"I'll give you my everything, am sorry forgive me , I don't know what I am right now, I just keep on getting crazy over you again and again ", he just scream inside only, he try his best to say it our but it was not coming out, his throat was stuck like there's something he wants to shallow but can't possibly,

How long has it been ? He check the time , it's more than 2 hours 10 mins. He just lean back and relax trying to make himself busy in something, time was short but it keeps occuring inside him again and again, what will he say to make her feel better everytime they speak? Busy thinking inside him, while rolling his back.

"Hello, can you hear me ?", I could hear the people speaking in busy manner but there was no reply, "I love you", that was all I could say I try to find something to express how it was like but I just love you what should I say more ?,

Unconditional love, a love for no matter what, a love without any expectations, This is not True LOVE,

True LOVE have expectations to love back, True love will demand you, they'll crave for something from you.

I open my phone, it is 6 PM, I check the chats and started to leave everything one by one, there was no any other things in my mind, all I could think was, at this time nothing can stop me , I'll give my everything to strike forward, no any media and games will hinder me again, i open the last chat to say Goodbye, I did but I can't leave that chat for some reason I don't know, I keep feeling like there was something calling me to discover something new , "hi , we'll never see again I'm leaving Goodbye take care", "hey where are you going? what happened? tell me", "nothing, am just tired " ,I was still in stiff and muddle, "can u stay for me ?, can you please?, can we talk longer?",

I don't know for some reason I just suddenly come to my sharp and clean sense, a feelings that I never did before, I ask myself, "what happened to you?" I don't know either, Ya but it was real, slowly the night end in that way where I sleep peacefully, I feel like something is waiting for me far away always, everything was like a noddles I have to arrange in my mind and I wake up, I grapes my phone and I saw "Good morning, Did you sleep well?" ,"Ya I did , How about you? Did you sleep well?" , "Ya I did" she replied, something was drawling inside me like a spark that wanna burn and light up so much, I tell myself is this perfect morning? I giggled inside I don't know, maybe for today, I smile. I place my stuffs together and left for my class, a good day indeed I smile alot , So what am I going to do now ? I still got time for the next class, I open the chat I saw "where are you " , "nothing, just sitting " , I was happy smiling, I just supposed she was smiling secretly too, I don't know what I actually say either, because I was laughing like idiot until my friend bang ma shoulder and say"it's time for class" , I reply"Bye gotta go, see ya",

"what did u do today, going anywhere?" ,she said"No," , "so you just stay inside your room?", "Yeah just inside my home all day" , "If you keep staying inside your room without going out, you'll be like a poultry " , "nah ,am not am very healthy and strong "she said, I laugh alone secretly, 'okay I'm sleeping early, Goodnight" I left, I don't know, maybe she feel I was so cold like ice, I was just doesn't know how to be sweet.

I wake early it was a fresh morning, "hay wake up, it's morning already, are u still on bed ?,Good morning, " I was kinda circustic , " ya I've wake up already 🙊," , "sorry I was too 🤣🤣🤣" , "no it's okay I like it", "really?" , "Yes 🙊" , she said,

"olive oil, do u want?" I was teasing her to light up abit, "Ya I've heard this before", I said "okay 🤣🤣"

suddenly, there was a silent, like waiting for each other to speak first " you talk fun, you look so sweet"she finally said, she was trying to say something about something she feel inside, but for some reason it was holding back inside her secretly, she try her best to make it more obvious, to get close.

I've never feel it, I don't know what was going on, " am I really sweet? I know you're praising me" I was casual, I asked her" how does it feel like to be the only child?" , "nothing, just I don't know 🙊" ."okay".

I still feel very fresh in my mind how badly I feel myself after leaving the room, swearing it should be the end of that. I was thinking back again, but trying to put out of my mind I try to forget about it.

I keep thinking, why was she so much praising me suddenly, I rub ma hairs while thinking, my phone ring, it was her, and suddenly I forget what I was thinking about it , like there was something magical in her everytime she appear there was something different I can't avoid, I was trying to understand the deep inside of it , but I know I'll never be able to, I was just wondering. "how are you today?" she ask, "nothing, just same always" in boring tone , she was so much energetic and enthusiastic that morning like there was something exciting, I can feel in her words and sounds , I just feel she eat breakfast well so she was happy,

But I don't know, things happen out of my expectations and everything was running above my head,

checkout what was going on ? why is there's different excitement?, next chapter