Why is it so hard just to walk away from the thing I love most it still feels so right like I belong with him. yet I still feel like what I'm feeling is a faze that will pass bye! that maybe what I'm feeling isn't love at all but only...caring for this person in another way, no that can't be it other wise how do you explaine this feeling I have for him every time he walks through that door it's like lighting hits me so hard I can barely walk, or that feeling when I see him with another girl how happy he is..... it just makes me ache inside. ohhhh what am I gonna do about this "ecci".I mean do I just walk away every time you go to speak or ignore you when you walk my way how do I fight this......I guess ill have to figure that out my self."either way it's me who's in love with you.!!!! " the next day" 'the door opens' "ecci" hey wake up natszu your gonna be late for class..."natszu" alright alright I'm up chill!!!. ' walking in the kitchen'. "ecci" hey sleepy bird come eat breakfast before you go."natszu" nahhh not hungry.' ecci suddenly forces me to sit'."ecci" not an option. "natszu" heyyy there's no need for force ' sarcastic say '. "ecci" yeah well you need to comply it's for your own good. "natszu" yeah yeah, hey aren't you supposed to be at work early.."ecci" oh snap your right gotta go...if I'm not back tonight just order takeout k."natszu" hey wait......."ecci" alright bye.' door slams shut'. "natszu" have a nice day..........' sighs'."natszu" oh crap I'm late..' leaves the apartment running' " natszu" ohhh I hope I make it.!!! ' made it to shcool bell rings ' "natszu" I wonder what ecci is doing...' two hours later at home'. "natszu" guess I'm ordering takeout...' sighs'. ' keys opening the lock'. "ecci" hey they let me out early how was your day..' wow he came early'..' a bit surprised'."natszu" hey your back early my day was samo what about yours."ecci" it was like always , very busy."natszu" hey I ordered takeout and some beer so don't bother cooking."ecci" cool alright let me change". ' knocks at the door'."natszu" takeouts here.'ecci sits on the couch ohh yeah let's dig in.' after a few beers and food '. "natszu" ' well ecci drank more then me from a tough day at work."natszu" ok cow boy you've had enough."ecci" who said that......I neaver said that."natszu" alright your done.' ecci comes closer '. "ecci" hey..........your very pretty. ' can't help but blush' ."natszu" your just saying that cuz your drunk.' he comes closer and closer until our noses are just about touching."ecci" NO I'm not.' natszu knows hes drunk so she doesn't pay attention' oh what to do......

I can feel he's breath on my face it's so warm and safe..."ecci" ' backs away and gets up to go to bed'."ecci" ughhh to much to drink good night."natszu" And just like that he was gone.

' The next day'. "ecci" hey I'm going out for a run ill see you later."natszu" ' And before I can even say a word....he's gone.' "natszu" I wonder if he remembers what happened last night... probably not he was to drunk anyway.' gets up and makes breakfast,"natszu" ohh a text from Lea... hey I was going to the cafe wanna come' hmmm ' ecci is out for a run and I'm pretty sure he's not coming back till later..sooo.. I guess I'll go. ' replys back' sure I'll come! ' 30 minutes later.. ' at the cafe with lea ' "Lea" so how's it going at home with ecci."natszu" it's.... alright I guess."Lea" what do you mean....OMG did you tell ecci you liked him.' I told Lea a while ago I like ecci were Best friends'."natszu" ohh heck no...it's just something werid happened last night. "Lea" what do you mean wried."natszu" well we sorda drank a fewww beers yeaterday....

"Lea" OMG is everything alright did ecci get arrested......"natszu" OMG noooo."Lea" ok then wat happened.

"natszu" well after we drank a few beers....well I'll say I drank a few beer ecci on the other hand had one too many."Lea" wait what so what happened next."natszu" welllll...

ecci was a little drunk and he came closer to me as we were sitting on the couch and then he called me "very pretty" witch obviously I said he was too drunk to Know what he was saying and then all of a sudden he said " No I'm not" ."Lea" OMG that is major Serious so what happened ather that."natszu" well after that he kinda snapped out of it and got up and walked away..."Lea" WOW that's crazy."natszu" yea tell me about and the the next day come and he's up early telling me he's going for a run and just left."Lea" wow that's some real horse crap right there wait...do you think he remembers what happened last night!!."natszu" I thought so too but then don't you think he would I least talked me to me.....!"Lea" yeah maybe or hes just to nervous to even look at you."natszu" mmm ' phone buzzes ' oh snap gotta go back before it gets any later see ya."lea" byeee. ' arrived at the house and unlocking the door.

"natszu" hello is anybody home ecciii.....' you find ecci sitting on the couch with his head down."natszu" hey is everything ok."ecci" no response..... 'silence'. ecci gets up and walks past me and says I'll be back if I'm not order something...' And there he goes once again.....

' A few hours later it's about nine and ecci still has not returned I'm so worried I can't even think straight I hope he's ok..." suddenly ecci walks through the door with a smile on his face'."ecci" heyy your still up why aren't you in bed?."natszu" HOW CAN I SLEEP WHEN I KNOW YOUR OUT THER DOING WHO KNOWS WHAT.!!! "ecci" relax I just went for a walk to clear my head ' then he gently Pat's my head '."natszu" we need to talk!."ecci" yes I suppose we do. ' he sit's right across from me and just stared at me.................

"ecci" What happened last night shouldve neaver happened and I apologize I had to much to drink and I had no idea what I was doing luckily it didn't get to far...

'suddenly you feel a little hurt even though you know that you shouldve expected the answer that you don't want to hear but have no other choice too."natszu" its.... alright you didn't do anything worng I know you were under the influence of alcohol and you would neaver do anything to hurt me."ecci" of course not we are best friends since middle School nothing is going to change that ever.....

' I know.... you won't let me forget it."natszu" of course nothing will ever happen," After all we are only freinds...

〰️ "The next day". ' I guess you can say things went back to normal...I mean we practically act liked it neaver happened we continued the same routine like any other day but some part of me wished that he would of said something else anything else. sometimes I feel that if we were in another world another time where we weren't so close like freinds would he want me would he want to hold me in his arm like he does to all the other women........I guess I'll neaver know. " Sunday morning me and ecci are having breakfast together like a couple would. I guess I'm the only one that thinks that..

"ecci" hey how about we go to the mall later to go get you some new clothes how does that sound."natszu" that sounds like a plan just let me change my clothes."ecci" alright I'll be outside waiting.' Part of you wants him to say but the other part knows that wouldn't be a good idea."natszu" alright". About 25 min later you and ecci are on your way to the mall when all of a sudden the car stops."natszu" what's wrong are we out of gas, " ' but then you see ecci starring at this tall beautiful women with long blonde hair walking on the side of the road then all of a sudden ecci says."oh I just see an of friend I'm gonna say hi.."natszu" And with a lower breath you say..."And I'm guessing it's her.! and too your luck it was......... wow lucky me!