking dangerous.But he was a great teacher and also he was famous chemistry teacher in city.He came and start the class with a good joke we all were laughing but my eyes stuck again on nishtha believe me she was damn cute.

Nischal sir start the first lesson atoms he had some different skills to teach . I realised that actually he was a great teacher because i was not feeling bored I was enjoying the class.After that maths class and English class .Physics and Hindi classes after the lunch break .In lunch break I saw something different environment of city classes.

Actually in our hometown we felt shy to talk with a girl .We talked to girl hardly 3-4 times in a year.

But here it’s totally different boy’s and girls sat together and cracking jokes. But still my eyes on nishtha . She was smiling continually.After lunch Hindi and physics class and then we leave the class and went to hostel.I called my father and explained about the first day . All teacher were good . Maths teacher was a little bit dangerous.

But not for us we were dealing with batton from our childhood. Only the thing was that I don’t want to be punished in front of nishtha .If it happened I feel very shy.Days passed study was going well I revised everything which was teaching in class.Daily I felt good when I saw her and felt jealous when anyone came closer or touch her.Its a different type of jealousy i was feeling jealousy because I had some feelings for her. She don’t know my name and nothing about me. And one day kaushik madam director of institute announced a class test and sitting plan.

Sitting plan was in alphabetic order . The sequence is muskan and then nishtha m and n.

We were two Pankaj in class one was Pankaj Meena one of us going to sat next to Nishtha.

I pray to god for sat next to her . And finally kaushik madam said Muskan, Nishtha, Pankaj Kaushik that’s me and then Pankaj Meena. It was a joyful moment I wanted to shout loudly but I said yes with a smile. A another trouble was that two of us were sitting on one bench . I thought if muskan and Nishtha , Me and other Pankaj it happens in that condition I failed because I wanted to talk to her.Again I pray to god. And finally me and Nishtha was going to sat on one bench in class tests. Again I wanted to shout loudly but said yes( victory voice).

In previous part it’s confirmed that Nishtha and me were going to sit on one bench in class tests and internal exams. Tests starts subject by subject .Nishtha was so strong in English but little bit weak in Maths and Maths is my strong subject. Actually i was weak in English. In first I was already sitting on the bench and Nishtha came and say Hii to me first time ever . These words were like heaven .I felt so good but a little bit shy. I replied hello . Then she asked me about my preparations I said all set. After that she said she helped me if I had some problem in English . And I had to help her in Maths . It was like a deal the greatest deal of my life because I wanted a chance to came closer to her . I wanted to know everything about her. The test was over we were in the conversations not a lots of but something is better than nothing. I was happy with the less conversation. One day internal exam was going on and Director kaushik madam came to class and said Boys don’t try to help your sisters and sisters don’t try to help your brothers. I looked at Nishtha and smile a little bit actually I felt so bad that time . Because it’s wrong i was not her brother. And no one want to became brother of her classmate actually. Then Nishtha said I’m not your sister.Again I looked at her and smiled but that time I felt so good. I was ready to made every class girl sister except Nishtha I had some feelings for her.After that time Nishtha started to say hii and hello to me also in the Normal class . I love her voice it was so innocent and cute. Her voice made my day. One day I do a little conversation with Nishtha it’s so normal . But some boys don’t like that maybe they also like her. They were in a group . All boys had there group of 5-6 boys except me . I had no friends in the class only a little conversation with some of them.Because I don’t believe in temporary and fake friendships my motto was to passed class 12th with good percentage and went back to home.So one group which had problems with our conversation came to me at lunch break.They said don’t try to go closer to her stay away . They were 6 healthy boys and i was alone I was so weak also. I had good friends in my hostel .I went hostel after the classes and discussed with them and some other friend who were studying in that city but they were from my town. And they support me a lot they we were standing next to you if next time it happened just called us. Don’t afraid from these boys. From the next day I tried to finished that issue because if any fight happened in academy teachers take me wrong. And it definitely affects my studies again I focused on studies but my eyes still on Nishtha always same jealousy when she talked to other boys. Only hii and hello conversation left between us. By the time I was in deep friendship with hostel boys and my study time in hostel was almost finish . We were only doing fun in hostel I started bunk from academy. I almost forgot why my father send me to city. Also I started drinking and smoking occasionally. I was having a lot of fun that time but Nishtha was only the thing which always in my mind.One incident maybe I never forget in my life. I boy from Nishtha’s group was very close to her. When one day I asked her that he is your boyfriend she said no he is like my brother.It was a educational trip planned by institute . We were going to an engineering college institute arranged two buses for that.Me and the boy with his friends in the same bus and Nishtha and other girls were in second bus. These boy’s made some dirty jokes on Nishtha and the boy abused her. I was shocked how can he said that she treats him like her brother. If I had also a group of 4-5 boys I definitely break his mouth for that dirty comments on her.I thought if they were modern I don’t want to be modern. Our little town is far better than the city. I apologise that everyone comments on there classmates but if we called her sister we can’t do that. I never discussed her about that with her because she believed him maybe she took me wrong and stop talking with me. The syllabus was almost over from institute side then pre board examination. After that they leave us for self study.