it was the fourth class of the day and i was already ready to go home ...

I look at the bored faces of my classmates ...they remind me of zombies. .

I lay my head down ...and face towards the Window ...

ahh it was raining ...recently bts RM had released a new song ...RAIN....

slowly drifting away into a my cotton world I drift into a daydream ...

I see a man running towards somewhere ...he ran and ran and ran and ran ...he kept running ...

but after a short while he stoped ...he looked back towards me and mouthed ..I can't. .

then he crumbled into dust ...and was blown away by a strong wind ...

no trace was left ....he had vanished and all the distance he ran was useless now ...

(

I concluded ....

We are never able to move forward alone

even if we reach to some extent there will come a time where we will need something to hold on

**Someone to look up to ...someone to express our love ..someone to cherish ..someone to hold dear to ..

SOMEONE WHO CAN GIVE US THE PUSH FORWARD**. .

but that someone cannot be predicted or arranged ..we cant be certain where they stand in our life

it can be anyone ....ANYONE

LIKE A CRYSTAL SNOW ....if u catch it it melts in your warmth and cant be restored ...but you can always enjoy its company ..the beauty of the cold ...its unique appearance and structure ..all different but still the same ..

like us in the world ...

we r all basically humans but we r categorize by our apperance  ...race ..cast ..culture ...color ..tradition. .

these are nothing but stumbling blocks for the growth of humanity ..

its been a long day for all of us ...

this world is not what is used to be .....BUT WHAT CAN WE DO WE ARE ALL TOO STUCK IN OUR OWN WORLD THAT WE DONT SEE THE REAL WORLD ..

I FOUND A NEW LIGHT TO HOLD ONTO AND I CLING TO IT WITH ALL MY MIGHT ..AFRAID TO LOSE IT IN THIS HARSH WORLD ..

I KEEP IT CLOSE TO MY HEART ...BUT NOT TOO CLOSE ..

A DREAM ..

it wasn't the kind of dream you would see while sleeping ....

it was different ..it felt warm ..it was comforting ..full of compassion and love..it was ...a DREAM ..

it felt so real ..it was amazing ...fabulous ...extraordinary

it was my dream ..mine ...

there were 7 shining stars ..all twinkling in the purple ocean ..

there were people every where ..crying as the stars sang

"Oh crystal snow

Crystal snow

On the page where you pass me by

You begin to melt away slowly

Falling and falling and falling deep

Into my heart just like rain

(it sings to me)

Shining like diamonds in the sky

It's hard to look away from you

So don't you say goodbye

I'll wait for you

Wherever I may go

Even dreams miss you so

Take my hand and let me know"

_________________________^____^____BTS- crystal snow

just that one song was enough for me to melt into the blissful event ....I stood there mesmerized ...

they were beautiful...graceful ...humble ...kind .....their songs were my guidance ....

they lit a path for us ...that made all darkness disappear ...

maybe it was god who led me to them ...when people near me could not feel my pain ...

they came to my rescue .....when people surrounding me could not relate to me ...

they stood out there in open arms .....their song embraced my wounded heart..

they out shined any light ..

they were our stars ..our precious stars ...

my precious star ..

their songs and its lyrics were everything to me ....it gave me a feeling of *HOME..

IT MADE ME BEGIN***

I woke up at the sound of my alarm buzzing

*buzzzzzz...buzzzzzz*

I take my time tossing and turning  in my bed ....I am really not a morning person

*sigh* ...

It takes me 15 mins to untangle myself from my blankets  ..

(I keep at most 3 blankets  by my side at night )*weird habit*😑😑

I get up from my bed and drag myself towards my bathroom ..

Slamming  the door open I rush to get fresh ..

Ughhh I really hate morning .. I spent hours trying to find the best pic of my favorite kpop group ...BTS..recently  they had a photo shoot  and the pics were out yesterday at midnight ...

I stayed awake till midnight and another 3 hours updating  and uploading their pics in my fan group ...

I snap out of my thought as a foul smell stings my nose ....

I turn my head to find my big sister on the floor clinging  to a bottle of alcohol

*-*.... she had puked everywhere ......ewwwww ....😨😓

When did she invade my bathroom ...

My sister and I ......we are total enemies or so we like to call our self ... our room is our military base

I can't take the smell any more and I rush out of the bathroom to my parents room ..

. I take my time to use their bathroom and come out after a long warm shower

I feel light ..^-^ ..

I don't wanna go to my room so I pick one of my mom's dress and pull it over my body .. I blow dry my hair  and walk out of their room to find mom in the kitchen and dad exercising .....

My mom is really sweet and loves to cook ...

Well my dad is a muscle maniac .. 😓

I also have a brother who works in Japan ...

" mom.. sis  came home drunk again ... she puked all over my bathroom .."I complain  ..

" whattt ...?... is she ok?... is she dressed properly? ..." mom questions  worriedly hurrying towards my room ..

My room is in second floor so I can hear mom's slipper stomping in the stairs  ... the thing about my mom is she look and talks like an angle but once u do something wrong u will see that she says something and does something else

I see my dad flinching  to my mom's foot steps .. I take a piece of toast and start munching on it ..

I make my way to my dad's  personal gym area and start doing some stretching ..

"U know u should cutting ur sis some slack ... she has a very busy and burdensome  job" my dad says

" lol.. dad don't u thing she should cut  meeeee some slack ..." I say raising my eye brows .. reminding him of how she had shaved off my eye brows last month ..

" u girls ...better start to get along or I will have to send u both to aunt's villa together " he says pulling on a bit of irritated  look ...

I hear mom dragging my sis from my room towards the front door  .....I can see that my sis is starting to wake up ....

" this girl better get some cool air before coming in again " my mom says while dragging my sis by her feet and pushing her in the pool ..

My dad seem a bit scared  and goes to his room to get ready for office ..

"MOMMMMM wth ...." My sis screams

" young lady u better mind ur language  ...u r only allowed to come in if u are ready to confess what happened and say sorry " with that my mom returns back to her work ..

I hurry up stairs to get ready for my school ..

I am still a bit sleepy but guess mom  isn't gonna let me stay home ...

I change my dress and quickly  run to eat my breakfast ...

I grab 2 protein bars and 2 toast with jam ..

" bye mom .. bye dad .. Imma go now ..I kiss my mom goodbye and do a fist bump with my dad ...I quickly look out side and see my sister floating in the pool ...

I grab a bottle of mango juice and head towards the pool ..

" dad said we needed to get along if we don't wanna end up in aunt's villa " I say giving her the juice ..

" whatever .... heading to school? ... want me to drop  u ?..." she ask

"Nah .. u take too much time  to get ready ... better head back in and say sorry soon ...u know  mom  isn't  really in the mood to call u in right now " I say

"I know just trying to cool Down ..."she says while sighing  heavely. .

" is ur work too hard on ya ? u know u can always take over the family business " I say

"Hahaha ,..as if I ever would ... I don't wanna deal with those old perverted board members .." she says

" fine ..Imma head out.. see ya " I head toward the main gate right after saying that ..

" u know I saw u in the arcades  ... better stop going there .. bad boys means heap of troubles .." she says half warning and half threatening  me ..

I wave her goodbye and head out ...