It's getting colder" she said while taking a sip of the green tea. Her black silky curtain bangs were covering her jetblack eyes while she was looking outside.

"you've changed a lot in this short time,Ella. I still remember how you were back then. So when'll you start talking about it?-(I said)

She smirked.

"After all why're you so curious? people changes, it's natural. You changed too, close the window for me will you?"(ella)

"Say it all from the beginning, Changing the subject won't help. Start all of it from your birth as much as you remember. I want to hear it all as if I'm reading a history book"(me)

she snickered a Little

"isn't history book boring sometimes? it'll make you Sleepy "(ella)

"yes I'll sleep and read it again until i finish it"(me)

She smiled a little and tucked her short bangs behind the ear. I could see her eyes clearly now. she looked

desperate yet afraid. Like she wants to pour a lot again gulping it back at the same time .

"give me your cup, I'm coming after washing it"

after 10 minutes silence she exhaled and opened her mouth " just a common last question Are you sure you won't regret it? "

"A common yet true answer 'NEVER"(me)

"my birth-, you already know when i was born, I don't.... really remember much from my childhood but i was.... slightly different from other children back then. it's common for a newborn to cry which I didn't more like I never cried even if i got hurt or anything until the age of 1. After then i only cried cus i didn't wanna eat anything other then ****** milk . i was beaten a lot cus of it. My family had financial problems and they were super super strict and relegious. My big sis was kinda dumb then so she got beaten a lot for studies. you can call it child abuse but it's not.

And I was a neat freak and a pure language function Haha. like no one literally no one not even the president could say a bad or misspelled word in front of me or else i would kick them out of the room or do some direct insult LOL. anyway at the age of 2 a report came that my anal fistula was completely damaged and it spread a lot so some other functions inside my stomach were also damaged. Back in my days it was life threatening. After contacting Hundreds people and wasting time street to street dad managed to find a doctor who wanted to take the risk . He was the most prettiest and gentle doctor I've ever seen in this lifetime. My parents went crazy for me then. Thankfully my operation was a success.It took me a whole year to become stable completely.Since they had to replace my damaged parts with some sort of metal or I dunno, the side affects still remains until today. I started school at 5 direct class 1. I was a bright kid and always placed first in every competition and studies. Although some adults used to badmouth me for the operation and kids used to bully me but I didn't bother, since i got what i needed.

But somehow my personality changed a bit and I became like other girls. I liked gossiping and breaking others friendships. changing 'besties' one after another.

I was accually.....desperate to make friends, to keep one i ended up destroying other. If one rejected me I went to another one and always smiling. I was still the top girl. Being a topper isn't always amazing either. You have to deal with nasty rumours like-'She must've got the solutions, damn she's so good at cheating, her dad's a teacher no wonder she's first place, how does she study with her anal problems, who cares if a cheater got first place, the teachers must've pitied her' and so on. And soon at the age of 12 My first worst day of life came. I made a boyfriend. Yes i know it's ridiculous cus i was so small. I still regret it. He was a guy literally 90% of the girls had a crush on and my mom's fav, cus he was the top of boy section and i was the top of girl section.

but he proposed me one day! I fell from the sky but my immature mind accepted him immediately. He started writing me letters. Sadly I read his third letter in the washroom and placed it one the tissue box and forgot to bring it with me. And MY DAD JUST HAD TO GO THE WASHROOM RIGHT AFTER ME!!!! **pls kill me** it was the Letter where he asked me if he could touch my hand and other topics. like i said before my parents were super super strict. the house blew up that day . I lost all my privacy, dad tore some of my books , made me stop going to school , no one talked with me , no tution FOR A WHOLE DAMN WEEK!!

everyday was like hell...to me!

/Ella's POV/

Age 13 class 7-

"ok I'm ready, let's not mess up!! You got this Ella!!"

she said while looking at the mirror after getting ready for school. She knew she'll have to answer a lot of questions today!! And she's ready for all of it!

"mom, I'm going to school!"(ella)

"take jimmy with you, you're not allowed to go alone"(mom)

"what? but she goes to school late and I have works to do, I won't do a-" (ella)

her mom cut her off and said"stop going to school if you're not going with her"

"...ok I'll wait" ella said while she licked and pressed her lower lip.

she and Jimmy went to school. They're in different sections. As soon as Ella entered the school a girl jumped and Hugged her from behind.

Heeyyyy!!!! you're late ellaa...You know i have a lot to talk to you!!"

"heyy!! let's go to class first anna, I didn't do my board jod today."

She entered the classroom and everyone seemed to be whispering. "Did something happen?? is there a C.T today that i forgot?" (ella)

"something happened in your bathroom right?? why were you absent for 1 week?"(Anna)

"ah!! I see! but how did everyone get the news?"(ella)

"I know my friend's pretty famous but how could you force him to be your boyfriend? that was unexpected"(anna)

"w-what??? r u crazy? nothing like that happened. Jeez how many times should i explain??"(ella)

"c'mon we're friends..no secrets between us, why're you denying?"(anna)

"oh yeah! my own parents didn't even believe me. Why the heck will you believe?"(ella)

"what's there to get angry? You're ridiculous you know. Just cus you had some boy doesn't mean you're a star"saying this Anna stormed off.

"I-what? what did i even say?"(ella)

and this story kept ongoing in school for A month. And then the situation calmed down!

At Home Friday-

"ella,Good news our visa got accepted...!! We're going to *SA* for 2 months"(mom)

"Woooowww!! Mom you've always dreamt to go there...!!!" ella said with all the excitement she had!!

"you don't have to worry you'll stay with your aunts in the capital, you'll have a good time!!"(mom)

"really???" She said while her jet black eyes were shining with happiness.

Ella was raised alone with only mom and dad. She never had a chance to be among family! never talked with them! Her sis was sent to capital so she was never with her sister either since they have a huge age gap! Hearing her mom's words She started planning what she should do to make her aunts pleased. She got too excited to sleep! And her sis was also there!

The day of The departure /in the capital/-

"it's only for 2 months ella don't cry you pathetic brat hold it!!! don't cry, don't cry!! your mom's going to an amazing place! stop it you stupid head" Ella thought to herself while she watched her mom and dad taking their leave!

After they left Ella took a deep breath and said with encouraging look" Yess!! now let's move to the next part!! I'm looking forward to these 60 days!!!"

Little did she know this was her another part of life to know more about reality!!

Bright sunray touches ella's soft skin. She opens her eyes with confusion.

"Oh! it's not my room! hmmm....should I sleep a little more?" ella murmured. Then she suddenly jumped up from bed and went to wash up!

"ummm...Aunt what're you doing? Is noah still sleeping?"

" Ahh!! you're up? yea he'll be up after a while. Breakfast is on the table"(aunt Simi)

Ella is currently with her 3rd Aunt simi and noah is her 4 year boy. Her husband is in USA.

the first week went smoothly. Breakfast,eat,shower, feed noah, play with him, study ,eat,sleep. But Ella suddenly started feeling uncomfortable. Then one of her cousin came to visit.

"So How do u feel here ella?" (cousin sara)

"it's good here but i wish all of you were here today"(ella)

"You don't even talk that much How'll you feel

happy?"(simi)

"no... it's cus it's my first time..if everyone's here it'll be different situation"(ella)

"I'll ask mom to come next week if she's free. Has Noah gotten free with you?"(sara)

"yeah she takes good care of Noah . He likes her too"(Simi)

Cousin Sara left that day cus of work!!

the next day afternoon-

after 2 hour wrestling with Noah Ella managed to put him to sleep! It's pretty tough to feed Noah cus He spits food from mouth and doesn't wanna eat.

"Aunt, let Noah sleep in my room. He'll be awake if u move him". Ella said while she sat behind Noah.

"sure"

in the soft sunlight ella was reading a book and watching after Noah but suddenly Noah just jumped and rolled over from bed and fell down on floor with his eyes closed. There was a huge sound. It happened in a second. Ella was too shocked to do anything. Noah Started screaming in a High pitched voice and ella ran and took him in her arms but her Aunt rushed here to ella and snatched Noah saying-

"you motherfu*ker, useless bi*ch Where were your eyes???"

"huh?I- oh! wha-" she was wayy too shocked her mind stopped working with these incidents and words. that was her first time hearing swear words. she was confused about what she felt then but one thing was sure she wanted to go home!

Present Ella-

I know i was pathetic back then. But it felt too much since it was my first time hearing those words while i was already feeling uncomfortable. and you know I never knew how to handle kids, taking care of them by myself is far from it. Still I tried my best. and Noah is really hard to handle. so i was having mixed thoughts then. I felt like a burden.

"your own aunt swore at you??!Did she apologize?? You didn't leave that place?" (me)

"well no.... after a hour when Noah got better She said look, i loose my mind i get angry i don't know what I said Just forget it don't mind it... and I said it's fine.. Then luckily next day my 2nd aunt came and took me to her place. But after that I just couldn't open up to them as I thought I could and it became a hassle later. They started calling me uncultured, unsocial person. Well it is true. LOL.And then I overheard their phn conversation" Ella said when sge sighed.

"My 2nd aunt was saying to my 4th aunt How does big sis takes care of that girl? She's so picky and doesn't even talk. This is hard. Isn't that quite a burden?

Ahh! after hearing this I thought to myself thanks for removing my confusion." ella said while her jet black eyes got watery as she was remembering all those feelings again while telling me!

"That night I kept saying to myself, mom! I love you I miss you I'll be good pls come back and take me! My heart hurts pls come back quickly, I'll be good. I miss you mom ,I miss you, I miss you"

"After all these days my sis came to meet me . she used to live with my 4th aunt then. I couldn't share everything since we weren't that close but she could tell i wasn't comfortable so after all the asking i told her that aunt swore at me and she said to forget it cus i might've heard wrong. so I didn't aay much about it.

and then she left for her tour. After spending 2 months there I came to a conclusion that family members are the most dangerous poison. At least in my case, of course not everyone is same some family love is so pure and warming. But my 13 years self thought there's nothing called family love. The first "family love" i faced still is traumatic to me." ella said with a smile.

" then My mom and dad came back she hugged me tight and i Hugged her tightly and didn't wanna let go

i felt like I could breath again..Then i came back to my home, my room and slept peacefully after strolling for 32 days and counting hours and Shedding tears"